
Ajj phir 5 saal baad mera uska samna hua...mujhe tu laga tha woh ab mur k kabhi wapis nahee ayegi...par shayad kismet ko ik baar phir zindagi mein humara samna karwana tha...kuch bhi tu nahee badla tha us mei...wohi chehra...jisey mainey toot k chaha tha...wohi ankhein...jis mei merey ilawa kisi ka bhi aks na tha...sab tu wohi tha...haan shayad badal gaya that u us ka dil...jo woh kehti thi...merey ass pass honey pe usey khabar de deta tha...tu ajj phir ajj...kasie usey khabar na huey k mein us k itney kareeb tha...kaisey woh kashish...jis ka dil mom tha...pathar hogaya...usey dukh dard ka ehsas he na raha...ehsas tu shayad 5 saal pehle he khatam hogaya tha..jab usney mujhey chora...mujhey laga tha...meri shart sun k shayad woh ruk jaye...ik maa k liye us ka bacha sab se barh k hota hai...par woh tu sach mein pathar dil nikli...apney he bachey ko...kaisey usney Sonia ko merey hawaley kar diya...dard na hua hoga us ko..apni beti ko aisey...aur woh beti har baar uska poochti hai...dil tu karta hai kahoon...mat yaad karo us pathar dil maa ko...jis ko maa kehna bhi sharam k baat hai...ik baar zindagi mei pheley ik aisi maa se mila tha...jisey apney betey se bhar kar daulat azeez thi...meri apni maa vasu...aur ik baar phir aisi maa se waqt ne milaya...jisey apni khushiyan...apni beti se zyadan pyari thein...apni ana zyada pyari thi usey...kyun bhagwan kyun...meri aur meri beti k zindagi k kahani ik se likh de...merey pass tu phir veena mom thi...par Sonia k pass kon hai...woh kis mein apni maa ko dekhegi...meri mason bachi...mera bachpan tu un tanhayon..un tano...mein guzra...par mein...apni beti k saath aisa kuch nahee honey donga...mein hoon Sonia k pass..aisi maa ka waisey bhi usey kya karna tha...jis ka dil he murda ho chukka hai...usney tu us pyaar k bhi kadar na k...jo kabhi humarey beech tha...kyun kashish...merey pyaar mei kya kami thi...kahan..mainey kuch choora tha...apni muhabatoo mei...k tum ne yun kiya...kyun kashish kyun...
And sujal sits down on the floor and cries his heart out...
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Ajj phir 5 saal baad mera uska samna hua....is liye kabhi India nahee ana chahti thi...yeh desh jahan jab mei pehli baar aye the...kitni khush thi...kitni pyaar bhari sugatein de thein is jagah ne mujhe...meri zindagi k woh haseen lamhein...phir ik baar phir mainey is jagah kadam rakha...us baar apney pyar k naam k sindoor k chamak k saath par...is desh ko mein raas na aye...aur ab ik baar phir...socha tha kabhi phir sujal k samna nahee karongi...magar janti thi...aisa kaisey hoga...angad ney shayad meri khatir us se sab rishtey tor liye hoon...par sneha...usey tu ajj bhi apney sagey bhai se bhar ka manti hai...ana tut ha he usey is shadi mei...mei he shayad dil behla rahee thi...soch ke k nahee ayega sujal...pata nahee agey kya hoga...agar usey adi k barey mei pata lag gaya tu kya hoga...nahee mei kabhi bhi usey adi k barey mei nahee bata sakti...merey jeeney ka sahara ab wohi tu hai...kash adi ko lekey he na ati tu acha tha...par kaha chorti mama papa bhi tu London mei nahee the...kis k pass rehta adi...mei khud kripa k ghar reh rahee thi...mama papa k janey k baad...mujhey kripa se baat karni hogi...kisi bhi halat mei adi sujal se na milney paye...warna...usney merey se adi ko bhi cheen liya tu...nahee mei marr jaongi...plz bhagwan aur nahee...app pehle he sujal ko mujh se durr kar chukey ho...mainey kuch nahee kaha...apka faisla samjh k maan liya...par ab nahee...plz...nahee..
She started crying...sitting down the wall...after some time..
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