Arshi Three S ' Saath Hoon ' Pyaar se - Part 3C(last part) u - Page 8

After this everybody finished their discussion about Arnav and went to their work. At night, when Khushi entered her home, she found Arnav sitting on the floor in the living room with a plate full of foods in his lap. He seems like thinking something deeply. She sighed deeply and cleared her throat to get his attention. But he didn't responded. She knew, what he is thinking. She can understand him well than himself. A sad smile crossed her lips. She went to kitchen and freshly made some foods for him.

She changed herself in her night wear and went to him with a plate in her hands. She took out the plate from Arnav's lap. That is the time he noticed her. He looked at her face intently asking why she is like that

"How are you Arnav Ji? Didn't you eat?"

"Khushi..." he only can say this.

"Leave it... here have this now. Otherwise it won't be good for your sugar level. Come have this" saying this she forced him to eat. After finishing his food, she gave him a packet. "These are some cloths for you. You change here and I will prepare a bed for you" she went to bedroom and started her work. "You change your cloths there, I'm not coming there until you say" she said in a little high voice.

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"Oh... you came. Here sleep here and make yourself comfortable. Sorry I don't have any bed. You have to adjust here on this mattress. I can't give you any more than this. I'm sorry" saying this she left the room leaving Arnav alone in that small bedroom, which is quite equal to a washroom of Raizada mansion. No... Not Raizada mansion. It should be Gupta mansion' thought Arnav. He looked around and found one more photo of him along with Khushi's parents. He felt a sharp pain in his heart. He went back to living room and saw Khushi sleeping on the floor while tossing and turning in her sleep. He sat beside her and looked at her face. He can see the discomfort on her face. He took her hand in his and caressed without making her wakeup. Unable to control, he let the pain to come out in the form of tears. He held her hand softly yet firmly and cried for a long time.

"I'm sorry Khushi... I didn't know about what my father did to you. I didn't know what my dad did that made you an orphan. I didn't know I'm the reason for this condition of yours. I didn't even know I have turned into monster from a human. I'm sorry Khushi. I never thought my dad will do such thing to an innocent girl like you and accuse for everything, sadly which I believed. I know he is at fault. He only tried to give a good life for me. So directly or indirectly I'm the reason for all these. If I am not alive..." he was stopped by Khushi, who is pretending to sleep. She kept her hand on his lips nodding her head. He is taken aback to see Khushi wide awake. He can see the pain in her eyes.

"Sorry Khushi..."

"Shh... sleep now. Don't think anything... sleep now" she made some space for him to sleep.

"Khushi... here?"

"Why? Can't you sleep beside me? Oh... I forgot... sorry... I will go there, you sleep here" when she about to move from there after saying this, he held her hand and stopped her.

"I can get solace only beside you Khushi. I thought you won't be comfortable beside me. That's why I asked here'. Sorry if I hurt you. I'm more than comfortable with you. Thanks for being here and letting me here" she smiled a little and both slept.

When days moved, Arnav realised what is life. He felt deep guilt in his heart whenever he felt Khushi's love towards him. He also felt a strong respect for Khushi for her braveness. He never saw her crying or feeling bad for her situation. She is a fighter, she is a strong woman, and she is a brave girl. I'm a fool to bad mouth her where she is struggle for her life due to me and my family.' he thought. Now he is well aware of the importance of struggle, responsibility, relations, love and most importantly the importance of Life. Now he knew how we should live the life. How to respect others? How to behave in what situations? Everything, everything he knows now. He is a changed man now.

One night, when Arnav opened the door for Khushi after she came back from work, he saw her in a tensed state.

"Khushi...?"

"Khushi... is everything fine? Are you ok?" he shook her to get her attention.

"Ha... Um... Ah... yeah I'm... I'm fine..." he clearly can see the tension in her face. He made her sit and took her face in his palms.

"Khushi... what's wrong? Why are you feeling tensed? You know, you can tell me"

"Nothing Arnav Ji... Just work tension. I will be back. I have to freshen up"

After that he observed her trying to talk with him. When he asked what the matter is, she said nothing. By now he is sure that she wants say or ask something to him. She didn't change even a bit from her childhood' thought Arnav. A small smile appeared on his lips. He went to kitchen and saw her washing the dishes.

"Won't you tell me about how the food tastes? I cooked for you Khushi"

"WHAT?" she shouted.

"Why are you shouting? Hmm..." he sighed "Khushi... what you want to say to me?"

She sighed deeply understanding that she can't escape from this now. He raised his eyebrow to her as asking.

She wiped her hands and moved to living room taking Arnav with her. She made him sit on the chair and gave him a cover and asked him to open it.

He looked confusingly but opened the cover.

He looked at her, who is watching him closely for his answer. But he didn't answer anything. He deepened his look at her with a deep intent glare making Khushi more tensed.

"What is this Khushi?" he asked in a serious tone

"Wha... what Arnav Ji? I thought you can read..."

"I know what I'm seeing and also I can read. But I'm asking why did you get this" he continued his seriousness.

"Why are you getting angry? What did I do? Why are you shouting at me?" tears pooled into her eyes, which make Arnav's anger calmed down immediately.

"Khushi... I just..."

"Sorry Arnav Ji... I didn't mean to hurt you. I just wanted you to continue your studies. And that too in a good reputed college. And I know that you won't be comfortable in our old college with what happened before there. And I also know that nobody will talk with you after what you confessed to them about us. So, I thought you will prefer to go to another college. But I don't know that this step of mine will hurt you... I'm sorry..." she is on verge of crying now.

