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Tangled Untangled Relations
If i get a chance to describe my life , i would complete the description in just one word , and that was compared! Yeah , from the day i was born , i was compared to my two years elder sister , sharon. She was well mannered , pampered , the topper of her class , had a great dressing sense , looks to die for , loved by all , and not to forget she was daddy's princess.
Well i was everything she was , but i didn't my dad's love. The second difference between me and her was that she was the daughter of the lady dad had loved , and well i was the daughter of the lady he had been i guess forced to marry after the death of his first wife. Yeah , me and sharon are half sisters.
If sharon had done a mistake she was still learning , if i had done a mistake i was spoilt. If sharon got low marks she had tried , if i got low marks i didn't pay attention to studies.
I didn't hate sharon. She was a sister you would love to get , but hate to get compared with.
Sharon had always been supportive , she understood me. She was there beside me at 1 o'clock at night , taking care of me if i had fever even if she had an exam the next day.
I wasn't a bad sister , but i never got the opportunity to show my caring side , as dad had always been there for her.
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My 18th birthday was round the corner , and i remembered how grandly sharon's 18th birthday had been celebrated , she even had a freaking after party! I knew very well that mine would be no special , i'll just take my friends to a posh restraint probably.
I was sitting on the couch in the hall , when sharon came and sat beside me.
"What are you doing sis?"
"Choosing people i am going to take our for my birthday."
"Taking out?"
"Yeah , it's not that i am going to throw a grand party or something."
"Of course you are! Girl , it's your 18th birthday , you turn into an adult this year! You are not taking you're friends out for a boring dinner kria."
"Shar , i am so not interested in organizing a GRAND party , alone."
"Why alone?"
"Sharon se kuch sikhon kria , she didn't even ask for a party , and that is the only reason she got one. Look at yourself , you are asking for one , do you want to celebrate your birthday for yourself or to show off?"
Sharon looked at me and laughed.
"I am so not interested in listening to his lecture."
Sharon knew she had no say in this and was quiet.
"As you wish, but, am i invited? And even if i am not , i invite myself to my darling sister's birthday."
I laughed.
"Of course you are sharon."
"Good , so should i invite rey to your party?"
She gave me a teasing smiled , i looked away.
"No need , i don't want your annoying best friend at my party."
"Annoying cause he captivated your dreams? Or annoying because your cheeks turn red whenever he flashes his smile in front of you?"
She said , with a very innocent face. I hit her with the cushion. My cheeks had turned red.
"See exactly like this."
She laughed and ran , i followed her behind , we both were chasing each other , when sharon went and hid behind mom.
"Mom don't move , or else kria will kill me."
"Mom move please."
"Mom no."
"Mom please."
Our poor mom was caught up between us , when we heard the study room's door open , we look there and saw dad.
"Smriti , bring a cup of coffee for me please."
In these years , mom and dad had grown very close , but i was always nothing to him , oh ya i was something for him , maybe a mistake or a shame.
My thoughts were broken by mom's voice.
"Kria sharon , you two want something."
"No mom."
Came sharon's reply.
"Coffee."
Mom nods and went. Sharon smiled at me.
"Kria and rey sitting on a tree.."
Before she could complete , i spoke.
"Sharon , actually i need to go , you know SWAYAM had called me and said he wanted to meet me at the CAFE ."
Sharon looked at me narrowing her eyes..
"My elder sister looks so cute when she's jealous."
Saying this i ran for my life , she ran with all her strength , we were running when the bell rang , ignoring it we continued our tom and jerry chase. Suddenly , i clashed with someone , and fell on my butt.
"Ouch."
"I am so sorry."
I look up , it was rey , he forwarded his hand to me and i held it , he helped me get up.
"You fine?"
"Yup , and am sorry. I didn't see you."
"It's okay."
"Rey."
Sharon spoke , giggling. We both look at her.
"You can leave her hand , pda can be done outside home."
We realized that , we were still holding each other's hand and pulled back. Sharon burst out laughing.
"Can you stop it sharon? Taani is also here."
Welcome the vamp of my life , taani! She is my crush's chipko and over possessive girlfriend. No one likes her in sharon's group , except rey. I don't know how , he can stand that annoying girl. I hated her from the time i had first seen her in school , it just grew when she got into a relationship with him.
Why was i angry on that fact? Because Reyaansh Singhaania had broken up with me to get into a relationship with her. He had just given the reason that our relation isn't working and we can just be friends , plus he thought taani was way too better than me. Compared again , that too with such a looser! Why am i still speaking to him? Because he is my sister's best friend , and i still love him , and because no one knew about our relationship , it was a secret and will remain a secret or untold mistake of his life. Again a mistake!
So another word added to my life description - Mistake.
"Sharon , i'll go check my list."
"Swayam?"
"I was kidding."
I went not even waiting for her reply. A tear escaped my eye which i wiped away. I didn't cry over these petty things. Okay! Yes i did at times , cause it was too much to handle.
Shrugging my thoughts , i sat and started doing what i was doing , before being interrupted.
"What are you doing kria?"
I heard dad ask me . I look at his direction.
"Finalising people , i am taking out , and calling them."
