Okay… I guess I will have to always quote this without fail that I just love… love … love each chapter of this story. Each time I feel the updated part will be treasured by me the most but then that stands true just till the next one is updated, because as soon as you update the next it climbs the most treasured chapter list. Thanks for sharing this story with all of us; it's my daily addiction now.😳
I must say I love the way you give space & growth for each character in your story, it is so splendid. Even the minutest role is given due importance & space for building up of character so much so that they impact us in a way that they remain in our consciousness when they're mentioned the next time.👏👏
Each part is like a mixed bag of stories, small OSs packed together; with each speaking a tale of their own with their own central characters which when brought together make a beautiful packaged culmination into a treasured and cherished story of lives. 😳 Be it Su- zaria, Dia, Satya, Awasthy, Sahay, Dr. Guha or even Melinda. Each of these characters is central role of their own stories that have been brought together to show us different realities & nature of human life and how beautifully they can be mingled together in one story contributing to its beauty. Yes the leads are vital enough but then I have fallen in love with each of the characters here that none seem side/ supporting roles but all are crucial & have their own beautiful nature with all their strengths & weakness… it all seems so real as in reality all of us are leads in our lives but yet come together in this society forming our own small lives influencing each other. (Before I go to tangent & philosophical I better shut up and comment about the update… 😆)
I had read the part yesterday but then I read it again today, and thank goodness I did read it again or else I would have missed out on the beautiful addition….. Naureen's awesome shayari, which added the extra beauty to the update; so beautiful & apt to the scene. It was a connecting link between he the two parts.. … previous & this one. Indeed their whole existence depends o n each other that the world encompasses just them for each other. ❤️ Saara xamana tu….👏
Lovely connection between the two parts, by starting from where it was ended in the last giving us a view to what Geet was experiencing and living through that sensuous haze he weaved on her to block her from thinking anything other than "HIM" ❤️
Geet's POV gave the needed view for us to have a complete feel of it all as it covered all the loops. She did feel horrid reminder of the violence she went through with his initial touch but then it was just him that she felt. She was tuned to all his gestures & flickering emotions that she could distinguish each of his unsaid words. When they stared in each other's eye having the first eye lock after ages that was the beginning of her healing through his unbound and pure love …. Not only her healing but even his …. "Like he was holding onto this moment with me …. To last forever." She saw the pain in his eyes when she revealed to him about that Creep's touch on her that jolted her being seeing him pained. I feel that flickering pain was needed to be noticed & lived by her as that caused the needed thawing of the ice coldness that had seeped into her causing her to detach form all & sink into depression. Once that coldness started exiting her did she started feeling true love & warmth radiating through her being from him, as it helped me & strengthened him to take all her nightmares with him to be disposed off forever. The haze of it all on her was enough to cleanse her off the unclean feeling she was experiencing as now she just felt him a part of her being…. The signature of his touch all over her…. ❤️ He has now got copyright on her, she is just his. 😆 😃
But though the healing has started within her there's still long way to go for her. She still has her inner demons to deal with. The insecurity and unworthiness or incapacity to be loved still haunts her time & again; pushing her back each time a step of love is taken towards her as she sees everything with blinded view of inner demons that the pouring love leaves questions of self doubt & worth in her.
"He was everything I ever wanted … but at that moment my erupting emotions had crossed the threshold of my tolerance."
Arjun has just begun to touch the tip of the iceberg of the wounds and scars & conflicts suppressed within her being that of a child enclosed in a woman he loves unbounded now. But nevertheless he has taken steps in right direction only he needs to hold on till the end, as now she has only him to be with her even though she tries pushing him always, harsher each time.
"I don't know who he is to me, I don't know what he feels about me … obligation or not. But I just feel one thing … Just him. Only him I can ever love. He smothers me, frightens me."
"He will wait for me? But I had never left him… he did… I always stood where he had stopped loving me…"
She is feeling his love but fears to lose him, she feels this should not be her illusion as if this time it shatters she would be scarred forger. Because now he has become her sole existence, her now nirvana & world. But she also wants liberation in the form of his forgiveness because then that will heal her. For now she fears belonging to someone, it hurts her to get tied down with feelings of attachment & want by him as then the fall this time will be strong breaking her, so she wants to be cold towards it but he is not letting her tying her down with his love & care that he conveyed with his kiss on her ankle that she is all deserving & worthy of his devotion, love & passion … it's just her & will always be her.
It was this unconscious but strong confidence he instilled in her that she was able to confront Anant refusing to go back with him. Taking his implied challenge of enduring it all knowing deep within her that he will always be there standing in vicinity to keep a watch on her. But when she tried evading & convincing Anant to stay in the hostel Arjun heard it. But after reading the both perspectives I feel he won't be misunderstanding it. His reaction was so because he feared her choice when it comes to choose between a father figure she was left with when she lost all relations (either to death or to destiny) or the man who has come to be sole reason for existence. He fears losing her to manipulation by that pretend love she was showered with and held onto till his entry again I n her life, because he knows that he too has kept things & important truth from her.
CID
