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my parents took out a loan to buy me this apartment I live in. and when I told him about the baby, he looked at me for a long time, I remember it like it was yesterday, and told me that now was not the time for a baby.

have you ever thought that you made him tell you that with your feelings? have you maybe created a wall in him and that he said that for your own good. have you ever thought about that. and one more thing to ask you. when you send him the documents, how long do you wait for him to return them? well, I said, I wait a long time, sometimes up to 20 days. why are you asking me that? are you wondering why he is delaying the signing so much. maybe he doesn't want to divorce you. is there any chance of you reconciling?? he told me everything so quickly that it took me a while to understand what he wanted to tell me.

Marko didn't know I lost the baby, I think, and to this day he still thinks I had the abortion. Now it doesn't matter how or why, it's mostly what happened. And now, after many years, I'm still angry with him. And I confessed that to my friend and her husband. We talked a lot, he analyzed my every sentence. And after that conversation I realized that I was to blame. How did I go from thinking Marko was to blame to thinking that everything was my fault? God, I'd rather not have even gotten into the conversation with my friends.

Now I feel even worse than before the conversation. How can I explain to myself that I'm guilty for everything. So I'm also guilty for his attitude towards me. How can I find out? Am I really to blame for our situation? I've never thought about it that way.

And here's another worry on my back. Now I'm angry again. And in my anger, I sent him papers to sign for divorce again. and now I had to wait again for him to return the unsigned papers. a few days passed when the papers arrived. I angrily opened the envelope but then I got a shock, Marko signed the papers. He, he wants to divorce me. now I felt powerless. Why now after so many years he wants to divorce me. I started to cry. And then I realized that something was wrong with me. I sent him the papers and he signed them. Why am I now acting like it's his fault because of his signature. I attacked him so much that he wouldn't sign. Well, he signed it. What do I want from him now?

I was thinking all sorts of things. I just hope this mood won't last long. I'm getting worse and worse. I've become mentally unstable. Everything bothers me. I took the papers and sent them to court so that they can finish it. If she wants a divorce, that's what she'll get. After sending the papers, I started working on a new collection. I promised myself that I would make a collection for pregnant women and babies. A very demanding collection, but I was only happy while I was busy with my work. I have to say one thing. When I returned home, my assistant scheduled a meeting for me. I went to him because it was a good opportunity. A complete uniform needed to be sewn for a restaurant chain. They wanted something simple but unusual. The Stars restaurant chain, the same restaurant that Marko was in. I think he works there. It crossed my mind.

Okay, now I have to focus on work. I called my assistants and made a working version of the uniform with them. I have to admit that while I was working on the design, Marko was the one I was working on the design for. something simple but a bit wild. black trousers close to the leg just like Marko wore them. a gray shirt with some appliqués with short and long sleeves, of course that can be rolled up. a scarf that was mandatory and an apron as a honey detail.

Big pockets on the apron to hang over the pants. I did all that with my assistants. I put one copy on my assistant and one on my female assistant. I took a picture of them to show what it looks like. I soon got the answer that it was very daring but that they liked it. they confirmed my purchase order and then we agreed to send me detailed information about each employee. actually just its dimensions. They had a little difficulty with that, so I sent my two assistants to visit them and take measurements.

they stayed for a few days because they had to travel a bit. that restaurant chain was not only in my town but also in surrounding towns. they were very popular. I have never heard of them before. however, everyone had only words of praise for both the owner and the staff. the staff only praised the owner. that's what the assistants told me. I didn't dare to ask about Marko. And the measurements they took, I couldn't find out where Mark's was. everything was over quickly because I sent everything to my mother's company. good material and very well done, that was very important to me. I sent everything by truck and they paid very quickly. even more, very satisfied with my work, they had recommendations for me and other restaurants with which they cooperated. I was very proud.

meanwhile, my house where I started is announcing my new fashion show for pregnant women and babies. I was happy to be able to express myself in the design of the most important wardrobe for me. for expectant mothers and small babies. I managed to finish that collection that I was so proud of. the fashion show was approaching and I just had to find the models. it was very difficult. my models were not married and especially pregnant. I wanted authentic people. and so I announced a contest for pregnant women who want to wear my creations at the fashion show and for babies up to 1 year old.