Part26
Passion vs compassion
Kesar stood there dumbfound aas he saw Gulaal so comfortable with that man who had an extremely sober and mature look.He was upset a bit when he saw Gulaal holding his hands and she nearly pulled him towards their table and excitedly introduced him.. , "inse milon ye hai Dushyant chowdhary..My Beeest friend..a smile occurred on her face as she emphasized on the word best .Kesar felt bad and upset on hearing this.
Kunal and Talli introduced themselves and finally Kesar extended his hands to welcome Dushyant , "Hai I am Kesar"..He said in a low voice and to which Kunal quickly added , "Gulaal ji ke husband."Kesar looked at Kunal.
Kunal has been Kesar's very close friend and he always came to his rescue .
After the formal introductions.Everyone sat down and the chatting began.Gulaal was overenthusiastic she said , "Tum yahn kaise aur tum dehradun mein ho aur mujhse mile bhi nahi..ye bahut galat hai.Tum to mujhe bhul hi gaye."Gulaal complained.
D: wo kya hai na ,mujhe Lecturer ki job mili hai FRI(forest research institute) mein isliye chalaaya.aur rahi baat tumse na milne ki .Wo itna kuch ho gaya..tumhari shaadi k bare mein suna..jo kuch bhi hua..bas himmat nahi juta paya tumse milne ki"
Gulaal sighed , "jane do na,wo sab to biti batein hain..ab ye batao reh kahn rahe ho."
D: wo mujhe institute mein hi quarter mila hai..maa ko bhi le aunga.."
Gulaal replied , chalo jo hua so hua..par ab tumhe Sunday lunch ke liye ana padega samjhe na...kyun Kesar
Kesar who was terribly disturbed and unhappysnapped back and replied carelessly , "Hmmm haan zarur ayiyega"
D: are phir kabhi aunga..
Gulaal stomped her feetand said authoritatively , "Nahi main kuch nahi janti..tumhe ana hi pagega warna"
Dushyant looked at Gulaal and said , " acha baba tumse koi jeet saka hai kya ,pakka aunga.Tum bilkul nahi badli Gulaal Bisht.."
Gulaal lowered her eyelids and said in a low voice , "Hey its Gulaal patel now."
Dushyant was taken aback , "Oh sorry..adat nahi hai na..par mere liye to tum humesha wohi Gulaal rahogi."Dushyant mumbled as he took leaveBut Kesar overheard him.He was irritated and could not figure out what was wrong with him..Was he angry because she hugged Dushyant so casually while he was was dying to have that exclusive right or because she was overexcited to see him..or simply because Dushyant was exactly a man who would attract the attention of any woman.He felt sad and unhappy.
While on their way back to their home.. Gulaal excitedly shared With everyone the stories of all the fun they used to have in college,their shopping trips,their college picnics and paddle boating at saraswati ghat..etc.These stories aggravated his temper and by the time he reached home he was fuming and sulking .
Kesar's room 10:30pm
Kesar was still unhappy and sulking while he remembered the whole day.His mind was restless as he thought about the immense comfort and bonding that Gulaal shared with Dushyant.Gulaal came to the room and started combing her hair…
Kesar was still depressed and just sat on his table..Gulaal was humming the tune of a garwali song …Kesar was captivated by her sweet voice.Suddenly Gulaal jumped into conversation, "Kitna acha hai na Kesar Dushyant yahan aa gaya…sach Kitna talented hai wo ,dekha jaht se itne bade research institute mein job mil gayi.I think he has tremendous potential.Aur uski company to ekdum superb hai.I think you will like him too"
Kesar was upset again .He was irritated since evening and he had heard so many stories till now that he burst out , "Chup karo Gulaal kitna jyada bolti ho jab dekho chabar cahbr.Mera dimag mat kharab karo Just shut up will up?".He rebuked her harshly.
Gulaal was shocked and hurt.She could not figure out what was wrong?She slowly came near him,slightly ruffled his hair and said in her soft voice, "Kya baat hai Kesar tu itna gusse mein kyun hain.Mujhe bata .Kisi ne kuch kaha kya?"
