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Here is prologue 2!!!
its LOOOOOONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i had 2 fit 4 chapps in2 this!!!!!!!!!
i LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!
😆 u will knw why! 😳
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"Come on Mon! Loads of boyfriends get a little freaked out and feel like this about their girlfriends! It is natural! Remember that time throughout 5th year when James jinxed every boy who wanted to go out with Lily?"
"What?" said Monica.
They were all still in the common room, wanting to witness the fight between Monica and Sirius.
*
"What?" said Lily.
"Later sweetheart!" said James hurriedly, "Nobody but the marauders were supposed to know that!" he said through his teeth glaring at Sirius.
*
"Oh! You were not supposed to know that!" said Sirius.
"Now he remembers!" said James.
"But don't you see that guys tend to get kind of possessive…" said Sirius.
"I do! You were possessive throughout our relationship. But not just that thing Sirius."
"What do you mean?"
"I don't know… it is just that I can't… I mean I know that it has been a couple of month since it happened… but…"
"As far as I know the only thing that 'happened' a couple of months back is the re-opening of our school!" said Sirius laughing, "And I don't see what that has to do to disturb you…"
"I meant something else… it is not like I can forget it like that…"
"What are…?"
"I know we made up more than a month back but believe it or not every time I kiss you all I can think of is - 'I am kissing Sirius… Sirius the guy who kissed another girl behind my back!'"
"Monica!" groaned Sirius, "not that again! I apologized…"
"I am sorry but that is how I feel. And I also can't help thinking that you are also the guy who used to go on 4 dates a week!"
"Monica! How could you say that! It has been no one but you ever since fifth… and also you with that Moss."
*
"Why does he keep calling him that?" said Lily.
"What? Who?"
"He calls Amos, Moss."
"What is the difference? A Moss, Moss!" shrugged James.
"But his name is not Moss! It is Amos Diggory!"
"It is Amos? Not A Moss? And isn't Diggory that tall prefect of Huffelpuff? What does he have to do with Moss?"
"No! Moss and… I mean Amos and Diggory are 1 person. Diggory is his surname. Amos Diggory." said Lily raising her eyebrows at him.
*
"Sirius! How dare - Whatever…" Sirius looked appalled as Monica took a couple of steps behind him.
She folded her hands across her chest and looked at her feet. Sirius looked at her, taking in her jet black, wavy hair that fell around her shoulders, which was currently hiding half her face. He could see part of her lovely violet-almost-black eyes beneath her tresses. God I love her so much, he thought as he kept looking at her. He did not know what to say to her.
"Sirius…" she said softly, "I am sorry… but I don't feel like things can ever be back to normal… if you know what I mean…"
"But things were normal after the ball…"
"That was because I thought things would go back to normal! But I can't ignore what I feel."
"Monica…"
"Don't use that voice with me Sirius!" he sighed, startled at her tone.
"What are you saying we do?"
"Take a break. From each other. Loosen up a bit. See other people…"
"Whoa Whoa Whoa stop there Lady! You saying we break up?"
*
"Wrong tone to use mate! And never call a girl Lady when you want to pacify her!"
"You shouldn't?" asked Remus to James.
"Yes. There was this girl I went out with in our 4th year was so pretty and hot and s…anyways" he hurried on as Lily gave him a Look, "She wanted to break up with me because of some reason and I called her lady… since then my left cheek has not been proportionate to my right one. Remus, you remember that Rawenclaw don't you? The blonde with yellow eyes… the one who wears mini skirts and strapless tops looking hot and sec…"
"If you don't shut up, I will make your right cheek match your left one!" said Lily.
"Sorry dearest! Didn't see you there." He said grinning.
*
"… I feel claustrophobic around you… I don't want to be around you all the time!"
"But you are not… it is not like I force you to spend all your time…"
"Listen Sirius! I spend all my free time with you… and you don't like it if I spend it with my friends… you want me to be with you and snog me every spare time we get. It was all right when we were young… but I need some space!"
"What do you mean it was all right when we were young?" asked Sirius indignantly pushing his hair off his face, "it is not like I never asked you to spend your time with me when we were in our fifth or sixth year! You didn't complain then."
"But then I still had to ask you to keep away from me during our OWLs! That need not have happened if you had not been so…"
"I want to know what has changed!"
