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PART 24

Daaima was sitting in the balcony of her room and was thinking some thing . Shanthi who came there to give medicines to Amma saw her and went to her.

Shanthi:Amma

Daaima:Haan

Shanthi:What are u thinking

Daaima:Nothing, we are leaving for six months to kerala. Leaving Radhika all alone in Delhi , will she be able to manage

Shanthi smiled and said "Amma, I am also feared but, I am leaving her in hands of Chaya jiji. I am sure she will take good care of her"

Daaima:Its okay Shanthi, but we hardly know them from two months or so, we can't decide it that quickly

Shanthi:Jaanti hun, but Chaya ji had some thing different, when ever I see her I feel that apnapan , which I never felt with others. She's some thing different and mind says that we can trust them

Daaima:Wo bhi hain lekin man ko bahut dar lag raha tha

Shanthi:Don't worry, if ever any problem is there, Vishaka is there na, we can speak to her. whats problem

Daaima:Shall I say u a thing

Shanthi:Of course

Daaima:Its not good to keep that much belief on Vishaka, U know whose daughter was she. Then why u believe her

Shanthi :Becoz, she was more her fathers daughter than her mothers daughter, and I believe Rishi Bhai to the core.

Daaima:Yes, but she was the daughter of Soniya too.

Shanthi:She doesn't think so, not only she, none of the three children thinks so. I am sure Radhika will be okay, and also I will come here weekly right.

Daaima:Whats necessary to spend this amnt for me.

Shanthi:Remember one thing darling, u are my mother, and I am in no lack of money too. then whats wrong if I spend for u, U and Radhika are the only two I had in this world right

Daaima:Shannu

Shanthi:Haan

Daaima: Daksh want some money it seems, He ask if u cna lend him two lakhs

Shanthi smirking :Why not I will, but please ask him how much interest can he pay to me

Daaima:He's ur brother, ur own brother

Shanthi:What? he remembered it now? where does this go when he gave me ten lakhs for a property worth 25 lakhs and said that I said him it was only ten lakhs and was deceiving him. What happened then, doesn't he asked me interest then

Daaima:U are taking revenge?

Shanthi:Not at all, Maa, He only said that he had no relation with me right, then from where does this Bhai-Behen business comes. So I am asking him interest. If he's ready to pay interest, I am okay to give him money. By the way I forgot He had his di right, who had loads of money and had a name and prestige in the society. He can ask her right. why asking me ? A stupid, bullshit, and dirty girl. I am neither that rich as his sister was, nor that good name. So there's no use of asking me.

Daaima: I jut want u three to be one again. Which mother can see their childs fighting amongst them selves

Shanthi:Today I had money, so they are coming to me, but there are times, when I had no money, then I remember how much did they talk of me. How many rumours did they spread of me. Is that all right. I can't forget all those, atleast till my death

Daaima:Radhika ke liye?

Shanthi:Radhika...

Radhika came there and asked "Kya shannu"

Shanthi:Ur Maamaji is asking me two lakhs what shall I do now

Radhika:Whose my Mamaji, I doesn't have one, are u saying abt RB he will never ask u !

Shanthi:RB nahi, Daksh Mamaji

Radhika:Shannu,I had no Mamaji or taayiji. I had only u and Daaima, if ever any other left, thats Bharadwaj family. Any other weren't my relatives. My mom preferred it in same way, but me the fool can't understand why she did it like that and went for relations. But I got enough of lessons. So... If u want u give, there's n0 need to ask me, and also there's no need o talk to me too

Daaima:Tum chup rakho

Radhika:Aap chup rahiye. U may forget what ever ur son and ur daughter does to us. but I can never/

Daaima;Aisa nahi Radhika...

Radhika:Aisa hi tha... Please, Daaima, I am staying here, if u want me to leave form here too, then do what ever u want. I won't object u

Shanthi:Aisa nahi Radhu, actually, in the way u want the same way it will happen.

Radhika:Massi, if he was ready to pay interest to u, u give him money, other wise don't . Its my sayign, after that ur wish

Daaima:Urs wish, I am staying in u peoples home,

Radhika looked atShanthi... Radhiak got anger but she controlled it and said "Aisa nahi hain daai, U are the head for us. U are always the important person. They are ur children so u will have that affection for them. I will never deny that. But U has to think of Shannu, how much did she suffer? Once remember. Please daai, when it comes to the matter of Shannu leave it to her. "

Daaima:U na, in one way or to her, u will convince me off. Any way its ur peoples wish

Radhika smiled and said :Massi, I am very sleepy, I will leave now

Shanthi smiled and said "U leave"

Radhika left off.

