ASR: I cant live without you, Khushi

It starts once Garima and Arnav's father's truth is revealed by Dadi.Garima does not say anything in her defence .She looks speechless being worried what will happen to Khushi now.

Arnav is shattered. rest of the family were silent spectators. They were scared about Arnav's reaction even Anjali. dadi and Shyam were eager to see what happens next. Payel was worried about her sister.

Khushi reaches next to Arnav to console him and places her hand over his shoulder.She had firm belief that her Arnavji needed her today. It did not occur to her for the slightest bit of moment that he might call off the wedding. She had full faith on him. And she was disappointed with what he did next.

He brushed off her hand, gave her a disgusted look and walked away from there. She tried to stop him begging him to listen to her, to be with her but he ignored her cries. All these she was doing to support him when he needed her most or so she thought.

He went back to his room as the wedding was taking place in Raizada Mansion. That cursed night was flashing in his mind, nothing else. He was fuming with anger. Khushi followed him. She was still trying to console him.

She called out "Arnavji!!!...Aab shaant ho jayiye. Sab theek ho jayega. Hum ..."

Before she could finish, arnav yelled " ...kabhi ek nhi ho sakte...dadi ne theek hi kaha he khushi...mein hi galat tha. Khun apna rang dikha hi deta hai. Shyam toh gunegar tha hi par tum bhi kuch kam nhi. Ab mujhe sab saf najar aa raha hai. tumne ne bhi wohi kiya na jo tumhare mausi ne kiya tha. yeh coincidence kaiese ho sakta hai?? ye sab sirf tumahre saath hi kyu hua, khusi??"

He comes forward to hold her firmly in his grip " aisa kyun kia tumne Khushi?? Mere emotions ke saath khelte tumhe zara sa bhi sharam nhi aayi?? Aur tum janti thi na apne mausi ke karnamo ke bareme??" He holds her more firmly hurting her "un hone toh mere papa ko barwad kar diya tha ab tum kya chahti hoh mujhse..."

Khushi stares at him with tearful eyes and a broken heart. arnav speaks again " How could you do this to me?? after I loved you more than my life???..." his eyes were red with pain and hurt and anger.

Khushi was still staring at him with disbelief being numb. Then he frees her of his grip and stormed out of the room driving away in his car. She felt her heart was bleeding , that Arnav had just stabbed her right through her heart. At least she wished he had for even that would have been less painful. She could not believe what just happened. Her marriage was broken. The more harsh reality was that she was half married.

On the other hand, Dadi spoke after Arnav had withdrwan from the mandap " ye din toh ekdin aana hi tha. ye shaadi kabhi bhi mumkin nhi thi."

Nani said " Arnav ko hi decide karne do Subhadra"

Dadi :"Ab decide kar ne ke liye bacha hi kya hai??...Khushi was always charcterless. I never wanted such a bahu who had been sleeping with a man without being married to him. Now the marriage is finally called off. Arnav mandap chorke ja chuke hai..." She ordered Garima,

Buaji and Babuji to leave along Khushi and their relatives and never to show their faces again. Anjali and the others were still recovering from what just happened. Shyam was satisfied thinking Khushi would soon be his. Payal ran upstairs to look out for her dearest sister.

She was hell scared when she could not find either of Khushi Arnav's room. After all she was right there before Arnav left. Where could she go?? She screamed for Aakarsh. All the Raizadas and the Guptas went looking for what happened. payal was very scared for her sister for she knew how it felt.

She asked Aakarsh "lets go find khushi. I am so scared" , she said holding Aakarsh by his shirt and crying over his shoulder. Dadi ordered her not to. She said she can only be continuing her marriage if she agrees to end every relation with the Guptas. Payal froze and stood numb. So did Aakash. Aakarsh took Payal to their room.

The Guptas left being worried about khushi. Buaji assured Garima that she trusted her and that she knew Garima could not do anythng wrong but she would hear the story later from her and that khushi might have gone home. After all she is very strong. She would not do anything to hurt herself or her family. So no need to worry.