"Taking out for what?"
"If you don't remember dad , my birthday is coming."
"Why are you taking them out?"
"If you have a problem with it , i won't take them out. Since sharon didn't and didn't even plan to so , i should learn from her , shouldn't i?"
Dad looked at me with an expression that i misinterpreted his words.
"You don't want a party or what?"
I look at him in shock.
"I do compare you with your elder sister kria , but you get the same things that she does , and plus it's your 18th birthday , your gautam rai prakash's daughter , you get a grand party."
Was i dreaming , or was dad talking normally to me and telling me about the party? Yeah he was.
"You can have your fun filled party at our lonawla farm house with your friends , take them there for two days , enjoy and on your actual birthday have the party sharon had except the after party."
I rubbed my eyes , i was definitely sleeping right now. Mom came and sat with the coffee mugs.
"What topic is going on?"
"Her birthday planning."
"Oh. Kria are you okay with what we planned , or."
"That is amazing mom , i am very much okay with what you planned."
I was really very happy , i hugged dad in joy , surprisingly even he hugged me back.
"Thanks papa."
"Your welcome."
I smiled and ran to sharon.
"Shar.."
I hugged her in joy. She hugged me back.
"What happened?"
"Dad has planned an amazing party for me."
"That is great."
"I know."
"So am i still invited? Or should i invite myself to lonawla?"
"You knew it!"
"Yes."
She winked at me , i hit her playfully.
"Invite yourself."
"Ouch."
We laughed.
"Sharon , hum bhi hain idhar."
Taani said. I roll my eyes.
"Toh chale jao , kissi ne roka nahi. Darwasa voh raha."
Sharon said with annoyance.
"Sharon."
Rey gave her a please compromise look , why should my sister compromise for this witch?
"Taali ek haath se nahi bajti. Tell her to stop poking her nose in my and sharon's talks , and then tell my sis to compromise get that?"
"Kria , chill."
Sharon said. I rolled my eyes , and muttered.
"Saara mood kharab kar dia."
Rey looked at me , a bit angry. I gave him a whatever look and went away to my room.
I was humming a song , when i felt some one pin me to the wall.
"The hell.."
It was rey , he looked angry.
"What is your problem kria?"
"Taani."
"Kria , i have told you thousand times and i'll tell you once again. I had stopped liking you long back , when taani came , i started falling for her . Accept it and stop making my life hell like an obsessed girl. Getting into a relationship with you was a mistake , and i am sorry about that. As well as sorry about breaking your heart , but you don't have any right to spoil my relationship with her."
"Rey , i don't give a shit about your relationship with that dimwit. I hated her even before that incident."
He looked at me as if i was lying.
"And i was rude to her because she thinks that being your girlfriend she can bloody say anything. Sharon didn't invite her here , she tagged along with you , why should sharon speak to that girl then?"
Sharon opened the door. Rey didn't see her.
"Getting into a relationship with a freak like you was the biggest mistake of my life kria!"
I pushed him away. Sharon had her eyes wide open.
"What do you want from me huh? What should i do to stop you from nagging me all the time?"
I was quiet. I had a very good mind of telling him to get lost from my house , but i didn't. He pulled me close.
"Tell me damn it!"
I tried to free myself.
"Rey , you're hurting me."
"I don't care , i am warning you kria , stay away from me and taani. It would be better."
"Get lost from here , before i call dad."
"He doesn't even care about you. Maybe he knows what a bitch his daughter is. Learn something from sharon."
"You learn something from swayam."
Saying this i pushed him.
"Out of my room , now!"
Sharon hid behind the door , rey came out. I ran to the door and closed it , falling down. His words came ringing in my mind , tears fell down from my eyes.
Why me god? What had i done to get relations like this? Why can't i get a share of my happiness? Why!
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I was sitting on my bed , studying. When the door opened , sharon was at the door.
"Kria?"
"I don't want to speak about it shar."
"You have to sweetheart. Tell me please."
She sat beside me , i hugged her tight and cried. Telling her everything.
"Bloody jerk , why didn't you tell me before kria? How can you still love him?"
"I thought i'll bring misunderstanding between you both , so i chose to stay mum. Up till now i thought , he was genuinely guilty and my heart couldn't forget him , but now i realize it."
Sharon stroked my hair. I soon slept , resting my head on her lap.
The next day , we came to college. I went to my class. After class , i was in the rehearsal hall , when rey entered. I went to take my bag and leave , when he held my hand.
"Kria , i need to speak to you."
"I don't want to."
"Just once."
I turned.
"Say what you wanna say."
"I am sorry for what i did yesterday , i behaved like a jerk."
"Great realization. Now can i leave?"
"Kria , i want to tell you something very important."
"What?"
"I had another reason to break up with you , actually the only reason."
"Oh , what was it? Taani bribed you? Some stalker of mine came and blackmailed you that if you don't break up with me he'll kill you? Or dad told you to leave me alone? Why would he anyways! I don't want this bullshit reyaansh , cause i have lost trust in you."
Saying this i went.
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My birthday had went extremely well , rey had attended just the party. I had enjoyed a lot and was very happy cause dad had actually been very sweet those days.
