Milestone SS on Maan's Memory Loss Track Epilogue/Pg 85 Dt 18/03/'15 - Page 8

KHURANA MANSION

[Geet's POV]

It is rightly said, 'A new day - a new hope!' and today was one such day for our relation specially after Maan's memory loss! Though yesterdays showdown had dampen my spirits leaving very little hope of something positive coming up but Maan voicing out his turmoil to me came as a cool shower in the otherwise burning hot desert!

His calmed form, his changed stance and an initiative to take a step forward towards working out our relationship just breathed in a new lease of life in me. I knew he was still in a troubled state of mind but this one glimpse of My Maan was more than enough for me!

These moments were so special but...

Nakul's call was unknowingly making me restless though he just informed me to reach home soon but I could feel it that something not so pleasant is going to brace us. As Maan pulled up the car in the portico I just ran inside the mansion only to witness the servants running around while Dadimaa was supervising over them and NT standing in a corner with her head held low.

I walked upto Dadimaa and queried the reason for all this commotion to which Dadimaa fumbled.

"Kuch...kuch nahi bete...woh haan...yahan sab bahot ganda ho gaya tha na...toh hum inn sabse safaai karwa rahi the." She tried to distract me. But I could see through her attempts as I had myself got the whole mansion cleaned up by the servants yesterday night after the Teej puja.

I was sure Dadimaa was hiding something and I need to find it out!

I was about to follow Nakul to get to root of the matter but something halted my steps.

[Dadimaa's POV]

I had gone to visit my best friend who was back here in India after many years, we had decided to spend the whole day together to catch up on the lost time but Nakul's untimely call left me with no choice but to return home. He informed me that NT has forcefully sent him to the market to fetch certain items and was ordering the servants around back home.

NT was surely up to something and he too was on his way back.

Nakul and I managed to reach home around the same time. Vinod came rushing to us and revealed NT's weird behavior and how they had somehow managed to prevent her from setting up a chaos at home.

I was appalled to see the mess she had created!

Deepak had already released the water supply on my instructions so NT would be out in no time. She rushed out to finish off her incomplete work but was shocked to see me back home way before time. I started grilling her regarding the whole mess she had created.

"NT kya aap hume bata sakte hain ke aap ne kyun yeh saara samaan bahar nikalwaya hain?"

"Dadimaa...woh...hum...actually...humne socha ke thodi safaai karwa dete hain." She tried to cover up but I knew she was indeed upto something. What was her interest to get the storeroom cleaned all of a sudden.

"NT iss ghar ki zimmedaari aap hum par aur Geet par hi chod dijiye. Aap mehmaan hain aur mehmaan ki tarah hi rahiye...samjhi aap." I stated firmly.

Maan and Geet had a meeting with The D'mello's so it wouldn't be possible for them to be back so early. Not wanting to create any scene in front of Maan I ordered the servants to clear up all the mess and put all the things back to where they actually belong but...

To my surprise Geet was back early! She too was worried seeing the chaos but I tried to distract her but I guess that wasn't possible.

The next moment Geet was about to walk away when she tripped over a carton, she somehow managed to balance herself and bent down to check the box and I closed my eyes in regret.

Now I clearly understood what was NT's plan and she did manage to succeed in it!

[Naintara's POV]

I was livid with the carelessness of these servants here. I was totally drenched in paint and there wasn't a drop of water in the bathroom to clean myself. I stood there helpless for don't know how much time and finally the water supply was resumed. Cleaning all the mess I rushed out to finish off my plan but Dadimaa was back.

Yet again all my planning was ruined!

Not wasting a moment she started interrogating me, clearly doubting my intentions. I tried to appear normal not giving out my irritation and displeasure on loosing this opportunity.

Dadimaa ordered the servants to quickly put back all the things back in the room, ruining my plan but I guess my luck was favoring me today and the object of my interest was right beside me.

I immediately stepped ahead covering the box, my saree helping me in hiding the box from all. Geet too barged in and started inquiring the reason of the chaos around. Dadimaa tried to avoid the topic but Geet didn't seem convinced. Taking up an opportunity when Dadimaa wasn't looking my way I slowly kicked the box towards Geet who was about to leave. She nearly tripped over the box and as expected the all time curious Geet opened the box to check it.

Finally my job is done. Now I just need to sit back with a tub of popcorn and enjoy the drama!

"Hume beizzat kiya tha na!...Ab pata chalega aap sab ko NT kya cheez hain. Aaj ka hamaara vaar Geet ko khoon ke ansoon rulayega aur iss baar toh Maan Veerji bhi Geet ko nahi bacha paayenge!"

