That was so deep! The kind of bond Arnav and Khushi share, is eternal, ethereal and yet enigmatic. It is not just physical attraction or intellectual compatibility or emotional attachment, but rather a bit of all three rolled into one, then fastened with tender cords of care and comfort and finally wrapped up in complete devotion - something that they can never ignore, even if they wished to. I do not claim that I understand that kind of love, because I don't. But that does not mean it cannot exist.
Khushi continues to baffle me. How can she be so nonchalant about the fact that Lavanya is in love with Arnav. I can't believe that she is oblivious to her best-friend's two decades long love. Maybe she is completely secure about Arnav's love for her, but I still fail to grasp her comfort with the whole situation, specially when Lavanya seems incapable of moving on. Her level of detachment is beyond me. It must be extremely difficult to be in a relationship with such a person. Love is not about possessing or staking claim. But it is no easy feat to look past all those layers of aloofness and disentanglement, and seek out the love that remains secure deep down in the recesses of her mind and heart. My heart goes out to Arnav. I'm sure he has his share of flaws and being in a relationship with him might not have been a cake walk either. But Khushi does seem to be the more difficult one. Yet, I cannot deny that Khushi loves Arnav deeply, she might just not express it the conventional way.
Arnav-Khushi's wedding was supposed to happen 7 years back, i.e. 11 years after they had met. But it seems that Lavanya had still been single (of course my assumption) till that point, as if she knew that something was destined to go wrong. I am not accusing Lav of any wrong doing, just the fact that she has continued to harbor feelings for her best-friend's fiance and yet remained closely associated with their lives, regardless of the fact that it must cause her immense pain, scares me. I do not understand that kind of self-destructive tendency. Why put forth your heart to be broken, time and again? That is not love, but addiction. I think Lavanya is addicted to Arnav.
Sometimes I find myself wondering, can't Arnav just wade out of this emotional mess and just meet someone new and start life afresh? Would that be so bad? But then I'm sure a lot of readers won't like it. Arnav-Khushi are like the star crossed lovers who are destined to ride into the sunset, together. And as I said before, Arnav and Khushi cannot just move apart, even if they wanted. I just hope and wish that Arnav finds it in his heart to forgive Khushi, as it seems to me that they can never be happy with anyone else, but with each other. Call it a boon or a curse, but they are in this together, for life! What about Lavanya then? I cannot even imagine how hurt she would be. If I were in Lav's shoes, I don't know how I will feel when I find out that after 7 years of torment that Arnav had been subjected to by Khushi, whatever the reasons might have been, during which I stood by him every step of the way, helped him pull his life back together, locked up all my desires to be the friend that he needed, after every thing, he still chose Khushi over me. Whatever Arnav decides, someone is bound to get hurt. I don't understand Khushi or Lavanya, but I still love them both and I would hate to see either of them hurt. Why is life so damn complicated?
Edited by niharika111 - 12 years ago
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