The Heart Knows -IPKKND ff-THREAD 2 link in pg 156 - Page 16

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strong emotional update..
feeling bad for both arnav and khushi...😭

precap is so sad:) hope lkhushi changes her mind:)

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thankz fr ur commentz...it is possible dat khushi can stay wid arnav as we all kno how kind she is...but de thing is, she has been hurt n her feelings hav to b considered...so both khushi n arnav hav to spend some time alone to find out wat dey really want...wen they r sure dat they need each other, dey will join...till then i think v hav to accept their separation...n v can also c if arnav tries to do something to manaofy his wife...
now chapter 20

THE HEART KNOWS

CHAPTER 20

Siddharth took her to his guest house. He and his father took care of her. They were able to heal her physical wounds. They weren't able to heal the pain in her heart. They tried to cheer her up. They even tried their hand in cooking. It brought a smile to her lips. However the smile did not reach her eyes.

She spent her nights staring at the ceiling with an empty look. Her chest felt as though some one had dug her heart out and had left her bleeding. She couldn't control it. She loved Arnav and it hurt a lot when it was so obvious that he hadn't trusted her.

Three days later, when Khushi was able to walk, she went to the terrace and stared at the sky. The dark sky reminded her about Arnav. Even though Arnav was cold from the outside, she had felt a sort of warmth when she was near him. The wind was quite chilly and she hugged herself. How long she stood there, she didn't know.

She felt some one wrap a shawl around her and turned around. It was Siddharth.

"It's cold, isn't it?" he asked her.

She nodded and leaned on him. He put his arm around her shoulder and held her in a side hug.

"Have you thought over it?"

"No."

"No, I haven't thought about it? Or no, I have thought about it but can't come with an answer?"

"No answer. I don't know what to do."

"What does your heart tell you?"

"I don't want to trust my heart again." A few seconds later, she said, "Ghar chalein?" [Shall we go home?]

"You, me and dad?" he asked her.

She nodded.

"Kal?" [Tomorrow?]

"Okay."

"Ab neeche chalein? [Shall we go down now?] It's cold."

When he was about to go to his room, she called him. "Am I taking the right decision?"

"Yeh final decision nahi hai. Waqt hai tumari paas." [This is not the final decision. You have got time.]

"Thank you, Siddhu."

"Mere sweetheart ke liye kuch bhi." [Anything for my sweetheart.]

"You have to marry me,Khushi. Woh bhi 6 mahine ke liye…"

"One more wrong move on your part and I will kill you, Khushi. I mean it. Don't mess with me."

"Stay in your limits."

"Do not provoke the devil in me, Khushi. You won't be able to bear it this time. One mistake, I might forgive. I MIGHT. The same mistake again, I will not. Keep that in your mind."

"I don't keep tabs," he said as he threw the thick wad of notes on her. "I settle everything. This is for the kiss."

"This is not your house, Khushi," he said rudely. "You can't go anywhere you like. Next time, think twice. No. Think atleast ten times before entering my room. I hate when people invade my privacy. I can accept it if my family disturbs me. You are no one and I don't want you to repeat this again. I am tolerating you in my office because of Siddharth. This is my house and I don't have to pretend as though I can bear you. Get out of my room. Don't ever make the mistake of returning again. If possible, don't ever come back to my house. Get out now."

He got out of the car and pulled her out. "What do you think of yourself? Tume kya laga that I will believe whatever you say and declare my love for you? Never. I hate you, Khushi Kumari Gupta. I hate you for what you did to my sister. I hate you for everything. I will make sure that you pay for your mistakes."

"I don't need you near me at all."

He remembered every rude word he threw at her face. His words were like a boomerang. It returned back to him and hit him with double the force.

The last few days were hell for him. He didn't go to Siddharth's house to see her. He called Siddharth to know whether she was fine.

He would hear her voice in the background and stayed satisfied with it. Even though he only heard a few words, it felt like nectar from heaven.

When he looked at the calendar everyday, he would wish that Khushi would forgive him and be by his side. Three days passed since he saw her in the hospital and it didn't happen. Yet.

Shyam left Shantivan as soon as Arnav took Khushi to the hospital. Even though he knew that Khushi wouldn't tell them what had really happened, he didn't want to take the chance.

