#Shivika #SS-------- THE NIGHT IN JUNGLE [part11,12- page9 10/12/17] - Page 3

Originally posted by: thisissmansi

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So let's begin pals. And I'm really sorry for being so late. That too two months. I'm really sorry guys.

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Confession

He was so happy now. That he loves her. Yes he loves her. He can't survive without her. If he is the body , then she has become his soul. She is the color of his life.
"Oh! How much I love her. Now I won't let her go away. Never. She is mine"
He exclaimed.
But unfortunately it was loud enough for Annika to hear.
And...
She thought the "she" he was talking about is Tia.
And this hurt her so much that she cried. But more than she felt used. And it angered her. That she like an emotional fool let Shivaay use her for his desires. And now he'll see her just like another girl who just fell for his charm and money and let her to be used by him.
" what a fool I am?"
She shouted which broke Shivaay's beautiful bubble of love. And he looked at him dumbfounded.
"What Annika?"
He asked confused but instead of answering she glared at him and then turned opposite sniffing.

Shivaay, who was so confused by now went to her and kept his hand on her shoulder. Which she shoved away instantly and turned towards him frowning.
"What?"
She asked in an agitated tone.
Shivaay was more confused now.
"What happened to you Annika? Are you fine?"
"You realized Your love right now right Bi..I mean Shivaay?"
She asked her with a look of pain& hurt towards him.
He was getting more confused now.
How does she know that I love her?! And moreover why is she hurt?
"Yeah..why?"
He answered the 1st part smiling dreamily but last with a slight hesitation.
"If you are in love then why you used me?"
Now he was going insane.
And he stared at her. As he was just clueless of what she was talking about. When he used him?
"What do you mean by I used you?" He asked completely shocked and angry that she could think such low about her, "Do you know what does the term 'use' mean?" he asked in a low yet stern tone looking straight at her hazel eyes which was blazing fire right now air quoting the word use.

And she mocked a laugh crying.

She was hurt.

"You didn't use me right Mr. Oberoi? Then what was that which you did sometime back. Those kisses, and that" she took a pause... "intimacy... weren't you using me?" she asked looking into his eyes full of hurt, pain, and anger. And more than that, with accusation, accusation of using her, to satisfy his lust. And that was the thing hurting him the most. Does she feel so low of him? So low that he can use her just..just to fulfill his lust? Does she think him to be a womanizer? A sexist? But he isn't...and he would make her understand that...

"You really feel I used you Annika?" He asked looking at her eyes with a pleading look.

And she nodded.

"Why do you feel so Annika?" he asked again.

And she chuckled. A blank mocking one piercing his heart, hurting the new found feeling more.

"Do I need to tell you that? Again?"

"Yes, you do. You have accused me for something I would never do in my worst nightmare even. To use a girl, that too you. So please explain the reason."

His meaning behind 'a girl, that too you' was to mean that he can't use whom he love, but she misunderstood, again. She thought he is ashamed to even use a middle class girl like her.

"Girl like me right? Then what you were trying to do when you were doing all this with me and then accepting your feelings for Tia?" she finished shouting.. "actually I'm a fool to..."

"Hold on Annika, hold on..." He cut her in between, "that confession wasn't for Tia, It was for..."

"for me?"

"Yes, Annika, It was for you..."... He said holding her shoulders in a firm grip smiling which was answered by her mocking laugh again.

"Oh really? You Mr. Shivaay Singh Oberoi, loves me? A road side trash, a no blood line lineage creep, who is so low that You sight can't even reach me? You said all this remember? So why this sudden change in your behavior? Have you left your inseparable 'theories' which were like another organ in your body? Cause how far I remember I'm a middle class girl even now, so far from your eye sight can reach and no high profile people with a hefty amount of bang balance and amazing background has appeared claiming me as their long lost daughter here, yet. So why you think so?" She shouted all of it spitting fire through her voice as well as eyes towards him which pained him too much.

Broke every part of his heart till a point that is making it tough to breath for him.

But he knew he deserves this. All of these she said till now. He has accused of all this in the past without no fault from her side whereas the fault was his, his wrong thinking process, and his disgusting beliefs. And now it all are coming back to him, with interest and that too at a time when he realized his unconditional love for the girl, spitting fire at him. The girl he realized to be her breath and peace is now making him stand face to face with the most bitter truth of his life.

