SUGAR AND SPICE (A-K)..new ff link pg. 67 - Page 40

hmm really innteresting feel really bad for kripa and simon well it was all in a way angads fault pls con asap

Originally posted by: goldi2

OOOO go read Aahista Aahista thats like the best thing u've ever written:D:D:D lol i have it like completly memorised lol
thatstory was damn creatve like u had soo many twist and turns going on in there... like that story had everything!! and i loved it.. love it:P lol

infact im gonna go read it again:D

biii

aww thanks! lol. i just read alll of SATHIYA. hmm i feel like that was my best work. i dunno..maybe coz i didnt complicate it as much. just a short lil story. but hmm..maybe i shud read ahista ahista again..for now im gonna go finish up the next part for THIS ff lol

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rani

Originally posted by: desiigirl19

aww thanks! lol. i just read alll of SATHIYA. hmm i feel like that was my best work. i dunno..maybe coz i didnt complicate it as much. just a short lil story. but hmm..maybe i shud read ahista ahista again..for now im gonna go finish up the next part for THIS ff lol

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rani

lol hehehe Sathiya was complicated:P lol definitly not as much as Aahisa Aashista but it wasin its own unsual way... but i still liked it! i wounder how complicated this stry is gonna turn out to be in the end.. lol u never know:P lo and i think u should go work on the next part for this story rather then reading Aahista Aahista lol and im gonna go read Sathiasince u do consider it u best work... i havnt read it in ages:P lol

bii

oo and try to post the part ASAP lol as if u dont here it enough lol:P

RANI!! 😭 im readin Sathiya right now like in the middle of reading and its soo GOOD ... like omg lol ima cry lol hahahah no not really but its soo good.. i feel sobad though like cus everything that hapeening i mean its sooo sweet lol im at the part where they r at the part and Kripa and Angad were kissing and then when she hugs him she sees Sim crying... and she feels bad!! Kripa is such a good person 😭 lol:P im wierd yes i know:P lol
and i actully understand why u think its ur best writing lol:P o gosh now im having a hard time decidng:P lol

whats schizophrenia?? lol i know its sum kind of disease that endangers others life lol:P i hope im wrie but no really what is it exactly???

Originally posted by: goldi2

whats schizophrenia?? lol i know its sum kind of disease that endangers others life lol:P i hope im wrie but no really what is it exactly???

OOOOo ok now i know.. u answered that:)

i agree!!!! U NEED TO CONT ASAP!!!!!!!!!

PLEASE 😭

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Kripa quickly woke up as she felt herself sweat furiously. It was all a dream and yet it felt so real. Like everything she had felt in that dream was real. She realized what this dream had meant. It had brought her something she had ignored for the past 10 years. It was the fact that she was still in love with Angad Khanna. Her first, and perhaps her last love.

She quickly opened the door to her refrigerator and chugged down almost a whole bottle of water. Calming herself down finally, she sat down on her couch, still holding onto the water. Suddenly the image of Angad and her dancing at the cafe yesterday. After that he had dropped her off at her house and had left to go pick up Sana. She had fallen asleep on her couch, still thinking about the time she had spent with Angad. And then, there was the dream.

Finally being able to breathe, she rested her head on the back of the couch and took a deep breath. She rubbed her hands together to keep herself warm when she felt something on her left ring finger. She looked down at her hand and saw the engagement ring that Simon had placed on her finger that night. With that night came more memories of Angad, and then of Angad and Sarah kissing in the car. Something had happened that night that had changed both their lives forever. She now belonged to someone she didnt love and Angad, well she didnt know about him. Did he still love her? His actions said so. But what did he want deep inside his heart? His togetherness with Sarah proved her wrong.

Tonight was going to be a long night, she thought. She had to decide what she wanted from her life. Would she stay with Simon for his happiness and for her reputation? Or would she choose Angad who was probably on his way away from her already? She thought of how Sana was so close to her father and yet she didnt know of him at all. And then what about Sarah? She was Kripa's most trusted friend and yet she didnt know that her own boyfriend was her daughter's father.

