Wonderful update. It was simply the best. I don't have words.
Red hot tears were coming out of my eyes when I read Kushi's monologue. It is way too deep, painful.
I have a doubt, Kushi thinks Arnav is pursuing her for his hurt ego. Though we were shown it was love in serial and here too, isn't it his ego too? Because, in the serial he didn't care for what she was going through, he just wanted to win and get her back home. When she agreed to come, his dialogue to her was 'ASR never fails and is always right'. Not even a monologue of loving words in his mind was shown. Here you are showing it, yet is this LOVE?
I mean he want her with her. Yes, because she gives him something which he won't be able to get from anywhere else. But, does he really love her? He was attracted to her before marriage, NK trying to win her had hurt his ego and he wanted to 'claim' what was his.
Seeing her with Shyam had again hurt him, more than for his Di, it was the thought that she chose Shyam, over him. He wouldn't have married that girl if it wasn't Kushi. But that emotion is it propagated by love or his ego or both love and ego? If so can love and ego exist at the same time?
Now here too, at the first instance he got he had used Kushi as a punch bag. When his Di was hurt, he wanted to hurt someone and natrually he did it to Kushi. But when she said she is leaving, and his feeling of responsibility towards her after she saved his life too going to that extent, didn't let him to leave her. Is that love?
Nowadays, he is getting angry but he doesn't show it in fear of losing her. Is that love or his urge to win? Because he is controlling his anger so that he could win her back. Once she is back to his life, he wouldn't bother. Why this pretense and farce? Is this Love?
Even in the serial, once Kushi had agreed to be a part of his life, he had stood by her during Dadi times, came back to marry her etc. But once Sheetal came, Aarav was adopted by them, her Mrs. India times he was least bothered about her. He was again back to taking her for granted if it cannot be termed as 'ignoring'. So how is that love? Or is that is what is love?
So it is true when people say love fades away?
Here I don't feel Arnav love her. He feels guilty, he need her by his side, as now at the ending of this update he wants comfort from her-she is a commodity that gives him calmness? He is physically attracted to her too. But is there love? Is this love?
Please do reply if you can clear my confusion and show me the right path.
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