Copy my thoughts from another thread and starting of my rambles with a quote of a play a love to read and reminded me of Aditya and Imlie situation today
âWhere love is great, the littlest of doubts are fear; where littlest fear grow great, great love grows thereâ - Hamlet by William Shakespeare
The last few episodes are contrived as they may have been have had me pondering about the state of mind of both Imlie and Aditya and the decisions that have lead them to this crossroad today. As I watch all the episodes in one hit today, a thought crossed by mind from Hamlet by William Shakespeare â to be or not to be is the real question?â which has been highlighted quite well in all this angst and stand off we are seeing between these two in there scenes of late. I keep being drawn back to this thought and wonder for all the roles Aditya has to carry is his self love being recognised for the weight it carries from all the flaws he owns to scares he receives from the people around him for being true to his dreams as he realised them and walked the crossed path which is more painful then the crossing flames of hell or beyond. The silent daggers that chip at him while he is the best part of his own true self or is the question we are failing to ask related to a whole other matter.
Today I watch these episodes and go back to the time when Aditya was first asked to sit and complete the pooja with Maline for the unborn child back then surrounded by the people he loved when he had only one person at his heart and soul and that was his Imlie. His only complaint or shall I call it a cry for help from Sita Maiyya herself was why was he asked to cross paths with Imlie if when he learnt to love, live and hold her hand for it to parted to be placed back in another when today all of him owns the truth he breaths as his only home there love. That sprinkle of doubt and slight complaint of why me reminded me of his turmoil when his longing eyes scan the room in each moment seeking for a answering hoping she will reach out to him and bring him home once more as she did all those moons ago.
Reminding me each time that they are a perfect couple in not so perfect of a situation. One can see with each step, each glance he is dying a bit at a time, struggling to hide the pain, frustration but most importantly the lingering anger of disappointment of being left stranded while wishing thatâs he had been blessed with a single sword that daggers through his shattered heart to be killed in a single stroke then left to mourn the loss he sees today. A prime example of this for me is when he holds the signed papers tightly in his fisted palm not letting it fall from his slipping faith hoping for it to be a bad dream. Screaming his denialism out loud through his blooded eyes as his voice quivers at each dripping word like tears that happened in the past couple of days hoping one of his own will bring him the light he so seeks.
The irony of it all is that both Aditya and Imlie claim they are not in denial about the events that have led them to this situation in there relationship. Itâs true that the lack of communication has allowed for the faith to falter which they have been showing to be there main strength in all the up evil. Yet itâs like with each widening gap they have decided to be selective about the realities they wish to accept and the relationship that comes with it. There denial to not sit and talk it through has lead them to widen the gap of misunderstandings that in reality could have been resolved if they are given the space and opportunity to do so. Neither in there hurt and anger is willing to take that first step and ask the other the question of why? One can see Aditya forlorn eyes searching and seeking but in a way why should he be the one to ask. If we weigh the burden of guilt in the the situation then one has to expect Imlie to ask him why he felt he could leave her behind. Why did he agree to marry Maline surely she has the ability to understand that the divorce was not the trigger end of the marriage. She must within her heart know that her removal of the mangalsutra and the sindoor that bound them faith and soul and gave Aditya the right to hold her hand was a sign he lost the right to take and claim. Despite it all he still came back numerous times to hold her hand which she declined so willingly in her need to prove her independence then why when he believes she no longer seeks him does she stand accusing that he has left her stranded.