Kripa laid her head back on the couch as she felt tears roll down her cheek. Surprised at herself, she moved forward. Was this the Kripa Sharma she had made herself to be. To the world she was a supermodel. A woman with no emotions. Someone who lived, breathed on scandals. That was the Kripa Sharma. Then why today was she falling weak in front of this same world. Tonight was the night and she had to make a decision! It was either Angad, Simon..or lonliness forever.

She woke up in the morning, hoping that magically she would make the right decision and yet it didnt come to her. She pondered, analyzed, used all her intellectual power to decide between the three options. She didnt want to live with Simon if it meant that both of them would be unhappy. She loved Angad and yet she couldnt see him with her now that Sarah was also in the picture. And the last option was one where she would remain alone for the rest of her life. It demanded her to be selfless and patient. Waiting. Hoping. And Kripa was not ready for that. She was a strong woman. But she wasnt strong enough to let go of everything she had at this moment in her life.

She wrapped her scarf around her neck and walked out of her door. Closing it behind her and then locking it, she turned around to walk towards her car. But then stood still when she saw Simon standing in front of her. "Hi Kripa." She felt the pressure increase. All of a sudden it felt like she had to make the decision now. At this very moment. But she didnt have the courage to. She slowly walked down the stairs to where he stood. "Simon..I didnt expect you to be here so early."

"I know." He took her hands into his but she didnt resist or protest. "Kripa I..I dont know what to say. Do I apologize, seek forgiveness or....do I get angry?"

" Theres no reason why you should apologize to me. You didnt do anything wrong. Its always the circumstances that change so many things between people. Its not your fault that I burst out like that yesterday."

"And what about the being angry part?"

"Well...you can be as angry as you want Simon. I wont blame you for that." She kept a sraight face as he carassed her hands. "Well Im not angry at all Kripa, if you wanted to know." Moment of silence. "I..I've been thinking a lot Kripa."

"About what?"

"Us. You and I. Our relationship." She tucked her hair behind her ear and then looked at Simon. Her eyes were so empty, it made him reconsider everything he was planning to say. "So what have you decided?"

"Decided? I didnt decide anything Kripa. I just...I dont know. If youre not happy with me. I want to know why.." Kripa felt a lump form in her throat. She didnt say anything. "Kripa come on..say something!"

"I dont know what to say anymore Simon. I feel like I'm..I'm hurting everyone around me. Like everyone is looking at me to make some decision that I'm not ready to make."

"Why do you say that Kripa? You know I love you so much! I cant even....Remember when you told me that you loved me? What happened to that? Is it disappearing?"

"No. Its not disappearing." She turned around not being able to face him anymore. "Was the love ever there Kripa?"

"You know youre in love when all you can think about is htat one special person and you cant stand to be away from them for more than one second. You miss them even though they're standing right next to you. You fall asleep thinking about them and...dream about them every night." Simon grabbed her arm and quickly turned her around.

"You dont love me, do you?" Kripa stared into his eyes, trying to search for what she had always seen in Angad's eyes. She did see love and care. But it wasnt for her. It was for the Kripa Sharma that the world saw. That simon saw. She wasnt the innocent young girl anymore. But a strong woman who had learned to live in this cruel world through her experiences. And like everyone else, Simon had gotten to know this Kripa Sharma. Not the girl that still lived inside her, somewhere.

Sarah stopped the car in front of the school gates and looked at Sana. "Okay honey now mommy is gonna say goodbye to you but who's gonna come pick you up after school?"

"Dad!!" Sana screamed with a smile on her face. Sarah paused awkwardly and then smiled. "Sana I've told you so many times that Angad is not your father!"

"But mommy he treats me like I'm his sweetheart. Like daddy used to treat me before Nicole entered her life."

"Sana I know it hurts a lot to see your father change all of a sudden but.."

