First day without you

This is my first OS. I felt bad looking at Sai's bland expression. So penned down whatever I felt. Death is not an easy emotion to process. I tried to capture Sai wrapping her head around fact that Satya is no more.

There is a deafening silence in the room, one that mirrored Sai's heart. Sai vividly remembered the first time she entered this room as a newly wed. She felt uneasy then, the weight of her marriage with Satya started to sink in. The thought of running away crossed her mind but his comforting smile anchored her to reality.

Even in death, Satya had a serene smile, one that endeared him to everyone in the hospital. Here, she lies, eerily silent and devoid of emotion. He didn't complete her but oddly she felt empty without him. Perhaps he held her together in more ways than she recognized.

Sai looks at herself in the mirror and the memory of Satya knitting his button crosses her mind. She turns her eyes and spots him sketching with Savi. Savi is her sunshine, her miracle baby who gave her the hope to move forward when she lost the will to live. And Sai trusted Savi with Satya. Isn't it enough to show his place in her life? Perhaps not because he deserved so much more.

She opens the door of their washroom hoping for the familiar scent of cologne to hit her. It was not there, it will never be there. Sai turns on the shower and let the cool water touch her skin bringing it to life. Her back has hit the wall and she slid down curling herself into a ball.

Her lips wobbled and hot tears brimmed from her eyes. She could doze off here but Satya is not there to sit beside her and offer tissues and his comforting silence. She closed her eyes hoping the pain to shot through her senses, leaving her crying openly. But it doesn't happen. Not even a whimper escapes her lips.

Someone gently makes her stand and Sai sees Maddy with her puffy eyes, covering Sai in a towel and taking her out. Satya was her brother, Sai wanted to tell Maddy that she knew what it means to lose a brother. She lost her Samrat Dada. They will sail through this storm together. Before she could muster the will to speak, Maddy went to bring fresh clothes for Sai.

Sai remembers the smile on Satya's face when she showed him her pictures wearing the saree he gifted. It doesn't matter anymore but Sai couldn't stop herself from wearing the saree. She came to the hall and there in the middle lies the truth Sai would do anything to avoid.

Each step she took broke her heart into million pieces and stitched it together just so it can break it again the next moment. Everything flashed in front of her eyes. Meeting Satya on the road, becoming colleagues who can't stand each other, to friends and namesake couple to .....

Sai wished she knew what to fill there. What was Satya to her.

Her legs finally gave away making her kneel in front of the lifeless man. Sai didn't love him. It was and perhaps always will be Virat. But Sai wanted to tell Satya that his absence made her realize how bleak her life had become without him. Sai kissed on his forehead, her lips lingering there for several minutes. Sai sat there motionless, the only visible sign of life in her were the stream of tears falling down her cheeks. Savi hugged her mother and buried her face in her embrace. Sai hugged her back but her eyes remained glassy.

Virat wanted nothing more than Satya to be gone. When the man whom he has come to respect and despise in equal measure is truly gone, Virat didn't know how to feel. He saw how motionless Sai is. Virat saw her when she lost her Aaba. A young girl of 18 who lost the man dear to her more than anyone else. Her pain and tears tugged at his heart. He saw her cry when Samrat died begging to be a part of his last rites. He knew what Samrat meant for her.

But this here, it scared him. Satya's death has broken death Sai in a way that perhaps can't be mended. Satya was right Sai didn't love him but he touched her in ways Virat cannot fathom in his lifetime. Satya's body was taken away but Sai's gaze remained on the empty space.

Only rotten tomatoes allowed.

This was so painfully beautiful, I just could not help but imagine and feel so sad even thinking that Satya might die. I am gonna be honest with you, I was really avoiding the forum from yesterday because I did not want to face the fact that Satya might die, it was after such a long time that I started to like a fictional character so much that I rejoined the forum for a regular and fully active capacity only for him, and now knowing that his character is gonna be killed off in such a bad way was breaking my heart.

Thankfully I came online only to check trps and saw your post, and I can't express how overwhelmed I feel. The way you described the moments, the emotions Sai is going through, I was just visualizing it, frame by frame and each and every flashback scene just replayed in my mind. I never knew that Satya as a positive and lively character had impacted me so deeply before reading your OS, and that he created such a significant place in my heart in just mere 2 months. Thank you for writing this, this just might be my closure from the show and from Satya as well as Saiya. This is absolutely amazing!

It's true that we understand the value of many things only when we no longer have them, Satya is that diamond, that will take losing for Sai to realize, he deserved better. This write up is just a mirror of that. How I wish we could get such a beautiful farewell, but sadly we won't. So thank you for giving me this closure.

#SatyaAdhikarideservesbetter.

Sai's cold expressions knowing Satya is probably in such a critical situation was end to any form of attachment or love I felt for the character..

She was inhuman there..

The story is so heartbreaking beautiful 😢😢

👏👏👏❤ it's BEAUTIFUL.

Sad but amazing

Originally posted by: pratyay

This is my first OS. I felt bad looking at Sai's bland expression. So penned down whatever I felt. Death is not an easy emotion to process. I tried to capture Sai wrapping her head around fact that Satya is no more.

There is a deafening silence in the room, one that mirrored Sai's heart. Sai vividly remembered the first time she entered this room as a newly wed. She felt uneasy then, the weight of her marriage with Satya started to sink in. The thought of running away crossed her mind but his comforting smile anchored her to reality.

