Posted:
Kaise bataye ine what goes on in my heart? The trust and faith in him is so deeply entrenched that it is so fathomless. I can't even look at it as it is so incandescent.
What I say and what I really mean are so different things.
Ek baat bataoon aap sey, mujhe bahut tandh lag rahi hain - Geet
What I really meant was that I am so overwhelmed with his support of me and his admiration of how I have handled my life till today. I am so enamored.
My heart wants to sing at his praise, it wants to dance in the music of his care.
His touch is all encompassing, it is like the rain drops on parched earth.
The concern and care he shows is like the cherubic smile of a toddler.
Oh Maan, how do I tell you, how can I even articulate the depths at which you reside in my heart.
I am scared to even look at it lest it vanish, lest it be tarnished by my look. It is so pure and beautiful that I feel like I have got back my lost childhood, like you will be tolerant of my every tantrum, and like you will understand every whim of mine.
It was my fault that I helped you or took care of you - Maan
You think I am ungrateful. You think I don't know what you did for me. You think it does not effect me? You really think I am so vain?
My heart is weeping in joy that I have found you and that you have made me the recipient of your love and care. I am so afraid that "kisi ki nazar lag jayagi" "aur khud ki bhi nazar lag jayagi" and that your love and care will all vanish in a piff into thin air.
Do you know how scared I am that someone will take you away from me, that you will be lost to me forever. I have survived losing so many things in my life, and so many people BUT if I LOST YOU there is nothing else left for me to live for nor look forward to. I am so afraid.
I am dying every time even an iota of a whiff of that thought touches my consciousness that I just drive that whiff away and turn my soul away from lingering on that whiff and making it turn into a thought.
I don't ever want to harbor the thought that "you are mine" or "you are there for me" as I know in my life "negative things" follow so soon to take away my joy. I don't want to acknowledge that you are my immense joy because I fear that the dark clouds will come and hover to drive you away from me.
I want to believe that you understand all my deepest feelings and are not puzzled by my outward appearances like I am not confused by your outward anger but believe strongly that I am always a part of your world and that you will retain me in some corner of your soul. This is my belief my dearest GUARDIAN ARCHANGEL (archangel - an angel of high rank like Michael and Gabriel)
What I say and what I really mean are so different things.
Ek baat bataoon aap sey, mujhe bahut tandh lag rahi hain - Geet
What I really meant was that I am so overwhelmed with his support of me and his admiration of how I have handled my life till today. I am so enamored.
My heart wants to sing at his praise, it wants to dance in the music of his care.
His touch is all encompassing, it is like the rain drops on parched earth.
The concern and care he shows is like the cherubic smile of a toddler.
Oh Maan, how do I tell you, how can I even articulate the depths at which you reside in my heart.
I am scared to even look at it lest it vanish, lest it be tarnished by my look. It is so pure and beautiful that I feel like I have got back my lost childhood, like you will be tolerant of my every tantrum, and like you will understand every whim of mine.
It was my fault that I helped you or took care of you - Maan
You think I am ungrateful. You think I don't know what you did for me. You think it does not effect me? You really think I am so vain?
My heart is weeping in joy that I have found you and that you have made me the recipient of your love and care. I am so afraid that "kisi ki nazar lag jayagi" "aur khud ki bhi nazar lag jayagi" and that your love and care will all vanish in a piff into thin air.
Do you know how scared I am that someone will take you away from me, that you will be lost to me forever. I have survived losing so many things in my life, and so many people BUT if I LOST YOU there is nothing else left for me to live for nor look forward to. I am so afraid.
I am dying every time even an iota of a whiff of that thought touches my consciousness that I just drive that whiff away and turn my soul away from lingering on that whiff and making it turn into a thought.
I don't ever want to harbor the thought that "you are mine" or "you are there for me" as I know in my life "negative things" follow so soon to take away my joy. I don't want to acknowledge that you are my immense joy because I fear that the dark clouds will come and hover to drive you away from me.
I want to believe that you understand all my deepest feelings and are not puzzled by my outward appearances like I am not confused by your outward anger but believe strongly that I am always a part of your world and that you will retain me in some corner of your soul. This is my belief my dearest GUARDIAN ARCHANGEL (archangel - an angel of high rank like Michael and Gabriel)
Love Friendship Dating and Relationships
Suggestions / Comments
474