Originally posted by: maanddy
Hey Orient Fan,
I know this time, too, like always, I'm late, sorry for that ! 😛
BTW, before reading anything, i wanna say that, i'm extremely sad and depressed and disappointed, so i m not gonna say much today ! I am way too, harmed and hurt ! See, i could not cry but i was really very senti and emotional, and you know, in that state, i can't say anything ! 😭
I'm the speechless by the act of Maan ! Way too harmed ! 😭 My heart bleeds for him ! 😭
Trust me, when i read the update and saw the epi late night, i was dead sure, that you would come up with excellent thoughts, just replica of mine, and bingo ! You did that, can i call it some kind of connection ? 😉
BTW, coming to your post now, Don't blame me, coz i can hardly say anything, i'm just ghastly shocked and devastated ! 😭
A promise he lived upto when he broke all ties with his own brother, showed him door, turned him from a Khurana heir to a nobody living on mercy of his friends.
But he had never feared of her leaving him coz he never left her when she had hurt him with the same.
Love for her that filled his heart & mind melted away the rage & wrath.
He hated himself for that one moment when he hurt her & his mind blocked all the memories of his own hurt.
If 'Love is the every only God' how could his plea go unheard & he got his answer & left in quest of his sunshine that now having left him in darkness was punishing them both.
'It was not Your anger, nor words alone I know You meant it, I know you had it in Your mind all this while'
Shocked by her words he looked at her in disbelieve, silenced again by her lack of trust & understanding of his unsaid emotions.
Fear of which had made him earlier when she had questioned his'Self respect, Honor & Blood' & later on realization of her own mistakes had come to apologize he had stopped her & asked her'Can You forgive Me for being Dev's brother? Or will I always remind You that he had broken Your trust & hence I too will walk same path?'
'Lost in the vast abysses of space and time' he sees his only beacon of light & hope Geet fading away from him as he walks away from her tormenting himself seeking punishment from the Lord that she denied him.
To him who holds love above everything, his pride, his self respect, his principles, above Lord itself.
Lord did not close his door to him, all he wished for now having lost his reason to breath is pain, pain that he gave to her, pain that he has been suffering & pain that now her denial has given him.
To sooth it he craved for more pain that could numb his senses & bring peace to her heart.
We walked the broiling coals silently praying for her pains to go away be it at cost of his pain.
He burned his soul upon the altar willing for punishment.
As his soul scorched God who sees all & sets the balance right bleed her feet & made her wince in fear that she alone knew of having pushed him in darkness for life.
Pulled by the tug of pain screeching in his heart she had nothing left but to pray.
You know nandu,
Sometimes you are so hurt, that you can not express it by words, same thing happened to me ! 😭
I just don't wanna say anything, anything on Maan or anything related to him ! 😭
But, for your post, Absolutely brilliant, sensible, emotional and FREAKING TRUE ! I loved it, as it conveyed my thoughts and my pain, too ! 👏
Thank you so much for that, love you loads ! 😊
Your Bajaj Fan
Maddy😊 ( Who is very sad after this ! 😭 )