M: ok ok maybe we should stop laughing and get out of here before these people order us to the stake for burning..
and with that I hear her signature laughter booming my ears.
Ree: haha.. fine but it was bound to happen. Put the two of us within a meter of one another and all sense of sanity escapes my head.
With that came the most not so shocking reply uttered by muski, which left me a little lost for words at her high insult, actually that's not true at all. I'm never lost for words. It was just that the internal dialogue in my head, was so severe that I was having a hard time opening my mouth to let those internal thoughts penetrate through her malleus, incus and stapes making their way into her coiled feature (name? ), sending signals up to her auditory cortex which may make sense of the number of insults that may be coming her way soon enough.
** snap snap** hearing those clicky sounds infront of my face, brought me out of my reverie, and I couldn't help but groan at my nerdiness.. oh well no point in denying my very active grey cells were at use yet again, even when I didn't need them to be at the moment. All I really needed them to do was throw an insult in the form of a comeback to her horrendously exaggerated statement, "Are you trying to imply, that you had some sense of sanity to begin with woman?" looking up I saw the ass of my BF smirking in my direction, while biting her tongue, to stop herself from laughing in her loud unique hee haw laughter whilst at the same time and narrowing her eyes in a desperate attempt to maintain a smirk which she was failing at miserably.. seeing her my lips twitched for a second seeing her cute antics, but the next second hearing her supressed laughter finally echoing my ears, I gave her a "I'lll kill you, if you cross me glare" and lunged forward to do some physical damage myself. Now don't get me wrong I love my BF (one side note 'BF' stands for best friend, NOT and I repeat not 'boyfriend', strictly against those good for nothing complications in my life)''so as I was saying I love my best friend and all, but my way of showing my love involves sarcasm (my other best friend) and lots of jokes and threats (main empty but you better beware if you cross me too many time, you never know)' Ofcourse though, muski says I'm weird im more mean to the people I am close with' and more polite with strangers.. but what she doesn't understand is that, I have certain rights on people in my life that I don't on strangers' plus im not really good at dealing with new people.. 'old is gold' well not old, but the middle I swear, beginnings are scary and ends are well plain sad, it's the middle bit of the journey that the best.. Well according to me anyway..
Anyhow, ok I guess I should stop with this whole diary writing business. I mean I gave it a shot atleast' and anyway Mr. Costa said that he won't be reading what we wrote and he'll just flip through the pages to see if we made a decent effort. So annoying this thing is, so annoying everything is in life, i just can't wait to grow up where there is no homework, and no forcing of doing things that i don't wanna do...
Reflection of thoughts journal... they name itself is sooo gay, pointless too.. what does he know how much i reflect on my own thoughts. I mean i've been famously known to co-exist in my own la la land ALL THE TIME... Or atleast that's what i have been told by my friends.. To be honest, i've never really noticed but to also be fair my own thoughts are a lot more interesting than anything these stupid teachers come up with.. Oh except Mr. Knight, yea he's the dreamy teacher.. the one and only who can make me dream only about him though and not away from him.. *sigh*
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With a huge smile on my face, reminiscing the old memories i closed my journal but not before marking it with a photo of mine with a cheesy over the top smile and muski kissing my cheeks, a picture taken at my 18th birthday i recently celebrated. IT's funny how i used to think being forced into this journal was plain torture Mr Smith was forcing me into. And yet, i became my only outlet for venting and a method of maintaining my sanity over the last couple of very tough years in my life.
And now that i'm leaving everything behind; my family, friends, my whole life, everything... i can't help but get nostalgic even though this leaving was my idea.
London, aahh... a dream i worked so hard to turn into a reality... Fought my parents over it for months, convincing them was the hardest to let me go, wouldn't have been possible without my rock though.. my bhai.. (well biya for me.. that's how i like to pronounce it... and exaggerating the 'a' at the end if i want to irritate him or if i am irritated myself) Anyway as much as it is his life mission to annoy me, regardless he loves me a lot... and according to him it is only him who can annoy me.. very overprotective and very good looking.. Abhimanyu Gupta.. or just Abhi for friends and family.. Love aaah.. even though he doesn't show it in a mushy kind of way.. he cares and he takes care of me.. practically raised me in some aspects like studies and career choice etc.. anyways yea he does love me.. after all i'm his baby sister right??
'baby'... 'little' adjectives most commonly associated and used by my dear one.. along with 'clumsy', 'accident prone' and 'weak'...
But these are also the same words i despise.. A LOT!!!!
Even though i love the feeling of being loved, and knowing that some people out there really care about me, are there to protect me in this harsh world and being treated as a princess in every day of my life... It's just not something i want to be known as anymore.. not after what i've been through.. i know that i need to learn to be independant.. depending on people will only put me in strife in the future. 'Weak'... no i'm not that at all.. and that is the main reason i was looking to get away, to find my own independance to prove my strength to myself and to others.. But now that i am in the plane, i am a little ashamed to admit that i am shit scared of what's going to happen to me.
Everything is so new, even flying alone.. I've never done that, i've always had someone with me and they looked after check-in and stuff, which is precisely why biya told me exactly what i needed to do.. Anyhow, here i am 45 mins before landing, starting to realise the gravity of the situation. Packing away the diary i was reading whilst i was feeling all nostalgic about leaving my home, my family, my friends and muski behind in San Francisco.. my Frisco...
OH GOD... nostalgic after only a few hours of flight to London sounds absolutely ridiculous, considering this was my dream.. MY LONDON.. as i liked to call it.. But what can i do with my emotions.. i try to be tough and all but these damn tears just never stop.. arg!! biya would give me soo much crap if he was her.. 'if'...
well i guess i should go and freshen up... after landing i'll have other things to worry about...
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