[Maan's POV]

I had nearly managed to pull up the car in the portico when Geet whisked out of the car and was into the mansion the very next moment. It seemed very strange but after confiding my feelings to Geet I was at peace! Geet's smiling face, her eyes brimming with hope was soothing my otherwise restless soul but that one call changed it all!

The only words she spoke after the call was.

"Maan hume abhi ghar jaana hoga."

The drive back home was silent. She wasn't in herself, she was fidgety, tensed and scared confirming my doubt that something not so pleasant was awaiting us at the mansion. Putting rest to my thoughts I entered in to brace the situation. A tirade of servants moving to and fro with some boxes in their hands. Dadimaa was engaged in a conversation with Geet and NT standing at a distance from them.

I slowly walked towards them carefully not making my presence felt and shielded myself behind a pillar to grasp what exactly was happening around.

'Now I know one thing for sure...that they will do anything under the sun to keep me away from the all the facts related to my past!'

Dadimaa had tried her best to distract Geet by her lame excuse but Geet didn't seem convinced and was about to walk away but lost her balance. On a reflex I moved forward to hold her but she had managed to balance herself in time and I immediately stepped back regaining my earlier position. I was surprised at my own behavior, the moment I saw Geet tripping I just couldn't control myself. I felt some unknowing pull to safeguard her...but why?

I brushed off these thoughts for time being concentrating on the scene ahead. Geet bent down and opened the box she had tripped over and all of a sudden her expressions changed from curiosity to pain and now tears brimming out her eyes. Not waiting for a moment she lifted the box and ran towards her room.

Dev too was back by now and shared a worried and defeated look with Dadimaa and inquired.

"Dadimaa yeh sab kaise hua?"

"Iska jawaab aap NT se hi pooch lijiye." She stated pointedly.

Ignoring NT totally, Dev suggested Dadi to console Geet but Dadi refrained.

"Nahi Dev iss waqt Geet ko kuch der akele chodna hi theek hoga. Kuch ghaav ko bharne mein waqt lagta hain." saying she headed towards her room.

Dev turned towards NT and scornfully spoke.

"NT tum..." But NT didn't let him complete and justified her point.

"Dev hum toh sirf safaai karwa rahe the, hume kya pata inn boxes mein kya tha."

"Bewakoof kisi aur ko bana na NT. Rag rag se waakeef hoon (know u inside out) mein tumhaari lekin yeh baat tumhe bahot mehengi padegi. Geet ki dukhti rag (weakness) par vaar kiya hain tumne woh bhi jaan bujh ke."

"Bro ki yaadaasht ka faayda utha rahi ho na tum...Bro toh bhool gaye hain par mujhe sab yaad hain. Iska jawaab mein tumhe doonga woh bhi bahot jald. Just wait and watch." Dev left challenging her.

I headed towards my room with a heavy heart!

I couldn't see what was in that box but Geet's tears felt like thousands of needles piercing my heart! Again that emptiness, that restlessness, that discomfort was back to haunt me. Till yesterday I tried to stay aloof from any emotional attachment towards Geet but today why were her tears bothering me so much...Why were Dev and Dadimaa so worried...What were the contents in that box...Why I want to know the reason to her pain...Why I feel like barging to her room to get a glimpse of her and make sure she is fine.

So many questions but answers non!!!!!!

Its been an hour since Geet has locked herself in her room. I have already ventured couple of times to her room but its still shut. I even lifted up my hand to knock on the door but refrained...not knowing how to face her...what to say...how to react...how to console her.

I felt so blank. lost and helpless!

I was trying hard to concentrate on a project report but in vain! Right now all I could think about is only Geet. A knock on the door made me turn around to see Nakul, who was here to inform me that the dinner table was set and everybody was waiting for me. Not having a heart to even swallow a morsel of food down my throat. I refused.

"Tum Dadimaa se keh do mujhe abhi bhook nahi hain. Main baad mein kha loonga."

"Geetji ne bhi mana kar diya aur ab Chotesaab ne bhi." Dejected Nakul made his way down the stairs mumbling to himself.

I stood in the corridor over looking the dinning area. Everybody was seated but non was interested in the food served. To my surprise even Geet's Mamaji too seemed disturbed with the happenings today. Nakul conveyed to Dadimaa about Geet and my refusal. A worried Nandini stood up to leave, in an attempt to persuade Geet to have her dinner but Dadimaa stopped her.

"Rukiye Nandini aap apna khana kha lijiye. Hum khud Geet ko baad mein khana khila denge." Dadimaa too left the table followed by Dev. Slowly everybody except NT were gone. Dinner in all the plates remain untouched!

I was amused to witness what Geet and her happiness meant to every single person here!

