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😲 😲 😲 😲 😲...
when did this happen?! okay. erm. I need to visit the actual forum more often than I do - and not just refer to the convenience of my posts...
Frankly - I'm at a loss of reaction - other than the 5 emoticons at the top - because this is more than a little ... maybe flabbergasting is the word I'm looking for! Don't know what to say to express how loved and special I feel - and how to say a sorry because I wont be able to take up the impossible!
In my defense, I've never really looked at this show with anything in mind about how I want it to go next. Really, while I've always been intrigued enough and made my series of conjectures - my speculations have been very restricted for this show - a very unlike me thing to happen - and I've just sort of gone with the flow, and expressed my euphoria or disappointment with things, as and when. I can't imagine how the story could proceed from where it ended, or what could be done to it - because for me its always been just about GK coming together - as an unusual pair of people, imperfect in their own ways, but complementing in a near perfect sense, and game of fates in uniting them. So I don't know where it goes from here. There's has always been lots of talk about GK in the genuine married phase ever since the show was tipped to go off air - and I've always been very non committal about wanting to see that part on a personal level.
I do feel really bad about having to say no - and although my time constrain forms part of the reason, I confess I could make time for something I had more conviction in, that I do for following up Gulaal. A) I chicken out at the idea of living up to the brilliance of its story. B) I have absolutely no research base in terms of fact file. Having never lived in India, forget living in a society as projected in Gulaal - my only opinions and perceptions are from fiction. Or hear say. And given how rich the treatment of facts and details has been in this show - I shall be an epic fail following up to that. and C) As I said, the story really did end for me at GK coming together.
But for all the expectation made of me, and placed in me - I'm so humbled, no words can suffice. And I shall be very genuinely committed to my drabbles thread. It may not a frequent update feature - but I shall continue to do them - and if at all this can make up, I was thinking of doing some future drabbles which are entirely AU. Like scenes I would have liked to watch especially in the span of the last month and half when the story had to gather extraordinary phase. Like scenes we all imagined and hoped we would get in the coming together of GK phase, but did not get on the show itself, because of time tab. If any of you have any ideas or suggestions for any such scenes you would like to read about - I would be very happy to give them a shot, and strive to live up to whatever hopes you place in my writing.
Again - I am sorry about having to say no. But I hope you understand (after my very long essay explaining why) - but thank you cannot be enough to express how much gratitude I feel.
ps: Ganga 🤗 for thinking so much of me in this capacity. I'm touched and humbled. But you need to warn me about such shockers in future! I was staring at the screen for a good 3-5 minutes before drawing even a 'shocked' reaction... and my jaw fell down and rolled off into some obscure corner of the library... I need to go find it now. And no, I'm not cracking a lame joke. I was at a loss of words and reaction all at once - you should guess how uncharacteristic that is of me! 😆
xx
JZee
