Now i know (ArSh/AR-OS) - edited n completed

In the perception of an absent confidant my mind turned to the distant recollections to
the time when we were together.The same thoughts crowded my mind like so many times before and I just sat and pondered on it. My mind recalled every moment we spent together. Roaming thoughts of ever-lingering memory of a time gone by and a clandestine rendezvous .

Flashback:

The remembrance of settling myself in a chair at a exotic restaurant. As I looked
up I found you smiling your ever lasting dimpled smile.

The only word that escaped my mouth

Armaan...

Ar: hey

You are what every girl wants in her man, someone you will always make you proud. You were 6
foot, muscle bound with tattoos. Your oceanic blue eyes had a unique power to
captivate anyone who looked at you. But I was the lucky one who you looked at.

I leaned back to admire the sight before me and saw your eyes twinkle .

Ar: I knew you would come [smile].

You passed me a glass of wine as we both sat down to enjoy the view and most importantly each others company. Placing your glass on table, you tilted your head to look at me in hope to find answers...'.Answers which I myself was unaware of.

I looked in your eyes to see them filled with utmost care and love and that moment I knew
there was no going back but still a part of me wasn't ready to cope with these
new feelings you aroused in me.

Seeing my hesitation you smiled at me, that special smile you saved for me and only me. But
I knew behind that smile you hoped for me, for us to be together.

Ar: take your time [placing your hand on top of mine]

I responded by giving a smile.

That was the last time we touched, we talked ... we met.

Now sitting here, my hand wandered upwards massaging my temples. I Didn't want this, I want
more''...I want you but I know that isn't possible

You had met with an accident the next day while returning from work, the same day when i wanted to confess my feelings to you.

My eyes reflected the same longing that I saw in your eyes that day. It had been 3
years but I remembered it like it was yesterday. As I sat down and stared at
the flames of the dying fire ''.

I wanted to escape, escape from the world where I found you and at the same time the same
place where I lost you.

I screamed your name out in the night where no one would come to comfort me like you ,
where no one would smile at me the way you did. And now... I knew what I wanted and this time I wont be late I promise.

Falling in love with you wasn't in my hand, a chance to live and share a life with you wasn't in my destiny but coming to you is definitely in my hand and my only desire.

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To be honest i dont really know what i have written, i'm just a little depressed and this is all i could come up with.This is a one-shot and the ending is upto what one wants i.e. i m not giving a ending i'll liv tht upto ur imagination [note: Armaan isnt in her life anymore and he will nvr come bk]

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luv,

neha[shona]