Each passing moment was choking me, a weird kind of feeling was settling within me. Some unknown, unnamed pain was surging through my body but I couldn't voice it out! A hammering headache was knocking me out. I just couldn't relate to this anxiety. What was happening to me...why was I so affected by Geet's pain...what is everybody trying to hide from me...Is Geet okay?

Snapping the last thread of my patience I stomped out of my room. I need to see Geet atleast once, just a glimpse of her. I want to make sure she is fine. I want to help her out. I need to know the cause of her pain. I want to be with her!

I marched forward with determination towards Geet's room only to find Dadima coaxing her to open the door. It had been quite sometime now and all were worried for her but gaining no reply yet again. Dadimaa opened the door with the duplicate key. Taking away the dinner tray from Nakul's hand Dadimaa signaled Nakul to leave. She moved in the room. I waited for few moments and then slowly sneaked in Geet's room.

The view left me shell shocked!!!!!!!

Geet in a dazed state, was sitting on her bed and toys scattered everywhere on the bed. So that carton contained toys but why did it hurt Geet so much. Whose toys were these, to my knowledge we don't have any infant in our family then who?

But the next moment just snatched away the ground beneath my feet! My question was answered but...

Leaving the tray on the side table Dadimaa sat beside Geet and caressed her head lovingly. Like her small but warm gesture broke the dam of Geet's emotions she leaped ahead and hugged Dadimaa crying her heart out! She kept murmuring.

"Mera baccha...Dadimaa...mera baccha..." I stood there aghast as one of the biggest truth of my life was revealed to me. Baby...Our baby?

Dadimaa consoled her.

"Ro lijiye bete, dil khol ke ro lijiye...aap ka mann halka ho jaayega."

"Kyun Dadimaa humne kisi ka kya bigada tha ke Maan aur mujhe itni badi sazaa mili. Kyun Babaji ne hamaare baby ko cheen liya humse...Kyun kiya...Dadimaa aisa kyun kiya..." She was inconsolable!

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Not having any more courage to handle this truth I walked out.

Mujhe yun hi kar ke khwaabon se juda

Jaane kahan chhup ke baitha hai khuda

Jaanu na main kab hua khud se gumshuda

Kaise jiyun rooh bhi mujhse hai juda

I absently walked to the gym. Tai Chi was my only respite!

Kyun meri raahein mujhse poochhein

Ghar kahan hai

Kyun mujhse aa ke

Dastak poochhein dar kahan hai

Her each tear felt like a slap! I was so helpless that couldn't even relate to her pain because I don't remember anything. The fact that we were going to have a baby...

Raahein aisi jinki manzil hi nahin

Dhoondho mujhe ab main rehta hoon wahin

Dil hai kahin aur dhadkan hai kahin

Saansein hain magar kyun zinda main nahin

I vented out my frustration through my blows, kicks, breaking tiles, doing fire acts, crushing the ice but still I felt helpless and forlorn. I collapsed on the floor! Even my life lay like these broken pieces scattered around.

Reth bani haathon se yun beh gayi

Takdeer meri bikhri har jagah

Kaise likhun phir se nayi daastan

Gham ki siyahi dikhti hai kahan

The moments of my life which were meant to cherish lifelong were lost in the darkness. Pain that shattered us, our life was long forgotten! Today I am unable to relate to My Geet, our loss...Our Baby!

Raahein jo chuni hain meri thi raza

Rehta hoon kyun phir khud se hi khafa

Aisi bhi huyi thi mujhse kya khata

Tune jo mujhe di jeene ki saza

She was struggling with her pain, loss, was craving for me, my love, my support and...I was in my own world! Ignorant of her woes, I was lost in my own battle to remember my past. When she needed me the most I disappointed her, hurt her, humiliated her never tried to relate to her. I was never there for her...never!

Bande tere maathe pe hain jo khinchi

Bas chand lakeeron jitna hai jahaan

Aansun mere mujhko mitate rahein

Rab ka hukm na mitata hai yahan

Today she needs me but I... I'm at loss of words...Can't hold her to me and console her...All the joyous moments that we must have shared, all the testing times we have overcome together, all the battles that we have won have blanked out of my being!

Raahein aisi jinki manzil hi nahin

Dhoondho mujhe ab main rehta hoon wahin

Dil hai kahin aur dhadkan hai kahin

Saansein hain magar kyun zinda main nahin

But now I'm here and will not give up! I will not fall weak in the hands of fate. I will create my own destiny, our own world filled with happiness once again. I will be with my Geet!