Arnav was driving very fast. That night was flashing in front of his eyes in details. his eyes were red and wet.Then he remembered Khushi. How she saved his life when he was kidnapped. What happened the day when he and Khushi returned home after kidnapping.these thoughts came flashing to his mind that Khushi could not priduce any proof to him that it was actually Shyam and that she was innocent. He had just believed in her seeing her innocence in her eyes. He could never believe Shyam because he had confessed before. But what about Khushi?.She might have played a game as well to win his trust. She might have plotted to get rid of Shyam and to be the mistress of Raizada Mansion overnight. After all if her aunt could be so mean, why cant she be?? Then he rememberd all his moments with Khushi. Was she acting all along?

His heart could not agree but now he was reluctant to listen to his heart. May be he need to look into the matter more deeply.He wanted to rip his heart apart. Even he was feeling a big hole in his empty heart which had been wounded only by his Khushi. He stopped driving, got out of his car, banged his hand on the hood of the car and sat down in the road in front of his car crying his heart out. Was there no way that Khushi could be innocent. The arrogant ASR in him was telling him that Dadi was right all along. Khushi was a cheap girl just like her aunt. It was in her blood. its not a big thing for her.

But his heart was speaking again and again that he needed to know more. His Khushi could not be mean. She loves him. He needed to find out what actually happened that night. He remembered he was looking Garima right through her eyes when Dadi was accusiing her. Somewhere he felt Garima could not do so. She could feel her honesty. She had known her as Khushi's mother for a long time now and he knew she was caring and honest. Then??...He was lost in his thoughts.

on the other hand in Gupta House it was past mid night but yet no sign of Khushi. Everyone was worried and Garima was crying inexcessibly holding Babuji's hand in front of his wheel chair saying "Its all my fault. I should not have..."

Bauji tried to raise his hand and keep it over garima's... assuring her he understands...Buaji was speechless saying over and over again "Nothing will happen to Khushi...Just then NK called Buaji to ask about Khushi.

He was hell worried and wanted to support her throught out as a friend. Buaji informed him that Khushi did not return yet. They do not know where she was. NK was shocked.

He called Arnav to inform him about Khushi. Because deep inside even he knew that Arnav loves her much more than his own life.

Arnav's phone was on vooice mail. But when he got the message, that Khushi was missing, though he was so confused in his accusations and was determined that he would look into the whole matter in details but he would not give her a chance to hurt him again, he would hate her from now on, he could not stand it. He got so restless. He felt that his world was actually over. His Khushi was missing.

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Index

Chapter 1- pg1

Chapter 2- pg 2

chapter 3 -pg 3

chapter 4-pg 3

chapter 5 -pg 4

chapter 6-7 pg 7

chapter 8- pg 8

chapter 9,10,11 -pg 10

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Chapter Two: Arnav's realisation of his love for Khushi

Arnav was out of his mind. He did not know where to find Khushi. At the same time, he was almost back to his arrogant form. He din't want to confess his love for Khushi anymore for he was so hurt. He was not sure enough if he could love her anymore.

But deep inside he had to find his Khushi and make sure that she is good. . He got into his car quickly and started off to search her.

First he went to Laxminagar to enquire about Khushi in silence but din't intend to visit Buaji's house. Once he reached the neighbourhood, he decided to look through the window to see whats going on inside.

He heard Garima crying and saying to Buaji " He trapped me , jiji. I had no option but to lie ".

Arnav wanted to know more but at the moment Khushi was more important. And then he heard Buaji saying "Garima, now is not the time to cry. We will talk about it later. Let Khushi come home safely , then we wil try to prove your innocence ".

Arnav thought "What??...She thinks she is innocent. ???"

He was already fuming in rage. But he came back to his priorities.

He thinks "Khushi!!!. She dint return yet!!! Where could she be??? Where will I find her now?? " He got into his car and drove away.

He started looking for her in every mandir, chawki, almost everywhere but in vain. Once in the highway, where he stopped because of the traffic, his eyes were again red by then.

He could not find his Khushi anywhere. It's her he needed the most at the moment. She is the one who completes him. He was scared, very scared for her. What if he lost her?? What if something terrible happened to her??

He hid his face in the stirring wheel. Then he looked up. His eyes were tearfully red with hurt. He said " Khushi!!!! I can't live without you. Please come back!!"

His sudden confession seemed to be the greatest and only truth to him. He was also surprised by it for in the past few hours he had almost decided not to love her anymore, not to care, to shut off his feelings.