"Well…" she said choosing her words carefully, "I have given this a great deal of thought… and what is different is that when we were younger, there was a lot of passion between us and … oh my god I hate to say this… but things were hot between us then… but what happened at the end of last year has changed everything. I don't feel that passion around you anymore…" she sighed as if taking a breath. In reality she was blinking away the tears that came to her eyes. Sirius just started at her, not knowing what to reply.
"Sirius…"
"The passion is lost?" he asked her softly, "how could you say that Monica? I love you…"
"I love you too Sirius but after last year I have grown up. Believe it or not it has made me stronger than what I was. It has made me strong enough to tell you this Sirius…"
"Passion is lost..?"
"More like trust is lost…" said Monica and a tear dropped down her cheek.
"Sweetheart… tell me you are joking…"
"No Sirius… I am not joking… I just need a break till I can be sure that I can trust you again…" Sirius stared at her horror-struck.
"I think you have to grow up! A relationship is not about snogging and going out on dates. It is about trust and love and passion…"
*
"Yea right!" scoffed James. Lily, Remus and Erica looked at him incredulously. He grinned sheepishly at them,
"I meant yea right, I agree with you Monica…" he said quickly covering up. Remus and Erica shook their heads and turned to look at Sirius and Monica. Lily kept looking at James.
"Don't tell me you didn't enjoy all that snogging!"
"Okay I won't!"
"Hey..!"
"Because I can't lie!" she said smiling sweetly at him and turning to Monica.
*
"But we enjoyed dating and snogging and…"
"But we have grown up now. I will be 17 next month and you will be too next week. Grow up Sirius. I am not saying that the love between us has gone out completely… I am just saying that we will give each other some space and then think it over…"
"IS this because of what happened to Remus and Erica?"
"No! I don't want you to propose! In fact I am saying I want the opposite!"
"A divorce?" joked Sirius.
*
"Never make jokes while breaking up! It gets them madder!" muttered James wisely.
"When are you an expert at breaking up with women?"
"Well… I have become wise over the past years of experience and…" James saw that Lily did not buy it,
"All right! I read this book on how to handle rejections from girls…"
"You didn't need that James! You were pretty popular." said Erica confused.
"No I bought that book after I started liking Lily." Lily nodded guiltily.
"You bought it?" asked Remus raising an eyebrow.
"All right! Peter wasted a couple of galleons getting me that and I had to read it every time he was around just so that I don't hurt his feelings. It didn't help me with Lily but made hilarious reading."
"Well Monica… if this is what you want… I guess I can give it to you… I completely understand…" they heard Sirius say.
"What? Fight for it mate! Fight for your girl! Marauders never have girls break up with them!"
"I think he is doing the right thing!" said Remus.
"You are an encouraging friend Moony aren't you?"
"I am too tired to make you understand…"
"Its ok… don't bother!" said James shrugging
*
"Are you okay? You sound odd…" she asked him looking at him concernedly.
"I am fine… it is partly my fault that you feel this way about us… and I remember you telling me something, 'if you really love something then let it go. If it comes back to you, it is yours. If it doesn't, it never was.' I love you Monica and someday I know that you will realize you were always mine."
"Sirius… I never knew you could be so mature about this…"
*
"Is he faking it?" whispered Erica to Remus.
"Dunno can't see his face all that much!" said James.
"I don't think so guys!"
"Are you sure he is not faking it Remus?"
"I am sure he is not faking it."
"Well in that case… oh my god, I never thought he would be so mature!"
*
"You are not the only one who has learnt something. I have also learnt that I cannot take you for granted like I usually do…" Monica walked over to Sirius and put her hands around his neck. She stood on her tiptoes and kissed him. Sirius closed his eyes and kissed her back.
"Thank you Sirius… thank you so much!" she said pulling back and walking out of the classroom.
"Monica?" he asked.
"What?"
"When you said seeing other people you did not have anyone particular in mind did you?"
"No! I just meant…"
"It's fine… as long as I know you did not break up with me because you had someone else in mind."
"You are one to talk!" she said sarcastically and went upstairs. Sirius stuffed his clenched fists into his pockets and kicked the floor with his heel and looked back at the empty stairs.
