bandishein mohabbat#4 LAST PART+EPI pg/134 may11th - Page 56

Originally posted by: sdlife19

confuse soul😕

Originally posted by: dreamyharika

di you know abt my confusion na😭

Originally posted by: sdlife19

just give me a day and will get back😛

Originally posted by: anmirza

Waiting!!!!!!!

Originally posted by: lovesia

Didu for u

She tore the letter into pieces as an unknown pain over took her senses, it seemed to her as if this guilt trip of him will lead to a damage which both of them would never be able to fix!! Somewhere her heart wanted to be strong, strong enough to hold herself from pain as it will only lead to a break point which will not be good for her. And then she knows where maan can go, till now he did not say anything to her. But now for once her heart was aching badly to know what is running in his mind!! She wanted to speak to him, ask him as to why he was holding himself back even after her forgiving him back.

She called him for numerous times but maan did not pick it up not for once. Finally loosing her control she has left to the same apartment where both of them used to stay. In these days of being together geet did understand maan's mindset and now nothing bothered her, she is strong enough to stand any situation. She was about to ring the doorbell when she found the door to be open partially, she entered inside to find the whole house dark. She shivered for a moment but still she walked further towards the balcony where she saw a shadow and she knows who it could be!!

Her hands wanted to hold him, tell him that she has actually forgotten his dead but then she stood there understanding that maan was not moving at all. He was staring blankly at the sky, but before she could say something she heard his voice ... This is my life geet, this is what I deserve after whatever I did to you!! Loneliness, nothing else meri galtiyon ki sazaa bhi shayad yehi tha, to avenge I have spoiled your life and now this avenge will eat me alive he said not understanding that those words were effecting geet.

She came forward and slapped him hard on his cheek then held his collar tight between her palms so you want to die like a coward Mr. Maan singh khurana?? Agar marna hi solution hota toh I would not have survived after whatever I faced. Kya maanga tha maine?? Sirf pyar!! Who bhi nahi mil paaya kabhi mujhe not from my family not from you. You just used me to satisfy your ego in the pretence of love. And now when I need you the most you are just running away from me?? Yehi tha woh pyar aapka jiski aap mujhe daawa karte the?? She shook him hard expressing her fears indirectly, though some part of her is still going strong the thought of maan getting weak is making her again the same old geet. But maan understood the meaning as to what geet said and its high time that he speaks out his heart tell her that he can never think of dying even. He had enough and now he wanted to take her pain and give his share of happiness to her, he let go off all the hesitance and vented out his bottled emotions resting his hand on hers which gripped his collar pyar!! Jis ek shabd ne mere jindagi badal di tumne ussi shabd ka ek naya rang diya tha geet and I being a monster crushed it so hard that I dont even deserve getting it back, he held geet's cheeks and rested his head on hers continued with his confession Tumhe paana mere liye ek kwaab ban gaya tha geet jise maine har din dekha, jis din tumne shaadi kiya rahul se hazaar maut maara tha main. Itna pyaar karta hoon main tumse ki main tumse dur rehke tumhe khushi doon lekin tumhare kareeb aake tumhare aason ka kaaran nahi ban sakta. Toot gaya tha main bikhar gaya tha par khud go sameeta taaki tumhe apni jindagi mein waapas laa sakon, ab jab tum khud mere saath ho toh mere andar ka shaitan tumhse dur rehna chahta hai taaki tumhe phir se koi takleef na ho. How can you forgive me so easily after whatever I did to you?? I really don't deserve your forgiveness no!! Not so easily he said turning away, showing his back to her

Toh aur kya karna hai maan?? badle ke aag mein hamare is mohabbat par bandishein lagade?? Kab tak yeh badla hamare pyar ke aage rahega?? Kab tak hum dono ek dusre se dur rahenge yeh jaante hue bhi ki hum dono hi ek dusre se pyar karte hain?? Thak chuki hoon maan, darr lagta hai ke iss baat se hum dono hi hamare bache ko iss sabka asar na ho. In all this we are forgetting that we are going to be parents, I am already in my seventh month of pregnancy and now if we think about our fights, our revenge toh pyar ka kya?? Iss bache ka kya?? Kya denge hum isse?? Socha hai aapne yeh?? Socha hai ke its high time that we get married?? She asked falling down crying. Maan closed his eyes with her questions, she is right its time that he comes back to her but then the other thing that came into his mind that she is trying to give their relation a chance!! He joined her to hug her like mad person, he didn't know that his angel has been thinking about him so much, their relationship so much. Seeing her repulse every moment has only made him sulk in his guilt.

He couldn't gather words to explain what he felt like, his breath got constricted with the way she expressed her fears. Even after being so close he couldn't get her out of her insecurities but still his pain was giving her pain, his hurt was hurting her, his every emotion was getting mirrored with her!! He just didn't want geet to suffer, its he who has to suffer and now he understood that how much ever geet tries to remain strong it is not possible!!! Not possible with the child, with the life inside her!! But whatever he does!! How much ever he does!! He cant undo the things he did atleast now if he tries to cope up with guilt he can make geet happy.

His life is now related with two angels, his pain, his grief is related with two souls. Their relation is not a knot in a snapped thread, the distance he has been maintaining till now needs to be covered up, not for his himself atleast, not for his love atleast. This will be even more challenging for him, to stay with her with his guilt inside. He has to kill himself to remain anywhere near to her.

Her last words were something he needed to answer marriage!! No he just cant let geet stress herself with the marriage thing right now!! It will happen for sure as he knows he needs to claim geet infront of the world but not at the cost of her health. He wanted to wait till the delivery probably two more months!!

She seemed to relax between his arms, she knows he had been facing hell since a long time. Geet did try to talk to maan but whenever she looks at him with love his whole form seemed to change as if restraining himself from taking her into his arms and love her like never before. Now understanding the fact of being forgiven was even more hard. He held her close until she held the moment close. He kissed her hair and rested her body weight on his!!

What more punishment will he get with the guilt residing inside and knowing that he had been forgiven without any kind of complaint from her. He took a long breath and mustered his words to finally voice out the reason for him not ready for the marriage...tumhe lagta hai geet ki main shaadi nahi karna chahta?? Tumhe lagta hai ki hum dono aise hi rahenge?? He caressed her hair and continued I don't want you to take stress. Shaadi har ladki ka khwaab hota hai, I already broke your every dream brutally, your family has snatched your childhood, I had snatched your precious possession... and I have snatched myself from a blissful marriage with my hate maan she cut him off regretting the moment when she bowed her head to get her child a father in a haste like a fool not understanding the fact that she did a grave mistake not giving maan a chance to speak out when he came to her the very wedding night to stop her. But she did!! She did make fun of her life!! Infront of the whole world who raise their fingers towards their love mostly towards the child!!

NOTE:

I had to think and rethink while typing this part as my friend abi has been reluctant on maan's punishment yet abi its really important for me to know your view right now reading this update and still your suggestion would be something I would like to go with

I want all my readers to tell me does maan still deserves punishment?? Shoba di has said he doesn't need it anymore and mohabbat is to be given importance rather then pain, guilt, or suffering and I also respect your view di

This is the reason I was just confused and it took me time to post this part, here I want to confess something I seriously have nothing running in my mind to continue the story since a long time, all I do is to sit and think while I type and do it and ya from here your views will probably give me hint to go on and peej I want even the silent readers to speak their heart something for once!!

Even on fb too!! Just on on india-forums!!

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