Kyun main jaagoon

Aur woh sapne bo raha hai

Kyun mera rab yun

Aankhen khole so raha hai

Kyun main jaagoon

Getting a grip on myself I got up with a firm resolve! It was time to act, time find answers and make amends. I walked back to Geet's room the door was ajar and Dev was talking to her.

She still seemed distant and non responsive. I stepped back in the shadows of the curtains in the corridor as a disappointed Dev moved out of the room and met up with equally worried Dadimaa.

"Dadimaa ab kya hoga.Geet ki aisi haalat mujhse dekhi nahi jaati. Uss waqt toh Bro ne apne pyaar, apni koshishon (efforts) aur apni sakhthi (sternness) se Geet ko sambhal liya tha lekin ab toh hum Bro ko bata bhi nahi sakte. Kaise sambhalenge hum Geet ko." Dev rued.

"Pata nahi Dev. Kyun har baar hamaari parivaar ki khushiyaan aane se pehle hi cheen jaati hain. Kabhi nahi socha tha ke Maan apni Geet ko bhool jaayenge. Maan ke hote hue Geet itni akeli pad jaayegi aur hum itne laachaar (helpless) ho jaayenge." She too added defeatedly.

"Dev NT kahan hain? Please unn par nazar rakhiye ke ab woh Geet ko aur takleef na pohucha paaye." Dadimaa urged Dev.

"Aap fikar mat kijiye Dadimaa ab woh kuch nahi karegi. Maine sab settle kar diya hain aap please so jaayiye. I'm sure kal tak Geet bhi apne aap ko sambhal legi." He assured Dadimaa.

Dadimaa retired in her room. Lucky came up to Dev and stated.

"Dev paaji kaam ho gaya hain! Ab main bhi sone jaata hoon."

"Thanks Lucky Paaji." Dev thanked him. As Lucky left Dev mumbled to himself heading towards his room.

"NT ab tumhe ehsaas hoga ke takleef, darr aur dard kya hota hain. Aaj ki raat tum kabhi nahi bhoologi. Its my promise to you and myself!"

I know non of them will reveal the actual truth to me! They think I'm weak and will not be able to handle the facts but I need to know it all. But who will help me?

Like Babaji sent me my savior! Nakul emerged of nowhere with a glass of milk for me. I know Dadimaa must have sent him as I had skipped dinner today. I quickly checked on Geet she was asleep now. I grasped Nakul and pulled him my room. His face lost colour and fear was evident in his eyes. I softened a bit and spoke.

"Nakul yeh sab kya hain? Kyun Geet iss tarah ro rahi thi aur yeh khilone (toys) ?" He stared at me in disbelief and his mouth agape.

Not gaining any response from him I requested this time.

"Please!" My earnest request and sincerity prompted him to speak up.

"Woh Chotesaab...aap ne khud apne aanewale bacche ke liye yeh saathwala (adjoining) room design kiya tha. Yeh saare toys aur bahot saare dusre cheezen (many other things) hain jo sab baby ke liye sajaaya (decorate) tha. Kuch waqt pehle Geetji seediyon se phisal gayi thi aur aap ka honewala baccha..." He couldn't complete.

"Uss accident ke baad Geetji poori tarah se toot gayi thi. Saara saara din baby room mein rehti thi, na khana khaati thi na hi soti thi. Sab ne bahot koshish ki unhe sambhalne ki lekin...Phir ek din aap ne apne dil par patthar rakh kar baby room ka saara saamaan pack karwa kar storeroom mein rakhwa diya taake Geetji iss sadme se bahar nikal paaye." He disclosed futher.

"Geetji pehle bahot gussa hui, naraaz bhi ho gayi aap se lekin phir dheere dheere sambhal gayi lekin aaj phir se woh sab dekh ke unke poorane zakhm phir se taaza ho gaye. Chotesaab sirf aap hi unhe sambhaal sakte hain." He finished and pleaded to me.

"Hmmm...Nakul kisi ko mat batana ke main yeh sab jaanta hoon." I stated and also inquired.

"Geet ne kuch khaaya?" To which he replied.

"Nahi main unke room mein doodh ka glass rakha hain lekin..."

"Tum jao main dekh loonga." I assured him.

Nakul left and again I couldn't help but unknowingly my feet dragged me towards Geet's room but before I could enter in I saw Geet walking out of her room. I followed her at a distance and was rooted to the ground seeing her enter the store room. There were minimal lights in the store room. I tried to focus in the faint light and finally found her laying on the baby bed with a doll in her embrace.

Unknowingly tears trickled down my eyes. I couldn't comprehend the magnitude oh her pain and her loneliness. She was fighting the agony alone and I was unknown to all this till now. But not anymore!

"Geet tum akeli nahi ho...main hoon tumhare paas...tumhaare saath!"

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