Even in death, Satya had a serene smile, one that endeared him to everyone in the hospital. Here, she lies, eerily silent and devoid of emotion. He didn't complete her but oddly she felt empty without him. Perhaps he held her together in more ways than she recognized.

Sai looks at herself in the mirror and the memory of Satya knitting his button crosses her mind. She turns her eyes and spots him sketching with Savi. Savi is her sunshine, her miracle baby who gave her the hope to move forward when she lost the will to live. And Sai trusted Savi with Satya. Isn't it enough to show his place in her life? Perhaps not because he deserved so much more.

She opens the door of their washroom hoping for the familiar scent of cologne to hit her. It was not there, it will never be there. Sai turns on the shower and let the cool water touch her skin bringing it to life. Her back has hit the wall and she slid down curling herself into a ball.

Her lips wobbled and hot tears brimmed from her eyes. She could doze off here but Satya is not there to sit beside her and offer tissues and his comforting silence. She closed her eyes hoping the pain to shot through her senses, leaving her crying openly. But it doesn't happen. Not even a whimper escapes her lips.

Someone gently makes her stand and Sai sees Maddy with her puffy eyes, covering Sai in a towel and taking her out. Satya was her brother, Sai wanted to tell Maddy that she knew what it means to lose a brother. She lost her Samrat Dada. They will sail through this storm together. Before she could muster the will to speak, Maddy went to bring fresh clothes for Sai.

Sai remembers the smile on Satya's face when she showed him her pictures wearing the saree he gifted. It doesn't matter anymore but Sai couldn't stop herself from wearing the saree. She came to the hall and there in the middle lies the truth Sai would do anything to avoid.

Each step she took broke her heart into million pieces and stitched it together just so it can break it again the next moment. Everything flashed in front of her eyes. Meeting Satya on the road, becoming colleagues who can't stand each other, to friends and namesake couple to .....

Sai wished she knew what to fill there. What was Satya to her.

Her legs finally gave away making her kneel in front of the lifeless man. Sai didn't love him. It was and perhaps always will be Virat. But Sai wanted to tell Satya that his absence made her realize how bleak her life had become without him. Sai kissed on his forehead, her lips lingering there for several minutes. Sai sat there motionless, the only visible sign of life in her were the stream of tears falling down her cheeks. Savi hugged her mother and buried her face in her embrace. Sai hugged her back but her eyes remained glassy.

Virat wanted nothing more than Satya to be gone. When the man whom he has come to respect and despise in equal measure is truly gone, Virat didn't know how to feel. He saw how motionless Sai is. Virat saw her when she lost her Aaba. A young girl of 18 who lost the man dear to her more than anyone else. Her pain and tears tugged at his heart. He saw her cry when Samrat died begging to be a part of his last rites. He knew what Samrat meant for her.

But this here, it scared him. Satya's death has broken death Sai in a way that perhaps can't be mended. Satya was right Sai didn't love him but he touched her in ways Virat cannot fathom in his lifetime. Satya's body was taken away but Sai's gaze remained on the empty space.

Only rotten tomatoes allowed.

Usually I m not into reading OS. But your 1st line was enough for me to continue reading as I myself cannot believe what the makers have made Sai into.

This is beautiful , tragic and heartbreaking at the same time 💔. The what ifs of life sometimes just remain so. Thanks for writing this- the closure we all deserve.

it's beautiful yet heart-wrenching emotional

this touched my heart

this piece was beautiful but I completely disagree that Sai has a cold and uncaring expression with regard to Satyas accident. Sai values Satya and will never be uncaring to him. she doesnt love him yet and maybe she wont for a while but she definitely has a lot of respect for him and his family. she cares about his happiness and she'd never deliberately hurt him. if people are expecting her to cry and react by telling Satya - dont leave me, I cant live without you- like she did for V- thats not gonna happen. but it doesnt mean she will be ok with Satya gone from her life. she genuinely trusts him, cares for him but their relationship is not at a point where she has moved on or sees him a potential partner. just because she has chosen to go silent in shock instead of breaking down like she may have in Vs accident doesnt mean she doesnt care for him. if Satya dies Sai will be broken. she will lose another person she values a lot. a person who supported her when she felt all alone.

Thank you for giving closure to SaiYa fans. This is heartbreaking and beautiful. If only Sai showed 1% of emotions of what you have written.. alas we never get to see that. Chalo koi nahi… I will replace this with Sai’s bland face in the precap and bid adieu to our lovely Sattu and this disgusting show.

Originally posted by: Nja91

this piece was beautiful but I completely disagree that Sai has a cold and uncaring expression with regard to Satyas accident. Sai values Satya and will never be uncaring to him. she doesnt love him yet and maybe she wont for a while but she definitely has a lot of respect for him and his family. she cares about his happiness and she'd never deliberately hurt him. if people are expecting her to cry and react by telling Satya - dont leave me, I cant live without you- like she did for V- thats not gonna happen. but it doesnt mean she will be ok with Satya gone from her life. she genuinely trusts him, cares for him but their relationship is not at a point where she has moved on or sees him a potential partner. just because she has chosen to go silent in shock instead of breaking down like she may have in Vs accident doesnt mean she doesnt care for him. if Satya dies Sai will be broken. she will lose another person she values a lot. a person who supported her when she felt all alone.

I hope you are right and Sai’s uneasiness, bechaini in yesterdays episode was for Sattu. I guess we will know in the next couple of episodes. I am done watching this shit.. someone please tag me if Sai breaks down for Sattu.