Just because Aditya and Imlie were bound by faith the reality which many wish to deny but cannot is that the truth is both Imlie and Aditya chose to be with the latter. Just because they met by chance doesnât make there relationship any less invalid then the one he shared with Maline as the weight doesnât lie upon the number of years you know a person but the choice you wish to make of staying with that person. The fact is from all the journeys of separations they have had each time they have realised that they couldnât function without the other. And due to it there faith grew and the truth of what they shared from friendship to lovers. Today people say that Imlie was not allowed to decided but Aditya clearly told her before his third Pagdandia trip that he would help her find her way and settle her in life with the career, partner, family and love she deserves which she was willing to decline because of her upbringing and principles as they went against the grain of her upbringing. As a result of this the fact is when I read about Aryan the saviour it simply annoys me to no bounds that he is hailed her saviour in matters relating to Imlie. The fact is they are neither friends and have never had a conversation of equals makes me question how can his moral standing be better then that of Aditya when the situation are totally different. Where had Aditya clipped Imlie wings in her journey when one reflects back he has neither himself stopped her from articulating her opinions, being honest to her upbringing or stopped her professional or personal growth. He has always laid this burden of truth about there marriage in front of her and the need to be morally free of his own lie. That morality of wanting to be free of his own burdens is something he is allowed to claim either way of his relationship with both woman. Itâs silly to believe that his freedom of choice should be taken a way because today Maline carries his child or she was once the woman he loved,dated and married. The concept of divorce is part of social standing today to liberate one with these freedoms when they no longer seek the same. Why can he not have the right to be emotional and physically free from this relationship because he know understand or has grown to understand what he lacked and missed. Itâs like saying all Maline actions are justified because he fell out of love but sadly that is not how it works. Falling in and out of love is not something we can control.
Maline despite knowing that the relationship is over between them both chose to sleep with Aditya by abusing the trust he held in her through physically and emotionally assaulting him on the foundation of the advice offered by her own mother whereas his family and Imlie have always shown him to consider the burdens or in simpler terms the repercussions his truth carries and the hurt the would bring to the three of them. Why is that burden Aditya to carry alone when is the real question. Is that because Maline is emotionally vulnerable or is it because she lack the capacity to accept that she cannot have it all despite the lifestyle she has been provided through her sheltered upbringing. Maybe the flaw lay in her own self esteem that she cannot move forward with what happened. Her fear has not stemmed of loss of love or friendship it has stemmed of revenge but where has her move grown is the question for when we see the woman today all we see is wanting to control a man whom is just a empty shell. So when others say Aditya deserved the crime that was bestowed upon him them I am sorry to say that is not true because to have a physical relationship between him and Maline should have been consensual and nothing else. The act was to cause harm and that has happened there is no way around it for it this was woman everyone would have called it that simple.
And then there is Maline in all this whom reminded me again for what this wedding is all about. People keep saying itâs about drawing parallels between Aditya and Aryan but to me itâs more about how Aryan revenge is similar to Maline need of control. Is it me or are Aryan actions not the same calculated and cold in somewhat of a way both remind me of a saying that was once shared to me by a friend which is âItâs not about being unaware of the person that stab you, which causes the most pain itâs there constant need to remind the world that they are bleeding.âIn a way thatâs all Maline has been doing throughout the start of her abuse towards Aditya thatâs has lead her to the functions she so celebrates her winning and Aryan has supported her actions directly just so he can have his moment in the spotlight to deeping the rift he is aware of it all. It saddens me that viewers believe he is a guardian angel for Imlie when the truth is that for if he really wished to share Imlie pain would he not tell her of his meet with Maline and would he not be open about the deal that was put in front of him. I am sorry but just like the thousands of knives that have been thrown at Aditya for his lack of consciousness I ask what if this guys whom knows he is betraying Imlie through his act of kindness. How is he a truer friend then Aditya for at least unless I am being delusional Aditya lay all his dilemma at Imlie feet each time he was at a battle with his faith and his responsibilities. Telling her of his struggles to decide and how he wants to take the right step for the path he see fit for both of them and themselves. Supporting her too in a way by offering her a choice for her actions to allow her to be whom she is supposed to be and not what others need her to be whereas Aryan is trying to clone her to be a copy of him then own the truth of whom she already is. Thatâs not growth in my eyes but that is taking a step backwards in a way saying to a stranger I am letting you be my voice when all along we knew she could hold her own when needed. Today I long to see that old Imlie the one that would question her own thoughts and act upon those accordingly or is the one we see today the Imlie we failed to see all along.
Today Imlie stands covered in all the riches yet one doesnât need to cover the rags with riches for riches are found within the rags we own. Thatâs what Aditya has always shown and told Imlie to own and it sadness me that people believe that a person like Aryan is the true voice of herself worth. If it was about money than Imlie could have taken that from Dev when she was offered the same yet she protested for it stood against her grain. She was always a dreamer that wanted a name for herself and wanted acceptance of love through relationships she wished she had but lacked to have because of the fact that her father abandoned her and her mother. The girl was alway a voice of self love and not of luxury and know with Aryan everyone seems to make it about independent growth. I question where did Aditya love lack that growth? Just because he failed to separate his own views from Imlie in the matter doesnât mean that he that doesnât see her as an independent person. He was actually the one person whom told her to own her own self and was a voice of reason for others taht question her identity and there relationship. In a way Imlie failed him by allowing Maline to be the driving force of her decisions when she should have thought of her self and him before the needs of Maline. We may hate to say it but Maline has always thought of herself before others and hence has been able to get away with the crimes she has.