That he has hurted the same girl he loved all this time. He has broken her through his words and actions too much that his confession is seeming fake to her.

How foul game his fate is playing with him.

His thoughts came to an end by her voice. He was looking down in shame, hurt and in utter pain. But her next words broke him more.

"Oh now I see Mr. Oberoi, you are saying all this cause you did this with me and if I reveal it someone else it will cause a black mark in your reputation as I'm a middle class bug where you prefer high class chicks yeah?" She stated in a mocking tone, which was no doubt a big blow on his self respect.

How dare she say it? What she thinks of him? That he uses girls for his desires? What he means he prefer high class chicks? How can she think so? May be he did hurt her but when she saw him doing such things with any girl. For God's shake he has never touched a girl, actually let touch be alone he has never seen a girl in such way unless Annika and that too before today. He was attracted but never thought like this. He never been in such way with Tia too, even after being commited. And here, she is accusing him for using girls for his own desires.

May be he loves her, but that doesn't give her the right to speak nonsense about him, specially his character.

"What you said? I use girls right? To fulfill my desires..."

"Yes"

"You know the meaning of desire right?"

"Y..yes.."

"And you said I tried to do the same with you. Isn't it annika?"

He roared so loud that she flinched and was able to return a nod only.

"Speak in words damn it.'" He roared.

"Ye...yes..."

"Then do you think it was done?"

And she was shocked and scared seeing her smirk.

"What the he...hell you me..mean Shivaay? I'm no..." She asked scared of the upcoming event. Though she tried to be stern but she fumbled clearly showing her fear. And she moved back, and Shivaay moved forward. Like this She reached cave wall. She was sandwitched between cave wall at the back and shivaay at her front. She started sweating. He moved closer to her, blowing her hot breath near her ear he spoke...

"You said I used you but no, Annika you'll be last one I would think about just using. Cause I can't. And about other girls, I have never been this close and attracted towards any girl, even Tia. I never felt this things called desires to be fulfilled at any cost even if it means using them in my worst night mare, as you called. I was always determined to these with only one girl. My wife. No one else." He took a deep breath..

" And you are first girl I felt this much emotional for, I was dragged this much that my resistant was broken just in a matter of seconds. It's not like no girl was with me alone, with no third party present there, but trust me I never did something like this. But you made me like this. And I know you won't trust me nor my words, but I never used you. It was my hidden feelings which I tried to suppress in me from I don't know how long and definetly unknown to me. I felt it from my heart and so I did it. And I don't regret it whatever the circumstance is. And if you ask, I will more than love to do this , all of these to do, to feel, and repeat till I breath my last. Again and again. No regret. Cause doing this with you made me feel so alive like never before. I felt that alive , just not my body but my soul participated with your every touch every breath, every moan. Your breath is still lingering on my skin Annika. I can think nothing but you, feel nothing but you, and crave nothing but You Annika. And I don't lie. Shivaay Singh Oberoi never lies. Your Billu Ji never lies. And whatever you heard it was for you and only you. No one else. From today there'll be no girl in my life without you Annika. Not even your biggest draw back Tia. Not after I realize my feelings for you. And just as you heard I love you. I love you so much. That I can't make you uncomfortable with my behavior or my feelings. And I won't you force you for anything.

I know I have hurt you thousands of times through my words or my actions but I was hurt myself every I hurted you. I know you need time to accept me or may be you never would," he said with hurt clearly visible from his voice... "but I would respect your decision. But do me just one favour, don't think me the way you think of me. I didn't know you think of me to be a womanizer." He enhaled a long ,

"Who uses a girl just cause he has money, to fulfill his desires, cause I'm not like that. I'm hurt that even after seeing me this long you have come to this conclusion about me, but trust me Annika you are the first girl I touch in need, in a intention of loving her, feeling her in me and caging her to me. And the way I felt, I don't think I can ever be with any one else other than you even you reject me.

Please don't think me as a man I'm not, and I hate to be. Please." He finished looking down, in a low dejected tone, with teary eyes.

Then he moved away from her slowly taking all of Annika with him and went away from her to the farthest corner of the cave that Annika won't feel uncomfortable again, because of him.