But now he is surprised with the utter realisation that HE LOVED HIS KHUSHI. AND THAT IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING. Though he was still fighting with his feelings, he realised that he will always love Khushi and will need her.

Though he might not forgive her for he thinks she cheated him. He thinks she might have an illegal relation with married Shyam just like her aunt had with his married dad.

He had this feeling because Dadi had said last night that Khushi had inherited from her aunt to have illegal relations with married men and to destroy others' household just what she did with Anjali's.

The thought had set in his mind. Dadi had said "ganda khoon aur parvarish apni fidrat kabhi nhi bhulti".

He even thinks that she might have acted to love him all along. Though her innocence was not clear to him, he needed proof for her love, about one thing he was absolutely sure that no matter what HE LOVED HER MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE.

And now if he hurt her, he himself would be hurt more. But he needed to find the truth before forgiving her.

After thinking so much, he came back to his senses for the traffic light went green and the vehicles behind him were protesting him to move forward with their horns. He remembered that for now, the most important thing is to find his Khushi.

Others he will work on later.

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great update...

Hy awesome start soo heart breaking poor khushi continue soon n plz pm me nxt time u update

Chapter three: Goodbye, I didn't want'' it but I feel bliss, ''my love!!!

Everything seemed to end for her the moment she heard him say "kabhi ek nhi ho sakte". They had fights many times but this one just did it. She never felt the way she felt now not even when her parents died.

Though it was a lot to take in and she could not concentrate on all of the accusations her beloved prince was making against her, but she was trying to process them while staring blankly at him with tearful eyes, she had no words to express what she felt like. She loved him with all her existence. She had full faith in him. With him, she always felt safe. He was all she wanted. Was it too much to ask for?? .

And today when Dadiji was about to break her wedding, she expected him to stand up for her and save her from the world and shelter her in his heart. But here he was accusing her of cheating him. She could not process all his accusations, but that was the least she could make out of what partly she heard.

A sharp pain she felt in her heart. And then she saw him from the corner of her eyes to take out his keys and rushing out of the room. She felt there is nothing to stand there for. Everything was over. She was now numb, she could not think of anyone else.

She walked out of Raizada Mansion. Before moving out, she glanced back at Shantivan for one last time, the mansion which was once her beloved home. And everyone else was also confused and shocked. No one paid any heed towards her.She started walking in any mindless direction. Slowly her life, all her dreams were flashing in front of her eyes.

Today was the day she was waiting for all her life. Her Arnavji, who she thought would never ever leave her side, was going to wed her today and after that they would be together forever.

Since her parents died, she had been an adopted child for the Gupta family. Though they always regarded her as their own, but she knew it somewhere that she does not have anyone who she would belong to, who would love her with all her existence, who would have a never ending unbreakable bonding with her. Today was "the day". She was going to be Arnav's forever. They would have had unbreakable bond forever and ever.

Suddenly she remembered everything was over. And most importantly Arnav discarded her, she lost everything, every value of her existence. Suddenly she came back to her senses. She tried to go back to her self "KKG...SR" no, only KKG, she thought. This should not affect her life.

She tried to console herself. She would outlive this moment, go back to herself and pretend that nothing happened. She was trying to console herself though she knew it is easier said than done. She had to go back home. She looked around only to find that she was on the highway (happened to be the same where Arnav was at that moment of traffic).

She suddenly saw that the light turned green and a child was halfway between the road trying to cross it. She would be nearly four years old. She jumped over to save the child. She pushed her away from the road but in the attempt to save her, to her horror, from the corner of her eye she saw a car was just speeding towards her. She froze!!!!

She fell down on the road when the car hit her.She lied there bleeding closing her eyes. The last thing which crossed her eyes was Arnavji's face.She thought to herself with tearful eyes "Forgive me, Arnavji, Goodbye. I din't want to leave you. I wanted to be yours forever. But I feel bliss!!!. Every pain which was bothering me till now seems to come to an end. Arnvji!!!!!!!" She closed her eyes with a smile.

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Oh No!!! I really hope that Khushi is okay!!! Awesome part even though it was sad. I hate Shyam and Daadi!!! Hope they find out about Khushi soon!!! Please continue sooN!!