He called Anjali from his office.

"Hello Rani Saheba!"

Anjali was upset. She hadn't heard her husband's voice during the last few days.

"Shyamji, where are you?"

"Kaam ke silsiley mein Lucknow gaya tha. Ab waapas aa raha hoon." [I had to go to Lucknow for some work. I am returning.]

"Aap jaldi aayiye. [Come back soon.] You have to meet Khushiji."

"Khushiji?" he acted as if he didn't know. "Khushiji aagayi?" [Khushiji has returned?]

Anjali told him about the recent accident. Shyam was happy that Khushi hadn't revealed the truth to anybody.

"So sad, Rani Saheba. I wish Khushiji returns to Shantivan," he said with an evil grin.

"Aap jaldi aayiye." [You come soon.]

"Zaroor, Rani Saheba. Where else will I go?"

He disconnected the call. He was very happy.

"You are mine, Khushi. I will get you back."

All the bags were packed and were in the car. The two little kittens were playing in a basket which had become their home.

Khushi walked to the car with a lost expression on her face. She didn't know whether she was taking the right decision. All she knew was that she had to leave for a while.

"Siddhu, can we go to Arnavji's house before we go to the airport?"

Both the father and son were surprised. It was the first time she had spoken out his name.

"Main airport ja raha hoon," Prakash told his son. "Tum dhono Shantivan jao." [I'll go to the airport. Both of you go to his house.]

They parted ways and decided to meet in the airport.

Arnav was pacing the lengths of the living room with a phone in his hand. He was restless. He felt that something was wrong and that he had to call Khushi. He had the same sort of feeling from the previous night. Somehow he couldn't gather the courage to call her.

The whole family was present in the living room except Shyam. They knew he was worried but were not able to do anything to help him.

"Khushi bitya keisi hai, Chote?" Nani asked him. [How is Khushi, Chote?]

"Fine, nani."

"Can we meet her?"

Before he was able to answer her, an odd and a familiar feeling evolved in his heart. He looked at the entrance and saw the closed doors. The strange feeling did not stop.

Nani called him again. He did not turn. His attention was on the door. All of them turned to see what he saw.

After twenty five long seconds, the door opened and Khushi entered the house with Siddharth.

Arnav's eyes widened in shock and happiness. He had waited for this sight for a long, long time.

Khushi walked towards them and was surrounded by the whole family except Arnav. He stood rooted in the same spot. A small smile was beginning to form in his lips. However it did not last long.

After a lot of hugging, Anjali said, "Chote, Khushiji has come back."

"Nahi, Anjaliji. Mein Mumbai ja rahi hoon." [No, Anjaliji. I am going to Mumbai.]

Arnav felt his heart stop. The smile on his face died. He wondered whether he had heard the right thing. Did she really say that she was going back to Mumbai?

Arnav couldn't believe his ears. Did she say that she was leaving him? He closed his eyes and cursed himself for the irrepairable damage he had done to his Khushi.

"Chote," Anjali tugged his hand. "Khushiji se kaho. [Tell Khushiji.] Tell her not to leave."

He opened his eyes and saw his sister. She was close to tears and so was he. He then saw Khushi. Payal was asking her not to leave. Everybody around them, even mamiji, asked her not to leave. The only one who stayed silent was Akash. He saw Arnav for a second and then looked away.

"Let her go, di," he told her in a broken voice.

Every one stopped talking and looked at him in shock.

"Chote, par…" [Chote, but…]

He looked at his sister and said, "Di, let her go if that is what she wants."

"Lekin kyun?" [But why?]

"I hurt her a lot and I don't want you to force her. Let her decide what she wants. Woh hamesha dhoosron ke liye jee rahi hai. [She has always lived for others.] At least from now on, let her live for herself."

Siddharth understood what he tried to say and so did Akash.

"Don't take such a decision, chote," nani told him.

Payal said, "Arnavji, please…"

"Why are you trying to convince me when I have to be the one to convince her and ask for her forgiveness?" he asked his family.

"Maafi? Lekin kyun?" [Forgiveness? But why?] Anjali asked him. "Are you hiding something from us? What happened between the two of you?"

