SS: Missing Love ~ THREAD 2 ~ Part 7 (01/07)

Missing LOVE

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Part 4

Aarav had crying on the bed of the Guest room where Arnav was staying at the present. After the little fight with Khushi and then the advise from Garima, Arnav had come back in search of Aarav and found him crying there. His heart melted seeing his Son crying. He came inside and hugged him from behind picking him in arms

Arnav: Boys dont cry Champ.

Aarav wanted to be alone and hence started swaying his legs in air. Arnav took him to the Couch and made him sit on his lap facing him.

Aarav: Mumma doesnt love me.

Arnav felt pity seeing him sobbing. He immediately hugged him and started soothing his back.

Arnav: Mumma loves you more than Daddy, you know that?

Aarav: You are lieing to me

Arnav: No I am not. You have no idea how much Mumma loves you. She carried you in her stomach for 9 long months Aarav. Do you even know how many days 9 months have?

Aarav noded a no and stopped crying . He was a good listener and specially when his father was the speaker.

Arnav: It was only Mumma who raised you till you became so big. She laughs when you laugh, she cries when you cry. What else you want her to prove she loves you.

Aarav: Then why did she scold me when I asked for my sister?

Arnav had no answer to that but he had to tell what he got and which Aarav can understand at the moment.

Arnav: Mumma scolded you not because she was angry on you. She is angry on me Aarav.

Aarav : You? What did you do?

Arnav: I broke her heart.

Aarav was too young to understand this. He hugged Arnav back and closed his eyes feeling sleepy. Arnav kept on caressing Aarav for few more minutes until he was asleep.

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It had been just 5 days of their marriage and still they had not consumated it fully. They had kissed and also reached a level above that but consummation was yet incomplete. Arnav didnt force her to share her body if she was uncomfortable and Khushi being too Shy didnt make any attempt from her end. Morever his busy schedules to cover up his irregular work during their marriage days had taken a toll too. But tonight when she came inside the room finishing her talks with her mother on the Phone who generally asked her if she was happy with Arnav, and in response got only blushes in return, Khushi saw Arnav waiting for her in the room. His laptop was luckily Off which meant they were sleeping early today. She came inside and thats when he passed her a gift wrapped box.

Arnav: Yeh tumhaare liye (This one is for you)

She took the gift box from him but maintained confusion on her face.

Khushi: Yeh kya hai? (What is this?)

Arnav: Tumhaare liye hai. Jaake pehan ke aao. (Its for you. Go and wear it )

Khushi: Kya? Yeh koi tareeka hai apni biwi ko tofa dene ka? (What? Is this a way to gift wife?)

Arnav: Stop fussing and get changed. Now.

She didnt realise why he got this but was happy that he at least took his first initiative of gifting her something. She went inside the bathroom and got biggest shock seeing a Red Sleevless nighty which was very much revealing and thus too sexy for her to wear. She still wore it for him and hiding herself from his predatory eyes she came out and stood behind the Cupboard. Something happened to him seeing her in his favourite colour. A sense of possessing her, claiming her for lifetime ran inside his manipulative heart and ticking mind. Everything after that was just new for them and they both lost in each other's warmth, consuming their marriage.

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Khushi was very much disturbed with Aarav's wish of having a sister. She knew he was just a child and making him understand that his wish can never be fulfilled again by his parents was not easy. He would be hurt if she denies directly which she cannot let happen. He was too young to realise his parent's difference. Neither she was able to make Aarav understand and nor her own heart too .She was lost in the old memories of that night when she and Arnav consummated their wedding fully. She had not touched this Nighty since the time they were divorced. But that was the only way she could revive into the old memories again, which can give her some bliss at the time being if not forever. She didnt realise when she wore that nighty and was standing at the Mirror looking at herself shedding bucket of tears. THis fabric had his touch, his cologne and everything that was HIS. She hugged herself before the mirror and lowering her head she started sobbing softly . Suddenly a pair of arms turned her around holding her shoulder. She was too weak to even consider it wrong on her part to be seen by him again in this same piece of cloth.

Arnav had made Aarav sleep in the Guest room and had thought of informing Khushi, he will take care of Aarav tonight and hence not to be worried. But seeing her weeping in that same Nighty ,hugging herself, touched his soul. He couldnt refrain himself from coming to her and trying to do something which can stop her tears. He pulled her chin up and her breathing raised.

