Originally posted by: jankiraghav
I am reposting from an older post the day of their outing i think because it is exactly what I still feel and the answer to the same question of why (i think) he married Sai:
For the fear of repeating myself, I would say, like I have mentioned in several posts before, I believe the real reason why Virat is not going to verbalise his 'affection' for Sai spashth shabdon mein for a long time is because the current status of being 'caught in the crossroad' is actually also a way to protect his heart as well. We all agree that it's Sai who is getting a raw deal and will hurt more. It's true. But it is also true that Virat will always be apprehensive about speaking out about his 'affection' to Sai for the fear of rejection -- knowing that he himself has asked her to keep distance and therefore, by virtue, lost the right to expect her to love in return.
Recall their conversation before their wedding when Sai wanted to desperately hear why he wanted to marry her -- and when he didn't answer, she desperately wanted to push him to refuse the marriage. But he didn't. And she wanted to know why? Virat said, "Har sawaal ka jawab hota hai par har sawaal ka jawab dena zaroori nahin..."
To my mind, it was Virat trying to evade telling her the truth as he felt it -- and he didn't want to lie. The truth was what he said a few episodes ago --- "tumhare na Milne Ka dar, tumhare Saath Kuch galat ho jaane Ka darr... Mujhe chain se jeene Nahi deta, ghoot ta rehta"... Also, at that moment, his 'true love' was really not even on his mind. It was as an afterthought when Sai asked about 'Aap Pakhi se kya kahenge?' twice and it hit him that he must tell her about the vaada -- the sudden misery that overcame him when he said, 'Nahin... Umeed mat rakhna'
The suicide attempt had rattled him-- not merely because she was the daughter of his guru and the officer who gave up his life to save him or the guilt that she'd just wanted to leave the place for a new life but somehow he came in the way of her dreams... but because it had affected HIM -- the thought of 'disconnecting' beyond reach. "Mujhe pata hota tum aisa kuch soch rahi ho toh main tumhe kabhi akela nahi chhodhkar jaata..." Wouldn't Virat have still looked out for her even if she hadn't attempted suicide? Obviously, he would have because he would have realised that he's left his peace of mind back with Sai. They would have still fallen in love even if she had been on her own because he had admitted that he felt 'connection' with her. There was no other way for him to find peace than to marry her and keep her in front of his eyes -- not merely for the zimmedari but for HIM - his own compulsion to ensure that she doesn't 'disconnect' from him in any way.
For Virat, it wasn't "love" for Sai, just like it still isn't. But it was definitely, beyond any doubt, a bond of the soul he felt with Sai -- right from the moment he met her. They were instinctively drawn to each other (not romantically), they were brutally honest yet actually had respect for each other in their minds, their value systems were aligned with each other, they could sense each other like they'd known each other since ages, they trusted each other without second thought from the word go, and MOST IMPORTANT---- they could converse with each other about inane things-- loss, pain, dreams, anger, courage, food and 'connection' and they could talk in loud words and in silence too.
Virat will soon also learn that with Sai around him, he can actually move forward in life -- not only move on but move forward. The energy that she has is enough to propel him to shake him awake when needed. Woh toh abhi she's not even asking for her 'rights'. But Chavan Saheb, ek baar sirf aadha handover karke dekhna. The mutual personal growth that you'll experience will awaken your long forgotten dreams.
Virat has been aware about the 'connection'. That is why, he does not hide his care and his fondness for Sai -- Chakram niwas ki public bhi sab jaanti hai But acknowledging that you love someone enough to seek their love in return comes accompanied by a lot of stuff that can make the bravest of people feel scared and guarded — the fear of rejection, possible pain of a heartbreak, disappointment -- all legitimate fears that act as a barrier.
Aside from the senseless vaada (almost non existent now) the bigger insecurity is his own assumption that Sai hates him and would have never married him had it not been for the circumstances.
We have all been wondering, Does Virat consider her really think of her as 'patni' to point out that she used the word 'pati'. I am going to speak only from my mind: My answer is a resounding 'Yes'. He does. He does not consider her a 'patni' -- it began with the intention of not establishing a conjugal relationship with her yet but he definitely knows, accepts and considers her his 'wife' -- someone he will look out for, reach out to and also stand up for. If he didn't, he wouldn't have been filled with so much conviction at the gruh pravesh, reminding his livid elders that the he has 'married' the girl and brought her home as a 'bahu'. And now, he is actually also seeking that conjugal relationship. It is only a natural progression
I never believed that he said the 'tum doctor ban ne ke baad ye Shaadi chhodhkar chali jaana' in the literal sense. I believe it was said with just as much sincerity as was needed at that moment calm Sai down. He wanted her to know that she will have the freedom to choose to be with him or not in the arrangement they have agreed to, once they are 'equals' because "main baandh kar nahi rakhunga"... And batao toh, who takes on the entire Khandaan for a five-seven year marriage deal? And also gets extremely cautious that no one hears about this 'deal'?
In the moment that he accepted her hand in kanyadaan and then placed the mangalsutra around her neck -- hearing and soaking in the Pandit's words and Sai's questioning eyes about the Pavitra janmon janam ka Bandhan -- their gaze was enough to convey the commitment. And, he did give a 'hamesha hamesha' ka vachan. Set aside all the rubbish they speak about the 'deal', neither of them is going to "leave" the marriage. They might separate due to circumstances but they will not leave -- eternal soulmates never do.
i completely agree with you. virat and sai are like two halves. i might bot always like virat, i am more of sai shipper but i have no doubt that they belong with each other. do they really need each other to live?no. they are both strong enough to live on their own. would they be happy without each other? may be. but they both would not have this peace or contentment which can only be achieved with soul mates, even when they fight tooth and nail.
sai to me is like a storm, always angry and uncontrollable. virat is her tehrav, the person who grounds her. virat is like a pond - still and sai to him is that force which would propell him to reach his destination. they need each other because the other makes them the best version of themselves. that is the reason why they belong with each other.
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