Anchored Tempest-Final Thread - Page 8

Mru working on her resume. Great. She does need a better job.

Mendy and Lynn again. Mendy, love the man. Lynn, groan.

Mendy so wants to see them married.

Atty would not mind another kid. Neither would Mru. Maybe thats what it will take for Mru to say yes. But we hope she does it before that.

The order is in. Get married. Usually when Atty has taken the hard stance, she has followed. Will she this time?

Seeing Mru nag will be such a delight. She is so unassuming and skittish.

Befriending Happiness

“Why the sudden urge to get married?”

“Well, I realized Ive been beating around the bush too long and getting caught up in what your idea of happiness is” he said entering the kitchen

“What did u say?”

He paused and turned and repeated it

“So its my fault you cant get married?”

“Well considering the fact that I want to marry YOU, and you will not agree… yes” he smiled derisively

“I am not holding you hostage, please” she waved her hand tearfully

“Stop it”

“Its going perfectly fine, why bring marriage in?”

“Because…”

“You sound like Dhru”

“Well I am his Dad”

“Atty I will never be accepted, can we please let it go”

“No I cannot. I see myself married with kids. We have something smoking hot, I am not about to let it vanish because u fear my parents”

“I will not let you break away from them”

“Its not your choice to make”

“We just keep going around in circles don’t we?” he stared at her grimly

“I am already rejected by the people that birthed me, I don’t want to be shunned by your parents”

“For a second lets forget about them… if they were not in the picture would it be easier for you?”

“We cannot talk about that because they are here”

“If I choose you they eventually will, we live in Mumbai, they live in Bnagalore we don’t have to interact much”

“That’s what you think, I don’t want to run and hide Atty”

“You want everything perfect?”

“Are u taking a potshot at me for this morning?”

Dhru wanted his backpack arranged a certain way, she agreed with it, Atty was impatient, she had told him off

“No I feel you need to teach him to relax”

“U have no idea… his personality reflects mine, u have no idea how hard it is for me to watch him become a mini me”

“You encourage it”

“Be..Because it’s a good habit to be organized”

“Its almost like you urge him to be that way”

“I don’t pass on my catastrophic fears to him, I don’t want him buried under what I am buried”

“Then tell him ITS FINE if Art notebook is put in front or back of the binder”

“Ive raised him ten years, I cannot zap him to make him like how you want him to be, you wear an apron and cook like a pro, you grow your own basil and rosemary, it’s a matter of pride for u”

“I love to cook that’s all”

“If I wasn’t in therapy and if I had a my shit together will you still discourage Dhru?

“Not everything is about you meeting Sameena”

“Oh it is”

“OK fine… lets table that one… for now. I am going to sit down with you to pick a date. We are calling my parents, u can call yours if you want and we go from there”

“Just do what you want?” he made tea without responding

“No just do what WE want” “Are u happier in having me around? “Have u asked urself that?” “If u hate every minute of it, then we can can the idea”

“I DO Atty but marriage is a big deal I am a product of the worst marriage, I am an unwed mother”

“If we cannot focus on how we make each other happy… and just only totally truly focus on ONLY that. We should let all other things fall into place on its own”

“That sounds terrifying” she was literally shaking

He poured the tea out and brought it to the living room, she was crouching on the divan

“Here”

“My greatest fear is telling Dhru why he cant have a two parent home any more, its almost a joke because, Ive raised him as a single parent for 10 years… he knows his Dad for a year now, and if the marriage falls apart I will have to tell him…I am like my mother and I don’t have the guts to make it work.”

“Why will it fall apart?” “My parents will force me to dump you?”

“No No I am impossible to live with” “they don’t have to do anything, I am so terrified of happiness I would know what to do with it when it hits me on the face” she whispered and sipped her tea tearfully

“U will dive deep and soak it all in” he said softly rubbing her back

“I have so much anxiety and guilt… u have no idea. I am afraid Dhru will ask me someday how could I have him after an ONS”

“I am going to answer that for u” he said strongly

“Umm.. I”

“Don’t re-play or re-experience your trauma imagining things in the future that may never happen Mru”

“I don’t want to be a parent like my Mum was”

“U offer him a wonderful safe haven, but he must experience life on his own, you cannot hold him back because u are too afraid”

“No I fear I am this close… this close (with her fingers) to turning into my Aai”

“NO” he growled

“He has to go out there and learn to figure it out” “Break up the responsibility with me” “Don’t let your fear swallow you”

“U will have to play therapist all ur life” she chuckled

“I don’t think that is true” he cut her off

“Happiness is not my best friend”

“We have to let you two hang out more” he said firmly

Light at the end of the tunnel☺️

Happiness is not my best friend”

“We have to let you two hang out more” he said firmly

We want it too Atty! Please let this happen Mru!

So, is it time for them to do all the Sho Sha? 😍

you are ending it na nisha? 😭

Rejection weighs heavy on Mru. She has seen far too much of it.