Kesar got up from his chair and gave her a harsh and painful look.
K: "Jaise ke tumhe kuch pata hi nahi hai..tum sach mein itni bholi ho k bholepan ka natak karti ho.tumhe dikhayi nahi deta ya tum dekhna nahi chahti?,Kesar yelled on top of his voice.Gulaal was hurt by this statement her eyes were filled with tears .she still gathered herself and said , "Kesar tu batayega nahi to mujhe kya sapne ayenge ki tujhe kya hua hai.Pls bata na kya baat hai?",her voice cracked as she asked him.
Kesar again looked at Gulaal and said , "tum kabhi kuch mat samajhna bas yun hi anjaan bani rehana…" kesar pulled his blanket faced away from gulaal's portion and pretended sleeping.Gulaal slowly walked towards the bed and she also faced the opposite side .tears rolled down her cheeks as she tried to figure out what was wrong with him and why did he behave so rudely with her.
Mean while Kesar was lost in his own thoughts and has his anger soothed with passing time.He felt miserable and guilty for shouting at Gulaal . "Kyun tumhe kisi aur k saath dekhkar main bardasht nahi kar pata,tum mere siwa kisi aur ko importance do ye mujhe kyun itna chubh raha hai,Wo dushyant tumhara friend hi to hai..aur friend ko hug sabhi karte hain..phir mujhe kyun itna gussa aa raha tha".Kesar finally slept lost in his own thoughts.
Kesar's room 12:30pm
Kesar suddenly woke up when he heard the sobbing and groaning of Gulaal .He got up and asked Gulaal who was still facing away from him..
K: kya hua Gulaal",he asked anxiously with concern
Gulaal who was still upset replied in a low voice " kuch nahi..waise bhi tujhe isse kya"
Kesar was worried and he grabbedher arm and pulled her towards himselfmaking her face him.He saw that her eyes were swollen and there were still tears in her eyes .
Kesar's heart melted . He had been so rude with her . he said softly , "abhi tak naraz ho..Sorry mujhe pata nahi itna gussa kyun aa gaya tha."
Gulaal burst into tears and said , " wo tu itna gussa ho gaya tha isliye mujhe rona aa raha tha." She said innocently .Kesar felt bad and miserable for his behaviour.Kesar pulled her towards him and wrapped her in his arms .Gulaal also didn't resist and she cried bitterlyWhile still holding him.He said softly , "to isliye ro rahi thi..chalo main naraz nahi hun ..ab so jao"He stroked her hair gently as Gulaal loosened her grip.
Gulaal replied , "wo mujhe neend nahi aa rahi hai ,mere pairon mein bahut dard ho raha hai"
Kesar felt bad as he knew Gulaal was not habitual of walking so much and she must be having cramps after such a tiring day .Kesar quickly got up from the bed and rushed out of the room.
Gulaal called him , "kahn jar aha hai"
K:abhi ata hun
Kesar returned quickly with a bottle of medicated oil sat near Gulaal's feet..Ye kya kar rah hai ,"Gulaal curled her legs as Kesar touched them .
Kesar pulled her legs back and said "chup chap leti raho..Ye SF ka tel hai..unke pairon dard hota hai to wo ye lagwati hain mujhse.",and he started applying the oil.
Gulaal was takren aback and said , "par ..par "
K :..maine kaha na..tum sochti aur bolti bahut jyada ho ..par war kuch nahi ..maine kaha na chup chap leti raho..aur waise bhi tumhe pata hai tum mujhse jeet nahi sakti"Kesar argued and massaged her calf muscles and feet ."
Gulaal just smiled and lied down .The combined effect of the oil and the gentle massage eased her pain.She breathed a sigh of relief as sleep overpowered her tired body..
P.S.-passionate love is ecstacy but has its drawbacks too ..There are moments of extreme joy but then there are moments of hell too.It is just like the fire.If you love the fire,if have to bear the smoke too.And then there is compassionate love which transcends everything and defines selflessness.But then again unless it is mad, passionate and extraordinary love is a waste of time .There are so many mediocre things in life ,Love shouldn't be one of them..
And the war goes on – "passion vs compassion"
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