Chapter 16
Arnav was pacing left and right in his room not able to get any sleep, he just couldn't digest the fact that she pushed him away from her.
Why did she react like this, did i do something wrong, I opened up my feelings in front of her, I have never been expressive as far as my emotions are concerned still I tried...I tried hard becoz I love her, cant she see my true feelings, did she think I was taking advantage of her, but why?
Becoz she believes in commitment... his inner voice said, she is not the kind of girl you have seen till now, she is traditional she values her culture.
You know in our society girls don't agree for physical intimacy before marriage, the case is same for khushi too, his mind told him.
Ohh... so she backed of becoz... becoz we are not in a committed relation yet, but how does it matter? I don't believe in marriages, they have only given pain to everyone, if two people love each other, then what they feel for each other is more important, all these rituals, these traditions doesn't matter at all for me. I don't believe in this bullshit...
But then why did you feel good when the doctor addressed her as your wife in nainital, his inner voice asked. He was speechless...
That's becoz you felt nice that she belongs to you, you have right on her.
But I don't believe in marriages, what happened with mama papa, even they were in a committed relationship, still they had a disaster in their married life, so how does it matter.
He was confused...hell confused about what he wanted from this relationship, on one hand he wanted her badly in his life forever till his last breathe, but on the other hand he was confused whether marriage is essential to claim her as his.
This is so confusing...he thought of keeping his thoughts aside and went off to sleep. The whole days events have made him crazy, he needs to take rest.
Khushi was upset, but she decided to leave everything on devi maiyya, she knows devi maiyya will find a way.
He heard some noise behind him which made him turn around to see the most beautiful sight in front of him, she was standing there... in all her glory wearing a red mixed with pink lehenga choli looking as beautiful as ever.
Suddenly the atmosphere became hot, raising his heartbeats and he couldn't stop himself moving towards her taking slow steps being nervous of his own desires.
He was getting pulled towards her like a moth to flame. She was nervous, a deep shade of pink was all over her face, he could see she was not able to meet his eyes, but he so wanted her eyes to lock with his.
He slowly pulled her and made her walk with him to the world of passion, he has waited for this moment since long when he can mark her as his, she was his, nobody has the right to stare at her, to get intoxicated by her, to get drowned in her deep hazel brown eyes.
She averted her eyes, getting shy of his moves, he slowly made her wear her dupatta by draping it on her head towards her shoulder and turned her towards his front so that he can admire her beauty, gosh she is so beautiful, nothing in this world can stand against this beauty which was pure, untouched, divine and it was his.
He embraced her in a hug with all the passion... pouring all his love caressing her back. He could feel her rapid heartbeats within him, he couldn't wait any longer and thus picked her in his arms and made her lay slowly delicately on the bed decorated with beautiful and fresh rose petals which were the significance of their pure Love.
Her chest was heaving fast, she was nervous and shy unable to meet his hungry eyes which had passion and desire full of love. He slowly bent towards her face leaving soft hot breathes all over her face, his lips ready to meet her pink rosy lips, wanting to taste it love it, he could feel the growing passion, he was about to kiss her plump lips, when she turned her face the other side, he could understand she was shy, she was untouched, this was her first time and he was proud that he was the first person to love her to touch her.
He slowly nuzzled her neck, inviting her to the world of love pouring all his feelings when she stopped him, nahi arnavji...kya hua khushi are u ok? He asked'' nahi
arnavji... hum yeh nahi kar sakte...
What the hell, he jerked from his bed coming out of his nightmare, he was sweating like hell, the cool AC was not making any difference, what was that...again... again I dreamed of her, why is she always in my dreams, am I thinking too much about her.
He held his head which was paining like hell, was it real, how come I saw such a scene in my dream and seems like it has happened before.
There is something serious, I cant ignore this anymore, first that cliff scene, where I had screamed her name, then in sohail's party where the scene of us dancing together flashed in front of my eyes. Then that dhabba incident, every time I am dreaming about her, why is she an important part of my dreams and no one other than her has ever come into my dreams, what is the meaning of all this? I will have to talk to khushi I cant wait anymore I need to know.
In the morning at the breakfast table, everybody was having their breakfast, payal was feeling much better and now doctor has asked her to move in the house a little, hence she thought of having breakfast with everyone.
Khushi was quiet all the while which didn't go unnoticed by the family members.
What happned khushi bitiya, aap pareshaan lagat ho, Naani asked.
Nothing naaniji, just a headache.
Naani didn't push to ask her further.
Khushi... suddenly a voice came from behind, which was none other than Arnav's
Khushi I need to talk to you, come with me, everyone was confused about arnav's behaviour.
Khushi didn't pay any attention towards him and continued to eat her breakfast.
Khushi I said come with me, I need to talk to you.
Anjali gave a look to khushi and asked her to follow him as there will be something important to talk, but khushi already knew he wanted to talk about yesterday nights events and hence she was reluctant to go with him.