Arnav: Its Okay Khushi . I have handled him.

She needed this assurance from him. Clutching his shirt tight she leaned her head on his chest still sobbing which he couldnt bare any longer. He wrapped his arms around her and soothed her back.

Arnav: He is a kid Khushi. His demands are innocent . We have to give him time to understand instead of shouting at him. Little patience from our end will help him realise what the situation is.

Khushi: I shouldnt have scolded him . I am sorry .

She started crying bitterly again. He cupped her face and brushed his thumbs below her eyes to wipe off those tears. She shut her eyes as he kissed her forehead giving her a gentle rub on cheeks. The world seemed dark to them as both gave in to the desires they were holding up inside them from long. He kissed her eyes, nose, cheeks and chin and she kept on holding hard to his shirt. Distances between them faded as he sucked her lower lip sending shivers in her entire body. It had been 5 years they had kissed like that. She parted her lips to give in that control but he didnt deepen the kiss. He left her lips and licked her chin and trailed his tongue across her jaw. This was passionate. He never licked her that way anytime when they were together. Something had changed in his way of making love too which she couldnt decipher so easily. She breathed hard and then moved her lips to his throat , kissing his skin at the Adam's apple. Their bodies ached for each other and so did their hearts. Moving closer to the wall and pinning her there, he moved his hands upwards from her waist , giving her the right massage at the sides of her breasts. She wasnt sure what she wanted from him but everything that was happening felt right and needed. His right hand hitched the Nighty up touching her toned legs, wandering her hand up and down , eliciting a moan from her.

That moans would have continued if his mobile hadnt ringed at the right time getting them back to the present world. Their eyes met and so did their consciousness. Their position was too odd for her to ignore. She kept staring in his eyes asking questions on what made them go this far now when there was nothing left between them. They were no more a couple and getting engaged in such sex activities were against their values. He left her body and turned the other side , his phone had stopped ringing, they both took few seconds to understand what they had to do. He left her and her room within next few seconds and Khushi sat on the bed closing her face with palms feeling extremely regretful.

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Next Day

She didnt wait to see her Son or Ex husband in the morning but straightly walked in her Friend Lavanya's Counselling Clinic to discuss the last night incident which she felt had made her look bad in her own eyes.

Lavanya : Look Khushi, I am a Marriage Counselor and I am very much aware of such situations. It happens when you meet your Ex and stay with him under one roof again. Such incidents are very common. Infact I have seen ex couples actually going all the way till the end and then realise they arent supposed to get so intimate with each other. But you and Arnav have done nothing compared to it. So Drink this water and just relax.

Khushi moved Lavanya's hand offering her the water and got up from the Sofa .

Khushi: You wont understand what its feels to get so close to your Ex husband Lavanya. How could I just erase those lines we drew between each other? I can still feel his warmth enveloping my body. Its wrong Lavanya. Its completely wrong.

Lavanya clutched her arms and made her sit on the Couch again.

Lavanya: OKay I agree. I understand what you say. But forget it thinking a spur of moment Khushi. Thats all you can do. I am sure he too must be regretting the fact that he touched you under the influence of his hormonal desires. So chill and just dont repeat things again. But I dont underdstand one thing Khushi. Why did you wear that same Red nighty which you knew was his favourite? Didnt you think it then about his reactions? And where was Aarav? Sleeping on the same bed where you both..

Lavanya zipped her lips from asking her anything further seeing the expressions on Khushi's face.

Lavanya: Look Khushi, I dont want to sound bad , but the truth is you needed this. What happened between you and Arnav last night was just an outcome of what you wanted desire from him even now. He may not be your husband anymore but the fact is that you still take him to be so. I know divorcing him was your decision but you accepted it only with your mind not by your heart .You somewhere still want him to come back to you.

Khushi got up from the Couch in frustration taking her purse along.

Khushi: Its waste talking to you Lavanya. You are feeding my brains with something that can never happen. I thought sharing these moments with you I will get some peace but you are increasing my guilt even more. I Shouldnt have come here. Bye

Though Lavanya made numerous attempts to stop her, she didnt. She left her cabin and Lavanya could just hope Khushi and Arnav understand what they wanted from life.

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