"I want a father, mom. Not just another man in your life. I've been through this with daddy. I dont wanna go through this with you." Sarah looked at her daughter who suddenly seemed like she was this mature young woman. She took a deep breath, smiled, and nodded. "I see that my daughter is growing up already." She kissed Sana's forehead and then brushed her hair off her face. "Its your tenth birthday next week remember?"

"Ofcourse I do." Sana got out of the car and shut the door. "And I also know that you and Kripa are cooking something up..like maybe a surprised party!" Sarah looked at her both shocked that Sana knew and disappointed that her plan had failed. "Dont worry mommy, I'll pretend to be surprised." Sana smiled with a wink and quickly ran away inside the gates of her school.

Sarah smiled and then drove off, thinking about what Sana had said. Yes, she had a point. Sarah had to agree. Sana was a young girl who, like all other children, needed a mother and a father. Perhaps Sarah's continuous tries to become both were not working. She knew Sana missed her own father and that was why she had chosen to call Angad her "dad". Sarah picked up her cell phone and dialed Angad's number while she tried to keep her eyes on the road. "Hello? Angad...umm hi its Sarah. I needed to talk to you."

Sarah quickly pulled up into Angad's parking lot. She walked up to his apartment and then rung the bell to Angad's apartment. For a few seconds, no one replied. She patiently waited. "Hold on!" She heard Angad's voice from inside the apartment. Suddenly she saw the door opened and saw Angad standing in front of her, looking like a mess. "Angad?"

"Hey Sarah! Come on in." Sarah smiled and walked into his apartment. She looked around and saw more mess. "Whoa. What the hell happened here Angad? Your apartment looks like it got raided by someone!" She turned around to look at him. His hair was on his face, his shirt was soaking wet, and his face was black. "Yeah I was trying to fix the leak in the kitchen."

Sarah smiled and teasingly hit his arm. "You are so weird Angad!" Angad smirked and look down at the floor for a moment. Then he looked at Sarah. "Umm you said you wanted to talk about something?"

"Uh yeah!! I was actually..talking to Sana this morning and...Angad, she considers you her father." Angad smiled at the thought of the little girl. "I know and..I feel great when i hear her say Dad." He then remembered the baby Kripa once held inside her. His child. The child that had been lost forever now.

"Umm.." Sarah placed her hand on Angad's. "Well..Im scared."

"Why?"

"Okay. Umm Samar was the only father Sana ever knew. Now that she met you...ummm..she sees Samar in you. And I dont want her to expect anything to happen between us. I mean..." She moved closer to him and looked into his eyes. "...even though I'd be more than happy to share something with you Angad." He looked down, not being able to look at her. She continued speaking. "I dont want her to get any ideas that are not going to happen."

He looked up at her again. "What makes you think I dont feel the same for you Sarah?" She felt a lump for in her throat. "I just...I thought you werent interested in me. I mean after that night we didnt even..talk about what happened. I didnt know what to think." Sarah took a deep breath and looked at Angad. "Do you....by any chance ummm..feel the same way as..."

"Sarah I.." She backed away. "Its okay Angad. I understand. Its..its fine, really." Angad nodded his head, disappointing Sarah. "Umm..Im...Im gonna go. now. I...have a meeting. um anyway. have a great day." She gathered herself for a moment and then smiled as she turned around to leave.

Angad stood there, thinking about the situation he was in at the moment. He thought about Kripa and how she had moved on with her life. He thought about how he was never going to get her. Suddenly a feeling of loss came over him. "Sarah wait!" She stopped in her path and then turned around to face him. He looked at her for a few seconds and she gazed back at him. In a sudden, impulsive moment, Angad walked upto her. He took her face into his hands and pressed his lips to hers.

hey guys im sooooooo sorry i cudnt post earlier. actually i had this family emergency so i had to go somewhere and i didnt have any internet access for like more than a week so please forgive me!!

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