CHAPTER 2
"Baatcutter"
I couldn't believe what my ears heard. It was him calling me "Baatcutter".. My heart started beating so fast... that i could hear it.. i felt it might pop out anytime... for a second... i closed my eyes trying to froze the moment.. i felt an strong urge to go and hug him tightly... I opened my eyes and was about to hug him... but he turned back and... I was shocked... he seemed to be confused.. confused???
He looked down at his hand which was holding something... my eyes followed the same... and then I was dragged to the reality that he doesn't remember me anymore... a sudden realization made me so weak in my knees... a drop of tear rolled down my cheek. I couldn't stop it...
He was holding a frame in his hand, which he gifted me. It was a wooden frame having my photo inside and my name "baatcutter" carved on it.. my name "baatcutter".. Though I loved my name to be Kriya but it was so special and precious to be his baatcutter.
"baatcutter?? tumhara naam baatcutter hain?"
"ha yahi mera naam hain?"
"baatcutter yeh kaunsa naam hain? Kitna weird lagta hain? But mom tho keh rahi thi tumhara naam Kriya hain"
"Ha sabke liye main Kriya hoon aur aapke liye baatcutter..." I said keeping myself calm.
"Ohhh... tumhari yeh mysterious baatein!! Yakeen nahi aata maine tumse shadi ki thi" he was annoyed.. more specifically irritated...
It was hurting me like hell... his every word stabbed thousand knives on my heart.. tears streamed down.. I couldn't keep myself calm anymore..
"Ohhh gosh!! Tummm!! Tummm firse rone lagi!! Ye baat baat pe tum roti kyun rehti ho? " he screamed even louder.. i was frightened by his sudden scream.. And the very next second i rushed to the another room.. i banged the door and sat down...
She left the room but still I could see her eyes in front of me streaming her pain.. I didn't know why but her tears, her pain stirs me upside down.. Why didn't she understand that i don't remember her... i went up to the door following her and stopped.. I banged the door and sat down
Kaisi Hai Yeh Udaasi Chhaayi Mere Dil
Kaisi Gehari Hai Yeh Tanhaayi Mere Dil
Raahon Mein Yaadon Ki Khaamoshi Barse
Aankhon Mein Jo Ghum Hai Aansu Ko Tarase
Yeh Bata Yeh Kyun Huwa
Bujh Gaya Kyun Har Diya
Kaisi Hai Yeh Udaasi Chhaayi Mere Dil
Ho Jo Bhi Mila Woh Kho Gaya
Tujhako Pata Hai, Aisa Hi Sada Hota Hai
Jaana Hi Tha Woh Jo Gaya
Dil Tu Akela Aise Kyun Bhala Rota Hai
Bhule Jo Hai Tujhako Abb Unako Bhul Ja Tu Bhi
Warna Mere Saath Yaadon Ke Jakhm Kha Tu Bhi
Maan Ja Ai Dil Mere, Bhul Ja Shikawe Gile
Kaisi Hai Yeh Udaasi Chhaayi
Ho Tu Hi Bata Ai Dil Mere
Maine Toh Hamesha Tera Hi Kaha Maana Hai
Kyun Hai Mujhe Yeh Ghum Ghere
Mujhe Umrr Bhar Kya Bas Yahin Saja Paana Hai
Sapane Boye Maine Aur Dard Maine Hai Kaante
Gaaye Geet Maine Aur Paaye Maine Sannaate
Aaraju Na Kam Hai, Suni Si Har Shaam Hai
Kaisi Hai Yeh Udaasi Chhaayi Mere Dil
Kaisi Gehari Hai Yeh Tanhaayi
(Both of them sat down resting their back against the door... She cried her heart loud... Even his eyes made way for tears... They cried, cried and cried...)
I wish my tears could washed away all my pain.. But i knew.. it won't.. But at least they made me feel somewhat lighter... i wiped my tear realizing he wasn't there to do so.. I gulped and stood up...
I made my way to kitchen when i saw our bedroom door closed.. I felt i should go there to see him.. but i ignored the thought and straight away went to kitchen.. but my mind was still stuck on that closed door... I made myself busy preparing dinner for him.. i started chopping vegetables... but i couldn't concentrate as his scream was still there in my ears hurting me.. I was chopping vegetables and his words were stabbing me inside... my eyes didn't stop streaming... I remember...
It was a silly fight over my mistake.. we fought with each other for like 1 hour on a stupid topic that i forgot my umbrella at home and came home all the way drenched in heavy rain... and the argument ended with him screaming at me.. his sudden scream made me startled there.. tears rolled down my cheeks and i rushed to the kitchen... i started preparing for the dinner with tears streaming down my eyes as for the first time he screamed at me that loud... i thought getting drenched in rain was a crime for him for that he screamed at me that loud... he came from behind wrapping his hands around my waist.. i turned back and looked at him angrily.. He pleaded with his eyes innocently i didn't let myself melt on his innocence.. I pushed his hands away and turned to the kitchen platform...
"Miss adventure" tapping my right shoulder
"Oh miss Dehradun " tapping my left shoulder
"Oh miss baatcutter" tapping my both shoulder I turned back to see him but i couldn't see him, when i realized what happened in that split second i was in his arms.. he lifted me up...
"bolo ab kyaa karogi?" he asked raising eyebrows.. I was melting but i didn't show it up.. i continued my angry mode... while he was looking deep in my eyes but i looked away...