And who was standing there shocked, shaken by the sudden confession started crying without her own knowledge, her nyctofobia long forgotten.

A deadly sound prevailed the cave just the sound of rain drops could be heard. The fire they lit was almost dead till now and to dejected souls seating at the farthest corner of the cave thinking about today's events...

So this part comes to an end. Please vote and comment till I come with the next part. your comments are the thing that inspires me to write.so plz comment. and it's a more than 2000 words update. I deserve comments yr. So please comment.

Signing off,

Pri...

Sorry 4 being so late guys...really sorry.

lets move to the story...

Annika's P.O.V.

What the hell is happening? He has kissed me. He has touched me. He was so close to me like no one before. And I... I didn't even try to stop him. Didn't protest him when he was doing those things to me. Instead I was feeling good. I was feeling contented when he was doing it. His eyes was sprakling. Sparkling with a weird emotion I have never seen before in his eyes. His colorful eyes were looking more colorful. Anddd I was drowning in them, in the depth of those blue-green eyes.

But why? Why should I feel like that? Why should I feel good in his touches? Why should I enjoy this feeling of being close to him? Why should I allow him to have this physical intimacy with me? No, I can't. I won't. Why should I? I should push him. He is my boss and nothing else.

And...I pushed him with all my might.

He was shocked but it doesn't matter. Why should it? It should be me who can be shocked by this out of the blue intimacy and he is shocked that I pushed him? The guts of this man?

And I started blabbering in my mind, like I always do.

But to my amazingly awesome fortune, he heard it.

I think not just my mouth but even my mind has its own tongue.

And he is staring at me with his big big eyes. As if I am an alien. And then, he started blabbering too, like me. He was angry, sad, may be like me for loosing the self control just like that and I started blushing on the memory of what just happened.

But the thing I heard next broke my heart into pieces.

"She is a wedding planner in mine and Tia's wedding. And here... how can I do this? Now what she'll think about this? And what about the marriage? I'll be married in few days and she won't be there to irritate me...

I couldn't hear more. It's aching. It's hurting mu heart. A lot... beyond I can imagine ever.

So he thinks I'll irritate him regarding this? He is ashamed of what happened between us? He is ashamed. He is right. I am just a wedding planner, and he is the Shivaay Singh Oberoi.He was How he will be at ease after all this? I'm just nowhere near him. And he has made this clear so many times till now. I then I heard him shouting saying...

"Yes I love her. I am in love in her. I am in love with her. I will confess it to as soon as I reach Oberoi Mansion. I can't wait. God... I can't tell you how much I love her. Om was right it is amazing to be in love. I'll make it special, so special that she'll forget everything. Oh God.

He was screaming like a mad man. A person who realized his feelings after a long time. So, he is in love. And it has to be Tia then. Lucky girl, that her would be husband loves her so much. And I smiled.

Then the realization hit me. He loves Tia, his fianc. And he got intimate with me, his wedding planner. Why? Why the hell he did that? Here he was kissing me few moments back, and now screaming in love with Tia and planning a grand proposal for her. Planning to speak it to Om. And I was happy, happy to be close with him. To be intimate with him. I was feeling content when it meant nothing but a mistake to him. Oh God hoe big fool I am? How fool I am.

I shouted loud and it broke his big bubble of love.

He is looking at me with a look full of confusion and care. Why? Why does he cares for me? After all these? After whatever he has done to me. After being so close with me when he was already engaged and in love with his fianc.

And now he is asking me why I am calling myself a fool?! As if I have acted so smart being so close with a guy who has realized his love for his fianc just now. Holy crap.

And now he wanna say he never used me. He felt it so he did. In anger I said that he uses girls to satisfy his desires which I really regret, but to push him away I don't have another option. Yeah, I know he doesn't use girls, and he can't. & at the same time I know that he did it in a emotional rush.

I know he isn't a guy who would hurt a woman's dignity just cause he has money, but at the same time I know he is guy who's family reputation is his everything. He values his words, and promises the most.

And here, he has promised to be with Tia, forever; even before I entered his life.

And see, I have spoilt it.

And now after accusing him of something so foul; I thought he will shout on me, he will be angry and leave me ; leaving me here; all alone like I always was. With my best friend, my tears just like everyone I love did with me.