I just hope in the end of this track Imlie may be able to see through the nonsense to realise whom her true well wishers or friends were all along. Whatever anyone else says for all the lies Aditya and Imlie told and support the other of in the need to protect Maline of this pain Aryan actions of hiding something on purpose is just not the same his lying today or hers do not match that of Aditya or Imlie social concerns for there loyalties have changed based upon there needs whereas thereâs was stemmed upon the need to own once own truth protect the once they love and do right by them and not themselves unlike these two whom take care of there own needs over everyone elseâs.
As they say the magnitude of the problem doesnât stem of how much you love some one it stems of dilemma put in front of you. Today they stand at that very crossroad once more the remarriage which should have not happened in the first place for all the contrivances otherwise said.
The quote above summarise for me what Aditya stands for today and Imlie used to she is as broken as him confused but not lost is say even when we are left with wanting to pull our hair out at the episodes we are being subjected to of late leaving us wonder where has the writing team gone we once used to love. This post is an answer to all the lovely questions and points raised by RD,Aps, AY and Fary and others too whom I have been unable to reply to. And equally a connect I found to the song that was shared by Whatever posted a few weeks back when the track first started where we were reminded that Imlie shall find her way back up the yellow brick road only when she has fallen and realises that even the most street smartest person can easily be manipulated by another for all it takes is for them to be vocal to once weakness and show us hope weâre they know none is to be had in real.
In the end one is left questioning the whole truth of the tale is it deception, conspiracy and moral ambiguities for we have said it all along they have a matter of grey in all of them so why is there faith today measured by the black and white of truthfulness that was never clear to start with for each of them had and has something to hide so why when we are aware of these mistakes are we laying the blame at one person alone. If one questions the morality of it all then one has to take into action all of there indecisiveness that failed to allow them to make the right choices for them. Itâs been so clear in the story throughout whom can they trust and what is there role in this relationship. That foundation that need for clarification has left them open for abuse and manipulation which has left them in the titling edge of no return. How far can one go to safe the love they hold or let go of the greatest fear and be free to take that leap of faith forward.
For me Aditya holds that moral compass to a tee, as he has been open about his dilemma to both woman. It doesnât mean that he may not have made mistakes he has made plenty and we have seen that by his lack of control to draw boundaries between him and Maline or letting other speak for him when he is capable to handle his own affairs. Yet in the end unlike Imlie I have found he has always been left by himself negotiating various dilemma or shall we put it down to the responsibilities being the once weighing him down because of the need to maintain respect and relationships between him and his family members. His delayed response and reaction have him leaving the room with more questions then answers. Maybe that is the biggest tragedy in his own love story that he is a victim of his own true moral compass one that faith failed to see and friendship forgot to value. That the truest burden of fear one may need to shed is to be clear between his one thoughts and his need of action a dilemma that has left him fighting between life and death at many a moments.
But in the end when you peace of mind is linked to the one you love as is Aditya to Imlie one can only really be organised when the truth adds up to the equation you are being presented. If it doesnât add up then one knows that the truth is lacking and this is the dilemma I feel both or internally battling with despite there anger. Leaving me with the burning question of to be or not to be and in there case we all know the answer is to be no matter what happens it shall happen for what is destined has always a way of finding his way home through a storm.
Thatâs my ramblings for the day hope they made some sense after reading the synopsis of todays episode. Hang on in there we will see the light soon, she hopes for a brick a time up our very own yellow brick road. Love to hear what you all think đ¤
Stay safe and well.
Just wanted to say a big thank you to everyone for sharing all the videos of pictures and clips and giving us a detailed in sight to show when one couldnât watch it a much appreciated. Itâs made the journey so much more magical then it could have been đ¤
Apologies for the typos đ
Edited by raaz19 - 3 years ago