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Infatuation..Like..Love??
Getting up in the morning, I make myself a breakfast after freshening up. I live alone in the city and have to take care of myself. I shifted here after getting admitted to the college in the city leaving my parents working in another. Though at first it was a completely new and scary experience but by now I have completely adapted to this amazing city after spending the amazing four years of my college life here. After completing college, though mom-dad wanted me back with them but since i got placed in a company, I convinced them to let me try the job for an year or so and they agreed after a lot of persuasion. This is not exactly my first day or something in the company but I am kind of nervous today because this is the first time, I'll be presenting my project in front of my team. So I check my work and then go to the office. And there I get the news that my project head has met with an accident due to which, I'll have to present it to his immediate boss. I tried to keep myself calm as I entered the conference room. Just as I am about to start with the project presentation, I look up to my new boss and completely blank out for a moment. I start again as my friends and boss look strikingly at me. I complete the presentation with minor mistakes and at the end my boss congratulates me for completing the project within deadline. And as he touches my hand, I keep looking at him for a moment and thank him before completely embarrassing myself. He smiles at me and goes out, I stand there smiling as my girl friends gush about how handsome he looks or how intelligent he is.
It is a month after my first presentation with my new boss and some thing have changed..may be for better. We have become not best friends but somewhat good friends, we talk a lot about different subjects and spend time together a lot during office hours. I don't much about infatuation or love but I see myself cherishing the happy times with him, the moments when he makes me smile, the moment when he insists on dropping me if it is late or just the moments when he is simple working or helping the team. I don't know if he feels even half of what I feel but I simply love this feel. Though I don't believe much in love and all, but this amazing feel is making me feel it...
I smile thinking about it, 6 months with my new boss and still the excitement and zeal for working with him, talking to him or just being in the same room as him is there. Though he is friendly with everyone as with me but still I feel special every time he talks to me, every time he helps me out. I know I feel much more for him then as a friend, but I never tried to pursue my interest. I was happy being a friend, cherishing these small moments. At times his intelligence, his respect for juniors and colleagues, his smiling and lovely nature and above all the beautiful heart of his made me fall all over again for him.
I sat thinking on my bed as my mom and dad packed my things up for me to move back to my original city. They have been bugging me about marriage and moving back from quite a time but I never knew they were this serious. I tried making them understand but they weren't ready to listen and gave me the last day to attend the company. I tried making excuses but even they knew that my bond period is over and now it is my wish whether or not to continue with the company.
I take the bus and sit quietly at my seat thinking over and over whether to tell my parents about him, but then I have no idea about his feeling or to talk to him but then I don't know whether he will agree or not. Even then I decided that whatever be his feelings, I'll accept but I won't go without expressing my feelings. Absentmindedly I reach to the office and inform them about my or my parents decision, my friends wish me luck and we celebrate a little as we didn't know when we'll be able to meet again. I keep looking at his office time and again, the peon informs me that he hasn't come yet. So I sit at my place looking at the door, waiting for him and a chance to express my feelings. I am dejected at the end of the day since he didn't come and even his phone was unreachable.
And now I sit at my house with the house filled with relatives, a lady applying mehandi to my hands and celebrations going on around me since their elder daughter was getting married. My mom did ask about my sad face but then I didn't see the point in telling them, they were so happy and confident about the boy and I didn't have any idea about his side of story, his feelings, just nothing at all.
I smile looking at my family, their happy faces, my cousins dancing around, they are my lifeline and then see the card that was kept in front of me with
Geet Handa
weds
Maan Singh Khurana
written on top of it.
I don't know whether to be happy or to be sad...
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Vanshaj
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