The Blooming of a Primrose

Mrs. Sidharth Malhotra

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Posted: 12 years ago

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The Blooming of a Primrose

April 2013. Present day.

I looked through my high school stuff today. Bad idea, I know, but I do it anyways.

But now that I look back at those pictures, that signed field day "Green Team" shirt, smell that favorite perfume from a billion years ago, and try on my old track pants only to see that I've gained more than just the Freshman 15, I realize that even though I've lived through some of the worst moments of life while in high school, almost all of the my most cherished ones also came from high school. The bonds I've formed and the lessons I've learned that will stay with me forever came from high school.

I'm happy I didn't let him ruin it for me.

Excuse me while I go wipe my nostalgic tears.

April 2012. One year ago.

This week, like this entire month had been hell.

I can't suck it up any longer. These past four years have been enough, I can't continue this facade of indifference any longer. Even looking at him hurts. Physically stabbing me would have hurt less than his eyes penetrating through the weakened walls of my heart. Why can't I just "undo" him out of my life? I wish I had never met him.

Please just make the pain stop!

But I don't know how much longer I'll be able to guard this self-respect, my biggest weapon and target of destruction.

I don't want to give that sadist the pleasure of knowing he won and more importantly, that I lost. I'd much rather die. But bottling it all up is killing me from within, I don't even think I can feel anymore.

His poisonous love destroyed everything leaving just pain, and fortunately for him, lots of it.

I just hope if god's listening to me, if he can hear me, if he exists, just please, please I beg of him just make it stop.

I don't want this suicidal emotion in me, please god I don't want to be affected by him, I don't want to hurt, I don't want to love him god, please, JUST MAKE IT STOP!!!

September 2008. Freshman Year.

Today was my first day in my dream high school. I was more anxious rather than excited to be quite honest. Being the proud nerd I was, my priority was to make sure all the teachers liked me.

I have it planned out- Smile, nod, and verbally agree.

If female- compliment shoes.

If male- compliment tie.

If not wearing tie- waste a minute talking about how excited you are for the class and how you have been looking forward to it all summer.

Oh and did I mention that this was also the day my life ended?

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A/N: Please excuse the jumps between time periods. I will write the time period before each passage but I want to portray the story, the events, and most importantly the emotions in an order that made sense to me as a storyteller, rather than chronological order.

It's not my best work but I'm just trying to write something that I really connect with.

I hope you liked it.

-Shweta

Edited by -ForeverYours- - 12 years ago

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DonnaHarvey

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Posted: 12 years ago

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The bonds I've formed and the lessons I've learned that will stay with me forever came from high school

Stop right there. Are you talking about the four years of hell that I would like to forget? Oh to the N.O. I am outta here. 😆 Kidding I will read it because you wrote it. Carry on

hello steve. you write like stephen chbosky. dont let it get to your head. this was only put in to subconsciously make you want read/watch perks

all in all, a good start. I reserve my judgements for later.

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ABCDesiGirl93

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Posted: 12 years ago

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Unres!

Interesting intro, do con't though! 😊

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Pritt B

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Posted: 12 years ago

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Eek! *Fangirl scream*

I'm excited for this.

I loved this.

Shwetu, this..just...it's actually amazing!

I love the concept and your writing is just wonderful and I can't wait until the next part and I'm probably going to be annoying you to update.

Actually I'll spare you, like I spare Jassu.

Can't waitt.

"I don't want this suicidal emotion in me, please god I don't want to be affected by him, I don't want to hurt, I don't want to love him god, please, JUST MAKE IT STOP!!!"

^That made my heart hurt.

I'd like to add that since you connect with the story, I'm sure it'll be amazing.

Edited by PrittB - 12 years ago

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