"I have been in one relationship all my life that I have actually enjoyed being in and I had to blow that up!" he whispered to himself.
*~*
Monica was standing in an empty classroom putting her books back in her bag. Lily had stormed out of class as soon as potions had gotten over to avoid James, who nevertheless had gone after her. Sirius was looking at her from his place and Remus and Erica looked between the two of them and left quietly, not wanting to be there. Sirius walked awkwardly to Monica.
"Hi!"
"Oh! Sirius… hey!" she said, her voice a little higher than usual.
"Need some help with that?" he asked her as she was trying to stuff a lot of things inside.
"Yes!" she said, throwing her hands up surrendering, half the parchments falling down. Sirius gave a flick of his wand and everything arranged themselves neatly and pagewise in her bag. she stared at it open mouthed.
"How do you do that? I have gotta learn that!"
"How come you have so many books?" he asked.
"NEWTs… lots of…" she stopped speaking as she was suddenly drawn closer to Sirius, by him.
For a moment she felt her heart skip a beat as she looked at him from this close distance.
"I care for you a lot Monica… I love you…" he said slowly as he leaned in to kiss her, his eyes half closed. Her lower lip trembled as she took in a deep breath. She kissed him lightly on the lips and he closed his eyes, kissing her back and not letting her go.
"You have to let go Sirius. Please let go."
"No Mon… I can't… I…"
"I don't want you to make this harder for me Sirius… please…"
It hurt him terribly to be doing this but after what seemed like eternity he let go of her. He couldn't believe that he was doing it. He was not the type to give in easily. He would have argued throughout and stuck on to her. But a small voice from the back of his head was telling him to let go. He did just that. He did not follow his heart which told him not to do it. He did not follow his mind which told him that he could fight it out. He followed that small voice from the back of his head which seemed to overpower both his heart and mind.
*~*
Sirius and Monica. What was at first hard to believe had happened. They had really broken up and Monica was seeing Amos. Sirius, surprisingly, had gotten over his moaning pretty soon and was seen with different girls ever other week. This made Monica see red but there was nothing she could do about it. She still glared at every girl who was next to him, but nothing more.
Here is prologue 2!!!
its LOOOOOONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i had 2 fit 4 chapps in2 this!!!!!!!!!
i LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!
😆 u will knw why! 😳
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~
"Come on Mon! Loads of boyfriends get a little freaked out and feel like this about their girlfriends! It is natural! Remember that time throughout 5th year when James jinxed every boy who wanted to go out with Lily?"
"What?" said Monica.
They were all still in the common room, wanting to witness the fight between Monica and Sirius.
*
"What?" said Lily.
"Later sweetheart!" said James hurriedly, "Nobody but the marauders were supposed to know that!" he said through his teeth glaring at Sirius.
*
"Oh! You were not supposed to know that!" said Sirius.
"Now he remembers!" said James.
"But don't you see that guys tend to get kind of possessive…" said Sirius.
"I do! You were possessive throughout our relationship. But not just that thing Sirius."
"What do you mean?"
"I don't know… it is just that I can't… I mean I know that it has been a couple of month since it happened… but…"
"As far as I know the only thing that 'happened' a couple of months back is the re-opening of our school!" said Sirius laughing, "And I don't see what that has to do to disturb you…"
"I meant something else… it is not like I can forget it like that…"
"What are…?"
"I know we made up more than a month back but believe it or not every time I kiss you all I can think of is - 'I am kissing Sirius… Sirius the guy who kissed another girl behind my back!'"
"Monica!" groaned Sirius, "not that again! I apologized…"
"I am sorry but that is how I feel. And I also can't help thinking that you are also the guy who used to go on 4 dates a week!"
"Monica! How could you say that! It has been no one but you ever since fifth… and also you with that Moss."
*
"Why does he keep calling him that?" said Lily.
"What? Who?"
"He calls Amos, Moss."
"What is the difference? A Moss, Moss!" shrugged James.
"But his name is not Moss! It is Amos Diggory!"
"It is Amos? Not A Moss? And isn't Diggory that tall prefect of Huffelpuff? What does he have to do with Moss?"
"No! Moss and… I mean Amos and Diggory are 1 person. Diggory is his surname. Amos Diggory." said Lily raising her eyebrows at him.