Sharon had been feeling sick for days , and so she had gone to the hospital for check up , i had tagged along , i was waiting outside when i saw rey coming out of a cabin. What is he doing here? Taani came out behind him. She hugged him.
"Thanks a lot for everything rey. Now i think , i need to walk this journey alone."
"Taani , i am sorry."
"Rey , you don't need to be , i had become a bitch. I was scared that people would hate me and so i got insecure , and ultimately they did hate me."
"I don't hate you."
She smiled at him. I was hell confused.
"I wish everyone said that rey. The last few months with you were the best time of my life rey , i know because of me you and kria broke up , and you fought with her and i am very sorry about that rey. I am sorry , but i just wanted to live these last few days with the person i love. I had become too selfish."
"Taani , you had just asked me , that to when you weren't even in your sense."
She laughed.
"It wasn't your fault , i did agree , i defended you and in a way hurt kria , so never blame yourself sweetheart."
Taani hugged him tight.
"If i survive rey , do invite me in your marriage with kria."
"You will taani. And i won't marry kria."
"Of course you will , you guys are meant to be."
"She won't ever accept me. So forget it."
Taani smiled. I was confused as hell. I wanted to ask rey , i had never seen taani so sad and genuine . I needed answers. They went.
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2 days later , i was standing in front of rey.
"Tell me everything please rey."
"Kria."
He took a deep breath , i held his hand and motioned him to continue.
"Taani is a patient of cancer."
I went numb.
"Her dad doesn't have the money for her operation and she didn't have proper facilities so her tauji bought her here. She had got insecure that people will hate her , so she started being mean to them. 2 days before i broke up with you , taani had told me everything in a drunk state."
He took another breath.
"She even confessed that she loved me a lot. I knew she didn't have much time , and that day when i had seen the real taani i had felt bad for her. I thought i could make her last days happy , so i decided to make her feel a bit loved , i broke up with you and got in a relationship with her , so that she at least gets a bit of happiness , she became a bit possessive towards me because she didn't want to lose those last moments , and i shouted at you because i didn't want to make her feel like she had done something bad when it wasn't her decision. That day taani had forced me to tell you the truth and i had gone but you weren't ready to listen. Her dad has arranged money and she is going for her treatment next week , there are 50 percent chances of her to survive. "
I held my mouth , i felt guilty for whatever i did.
"Why did'nt you tell me?
"Kria , i thought that you would stop me. I am sorry."
"Of course I would have been hurt , but I would have understood rey."
He hugged me , I hugged him back tight. I didn't care what he did or why , he was with me and that's what mattered.
"Can i meet taani?"
"Sure , she must be at her home , come on i'll take you."
We went , and as soon as i saw her , i hugged her.
"I am sorry taani for whatever i have done till now."
"You don't need to be. I am sorry."
"Even you don't need to be taani."
I pulled back.
"I am sure you're treatment is going to go great."
She smiled.
"Kria , i thought you were a bitch when i first saw you. But when rey told me about you na i felt guilty , sorry for misjudging you."
"Then i am extremely sorry , i had misjudged you a lot!"
We two laugh. Rey smiled. I had got a new friend in taani.
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Me and rey were official now , and i was very happy , as even dad had stopped comparing me and sharon. But , he still didn't love me the way he loves sharon.
One day , i came to him and asked with all the strength i had.
"Why do you hate me dad?"
He looked at me , and kept his work away. I was sitting scared now. He came and kneeled in front of me , he held both my hands.
"I don't hate you sweetheart."
I looked at him.
"I am a mistake for you right?"
"No dear , your not."
"Then why do you compare me with sharon all the time? Scold me for things i do and don't scold sharon? Pamper her but not me. Why?"
"Kria , sweetheart , you're mom and i got married when i was getting over preeti's death. Smriti helped a lot , she was very understanding. The day i got to know that smriti was pregnant with you , trust me i had been the happiest person on earth. But , the day you were born was the day preeti had died . That date had been unlucky for me , while giving birth to you smriti had ample blood loss , you were not responding at first , and i somehow thought that i am unlucky for you kria. That is why i distanced myself from you beta. I wanted you to be even better than sharon cause i knew you had the potential so that is why i compared you with her. I never realized how much pain i was giving you before i had seen you cry alone in the terrace yearing for someone who could care about you."
I was numb , dad was telling me something i had never known , and all this while i thought...
"I stopped comparing you with sharon , but somehow i couldn't make myself get over this fright that i was unlucky for you. I am sorry sweetheart , i know i have hurt you a lot. I am sorry , but i promise you from now on i won't. I won't."
I hugged him. He hugged me back , i cried in my dad's arms. It felt good , i felt safe there.
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Now if you ask me to describe my life i would say it has Love , care , and happiness. I had been too dumb to never let out my feelings in front of people thinking that it would make me feel weak. But it didn't , i actually got to know so many things which i had never known. The tangled relations in my life had untangled finally.
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Relations are like strings , that get tangled very easily and without any reason. They can't get untangled by doing nothing , you need to learn how to untangle them.If kria had never asked rey and her dad , about the truth , she still might have described her life as compared with others and a mistake.
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