"No... No... Khushi... it didn't hurt me. I just... I just can't afford this college Khushi. It's really difficult for me. You know that I don't have any money with me now. Then how can I go to this college Khushi? I am not saying that you did bad thing. But what I'm saying is I don't deserve this Khushi. I'm not a person whom good things can embrace me. I'm bad Khushi. I don't deserve this"

"Arnav Ji... Why are you thinking about money? I'm here to take care of that... I have earned enough money for your studies Arnav Ji... We even can afford your further studies if you want. We have so much money Arnav Ji... You no need to think about that. You just go to college and study. Please Arnav Ji let me do this"

"No Khushi... I can't. It's really high time for me to take your help. I can't. I don't deserve this. Whatever I did to you... please stop helping me... and I also want to say that... I think it's better for us that if I leave from here. I don't..." he couldn't say anything because of the hard slap on his cheeks, which made him surprised and shocked. He looked at Khushi who is full in angry mode with confusion in his looks

"I hate you... you never can understand me... I hate you... I HATE YOU Mr. RAIZADA..." she ran into bedroom and closed the door with a bang behind her.

Arnav was surprised at her behaviour. What the hell happened now? Why did she slap me?' he thought. If she didn't like my refusal then she can tell me normally. But isme thappad marne ki kya zaroorath thi?', is the refusal reason for her angry or...' slowly realisation had hit him kya vo ye chahthe ki main yaha rukoon? Hamesha keliye?' whatever it is, he didn't like her crying. Crying again because of him. He ran to the room and banged the door. But it didn't open.

"Khushi open the damn door... I want to talk with you? Khushi..." he banged the door.

Khushi if u don't open the door I will break this damn door. Khushi..."

"Fine... I'm breaking the door" when he kicked the door with such force, which made him fell on the floor on his knees. When he entered the room, he saw her looking at him with so much anger. What did I do now?' he thought confusedly.

"If you turn the knob, there won't be any necessary to break the door. I didn't lock the damn door which you broke now... Can't you understand at least this? Leave alone understanding me" she shouted.

She went outside the room to kitchen leaving Arnav with a silly expression. Oh god... why am I ending doing such things which will irritate her?' he thought. he followed her to the kitchen.

"Khushi..."

"Please Arnav Ji I'm not in a mood to talk. Leave me alone. Go wherever you want" she said. Pain is deeply visible in her face.

He left a defeated sigh and cupped her face "Khushi. I didn't mean to hurt you. I just wanted to..."

"Don't say anything. Not even a word. I don't want to hear anything. I just hate you... go away from me. Leave me alone in this world. I will fight for myself till my death. You go away" she shouted at him, which made him mad in anger. He grabbed her hands tightly. She hissed in pain

"Don't you dare to talk or think about death. I'm trying to change myself but that doesn't means, you can tell anything about yourself. I won't allow you talk any rubbish about yourself. Understand..." he shouted at her gritting his teeth. Watching her scared face he sighed again and said "See Khushi... listen to me carefully... I'm not going to join the college. Trust me when I say that the college is out of our reach. I can't afford that... please try to understand me"

That's it...

"Why? Why every time I have to understand? Why won't you try to understand me once? At least for once? Why can't you understand that I needed you badly in my life? Why can't you understand that I need you to be a successful man in future? why can't you understand that I can't face this world alone anymore?" she shouted at him with her high voice. She is panting badly. She couldn't breath normally. Seeing her like this Arnav felt fear crossed his mind. He immediately held her tightly and made her sit on the kitchen slab.

"I'm tired Arnav Ji... I'm tired of living alone every time... I'm tired of taking care of myself. I am badly in need of one support. One shoulder to cry... one hand to hold me... one heart to console me. Do you have any idea about how will be the life for an orphan teenage girl? Do you have any idea how people around me look at me? Do you have any idea how I'm suffering in this world?

"Khushi..." he couldn't stop his eyes becoming moist. She cupped his face and said "You are the only hope I have Arnav Ji... you are the only person in this world which I have. You are the only person whom I can say as my family. I can't lose you Arnav Ji... I can't stay alone anymore... if you leave here, I can't fight with this dangerous world. I need you Arnav Ji... I need you as a strong support. I need you as my life... I need you as my breath... I need you as my love... please..." she cried her heart out letting her fears and sorrows out. He couldn't take this anymore. This is the first time he is seeing her, this much weak. He hugged her immediately as much tight he can.

"Sh... Khushi... stop crying please... stop... shh..."

"Nahi hain himmat... thak gayi hoon... Nahi hotha humse ye sab... ek bar phele bhi meri family ko kho chuki hoon. Humse dubara nahi hoga. Nahi hoga humse... Nahi hain himmat... main poori taraf se toot chuki hoon... Please Arnav Ji... don't leave me"

Arnav couldn't believe that she is the same girl, who portrayed herself as a strong girl. He never knew she is suffering in her life to this extent. He felt bad for her. He felt anger rose in his heart on himself for doing what not to her along with a deep guilt. If she is not hugging him, then he surely would have harmed himself for treating Khushi the way he did. He hated himself.

"I'm sorry Khushi... I know whatever I did to you is not at all forgivable. And whatever my dad did to you... that was... that was... I'm sorry Khushi... me and my dad made your life hell... I'm sorry... Please forgive me if you can. I'm sorry..." he said while his eyes filled with tears. He doesn't know how to mend his mistakes. He doesn't know how to console Khushi where he is the guilty. He couldn't control his agony. He cried his heart out on her shoulder holding her tightly to his heart.