"Miss Adventure agar aap apna adventure thoda kam karengi tho mujhe aise aap pe chillana nahi padega na" he said.. but i pretend to be not bother. ..
He kept me on the dining table and made me face to him.. he stared deep inside my eyes...
"baatcutter, ab maan bhi jao waise bhi meri itni bhi galti nahi thi... ek tho galti tumne ki aur ab mujhpe gussa kar rahi ho"
" ha ha...aaapne mujhpe itni jor se chillaya woh meri galti thi.. aajtak mujhpe meri mom ne bhi aiase chillaya nahi hain.. itni jor se..." i said pointing my finger towards myself...
Suddeenely he got worried looking at my finger...my finger was bleeding. It was a little cut though he got worried a lot.. i could see pain in his eyes.. He took my finger in his mouth sucking the blood there...
"Rey kuch nahi hain thik ho jayega don't worrryy"
"Kriya, I am so sorry, meri wajah se hua hain yeh sab na main tumpe chillata, na tumharai finger katati na yeh bleeding.."
"rey relax its just a small cut..."
He brought the first aid box and put band aid on the cut... Looking at his worried face made me feel guilty about my careless behaviour... a drop of tear rolled down my cheek...I didn't say anything... He looked at me and planted a kiss on my hand. He came forward and kissed my ear and said "sorry Kriya for screaming at you.. but I do care for you a lot".. he kissed my tears and wiped them away... i hugged him tightly... I wanted to kiss him back... but suddenly one of our servant came there in the kitchen.. our moment was disturbed but i didn't let it go that way.. I brought my hand near my lips and kissed my hand where he had kissed me... He smiled at my action... though it was very small action of mine.. but he understood what I wanted to say... as he knew me more than myself.. he always did know me more than myself...
My phone rang dragging me into the present.. I picked the phone up.. it was Swayam..
"Ha Swayam..."
"Kriya, sab thik hain na?"
"Ha sabb... thik hain, sabkuch thik hain yaha pe" I tried cover up the strain in my voice..
"Kriya, tum mujhe jhooth bolne ki koshish bhi mat karo..." Swayam..
"Aur Kriya tumne humse promise kiya tha, bhul gayi tum?" Sharon spoke as Swayam turned on the speaker.
"Swayam sach mein kuch nahi hua... at least ab tum log tho mujhe pe believe karo"
"We trust you Kriya, but apna promise mat bhul jana okay.. And Take care..."Swayam..
"Hummm... bye." I disconnected the phone..
I went and checked the door but it was still closed.. I was worried.. he wasn't well.. and he had locked himself in the room... i quickly went up to there.. and knocked the door... he didn't respond... i felt i skipped my heartbeat... I tried to open the door and it opened .. I quickly went inside the room.. he was lying there on the bed... I went up to him.. He was sleeping peacefully.. i thanked universji that he was well.. My hand went up to his forehead and stopped; I turned back and left from there...
I closed my eyes trying to rest for some time, I wasn't feeling well. Everything around me was revolving.. I thought someone was banging something on my head... It was paining badly.. I tried to sleep.. but i couldn't do anything except turning and tossing in the bed.. her face and painful eyes was following me everywhere.. I hate her for this.. I hate her... i sensed someone entering the room.. I kept my eyes closed... i sensed her close to me... i sensed her hand close to my forehead.. but it didn't touch my forehead... when I opened my eyes she wasn't there... I felt so empty inside... that painful stare of her was stuck in my mind.. I tried hard to went back in my past.. but it was all darkness there.. I tried hard to find that piece of puzzle which had messed up my life for me... which had brought to me at time, where I need to accept that i had married to this girl who is complete stranger for me now... Yes she was a complete stranger for me... A stranger...
I brought food for him in the room and placed on the table. He was sitting on his bed lost somewhere.
"Aap khana kha lijiye.."I said while giving the plate..
"tumne khana kha liya?" He spoke in a low. I looked at him surprisingly with the change of his voice tone. He wasn't rude with me. I felt nice at least he was talking to me normally. No hatred.. no ignorance... I felt so nice... I smiled at him
"Main baad me kha lungi.. Pehle aap kha lo.. aap ko medicines lene hain"
"Yaad hain mujhe.." he said with annoyance..
"Kaash aapko yaad hota Rey" I said to myself.
"Kuch kaha tumne.." He asked.
"nahi kuch nahi.. Aap khana kha lo jaldi se" I said and left the room.
It was 2 am in the night...as the reaction of the pills that she had given was fading away I woke up. A dim light in the bedroom was disturbing me. I looked at the other side of the bed...she was lying there facing towards the other side.. i thought she was sleeping... I got up in the bed and searched for the switch of that dim light.. and I switched it off.. As the light went off she screamed..
"Rey..."
And i couldn't understand what happened? When i realized what was she up to she was in my arms hugging me tightly... i didn't know what i feel then.. but I tapped her shoulder in assurance..though she was stranger but her touch was not.. I thought it was familiar...
"heyyy, kya hua? Tum itna darr kyun gayi?" I said breaking the hug...
"Wohh mujhe andhere se bohat darr lagta hain" She said.. I turned on the dim light saying
"Sorry mujhe nahi pata tha... "
"It's ok.. ismein aapki koi galti nahi hain" She said.
"Aur tum abtak jag rahi thi? Chalo Ab tum so jaon.. darna mat main hoon yaha pe"
I felt she smiled at my words... Did she really smiled or i felt it so.. the light was so dim but i could see her eyes twinkling then.. I didn't understand anything but didn't want to think on it either..
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