*
"Sirius! How dare - Whatever…" Sirius looked appalled as Monica took a couple of steps behind him.
She folded her hands across her chest and looked at her feet. Sirius looked at her, taking in her jet black, wavy hair that fell around her shoulders, which was currently hiding half her face. He could see part of her lovely violet-almost-black eyes beneath her tresses. God I love her so much, he thought as he kept looking at her. He did not know what to say to her.
"Sirius…" she said softly, "I am sorry… but I don't feel like things can ever be back to normal… if you know what I mean…"
"But things were normal after the ball…"
"That was because I thought things would go back to normal! But I can't ignore what I feel."
"Monica…"
"Don't use that voice with me Sirius!" he sighed, startled at her tone.
"What are you saying we do?"
"Take a break. From each other. Loosen up a bit. See other people…"
"Whoa Whoa Whoa stop there Lady! You saying we break up?"
*
"Wrong tone to use mate! And never call a girl Lady when you want to pacify her!"
"You shouldn't?" asked Remus to James.
"Yes. There was this girl I went out with in our 4th year was so pretty and hot and s…anyways" he hurried on as Lily gave him a Look, "She wanted to break up with me because of some reason and I called her lady… since then my left cheek has not been proportionate to my right one. Remus, you remember that Rawenclaw don't you? The blonde with yellow eyes… the one who wears mini skirts and strapless tops looking hot and sec…"
"If you don't shut up, I will make your right cheek match your left one!" said Lily.
"Sorry dearest! Didn't see you there." He said grinning.
*
"… I feel claustrophobic around you… I don't want to be around you all the time!"
"But you are not… it is not like I force you to spend all your time…"
"Listen Sirius! I spend all my free time with you… and you don't like it if I spend it with my friends… you want me to be with you and snog me every spare time we get. It was all right when we were young… but I need some space!"
"What do you mean it was all right when we were young?" asked Sirius indignantly pushing his hair off his face, "it is not like I never asked you to spend your time with me when we were in our fifth or sixth year! You didn't complain then."
"But then I still had to ask you to keep away from me during our OWLs! That need not have happened if you had not been so…"
"I want to know what has changed!"
"Well…" she said choosing her words carefully, "I have given this a great deal of thought… and what is different is that when we were younger, there was a lot of passion between us and … oh my god I hate to say this… but things were hot between us then… but what happened at the end of last year has changed everything. I don't feel that passion around you anymore…" she sighed as if taking a breath. In reality she was blinking away the tears that came to her eyes. Sirius just started at her, not knowing what to reply.
"Sirius…"
"The passion is lost?" he asked her softly, "how could you say that Monica? I love you…"
"I love you too Sirius but after last year I have grown up. Believe it or not it has made me stronger than what I was. It has made me strong enough to tell you this Sirius…"
"Passion is lost..?"
"More like trust is lost…" said Monica and a tear dropped down her cheek.
"Sweetheart… tell me you are joking…"
"No Sirius… I am not joking… I just need a break till I can be sure that I can trust you again…" Sirius stared at her horror-struck.
"I think you have to grow up! A relationship is not about snogging and going out on dates. It is about trust and love and passion…"
*
"Yea right!" scoffed James. Lily, Remus and Erica looked at him incredulously. He grinned sheepishly at them,
"I meant yea right, I agree with you Monica…" he said quickly covering up. Remus and Erica shook their heads and turned to look at Sirius and Monica. Lily kept looking at James.
"Don't tell me you didn't enjoy all that snogging!"
"Okay I won't!"
"Hey..!"
"Because I can't lie!" she said smiling sweetly at him and turning to Monica.
*
"But we enjoyed dating and snogging and…"
"But we have grown up now. I will be 17 next month and you will be too next week. Grow up Sirius. I am not saying that the love between us has gone out completely… I am just saying that we will give each other some space and then think it over…"
"IS this because of what happened to Remus and Erica?"
"No! I don't want you to propose! In fact I am saying I want the opposite!"
"A divorce?" joked Sirius.
*
"Never make jokes while breaking up! It gets them madder!" muttered James wisely.
"When are you an expert at breaking up with women?"