Looking at his eyes, she realized that he is not going to back out, hence she followed him to avoid a scene in front of family members.
They reached Arnav's room and he closed the door behind once she got in.
What are u doing? Why did you close the door? She moved to open the door when he pulled her towards him, relax I am not going to eat you, I want to ask you something.
What? She asked.
Khushi... he hesitated, You know... you... about the nightmares I always get, you may have heard about it from di also, you saw me in that state in nainital.
Now she was nervous what does he wants to ask?
Ya I know arnavji, but why are you telling me all this?
Becoz all my nightmares are directly or indirectly related to you?
She was shocked, she didn't expect him to say this so soon , she was speechless, what will she tell him why is it happening.
I didn't get you arnavji...
Its just that whenever I get the nightmare, either I scream your name or I see you in it.
I don't know why is it happening.
You remember in nainital, I was hell scared after my nightmare, I saw a girl being pushed off from a cliff by few goons and then she fell down, I don't remember her face... but when I got up from my sleep I screamed your name
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Khushi averted her eyes unable to lie to him, how... will Iii... know arnavji.
Its not only that khushi, when I danced with you in sohail's party and then got angry and left, you were asking me what happened remember?...
While dancing with you, I got few flashes of some images like I have danced with you like that before also..
Khushi was getting more nervous, suddenly the tension in the room was rising.
Even at Dhabba I felt the same and yesterday, I again dreamed about you like you were wearing a red lehenga choli and we were... he paused ..she turned around giving him confused expressions.
He came close to her, she took a step backwards and hit the wall.
He leaned on her and now they were only inches apart, his hot breathe was caressing her face, you know khushi yesterday in my dream we were close very close... you were looking beautiful in that red and pink lehenga, but again like yesterday in my dream also you stopped me from coming near you, to touch you, to kiss you.
What is the meaning of all this khushi, I am not able to understand, only thing I know is... there is something missing, something... which is related to my past.
Arnavji I want to go... suddenly she came out of his questions, jiji will be looking out for me.
No way khushi I need my answers.
What answers arnavji? I don't understand what you are saying.
You very well understand khushi, I have made myself very clear, I know you know something... something related to my past and you are hiding it.
Tell me khushi what is it, why I always dream about you?
How will I know arnavji you ask yourself she mocked.
I have dammit!!! but I am not getting any answers and I know you have the answers, tell me khushi do we... do we know each other before like in my past.
Offcourse arnavji we know each other, jiji is married to your brother in this house and in that way we know each other and have met few times, she knew she cant answer his questions right now, she didn't want anything bad to happen with him what if it disturbs his mind, will he be able to digest the fact that she is his wife, will he accept her or just push her away, she was scared and hence didn't want to answer his questions.
That's it khushi.. we have met few times, only that much but then why I feel connected to you, why all my dreams are related to you, why you are there every time in my senses, why there is a strong pull between us khushi.
No... I know.. there is something else which you are hiding, tell me khushi are we.. are we rel..ated to each other in some or the other way, was there anything between us in the past.
I don't know what you are saying leave me, she pushed him hard and ran out from his room wiping her tears, arnav called her khushi... khushi.. you cant do this.. you cant ignore me.. my questions, I need my answrs khushi...
Anjali saw a crying khushi coming down from stairs.
Khushiji... she held her by her shoulders and khushi hugged her crying badly, di I cant do this I cant take this anymore, please... please let me go from this house..
Anjali was feeling miserable looking at a crying khushi. She saw arnav following her and understood something bad happened between them.
Soon everyone gathered in the hall.
What happened chotey, what did you tell khushiji that she is crying this badly she asked in an angry voice.
Khushi pulled herself from the hug and asked anjali not to ask him anything, but anjali was not in a mood to back out.
Tell me chotey..?
Di I have just asked her a simple question that whether there was anything between us in the past, since she is always there in my dreams in my thoughts and I am just sick of all this.
So is this the way to ask, making a person cry.
I didn't ask her anything wrong that she has to cry badly, I just need answers to my question.
Suddenly the door bell rang, harprakashji just open the door anjali said.
It was Dr. Armaan, on naani's insistence Anjali had called armaan for breakfast, naani wanted to meet him.
Anjali thanked her stars, that armaan came at the right time, now they will be able to handle this mess in his presence.
Good Morning Armaan, please come Anjali said.
Hi Anjali.. Hello Arnav how are you.
Arnav was not pleased to see Armaan here since it has distracted everyone from the situation, but whatever it is he was firm on his decision to know the truth.
Armaan sensed tension in the house, what happened any problem should I come later on? He asked.
No Armaan, no problem you please come...
Khushi wiped her tears and thanked devimaiyya to save her from arnav's questions by sending Armaan at the right time.
Everybody started to welcome Armaan, but arnav didn't care.
Khushi... I have not got my answers yet..
