FF : I Feel Nothing. Updated Part 40

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BSFan1

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Posted: 13 years ago

#21

Please continue. I would really love this to happen, in addition to her losing faith in love & God & Arnav turning to get her to believe in them again. Arnav ko thoda air thadpana chahiye & Khushi kho ithna jaldi man nahi lenchahiye.

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Posted: 13 years ago

#22

This is great... Add me 2 your PM list plz 👏

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JustFlameAHolic

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Posted: 13 years ago

#23

Originally posted by: Desi-
wow! Thank you all so much! sooo encouraging! sorry this update is short! hopefully you'll still want me to continue.

Part 2

Arnav looked up completely broken. Hardly Breathing. In utter shock. He stared at Khushi. She just stood looking at the sky.

When he left for work that morning he had felt pangs of guilt over how he was treating her. But always justified his actions by thinking back on what he saw...with his own eyes...and the rage would build up again. But now...after all he had done. After all he had said. After the endless insults. He had no idea how to right this. He wanted to rush to her. He wanted to hold her. He wanted to beg and plead that she forgive him. He stood up and then saw her eyes. Blank. Then remembering what Khushi said, "...i don't feel anything...not love for Arnavji...i won't betray my husband, even though i feel nothing."

He wanted to die. But couldn't bare to leave her alone. Couldn't leave her with Shyam. Couldn't leave her to handle everything alone. All this time she had been quiet. All this time she hadn't once defied him. Anger now pulsing through him he thought, "what's WRONG with her! Why didn't she stand up to me!? Why didn't she defend herself!? Why!? She went through all this alone! ALONE!"

Almost ready to charge towards her he heard her softly start to speak...khushi looked up at the stars and said..." amma, babuji...i don't know if i even believe you are there anymore. I don't know who to talk to. I don't know anything anymore. I don't even know what to ask... I just wish there was some way i could be with you both... "

Completely gutted Arnav staggered back. The flashbacks started...and flashed so fast he became dizzy reliving them...her smile, her laugh, her stupidity, her craziness...the memories started speeding up as though his mind was on fast forward but then they came to a crashing halt at the final flash...her empty eyes. No. No. NO. This was NOT ...NO! Hardly able to think straight he rushed towards her...

THAT GOT ME TEARS IN MY EYES! I DO HOPE CVs READ POSTS LIKE THIS THEN THE ONES WHICH HAVE WORLD WAR GOING ON ABOUT HOW MUCH THEY HATE ASR!

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Sarah

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Posted: 13 years ago

#24

Part 3 ... Because I'm on a roll 😊 will try to update again before tomorrow!

He rushed toward her stopping and standing just before her. She slowly looked at him. "forgive me, i didn't know you were home. I shall prepare some food for you." and she started to walk away...but he softly held her hand..."khushi," he whispered, trying to remember to breathe..."Khushi I am...I..." Khushi just stared at him and noticed his wet face and his red eyes...Khushi took his hand and led him to sit on his couch in their room. The sky was still sprinkling it's tears ...the wind still blowing in every direction. She felt his forehead. No fever. "are you feeling sick? Do you need me to get something sweet for you?"

He slammed his hand to his chest. "HERE! I'M SICK HERE!" He was losing control and fell to his knees before her holding her hands tightly..."I Have stabbing pains in my heart over what i have done! I don't even feel worthy to ask for your forgiveness! I don't know what to do to make this right! I hurt you more because i though...i thought..."

"you thought i was in love with Shyam." Khushi replied calmly. "I know, Shyam told me today. I understand. You were only protecting your sister...it's fine." Arnav started shaking his head, "no no NO!! It's not bloody fine! I am IN LOVE with you. I never even got a chance to show you! Or tell you! I didn't even listen to you!" he pulled her down on her knees so her face was level with his..." i am begging you, pleading with you to forgive me...i will spend the rest of my life making this up to you. I will go and tell everyone what happened and make this right..."

"No." she said. "you mustn't do that. Anjaliji will be having her baby soon. She doesn't need this. I am fine Arnav." she looked at him...no looked through him. Arnav desperately searched her eyes for ANY life and saw...none. He let out a tormented moan and grabbed her face in his hands, looking into her eyes deeply , "Khushi! Please come back to me! I know what i have done. I know what i have done. Please! I can't live without you!"

Khushi stared at him, "you won't live without me. We are married. Albiet for 6 months. But if you want me to stay to help Anjaliji with the baby or for any other matter, i will stay."

Desperate to make her show SOME, ANY emotion he wrapped one arm around her waist and grabbed the back of her head and harshly pulled her forward to himself till their bodies were pressed together and mouths just centimeters apart...still holding her tight, gripping her hair, so close that not even air could pass between their bodies, he very slowly touched her lips with his.

Part 4 https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/fan-fictions/2793582/ff-i-feel-nothing-updated-part-40?pn=9

Edited by Desi- - 13 years ago

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princess84

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Posted: 13 years ago

#25

wow very heartwrenching...continue soon and plz pm when u update

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489321

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Posted: 13 years ago

#26

Wow. Just read all three parts, amazingly written! Cannot wait for the next part :)

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lmathew77

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Posted: 13 years ago

#27

So sad. Even though the update was short, it was intense and so angsty. You r a good writer. Please continue. Hopefully Arnav and Khushi can work it out and heal.

Edited by lmathew77 - 13 years ago