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The week of 25/7 to 27/7
Mein aa gaiš
And nah Dont call me a chameleon plz...
I have not changed coloursš³
Am still painted saffron...It is Gulaal who is shouting this wise 'Mein hoon Gulaal', not meš...
So what happened is that the wild wild Kesuda turning Mr. goody two shoes and took away the Mrs. Tendulkar award...So, now I actually dont know what to write about him and so everytime I end up asking 'Can I have him plz?' and Someone *looks at Chaitu* tells me 'no!' Behreham log
Anyways...Since this week we are seeing a major shift in the equations..
We all knew it was coming with Gulaal extending the hand of friendship and the other mota cupid coming along...
But the way it has been shown has been just nothing short of fantastic, I would say... I know we are lamenting the overdose of Kulli and deprivation of KesGul scenes...but Mansi sick does create a lot of hamperings..poor woman is not even allowed to be sick at peace
But since the announcement by SF we see a change in Gulaal in a different way...the cravings of a woman awakened...
Well...till now everyone had pasted her high up the wall (Except Kesar..and to some extent Talli) and crowned her 'Her Royal Highness'...MB does care about her in his own way and had tried to get her settled in his own way, but he could not have approached this part ...
For the first time I think Gulaal felt that she was being SEEN as a woman...being expected something that a household wants from the daughter in law of the house...However tad awkward it might have felt it did awaken that 'woman' part of her...
Her expressions after that were so damn 'craving' ...For the first time more than the loss of Vasant in her life, her face showed the loss of what Vasant's death had brought into her life.
What I liked is that she was not offended or disgusted by Saru fai's announcement...I didnot see even mega embarrassment...It was just disappointment and the feeling of that seemingly irreparable, unfillable void in her life...
Her restlessness, her mindlessness in all the other works is because of that...(My POV)...
And you could see those feelings come out when she saw Kesar drumming bechara dhol ( I really pity the dhol everytime)...and she watched him all dazed...As if zapped !!
I know we all were depressed by Vasant's FBs cropping up but while watching the scene it struck me that she was looking at Kesar as if she was looking at her husband...and 'husband' is a word she attaches to Vasant..
You know ..I am really gonna give a chappal-phenk-ke-isse-maaro kind of example...but this is what struck my mind ...
when I was young (I still amš,,,but bhery bhery young that is) ...we used to say 'get this paper Xeroxed' or 'put this bottle in the Freeze'...What we meant was 'get this paper photocopied' and 'put this bottle in the Refrigerator'...
But Xerox was a company which started the photocopying thing in India so it was always 'get it xeroxed'...
We used to say get me a babool colgate...LOL...colgate was associated with toothpaste so much that we wanted a toothpaste with another brand name but still said colgate because Colgate was Synonymous to Toothpaste in India at that time...
So you see what we had in mind was babool( a brand name of toothpaste in India)...Colgate was just a default clause/name put in, because of our lack of proper knowledge and feeding of first impressions...
So for Gulaal the first impression..the first love, husband,..those feelings, cravings... are all associated with Vasant..so even if she has them for someone else...Vasant is bound to crop up...when she saw Kesar you could see that 'mesmerizing' 'flowering' feelings growing on her face...that was one amazing scene..the way it was directed..the way it connected the three of them and the way it showed a transformation in Gulaal...
Amazing!! Mansi hats off !!!
all her actions ..from gazing at Kesar almost open mouthedly to getting those flash backs and then getting conscious of the surroundings...her almost an ecstatic smile...a slow realization of those feelings and as if accepting defeat before them and letting them overcome and encompass and engulf her completely...
her smile and her almost wanting to go and join the dance was just ...well what can I say...it is so hard to put that scene in words but it was a milestone in Gulaal's life...
And as I said to Lennie that day..it is amazing...the kind of devotion she has for that dead man...only this kind of woman...a woman with this unwaivering devotion gets the love of a man like Kesar who is totally devoted to her...seems like God's way of giving back to her what she has given to a dead man...her heart life and soul...
And that is how the nature is giving her what she lost in all these years...and that is how love came knocking at her door..not once, but twice ...and now..her heart is opening to that another opportunity...it is flowering...not yet fully ...but may be a few petals opening...
her consciousness at Kesar's presence...her acknowledging the Suhagan's gift..taking it from Saru fai...
Her almost confession that she is not doing the Vrat under pressure...
She could have easily passed the buck to Sudha saying she is the one who needs to have a child...but she is doing it on her own volition...
Finally at ease and peace with herself...
