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This update did surprise me. Thank you. But it left me wanting to read more and anxious for dear Khushi in the end.
Arnav is so involved in his life with Khushi that he didn't even realise that one day he will start missing her and staying away from her for even 4 days will be difficult. But this distance has made him realise that where Khushi is concerned he really feels for her. He has her imprinted all over his memories. And she like a loving and dutiful wife hasn't let him think otherwise. Calling him, fussing over him, making him feel needed and wanted, like there was a safe haven to return to, where he didn't have to mull over him being a burden. His courage to believe in Khushi had taken root in his heart so much so that he muted the voice of his head that was warning him not to put his guards down, that she was still friends with Rishab, that she might be playing him. He still told himself that Khushi would not hurt him that way. And then, his fears were proved right with what he saw. Its good that he didn't hear what she said or else that would have been entirely another labyrinth for Khushi to solve.
I've noticed before, in the chapters you've written, Arnav has this perception about Indian girls in particular, that they don't get touchy-feely with anyone and he thinks the same about Khushi. He even felt awkward and surprised when she hugged him publicly after their marriage. So when she 'tightly' hugged Rishab at the gates of their office, it must have left a very bad impression.
He is possessive in nature. It shows in his thought process. He wants her heart to beat only for him. He wants her to be close only to him, exclusively. He wants them to be equals. She is the only one for him and he wants to be the only one for her.
I like the way you showed Khushi's thoughts. He left for the trip right after she realised that she was in love with him. That must have made her sad that she couldn't spend time with him. She made so many phone calls because she was missing him too. She was so excited that she was finally going to meet him after 4 days. But then circumstances suddenly changed. Being the man Arnav is, I don't think she thought he would come to pick her up even before he went home. I don't think it is anyone's fault and this was inevitable anyway. Sometimes the best way to make someone trust you is prove to them how wrong they were when they didn't. I've said this before, Khushi hasn't given Arnav any solid reason to trust her. He is a cynic and she knows it. Its not about just mistrusting her, he doesn't trust anyone. And he wasn't always like this,he became so. Yes, he loves Khushi and she means alot to him, but we shouldn't forget there was another woman he loved almost as much and all she did was make a fool out of him.
Another thing is, he doesn't have any problem with her defending Shyam because Shyam isn't interested in her, he ran away from their wedding. But he knows that Rishab is. He hates Rishab more because he tried to take Khushi away from him.
And Rishab, well, all I say say is he will get better with time. Khushi was just happy having her friend back. But I don't think she should have pushed it so much with him. She should have left him alone. She didn't realise that maybe talking to her and being friends with her will not be easy for him after she rejected him. This is where her difference in behaviour towards Arnav and Rishab lies. She instantly understands what Arnav feels and wants and gives it to him, but with Rishab she wants to have her way.
I sympathise with Arnav here. Its the same way someone might feel when you think your best friend must have missed you so much when you were gone but you come back and see that she has replaced you with a new friend. You feel cheated. He has seen so much deceit that he doesn't recognize genuineness. She has ingrained it in him before that she has to wear all the things that symbolise that she is a married woman. She didn't even listen to him when he told her not to wear the bangles. And suddenly she isn't wearing those things, that too when he was gone. It doesn't mean anything to him, but he knows it does a lot to her, then why the new look. His mind has already processed why not to believe her. And then Khushi goes and makes another blunder and calls herself his friend. Major mistake. But then she knows how to pacify him as well. She won't hug Rishab ever again.
I liked their dialog after that. Arnav has started voicing his insecurities. He asked her if she loved Rishab. And Khushi's declarations were awesome too. And ofcourse Arnav didn't believe her. How can he believe that she can be so devoted to him when they were never close, emotionally or physically. When she married him just because of his father and his own manipulation. even being his wife doesn't prove anything because married poeple can cheat too.
Arnav isn't thinking straight in his anger, and the proof he asks doesn't actually prove anything. He might just go ahead and think that she faked it too. He needs a real big hard hit on his head to see sense. And now I am beginning to understand what you meant when you said Khushi will have to give her all to make him hers.
And here's some lyrics for you (not complete)
Closed off from love, I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough and it was all in vain
Time starts to pass, before you know it you're frozen
But something happened for the very first time with you
My heart melted to the ground, found something true
And everyone's looking 'round, thinking I'm going crazy
Trying hard not to hear but they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears, try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal is to keep me from falling
But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness I see your face
Once or twice was enough and it was all in vain
Time starts to pass, before you know it you're frozen
But something happened for the very first time with you
My heart melted to the ground, found something true
And everyone's looking 'round, thinking I'm going crazy
Trying hard not to hear but they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears, try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal is to keep me from falling
But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness I see your face
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