prologue
The car is speeding up, in fact it's out of speed limit but Arnav cared less. He felt free after so many years, he cant take this anymore he just wanted to be away from all the problems, he sometimes questioned, are they even problems now? He grew up with them so he should have felt like its no big deal right? then why cant he just treat them that way. why he is running away from it, maybe he just not as strong as he thought.
arnav dont know where he is going, but he dont want to live like this anymore, he dont know if he has any personality at this stage he just working like robot. he is human to right? he should have feels but he dont felt any feeling for years not even pain, when he got cut he bleeds thats conforms he is human but what about other things that make human a human, do he have that?.
he watched people smile,laugh,cry, get angry from far but experiencing them? no he did not, he may felt happy in his childhood that are blurry for in his memories and far too little to think.he has a family, well he is not an orphan, but he never knows the real family, like one where they are close knitted, cares about your happiness not how much you scored in school or how much your deal worth. his parents, yes he have both the parents which is sad because he never felt like he had one.
his father, Ashok singh raizada one of the top business man in Asia cared more about money than the family thus having little time for the family and his mother, sakti raizada was a loving wife and mother but all changed when she found out her husband cheated on her with another woman. she started to go out for the parties and started to drinking even drugs if he is not wrong thus leaving only child alone.
arnav initially don't notice anything because he remember seeing his mother every day, she would smile at him when he showed his drawings and praise him but that became rare and as the days, months rolled he saw his mother less, until he never saw her around. Then he was sent to aboard at the age of ten for studying, being innocent child he was he thought if he studied hard his parents would love him but how wrong he was, he never got the attenction from his parents, he only got expensive gift when he ranked top in the school and universities, which had no meaning to him 1)they were picked by some stranger 2)he would already have them or don't even need them.
The only one person cared for him is his nani, no not the real one but the one who worked for them she was the only one cared about him and liked him for himself, but she also left him five years ago, he wanted to save her he could have given anything to save her but the old age doesn't care about anyone, after her death he was such a mess, his father come to him and brought him to India, for second he thought his father is concerned about him, but he was wrong when he made CEO of head branch in Delhi but arnav didn't complain he worked like ore than his father asked for, was best in what he does. He thought he can be busy with this and not to think of anything, ho! How wrong he was because he cant focus on it anymore he worked for four year without complaining after that he lost all the interest in every thing.
He started feel like nothing important, he is not important, there is no purpose, no one with him, an empty mansion with no one waiting for him it's not that he lived alone now there are peoples, but they all work for the money, that's all they needed, but he don't need that type of people, he needs the one who care about him as not the Arnav Singh Raizada just arnav, he needs a home with laughter, happiness not just with bricks and cement no he needs real HOME.
arnav exhaled and took a deep breath trying to clam himself, he slowed his car and got out of the car falling down the mud road. he concentrated at the tree in front of him, trying to listen some noises, and he touched his hands trying to slow his breathing. Inhale through nose and exhale from mouth well that's what the doctor said to do when he was having panic attack, he knows he is stressing too much about nothing but that's his problem no one can judge him being stressed about silly matters when they are not walking in his shoes, so made himself a flavor and visited psychiatrist which doesn't do much he can say he is better than before not much but at lest he can go outside now.
When he felt little bit better he sat inside the car, slowly started to drive not real having any destination to go. he was not concentrating on the road he was in daze about nothing when he can finally focus on the road it's not a road anymore, the car is moving toward the cliff. arnav don't feel scared he just sitting inside the car calmly, he don't
know what happened afterwords all he heard was car crashing to the rocks on its way as it kept falling. arnav felt water dripping from his head, no not water its blood, that's the last thing be remember before it goes black around him.
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So yeah, this is new story.
Hope this is not too bad and you want to read the next part, I know it was different from my previous stories but i want to write some serious stuff so here it is, i dont think it will be sad the whole time, because i can't write too serious stuff but will try my best to make this story good.
Another reason to start new one is i had crazy ideas in my mind like i have 4-5 new story ideas and i update better when i have more than one story so i had to do this so i don't laze around holidays, i may even start other new stories.the only problem is i cant seem to get the good tittle for new one's i suck at this..
So did you all like it, if so please leave a like and comments.
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