But before the Vrat..there was her conversation with Talli...we all did laugh at Gulaal saying this na...'That one can be happy with the person who love them and not with whom they love'...Well, Surprising... considering her obstinacy over Kesar and Talli marriage...but as I said...Kesar has painted her red again...She is the Gulaal who would know and understand the love ...love as in a human emotion and not the 'greater than thou' love she is holding on to... Kesar did teach her to be free...to let go things she has been holding so near and dear to herself...Just like he did...He liberated her and so now she can be the same friend, philosopher and guide she was, and had been till the whole fiasco..to talli and the whole household...
and above all..
She can be just Gulaal!!
And as to why she doesnot put those lines for her own self...*sigh* it is a bit complicated...She doesnot have a person who 'doesnot' reciprocate her love...for her Vasant is still ALIVe ...how can she say that she will let go of him and love someone who loves her ..and forget that ominpresent entity in her life...
What she is not getting,..or rather it has completely been a subconcious thought which is yet to be acknowledged by her is that she wont be letting go of Vasant if she loves Kesar..
I think she deep downs knows it..it is just a matter of days when she OWNS it...š³
now to the SF's vrat issue...
Well, I do feel that she always has craved doing these things, you know...the woman could not even celebrate her first holi with her husband...(I mean Vasant..technically Kesar was her husband then, and she did play holi with him...but she had lost Vasant so soon in her life) ... She celebrated it with his photograph...her love overflowed in that moment and you could still see her smiling...but still, there was something that life had taken away from her and Sarufai and her pressure is making her do things which she has WANTED to do but has not been..so even under the guise of being 'pressurized' she is doing it...
But Kesar saying that he doesnot like her pressurized...just made her confess ..that it is not pressure..after all Kesar of all people should know ... how Gulaal is when pressure is put on herš It was not so long back that he has forgottenš
And you know, we might not like Gulaal falling in love with Kesar in this way.. but then this IS a unconventional story...I just was seeing that scene when she was hitting him playfully and he was saying 'Maar mat, Gulaal' and you could hear Ali's voice saying that...I mean in how many stories can you connect each moment with another in some other time and space and think that Yes!! this was toh BOUND to happen...it was as if WRITTEN on the stars...So however she falls...she is gonna make this journey complete...She has to...Vasant is up there looking upon them and gonna see this to the end...
whew! finally!! overš³
Hi sorry had to leave this thing in the midst...š³
Thanks š³
Mein aa gaiš
And nah Dont call me a chameleon plz...
I have not changed coloursš³
Am still painted saffron...It is Gulaal who is shouting this wise 'Mein hoon Gulaal', not meš...
So what happened is that the wild wild Kesuda turning Mr. goody two shoes and took away the Mrs. Tendulkar award...So, now I actually dont know what to write about him and so everytime I end up asking 'Can I have him plz?' and Someone *looks at Chaitu* tells me 'no!' Behreham log
Anyways...Since this week we are seeing a major shift in the equations..
We all knew it was coming with Gulaal extending the hand of friendship and the other mota cupid coming along...
But the way it has been shown has been just nothing short of fantastic, I would say... I know we are lamenting the overdose of Kulli and deprivation of KesGul scenes...but Mansi sick does create a lot of hamperings..poor woman is not even allowed to be sick at peace
But since the announcement by SF we see a change in Gulaal in a different way...the cravings of a woman awakened...
Well...till now everyone had pasted her high up the wall (Except Kesar..and to some extent Talli) and crowned her 'Her Royal Highness'...MB does care about her in his own way and had tried to get her settled in his own way, but he could not have approached this part ...
For the first time I think Gulaal felt that she was being SEEN as a woman...being expected something that a household wants from the daughter in law of the house...However tad awkward it might have felt it did awaken that 'woman' part of her...
Her expressions after that were so damn 'craving' ...For the first time more than the loss of Vasant in her life, her face showed the loss of what Vasant's death had brought into her life.
What I liked is that she was not offended or disgusted by Saru fai's announcement...I didnot see even mega embarrassment...It was just disappointment and the feeling of that seemingly irreparable, unfillable void in her life...
Her restlessness, her mindlessness in all the other works is because of that...(My POV)...
And you could see those feelings come out when she saw Kesar drumming bechara dhol ( I really pity the dhol everytime)...and she watched him all dazed...As if zapped !!
I know we all were depressed by Vasant's FBs cropping up but while watching the scene it struck me that she was looking at Kesar as if she was looking at her husband...and 'husband' is a word she attaches to Vasant..
You know ..I am really gonna give a chappal-phenk-ke-isse-maaro kind of example...but this is what struck my mind ...
when I was young (I still amš,,,but bhery bhery young that is) ...we used to say 'get this paper Xeroxed' or 'put this bottle in the Freeze'...What we meant was 'get this paper photocopied' and 'put this bottle in the Refrigerator'...