"Well… I have become wise over the past years of experience and…" James saw that Lily did not buy it,
"All right! I read this book on how to handle rejections from girls…"
"You didn't need that James! You were pretty popular." said Erica confused.
"No I bought that book after I started liking Lily." Lily nodded guiltily.
"You bought it?" asked Remus raising an eyebrow.
"All right! Peter wasted a couple of galleons getting me that and I had to read it every time he was around just so that I don't hurt his feelings. It didn't help me with Lily but made hilarious reading."
"Well Monica… if this is what you want… I guess I can give it to you… I completely understand…" they heard Sirius say.
"What? Fight for it mate! Fight for your girl! Marauders never have girls break up with them!"
"I think he is doing the right thing!" said Remus.
"You are an encouraging friend Moony aren't you?"
"I am too tired to make you understand…"
"Its ok… don't bother!" said James shrugging
*
"Are you okay? You sound odd…" she asked him looking at him concernedly.
"I am fine… it is partly my fault that you feel this way about us… and I remember you telling me something, 'if you really love something then let it go. If it comes back to you, it is yours. If it doesn't, it never was.' I love you Monica and someday I know that you will realize you were always mine."
"Sirius… I never knew you could be so mature about this…"
*
"Is he faking it?" whispered Erica to Remus.
"Dunno can't see his face all that much!" said James.
"I don't think so guys!"
"Are you sure he is not faking it Remus?"
"I am sure he is not faking it."
"Well in that case… oh my god, I never thought he would be so mature!"
*
"You are not the only one who has learnt something. I have also learnt that I cannot take you for granted like I usually do…" Monica walked over to Sirius and put her hands around his neck. She stood on her tiptoes and kissed him. Sirius closed his eyes and kissed her back.
"Thank you Sirius… thank you so much!" she said pulling back and walking out of the classroom.
"Monica?" he asked.
"What?"
"When you said seeing other people you did not have anyone particular in mind did you?"
"No! I just meant…"
"It's fine… as long as I know you did not break up with me because you had someone else in mind."
"You are one to talk!" she said sarcastically and went upstairs. Sirius stuffed his clenched fists into his pockets and kicked the floor with his heel and looked back at the empty stairs.
"I have been in one relationship all my life that I have actually enjoyed being in and I had to blow that up!" he whispered to himself.
*~*
Monica was standing in an empty classroom putting her books back in her bag. Lily had stormed out of class as soon as potions had gotten over to avoid James, who nevertheless had gone after her. Sirius was looking at her from his place and Remus and Erica looked between the two of them and left quietly, not wanting to be there. Sirius walked awkwardly to Monica.
"Hi!"
"Oh! Sirius… hey!" she said, her voice a little higher than usual.
"Need some help with that?" he asked her as she was trying to stuff a lot of things inside.
"Yes!" she said, throwing her hands up surrendering, half the parchments falling down. Sirius gave a flick of his wand and everything arranged themselves neatly and pagewise in her bag. she stared at it open mouthed.
"How do you do that? I have gotta learn that!"
"How come you have so many books?" he asked.
"NEWTs… lots of…" she stopped speaking as she was suddenly drawn closer to Sirius, by him.
For a moment she felt her heart skip a beat as she looked at him from this close distance.
"I care for you a lot Monica… I love you…" he said slowly as he leaned in to kiss her, his eyes half closed. Her lower lip trembled as she took in a deep breath. She kissed him lightly on the lips and he closed his eyes, kissing her back and not letting her go.
"You have to let go Sirius. Please let go."
"No Mon… I can't… I…"
"I don't want you to make this harder for me Sirius… please…"
It hurt him terribly to be doing this but after what seemed like eternity he let go of her. He couldn't believe that he was doing it. He was not the type to give in easily. He would have argued throughout and stuck on to her. But a small voice from the back of his head was telling him to let go. He did just that. He did not follow his heart which told him not to do it. He did not follow his mind which told him that he could fight it out. He followed that small voice from the back of his head which seemed to overpower both his heart and mind.
*~*
Sirius and Monica. What was at first hard to believe had happened. They had really broken up and Monica was seeing Amos. Sirius, surprisingly, had gotten over his moaning pretty soon and was seen with different girls ever other week. This made Monica see red but there was nothing she could do about it. She still glared at every girl who was next to him, but nothing more.