Chotey cant you see there is a guest at home, so please behave yourself anjali said.
What happened Anjali what's the matter Armaan asked?
I will tell Armaan, came the voice of Arnav.
Armaan you remember I had discussed my dream with you, the nightmares I used to get.
Armaan thought for a while and said, yes Arnav I do remember, what happened?
You know Armaan , I again got those nightmares and not only that, i had few other flashes in my dreams.
And you know something, all my dreams were just related to khushi.
I am really surprised and confused as well, my each and every dream has khushi in it.
So I was just asking khushi to answer my questions.
As in what are your questions Arnav? Armaan asked after hearing the whole conversation.
I just want to know why I always dream about khushi, I am damn sure these dreams have something to do with my past and I have a feeling that khushi is an integral part of my past, but she is not ready to answer any of my questions, knowing the fact that these dreams are making me restless.
Everybody was tensed on what to tell arnav.
Naani: Chotey why are you becoming so adamant, we will talk about it later, there is nothing to worry.
Nothing to worry... Naani how can you say this, few months back I met with an accident, I lost all my memories I don't know what happened in last 2 years and these nightmares they don't allow me to live in peace and you are telling there is nothing to worry, is it so easy Naani.
Naani was speechless, chotey we don't want to stress you, please try n understand.
And you think I am not in stress naani, I am already stressed out naani trying to find out answers, connecting the dots and you all are not helping me to come out of this mess.
Armaan came near Anjali and whispered in a slow voice, Anjali there is no point in hiding the truth anymore, its time to tell him the truth, looking at him I can say he is not going to back out from his questions today, after all he has a right to know about his past.
But armaan you only stopped us from telling him the truth, I know anjali but we will have to take risk now and anyways, he is fine now he can take that shock, we cant keep on hiding things from him for lifelong right and think about khushi all this will be so difficult for her. We have to think about her future also.
Anjali understood the intensity of the situation and decided to answer Arnav's questions.
Arnav saw Armaan and Anjali discussing something and he was sure it was about him.
Anjali came to arnav and asked looking into his eyes, tell me chotey what you want to know I will answer all your questions.
Di I have asked khushi, I want her to answer me...he said.
So what, if your di will answer on behalf of khushiji how does it matter, you just want your answers right and anyways khusiji is not in a state to answer you.
Arnav sighed... ok di you tell me, who is khushi to me, why she is so important in this house, why she is always in my dreams... how does she know each and very detail about me? Arnav fired all his questions.
Anjali took a long breathe and said, chotey before I answer your questions, I want to tell you something.
Arnav was all ears, we have hidden a very big truth of your life from you, we did this on doctors instructions as your mind was in a vulnerable state and telling the truth may have caused danger to your life.
We didn't had any option, becoz if we had disclosed the truth you would have put pressure on your mind to recollect your past which was not recommended and may have risked your life.
Now Arnav was tensed, is the truth so big he thought, what's the truth di?... he asked getting nervous.
Chotey... as you said, yes khushiji is related to you...there was a pause.
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Khushi closed her eyes squeezing tight and turned her face other side. She was continuously calling her devi maiyya to give her strength.
What... what do you mean she is related to me tell me clearly di, he could smell something fishy.
Anjali prayed inside her mind, She is... She is your wife chotey... you are married to her.
There was a deep silence in the room... arnav couldn't believe his ears, what...? what did you say di... she ... she is... my wife.
Yes chotey you heard me right, you both are married to each other with all the rituals last year.
How... how is it... how is it.. possible I... I am married... he was confused with himself..
Chotey... chotey listen to me...
He walked towards the exit door with his car keys, he needed to breathe some fresh air, he wanted to be alone.
Di... please... I want to be alone for some time..
But chotey... anjali and everyone got tensed.
Dont worry di, I am ok... I am strong enough not to harm myself, its just that... I want to be alone... he said while facing the floor.
Saying that he left the house, khushi collapsed on the floor watching him leave.
Khushi... payal screamed..
Di... kya hua khushi ko.. payal cried.
Payalji relax, don't take tension in this state, Armaan please check khushi.
They took her to room and made her lay on bed, Armaan examined her and said, don't worry its just she is under stress, she will gain consciousness don't worry anjali.
Oh God... why all this is happening with us, anjali cried...
Dont worry anjali, everything will be alright, give him sometime its not easy to digest such a big truth, I am sure Arnav will come through it... Armaan said.
I need to leave If anything urgent please contact me, Anjali nodded.
After some time khushi woke up from her sleep, arnavji... arnavji... she cried.
Everyone reached her, khushiji how r u? Are u ok? Anjali asked.
Di woh kaha hain, did he come back, did he ask for me, di he will not reject me no, he will not break this marriage no... she started getting panic.
Khushiji relax, nothing will happen, you know he loves you its just that he will take time to digest the truth, but I am sure he will accept you as his wife, he cant stay away from you.
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