Thanks for the update, Neerja ❤️
I didn't side with either one of them more than the other today.... both of them are shattered, clouded in their own pain, and unable to understand each other. This fight broke my heart in a way that none of their fights before ever has. Because, more than ever before, it was so damn obvious how in love with each other they are, but they just can't see it.
Samrat's entry has pushed Sai to her mental collapse. The way she was talking about Samrat's pain today was basically an avenue for her to be able to express her own pain. I had written this in another post, but up until this point, all she knows about the past has been from Pakhi's behavior and from the yoga retreat teacher's words. But, now, she has come to understand that Samrat left the day after he got married due to Virat and Pakhi's relationship- something that could have been still vague for her, has come crashing down on her like a boulder hitting her with full force. This is an extremely hard-hitting reality to be able to confront. On top of that, now that Samrat wants to set Pakhi free, her greatest fears are coming true... because that just brings Virat and Pakhi one step closer to being able to be together in her mind. She is so entirely engulfed in these fears that she lost all control today and crossed every imaginable line. I truly hope she apologizes to Virat for her bitter words somewhere down the line. Today, the gist behind many of her statements to Virat were spot on- he needs to clarify everything to Samrat and make clear what place she and Pakhi have in his life. Her line about Pakhi being noble because she acts and behaves in the same way was so telling- she needs this same thing from Virat. She is so utterly confused by his actions and his affection towards her, but lack of verbal clarification. Once again, she was allowing herself to believe in the reality of this relationship... everything was going so well- college fest, birthday, the way in Virat begged her to stay with him. This one trip with the Lover's Point and Samrat brought it all crashing down. But, in accusing Virat of being in a masterplan and dropping her other bombs, she entirely shattered him. Even the karma dialogue was too far.... she is hurting, but that doesn't give her a free pass to say whatever nonsense she wants. She, in fact, has no idea what actually happened in the past. Virat made a mistake, a great one too, but he does not deserve all of this. He has never acted with malintentions- Sai and Samrat's happiness and wellbeing has been at the root of all of his vaadas and subsequent actions. Sai lost all control over her tongue, and her words cannot be justified in any way. There is a way she could have asked him about all of this- called him out, without throwing the accusations she did. But, she was so clouded by her emotions that she ended up uttering absolute garbage. There is a saying that the right thing, said in the wrong way, becomes wrong- and that is exactly what happened today.
Virat has, in many ways, dug his own grave and brought himself to this point... however, his character cannot be questioned like this. This man has never crossed the line. He has remained faithful to both his brother and his wife... his intentions have always been of gold. Once again, what always happens between these two, happened today. Sai's harsh words and bitter exterior left him in utter shock and heartbreak...more than ever before. He kept saying that Sai has insulted him, but what was paining him more than his own insult was that she was insulting his unwavering love for her. I don't think anyone can blame him for not clarifying things today. At this point, he thinks that Sai despises him...has no place in her heart, let alone life for him. He has been so deeply misunderstood by the person who means everything to him. Sai kept saying that he was unhappy that Samrat has returned, but in reality, he was broken that the two people he values most can question him like this. He was too clouded in his own emotions to see the hurt that Sai was in...he was too pained to see that Sai's pain was because of how much she loves him. I understand why he told Sai not to interfere in his matters anymore, but this is just going to make her feel even more like the third wheel...these words are going to haunt her. The fact that this was the first time Sai brought up leaving and he didn't counter was so sad. He has given up all hope... so much so, that he is setting her free. Yes, because he feels hurt, but more so, because he believes her happiness is elsewhere. I'm not going to take these words at face value though, because we all know that he says things (just like Sai) that he does not mean all the time. It is going to be too hard for him to follow through with this.... Sai's face when he was saying these words was painful beyond measure...
Edited by tptwi - 4 years ago