new morning, new day. - Page 4

My mom was comforting me, but I also saw my dad standing by the door biting his lip because he had agreed to let Marko help me. I felt sorry for Dad and I told him. Dad, it's not your fault. Don't be upset. That's our relationship and it will never get better, it will only get worse and worse. Marko is like that and I'm very sensitive to some things. I can't and won't change.

I'm sorry you witnessed my nervous breakdown and I'm sorry people had to listen to me scream but I just couldn't keep quiet. My father's expression changed when I mentioned people, hahaha they looked at me strangely when you screamed so much. And Marko, by God, was really scared. He left in a hurry, he didn't expect such fire to come out of such a small person. hahah my pride my daughter. Now I don't regret inviting him. And he got punched in the nose for everything so far.

and my mom joined in the laughter and I finally relaxed. We stayed home where my mom prepared my favorite dishes and where I enjoyed the attention they both gave me. The next morning, together with my mom, I went to the company where my mom worked and where her director welcomed her. We sat down and talked about everything and my needs which were now, I can say, very big. She also thought a little about the realization of everything, but in the end she agreed to sew for me and my brand. we signed a cooperation agreement and all three of us went for coffee. my mom was proud of me, and she didn't hide it either.

We entered a restaurant where there was soft music and the ambience was nice. it was some new restaurant. Mom was suddenly nervous as we approached the restaurant. she said let's go to another restaurant for coffee, only those with deep pockets come here. it means rich clientele. I told her not to worry because I have enough to afford it. the director laughed at that and said this time I honor. I didn't want to agree to that, but she convinced me that she would honor. but my mom was still nervous and I really thought it was because of the prices. and so we stayed for lunch and it was nice. there were unknown people around me, but also some familiar ones who looked at me in some wonder. at one point the door of the restaurant opened and a very tall man appeared at the door, whose face I couldn't see because of the crates he was carrying. he passed us and went to the kitchen which was behind us. I didn't pay attention to the people around me, but everyone looked at me at the same moment. I had that impression. maam said let's go for coffee in another restaurant

her director said well, let's go just to pay the bill. and she called the waiter to pay. I was already getting up and walking when I stopped because the waiter said that lunch was on the house. I turned to ask why and stopped there. Marko was standing at the door of the kitchen and leaning against the door, he took up the entire space, no one could pass him. The waiter said, I hope you enjoyed your lunch, but this lunch is at the expense of the house. the director protested and so did I because I wanted to pay but the waiter insisted and looked at Marko.

I stood in front of Marko and said tell your boss that I pay for my lunches. and I don't want him to deduct anyone's salary for serving lunch. Here's the money and I gave it to the waiter and tell the boss that he doesn't need to honor me. I took my purse and went outside with my mom and her director. The waiter ran after me to give me my money back, but I told him it was a tip and told him to say hello to the boss.

I approached my car and then I felt someone looking at me from behind. I turned towards the restaurant and there was <Marko standing at the door, looking at me intently. I got in the car and my mom sat down with me, the director came in her car anyway and they just said hello and went their separate ways. My mom tried to say something to me a few times but I always interrupted her. We got home and I explained to my parents that I had to go back to my house because I had a lot of obligations. I promised to drop by more often but I still had to leave early tomorrow morning to be on time for the meeting my assistant had scheduled. I knew I wouldn't get enough sleep tonight but I still went to bed early.

My parents tried to cheer me up but that wasn't possible now. Marko was the reason. I saw him three times in two days. I hadn't seen him in so many years and now in two days. Uhhh it was really hard for me because of that. I realized that I hadn't forgotten him after all, although I thought I had. and that's why I wasn't happy. I woke up early in the morning and started on my way. I checked the gas and still went to the gas station to get to the top. and that was my weekend spent with my parents. The stress and anxiety around my heart that I had to relive, at least in my dreams, everything that I went through and experienced many years ago. everything is coming back again. Marko seems to not care that he saw me and that I lost my baby many years ago. I started to cry but in the end I gave up and said to myself who knows why it had to be like this.

Returning to normal or to reality and the present, for me at this moment was difficult, but I had a small circle of friends who were always there for me. I told them how Marko behaved and how he read my letter and what I told him. And then I told my friend and her husband about my pregnancy. I didn't leave out a single detail. Her husband looked at me for a long time and from a man's perspective he said something that really hurt me. He asked me the following.

When you told him you were pregnant, how were you in your mood? Were you happy or unhappy? What did you think at that time? Please, I'm a psychologist and I knew you were hiding something, and now I'm asking you to help me as much as I can. I took a deep breath and said. My whole marriage was unhappy because we didn't have money. My parents couldn't help me either, I'm helping them now. Marko worked and I worked a little bit and what I earned I put aside. It wasn't much, I left so much that it covered my hospital expenses. and Marko didn't even know that I spent my money on it. I left him right away.