But Xerox was a company which started the photocopying thing in India so it was always 'get it xeroxed'...
We used to say get me a babool colgate...LOL...colgate was associated with toothpaste so much that we wanted a toothpaste with another brand name but still said colgate because Colgate was Synonymous to Toothpaste in India at that time...
So you see what we had in mind was babool( a brand name of toothpaste in India)...Colgate was just a default clause/name put in, because of our lack of proper knowledge and feeding of first impressions...
So for Gulaal the first impression..the first love, husband,..those feelings, cravings... are all associated with Vasant..so even if she has them for someone else...Vasant is bound to crop up...when she saw Kesar you could see that 'mesmerizing' 'flowering' feelings growing on her face...that was one amazing scene..the way it was directed..the way it connected the three of them and the way it showed a transformation in Gulaal...
Amazing!! Mansi hats off !!!
all her actions ..from gazing at Kesar almost open mouthedly to getting those flash backs and then getting conscious of the surroundings...her almost an ecstatic smile...a slow realization of those feelings and as if accepting defeat before them and letting them overcome and encompass and engulf her completely...
her smile and her almost wanting to go and join the dance was just ...well what can I say...it is so hard to put that scene in words but it was a milestone in Gulaal's life...
And as I said to Lennie that day..it is amazing...the kind of devotion she has for that dead man...only this kind of woman...a woman with this unwaivering devotion gets the love of a man like Kesar who is totally devoted to her...seems like God's way of giving back to her what she has given to a dead man...her heart life and soul...
And that is how the nature is giving her what she lost in all these years...and that is how love came knocking at her door..not once, but twice ...and now..her heart is opening to that another opportunity...it is flowering...not yet fully ...but may be a few petals opening...
her consciousness at Kesar's presence...her acknowledging the Suhagan's gift..taking it from Saru fai...
Her almost confession that she is not doing the Vrat under pressure...
She could have easily passed the buck to Sudha saying she is the one who needs to have a child...but she is doing it on her own volition...
Finally at ease and peace with herself...
But before the Vrat..there was her conversation with Talli...we all did laugh at Gulaal saying this na...'That one can be happy with the person who love them and not with whom they love'...Well, Surprising... considering her obstinacy over Kesar and Talli marriage...but as I said...Kesar has painted her red again...She is the Gulaal who would know and understand the love ...love as in a human emotion and not the 'greater than thou' love she is holding on to... Kesar did teach her to be free...to let go things she has been holding so near and dear to herself...Just like he did...He liberated her and so now she can be the same friend, philosopher and guide she was, and had been till the whole fiasco..to talli and the whole household...
and above all..
She can be just Gulaal!!
And as to why she doesnot put those lines for her own self...*sigh* it is a bit complicated...She doesnot have a person who 'doesnot' reciprocate her love...for her Vasant is still ALIVe ...how can she say that she will let go of him and love someone who loves her ..and forget that ominpresent entity in her life...
What she is not getting,..or rather it has completely been a subconcious thought which is yet to be acknowledged by her is that she wont be letting go of Vasant if she loves Kesar..
I think she deep downs knows it..it is just a matter of days when she OWNS it...š³
now to the SF's vrat issue...
Well, I do feel that she always has craved doing these things, you know...the woman could not even celebrate her first holi with her husband...(I mean Vasant..technically Kesar was her husband then, and she did play holi with him...but she had lost Vasant so soon in her life) ... She celebrated it with his photograph...her love overflowed in that moment and you could still see her smiling...but still, there was something that life had taken away from her and Sarufai and her pressure is making her do things which she has WANTED to do but has not been..so even under the guise of being 'pressurized' she is doing it...
But Kesar saying that he doesnot like her pressurized...just made her confess ..that it is not pressure..after all Kesar of all people should know ... how Gulaal is when pressure is put on herš It was not so long back that he has forgottenš
And you know, we might not like Gulaal falling in love with Kesar in this way.. but then this IS a unconventional story...I just was seeing that scene when she was hitting him playfully and he was saying 'Maar mat, Gulaal' and you could hear Ali's voice saying that...I mean in how many stories can you connect each moment with another in some other time and space and think that Yes!! this was toh BOUND to happen...it was as if WRITTEN on the stars...So however she falls...she is gonna make this journey complete...She has to...Vasant is up there looking upon them and gonna see this to the end...
whew! finally!! overš³
Hi sorry had to leave this thing in the midst...š³
Thanks š³
Kumkum Bhagya
Anupamaa