Afterall why won't he? After I accused him being someone who he isn't. after I hurt his self respect which is the biggest treasure for everyone; be it a girl or a guy. And I hurt him there. Now, he must hate me.

But, no...

As always he proved me wrong. Instead he asked me what I mean by the word use? And he started coming closer to me. His eyes blazing fire, fire of anger, of hurt and pain.

I was shocked. So shocked that it was getting difficult to form a proper word for me. I was choking. But more than that, the look of hurt was choking me. Was stabbing my heart. His tears was piercing my eyes.

And then he spoke.

He pleaded, requested and then... He looked defeated. The Shivaay Singh Oberoi looked defeated. His eyes holding a lot of pain and hurt. He was crying. His defeated sighs was mocking me.

But, I am helpless.

I know that, I love him. I love him from the day I saw him at the "maha arti protecting his brother. I fell for him when he takes care of his brothers like his kids. When he keeps everyone's happiness before his, without any complain. I fell for him when he removed my veil that day when Rudra made me stand as Tia. I fell for him when he hugged me from the back. When he took my side at Ganpati visarjan. When he called me cute being drunk at the pool party.

I fell for him when he slept on my shoulder after taking pain killers that day. That day when he was saying about his confusion regarding the feelings he feels around me made me feel ticklish. I felt thousands of butterflies burst in my stomach that day, just like I felt today. It was the most beautiful feeling. A dream come true for me.

And just as a dream breaks at morning; it was broken too. The very next morning; by him; infront of all.

The person spoke about his confusion that may be he feels something for me; had proposed Tia in front of all, with a engagement ring. And even declared his marriage publicly.

And that was the day, I knew he isn't for me. That was the day I got know he really feels for me. A true feeling, the most sacred feelings of love. I found it in his eyes.

Yes, his sudden love confession wasn't the first time I got to know about his feelings for me. I knew it long back. His eyes and face speaks volumes to me, for his feelings.

The thing which shocked me is he accepted all this, verbally.

But what's the use?

Here in this dense forest, he is accepting to love me. Promising me to leave Tia. When none is around. But then, we'll back to Mumbai, to OM tomorrow. And the reality will hit him. The reality of being Shivaay Singh Oberoi, of being engaged to Tia Kapoor. The reality that he will lose a precious deal if he doesn't marry her.

The reality that she has no class, no status no blood line that he can be an Oberoi bahu. The reality of her being a middleclass girl, A wedding planner who's planning his wedding.

May be the last time he wasn't in his senses and this time he's sober. But therefore the situation, the environment here was something fueled at his feelings. But what will happen when the fuel is gone. The strong attraction the ambience caused between them will be wiped off? Then? What will happen? What will happen when this romantic climate will change? When the place will be change?

I know he'll be changed as well. Being in this atmosphere his bottled up emotion had a blust. But as soon as the reality will hit him, his duty will come infront of his eyes, his reputation will need his attention his feelings will take the back seat. As always. Afterall Shivaay Singh Oberoi is all about brain. When he doesn't believe in his heart himself then how can she?

Believing his heart, his eyes she was hurt once. That time she had to witness his engagement cause of his realization. And this time he may jump on shaadi after the sudden realization. Afterall he is Shivaay Singh Oberoi.

May be he looked serious, his eyes reflected pain, and hurt after hearing his accusations. May be his eyes, his tears were screaming love what he has for him, but then; she is human too. Even she has feelings. That time she dreamt of him like a fool after he said those words to her, after his eyes spoke with her eyes. But then the next instant he broke all her dreams, her feelings just in a few seconds. And it took a lot of courage from her side to get over that painful heartache. And she won't let him hurt her heart more this time. She has made her heart understand that he is far from her league. Her dreams of being with him will stay as her dreams only. And her heart has started to accept the pain that comes hand in hand with the realization now.

And she can't go back to the beginning, AGAIN. So, its better not to trust his words this time. By this may be she is hurting him , now and maybe his hurt is hurting her too. But it will help them in the long race. After going back to their actual position, neither she'll be upset seeing his indifference nor, he needs to feel guilt for hurting her. So maybe it's paining now, both will be crying now, may be he'll be hurt now, may be he will hate her for rejecting him; but at the end both would be saved from a more painful heartache.

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