Arshi TS: Useless Regret Pt 3(LAST) Pg 14 23/Oct/14 - Page 7

superb update... poor Khushi what a fate...not only being orphan but she won't be able to walk normally.I am sure having two friends like Arnav n NK esp who loves her will be pillar for her but won't be easy for Khushi coz the reality is something different.

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Okay this was really Heart-Wrenching,

very touchi story..

TS - Useless Regret

Part 3

Khushi recovered fully from her injuries. She also went to doctor for final check and took MRI for her brain. Everything was become normal except her leg, scar on her face and pain in her heart. She became a silent girl. She concentrated more on her studies and maintained distance from Arnav and NK. She doesn't want to hurt her heart anymore. She knew... she knew that if she is near to Arnav then she will lose her senses and confess her feelings to him. And she knew he will agree her confession - not with love, but with guilt and pity. She never wanted that to happen. So, she kept herself far from them.

Arnav and NK tried a lot to talk with her, but in vain. Every day, Arnav tried his best to talk with her, to spend time with her. But she never engaged him like before. Both NK and Arnav felt the loss of their friend. Arnav felt guilty and regretted for not hearing her words that day. He felt guilty for not understand her fears, her pain. He cursed himself for being a fool. He loved her from his heart. But now, he lost his best friend let alone his love for a single mistake of his. He wished that he listened to her words. He wishes that he should have been in Khushi's place in the accident. He wished he could turn the time back. He wished he would have confessed his feelings to her long back. He closed his eyes in pain, to see the smiling face of Khushi.

He opened his eyes hearing some teasing voices near him. Whatever scene unfolded before his eyes, boiled his blood. Some of the students teasing Khushi for her limp and scar on her face. He ran towards them and warned them to stay out of Khushi. He held Khushi close to him and said "She is my friend; don't dare to mess with her. I'm warning you... stay out"

Khushi felt happy and sad at the same time... she felt happy and sad at the same time hearing him mentioning her as his friend'. She sighed and thanked Arnav and went from there not hearing him. Arnav felt really hurt with Khushi's behaviour.

He discussed with NK about his problem, not knowing what to do.

"Are you sure NK?"

"Of course Arnav. You already wasted a lot time, not any more. Don't lose her Arnav. She is really best. Go and propose her. Don't waste more time, you may regret later" NK encouraged him. Arnav planned everything to confess his feelings on this coming Sunday - his birthday.

Saturday evening when both Arnav and NK sat in canteen, after finishing their classes, they saw Khushi coming to them. They felt really happy to see her there, because after accident she stopped coming there where crowd will be.

NK almost ran to her and hugged her tightly.

"Oh God... Kuku... we missed you here. Thanks for coming. How are you? How is your day today?" asked NK fully excited, for which Khushi just smiled a little.

"I came here to talk with you two. I wanted to tell you something"

"Sure... come on..." NK led her to the table they sat.

"What's the matter Khushi...? What you want to say? Why are you looking tensed?" asked Arnav not having good feeling in his heart.

"I wanted to say... that... I... I..." she don't know how to say... she looked everywhere but not them.

Both NK and Arnav looked at each other sensing something wrong. NK held her shoulder and asked

"What is it Kuku...? Is everything fine?" his voice his full of concern

Nodding her head, she forwarded a paper towards them. Arnav immediately took that shocked to see the content of the paper.

"Appointment cum joining letter?"

"Yes, Arnav Ji... I got a job in that company. I'm leaving in few hours. I just want to say bye before I leave"

"Where is the posting?" asked NK after reading the letter.

"Don't know... they said, first they will give training then posting. After joining only they will say"

"When did this letter came?"

"..."

"You didn't even bother to discuss with us?"

"..."

"Why aren't you answering me damn it?"

"..."

"Khushi... I'm talking with you..."

"..."

"What's wrong with you? Please Khushi... don't go"

"Take care both of you. I hope you won't drink and drive next time. If you want to drink, take the driver. I don't want you guys become like me - a handicap. I don't know I will see you guys again or not. So, good bye...," saying this she took the letter and moved towards the exit.

After few seconds, Arnav came out of his thoughts and ran towards her. Clutching her hand he turned her rashly making her tremble on her legs.

"Where the hell do you think you are leaving?" he whispered in a low dangerous voice.

"I'm leaving to my job"

"I want to talk with you. Come with me"

Before she protests, he pulled her towards his car not bothering about her leg and made her sit inside, he himself hoping other side. After few minutes he stopped the car in a lone road and came out. He pulled her out and pinned her to the car

"I can't let you go Khushi. You don't have any right to leave me and go. You are mine. Without my permission you can't go"

This surprised Khushi a lot. But she didn't say anything or show her feelings on her face. She just stared at him with blank expression.

"Please Khushi don't go. We need you at the same time you need us. With us, around you only you are facing difficulty to face the world, then how can you face alone. Everybody will tease you Khushi, for your limp and for your... your... scar. If you stay here I will take care of everything, I will never let anyone to comment on you. Stay Khushi... don't go..." He can ask her to stay back because he loves her, but he thought that will be a lame reason and telling what he told will be a strong reason to force her to stay back. He didn't know what pain his words will give to Khushi's heart.

