i hd been wondering hw u wud write it... if u do continue the scene :).. honestly i hd nt expected u to.. i thot u wud rather give a flashbak.. :) :)
bt i m pleasently surprised... very very beautifully done.. just enuf details, n just enuf left to imagination... :) :)
n like i always do feel, n mention too abt ur writing style.. it felt tht i m intruding into their personal space... :) :) totally loved it.. is the mex i can say since u knw i m nt too gd with vocab 😉
"unending source of acceptance" this one phrase .. to me.. says too too much abt both arnav n khushi... how arnav depends on khushi... nt fr his usualy daily needs as every husband does... bt fr his very existence, fr his emotional sanity, fr an assurance tht even he is needed n accepted by someone..
while khushi... well she is wht she is... an ever bright sunshine ... mking everythg tht she touches glow bright n warm... she is tht one ray of hope.. hanging on to which, arnav can sail thru his life, even if noone, NOONE else accepts him ever... as long as he has her... :)
loved the way u mentioned hw he grabbed the chance as soon as he got khushi's yes, n the way he thinks tht its nt everyday tht he is GRANTED his wish... coz all his life, he had to snatch n scheme to get wht he wanted / needed..
to me its another step in arnav's character tht though he saw khushi's confusion/hesitation, bt unlike last time ( the kiss) .. he didnt doubt her, he luked on, n did understand her submission, her willingness, her shyness, her acceptance n her curiosity too... he cud understand tht she is nt trying to move away frm him whn she moved bak , rather she is just anxious n new to this... n hence mayb she is nervous n afraid...
the way u call a moving-backwards-khushi as "brave little wife" its too too cute :) :)
n again, whn she stops him while unpinning her saree... he clearly doesnt like it... bt thinks it thru, rather than just acting on it... n tries to reassure her, tk her along,... n nt snap at her, scream n just leave... which was more like his earlier self.
n as cute as khushi is.. so r her selfthots :) :) ... though i agree with u khushi..going with the flow or following ur heart has got absolutely nthg to do with undressing 😉
the way u explain abt his earlier exp in this respect... is very emotional... it mks me sad n pity him more than anythg else.. i somehow cant judge him anymore fr seeking random casual sex partners... i can just feel bad at how lonely n desperate cud life had md him to hv to seek sex as a assurance of human connect.
as beautifully n clearly arnav's desperation n passion comes out in tht one line where he states his wish... equally beautifully khushi's desperation n longing comes out in ... " Arnavji was doing nothing since last what... hundred light years"
god.. how innocently cute can khushi b... everytime i think ok this is the limit... she tks one more step to being a little bit more .. cute :) :) the way she asks... "this too" cudnt get any more innocent :) :)
n finally arnav uses the word LOVE ... :) :) even if its fr the way she smells or feels... he finally did use the word wrt her :) :) i m very very very happy abt it...
though i m sure he didnt realise htt he did it ... he seems to b averse to the word... :) :)
n finally khushi gets to feel tht she is desired n loved by her husband... the way a wife shud b... the way she wants to b.. :) :) ... n again... as long as khushi is happy... i cant stop grinning :) :)
khushi soo soo loves him unconditionally naa... as soon as she hears he is afraid too... she forgets her own shyness/her own physical state/ her fears/nervousness... everythg... all she remembers n cares abt is tht he is afraid n she has to assure him tht all is well, tht she is thr with him, n he is nt alone to face any fear in life... :) :)
oh dont u worry arnav... u sure r going to become a believer of GOD... just wait a little longer... u jsut hv to realise n accept tht khushi is urs... always n willingly just urs... n u wud never b able to thank God enuf fr blessing u with her :)
the way his hand tightens over her, even in his sleep... says a lot abt how possessive he has become of her... one step fwd in their relationship... n i feel he has tkn several steps towards being more possessive... though it also shows how much he needs her with him even in his sleep :) .. which seems soo loving :)
i just wish tht he doesnt let it go beyond limit... he doesnt get soo possessive tht in his quest to keep her with him, he hurts her.. .. though i somehow feel tht its bound to happen... inevitable kinds...
the part between a protective motherly buaji n a new complete wife khushi ... was real fun n enjoyable... n yes khushi i too agree its soo unfair... whn both slept, n both missed the family time... then both shud b subjected to the kadha-tea torture :) :)😆
n then we finally see arnav as someone we always wanted to... someone who is teasing her... by luks, by words, every possible way...every possible place.. in their room, in between everyone :) :)
she is totally totally invested in this now naa... nthg is more imp in her life anymore... actually as gd as nthg even exists before arnav in her life nw... she has already planned her kids, n hw she wud let them knw abt her story... her love story with her unique husband :) :)
i can feel khushi .. i feel a strange peace in myself everytime i think of how khushi is... i can never ever word properly how much i wish i cud hug her once... as if tht wud give me all the possible contentment there is in life... :) :) tht is wht khushi is to me... arnav's sunshine... n mine too :) :)
n like i said... its inevitable tht arnav hurt himself n her too... he is still apprehensive if she regrets it... though its sad tht he is still nt sure, tht he still doubts... bt i still wud like to cling onto the little hope tht he gives me, whn instead of concluding htt she regrets, he asks her if she regrets, n though he does tk a little time to believe her, yet, he does trust her... n tht too in a little lesser effort than she needed to mk last time 😊
the way he teases her abt her need fr clothes frm her old room, the way he mks her spell it out fr him... although he knew every bit of her reason... was soo soo cute... if only his parents hd been a little more mature n loving n caring fr him, a little more concerned fr him than their ownselves, he might hv been this easy going n fun n naughty all along... if only... 😊
He might have kissed those very love bites on her body proudly after she had dozed off. though there r too many lines here tht mk me feel rt thru... bt this one.. i cudnt leave out frm quoting :) :) i hv read this line 'n' number of times till now, n still everytime i feel the same kind of goosebumps or warmth... or whtever they call it... :) especially coz of the entire conversation leading to this thot :)
n finally u give a clear picture of how possessive he is of her now... as if.. he wudnt tolerate even the air n sun arnd her :) ...
wht has to happen has to happen... bt i still wish he doesnt hurt her... :) :)
PS: though the entire story seems to play ...chap 39 played fr me with every little detail... just like the last.one... not missing out on any camera angle 😉 .. told u .. u md me intrude with ur way of writing 😆
PPS: arnav accepting tht he too is afraid is also a imp pt... he didnt seem like the one who wud accept his weakness infront of anyone ... :) :)
Edited by tanu3579 - 11 years ago
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