Arnav did not say anything.

"Chote, Khushi bitya yahin rahegi.[Chote, Khushi bitya will stay here.] " She told Khushi, "We won't let you leave this house."

"Haan. Hum aap ko jaane nahi denge." This was from Anjali. [Yes. We will not let you leave.]

"Nani, di, please," he almost shouted. "It's enough. Marriage will not work this way. Forcing somebody will only increase the pain and the hate." He looked at Khushi's eyes and said, "I have learnt it the hard way and I will never do it again."

"Hume reason batao, Chote. We will try to understand." [Tell us the reason.]

"Some things are best left unsaid, di."

"Chote, tume kya hua? Iss thara bath… kyun?" [Chote, what has happened to you? Why are you talking like this?]

"Kyun ki maine bahut badi galthi ki. [Because I have done a very big mistake.] And I don't think I can ever make it right."

Khushi turned to leave. She had come to see him for one last time and to tell him that she was leaving. Since she had done both, she wanted to leave.

Arnav saw her leaving and called her. "Khushi."

She turned around.

"Patha nahi ki tum kabhi waapas aaogi ya nahi." [I don't know whether you come back or not.]

"Chote,…"

He shook his head and said, "Di, please. Aaj nahi. [Not today.] I have to sort this out."

Siddharth went to Anjali and held her hand. "Anjali, he is right. There are a few things which can not be changed by us. It is their future and they have to decide."

"Siddharth, Khushi ke bina…"

He interrupted and said, "Nahi, Anjali. Khushi ke bina ya Khushi ke saath? [Without Khushi or with Khushi?] They have to think. We shouldn't force them. Waise Arnav has a lot to say. Let him talk. Aaj bhool jao that he needs your help." [Today, you have to forget that he needs your help.]

Even though she didn't like it, she nodded. He removed his hand from hers and moved aside.

Arnav walked towards Khushi. Each step he took felt as if those were his last ones.

"Mujhe patha nahi ki tum kabhie waapas aaogi ya nahi. Mujhe sirf yeh patha hai ki main tumare bina jee nahi paaonga. Maine tumari saath theek nahi kiya. [I don't know whether you will return or not. I just know that I will not be able to live without you. I didn't do the right thing with you.] Everything was a mistake. From the day I met you in Sheesh Mahal to the day I left you on the deserted road… Sab kuch… Every damn thing was a mistake. Except one."

He lifted her injured hand and held it gently. Khushi, who had been looking at the floor, raised her eyes to see him. His eyes were filled with tears.

"Except my love for you. It has always been you. Only you. You have always been at the receiving end of my anger. It was because you were changing me. You were changing my life. I built a wall around me and turned Arnav to ASR. It was my safe zone. Nobody could make me feel anything for anybody and nobody could hurt me. You threatened to destroy the wall that I had created. I panicked. I didn't want to be vulnerable. I didn't want to be at the mercy of anybody and I retaliated. I didn't want to become Arnav again and feel the hurt once more. I shouted at you at every possible opportunity. I thought you would quit but you didn't. The wall was almost destroyed and that was when I announced my engagement with Lavanya so that you wouldn't affect me any more. I was wrong, Khushi. Like always. I didn't want to suffer and to escape all the pain, I hurt you a lot. I made you suffer as I didn't realize how important you were in my life."

Tears blinded his vision. He rubbed it with the back of his hand as he wanted to see his Khushi.

"When I realized that I love you, the wall around my safe zone did not matter anymore. Only you mattered. I wanted to be Arnav forever. I wanted to share my life with you. Around you, I felt like the fourteen year old boy who had all the love in the world. I wanted to marry you. But then the same thing happened again. Everything was snatched away from me like before when I saw you in the terrace with him."

The final sentence shocked the people around him. Only Siddharth and Akash remained unaffected.

Anjali couldn't hide the shock from her voice. "Chote, what are you saying?"

He ignored her. "I thought you were giving me those cute little looks and having an affair behind my back. That is why I forced you to marry me. Only one thing mattered to me. I didn't want you to destroy anybody else's marriage and I married you for all the wrong reasons. I made your life miserable…"

Anjali had enough of it. She pulled Arnav aside and asked, "Bas karo. [Stop it.] What are you telling her, chote?"