Khushi looked at him with a pained expression. She couldn't believe Arnav pointed out her disability. She could have stayed, if he asks her stay. Just ask her to stay, without any confession or something. She wanted to cry, she wanted to shout, she wanted to confess, but she didn't. She knew, Arnav never loved her and never will. He is scared about her future, about her heart, her insults about her just as a FRIEND. She sighed in defeat and said

"I'm getting late Arnav Ji. Please let me go..." she gulped hard to control her cry. She couldn't look into his eyes. She knew if she looks, the next moment Arnav will understand her heart. And she will lose his friendship.

"What the hell Khushi? Here I'm asking..."

"Please Arnav Ji. I want to go..." she said little sternly

That's the time Arnav let his frustration come out on Khushi. Not thinking once about the consequences. "I should have thought about this Khushi. Till now you needed us for YOUR good, for YOUR support whether it financial or moral, you needed us. But now, you have a job. So, you don't need us and you wanted to go" he turned back not want to see her tearing eyes and continued "I should have known about you before. Fine... I will leave you wherever you want. Let's go" Not having any response he turned back to see that Khushi went long back. He looked around and searched for her, shouted for her, but she left... she left him. With anger rising in his heart, he left from there to his home. Without knowing that how his words had hurt Khushi. He didn't even notice that he lost his love.

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After a long week, Arnav's mother came to his room. This is the first time she is entering into Arnav's room after Khushi left the city. Arnav told her everything, about his love for Khushi, Khushi's job opportunity, her stubbornness in leaving, he requesting her, her denial, his anger and lastly his accusations. When Arnav's mother slapped him and shouted at him, then only he understood what accusation he gave to Khushi. Then only he understood how he insulted Khushi. That is the day he regretted everything he did with Khushi. He looked at his mom to see the hatred filled eyes. He never witnessed this from anyone let alone his mom. He apologised his mom for being a fool, but she never forgave him. She said when Khushi will come to their house willingly then only she will forgive him. That is the day Arnav went into his shell avoiding everyone around him. That is the day he started hating himself. That is the day he allowed guilt to kill him from inside.

When he saw his mother come inside his room, he stood up and rushed towards her "Mom... you are here?"

But she didn't say anything. She just handed over one cover to him and left from there. Arnav felt disgusted one more time. He opened the cover and shocked to see the name at the down of the letter - Khushi. He read hurriedly

Arnav Ji...

I'm sorry for disturbing you, but I can't help. I just wanted to answer your question, which you asked before I leave. I know you don't want to hear, but I wanted to tell you. You know why? I can't take the hatred from the person I love the most. Arnav Ji... I won't waste your much time. I will come straight to the point

Do you know why I left? The reason is you... yes Arnav Ji, the reason is YOU. I didn't want to lose you or your friendship. But you know, after leaving also I lost you. I left from there because I couldn't share my feelings with you. I couldn't share my love towards you with you, because I know you never loved me and can never. I don't want your pity Arnav Ji. I wanted your love, I wanted your care. That's the reason I never mentioned you about I being an orphan. I wanted you to love me as I'm. I wanted you to see my heart. But it never happened.

I know why you wanted me to stay back. You just worried about my future, about my heart getting hurt, the insults I'm going to face and about me just as a FRIEND, but Arnav Ji... I wanted more, I want more from you. Whatever I was getting as your friend, that's not enough for me. I want more from you... I want your love and care, which I can never get, because I'm handicapped. But thank you so much for being my friend Arnav Ji. I will or I can never forget you.

I never wanted your support financially or physically. I just wanted your support psychologically. I just wanted your heart Arnav Ji, not your money. Please don't think low about me. I can't take... my heart can't take. If you don't love me back (I know you don't) also fine, but please don't hate me. Please...

This is what I want to say Arnav Ji. I never wanted your money... please trust me. I took these many days to gather my courage to write down my feelings. Don't think otherwise. Please trust me... I never wanted your money... I just wanted your heart.

I said whatever I wanted to. Thanks for reading (I hope you did) with patience and sorry for wasting your time. Hope you are fine and stopped drinking. Please Arnav Ji... don't drink... it will kills us - may be not physically but mentally it does. Convey my hi to NK and regards to your parents. Bye Arnav Ji... I miss you... I Love you and will Love you till my last breath...

Only yours

Khushi

Arnav sat with a thud on the bed. He can sense how much she loved him. He can sense how much his words had hurt her. He can sense how much she is missing him. He can sense how much she needs him. He can sense how vulnerable she is. He hugged the letter and cried his heart out. He doesn't know what to do. He doesn't know where to search Khushi. He doesn't know how to bring her back. He doesn't know why he said what he shouldn't.

He regretted for letting her go.

He regretted for not telling her about how important she is for him.

He regretted for not able to understand her.

He regretted everything he said to her on that fateful day.

And he knew...

Regretting now, can do nothing, will change nothing.

He lost his love, his first love, an innocent love, an innocent Angel's love.

He regretted...

THE END

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Part 2

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