"Sach, di. I can't hide it anymore."

"Tum Khushi se pyaar kiya hai na?" [You loved Khushi, didn't you?]

He nodded.

"Then how can you think like this? Tell me this is not the truth."

"Di, yeh sach hai." [Di, this is the truth.]

"Who is he, chote?"

Khushi was alarmed.

Khushi called her. "Anjaliji, yeh hum dhono ki zindagi hai. Please leave us alone." [Anjaliji, this is our life. Please leave us alone.]

"Aap mere liye maa ki thara hai, di. Lekin aaj interfere math kijiye. Let me finish." [You are like a mother to me, di. But today, don't interfere. Let me finish.]

"Chote…"

He held Khushi's hand again and said, "I doubted you, Khushi. I doubted your love. I trusted that bas***d when I should have trusted you. Deep inside my heart, I have always known that you were never wrong. It is just that I let the world change me and I started to think with my mind. I forgot that even the mind cannot take some decisions."

He knelt in front of her. No one could believe what they saw. Arnav was kneeling in front of Khushi and accepted that he had committed a mistake. It showed them how much he loved her and hurt her.

"Please forgive me, Khushi. Mujhe patha hai that I don't deserve it.[I know that I don't deserve it.] I am sorry, Khushi. Tumari naam jaisa tum meri black and white zindagi mein khushiyaan layi ho and in turn I have given nothing but pain. [Just like your name, you have brought happiness into my black and white life and in turn I have given nothing but pain.] I regret everything I did. I want to make it go away but I don't have the courage to ask you for another chance. After all that I have done, I shouldn't ask either. Still mujhe maaf kardo, Khushi. Aaj, kal, agla saal… [Forgive me, Khushi. Today, tomorrow, next year…] Anytime. I just want you to forgive me for all my mistakes."

Tears rolled down both their cheeks. Arnav felt vulnerable and for the first time, he was not frightened.

"Right now, I am the fourteen year old kid who lost everything, Khushi. Tumari bina meri zindagi adora reh jayegi. Tumari bina mein kuch nahi hoon. [My life will be incomplete without you. I am nothing without you.] It does not mean that I will stop you from leaving. You are free to go. Sirf ek baath yaad rakho. [Just remember one thing.] My heart is always yours. My every breath will say your name. My happiness is always with you. My life will always be on a standstill if you are not there by my side. The door will always be open for you. And if you ever wish to come back to me, I will be there for you. If you can never come to forgive me, I will be able to understand. I will not force you, I will not stalk you and at the same time, I will not stop loving you."

He pressed her hand against his face and said, "I love you, Khushi. I have made your life hell. For that I am sorry. Very sorry. If for one second, you think you love me, please waapas aajao. [If for one second, you think you love me, please come back.] I'll promise that I will never do anything that will hurt you."

He had told her everything he felt straight from his heart and let tears control him.

Khushi understood his pain. It matched hers. For some reason, she couldn't bring herself to forgive him. Even though she couldn't forgive him, she wanted to erase his pain.

After a lot of thinking, she raised her free hand to his head and stroked his hair gently. He looked at her.

"Mujhe patha nahi ki main aap ko maaf kar sakoon ya nahi. That day you asked me whether I still love that dhoosra wala. I'll tell you now. Haan. Abhi main us dhoosra wala se bahut pyaar karti hoon. Main sirf ye kehna chathi hoon ki meri zindagi mein agar pyaar naam ka koi chees hai, toh woh aap ka hai. Koi aur meri pyaar ko choo nahi saktha. Koi bhi nahi. [I don't know whether I will be able to forgive you or not. That day you asked me whether I still love that 'second guy'. I'll tell you. Yes. I still love the 'second guy' very much. I just want to say that if there is anything called love in my life, it will be yours. Nobody else can touch my love. Nobody can.] As far as forgiveness is concerned, you are right. I don't think I have the courage to give you a second chance." She slowly removed her hand from his and said, "Main jaa rahi hoon." [I am leaving.]

minblowing update

khushi is leaving.. feeling sad for arnav. and khushi ... now i think its high time to expose shyam...

very very like it

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