Shanthi talked to Daai for some time and said "I will leave"

Daai:Haan

Shanthi:I had some other to check too

Daai:Whom

Shanthi:My sweet devil

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Radhika was sitting on the steps and typing some thing in the Laptop, that she borrowed from Shanthi. Shanthi came from up and said "Radhu"

Radhika immediately minimized the document that she was typing and said "Jee"

Shannu: Kya kar rhai ho.

Radhika saving the document and removing her pendrive, "kuch nahi dear"

Shannu: Arey tum kya karti ho, jab bhi dekhti hun, Raat ke time mein aise baiththi ho aur kuch type karti ho. Kya type karti ho?

Radhika smiled and said "Nothing dear, Here u go ur laptop

Shannu dragged the pendrive in Radhika's hand too, along with Laptop and immediately connecting it, she looked opened the Pendrive files, it had only one folder having UML on it.

Shanthi:Whats this UML. Radhika coming near and neatly getting off the Pendrive from the Laptop said UML means Unlimited, Medical lotions. Thats what I write.

Shanthi" Radhu, I know u are saying em wrong answer, but one day I will for sure get the right answer.

Radhika turning back and winking "All the best my dear sweet shannu."

Shanthi smiled and said "Good night"

Radhika :Good night darling and left off to her room.

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Dev and Birju were keeping the bags in the car while Radhika was standing along the side of Shannu and Ammaji and was holding their hands with her.

Ammaji: Achi tarah sambhalo, Khana time par khao. Main roj call karungi tumhe, aur apna khayal rakho. Baarish mein jyaada mat ghumao, aur...

Shanthi:Arey... She knows that all, she's not any child, she can take care of her

Ammai:Aisa nahi hain rey...

Shanthi:Kya nahi nahi, she will manage, u don't make her weak with ur ramayan

Radhika said to Ammaji "Amma, I will take care of my self, u go and sit, U should not stand for long time."

Ammaji kissing Radhika on fore head and cupping her hand "Be care ful darling..."

She went to the car, Radhika turned to Shanthi and said "Massi, I know some times Daai will wake ur short temper, out. But please don't scream on her, take care of her. and Take care of ur self. I will miss u a lot."

Seeing Radhika's face becoming gloomy Shanthi said "Radhu, ab ye rona dhona drama, humaare liye suit nahi hoga. Agar tumne roya toh, hum rokh jayenge, nahi jayenge."

Radhika getting her self consoled " No u people leave. I am not at all gloomy."

Shanthi:Aur jaha tak Baat ammaji ki, she's my mother, before she was ur ur grandmother. So I will definitely take care of her good. she will be well. U take care of u."

Radhika hugged Shanthi tightly and said " I will miss u "

Shanthi softly said "Miss u too , dear. TC"

Radhika:TCand Happy journey, bye bye.

Shanthi: I will miss ur Radha dance rey.

Radhika: They are taking videos, I will get a tape and will mail to u . U people can see the video.

Shanthi: Haan good idea, waareh waah... U are getting more sharper these days./

Radhika:What to do, didn't inherit ur genes na, thats why/

Shanthi laughed along with Radhika and said "Laugh like this, then only we can leave happily"

Radhika smiled and said 'Will u leave or not... U had ur flight time."

Shanthi:Haan radhu.

Chaya:I should say Shanthi, U people especially aunty ji would have been more comfortable, if u are in Delhi. U are any way leaving to Delhi now, then why u people came.

Shanthi:Not like that jiji, Maa wanna spend some time here, as she had her memories in this home.Thats why

Chaya:Fine, U people will stop at Kanha temple right.

Shanthi:Haan... we will, other wise my devil will kill me.

Radhika: I am saying u to stop at Kanha temple becoz, He will bless u to have good journey

Shanthi:oKAY BABA, oKAY. we will leave jiji, but take care of Radhika, if ever she do any thing that will cause discomfort to u, please forgive her taking it as her childish ness.

Hari: Sister, u need not say this we will , and think that u left our daughter to take care. Radhika is partially our daughter for coming 6 mnths.

Shanthi:Thank u bhai saab. this much is enough,

Hari:haan Shanthi, can I ask u a favour in return

Shanthi:Ji.

Hari: either u call me Bhaiyya or call Chaya jiji. what will u choose.

Shanthi:Sorry, forgive me. I will call u Bhaijaan and Chaya ji bhabhi, thats only better.

Chaya:I had no problem.

Shanthi:Acha I am leaving, we has to reach by time. and bye bye.

Dev said Bye aunty

Shanthi:Really Dev u helped me a lot. thank u. Indeed I should thank ur whole family

Dev: Aunty u had the full life to say thanks for us, if u didn't leave now, u will sit here and cry for next 6 months.

Shanthi smiled and said "U had a sweet tongue Dev"

Dev bending down "Thank u"

Birju:Aunty, why are u not letting any of us to come with u.

Shanthi:Nahi dear, u people traveled yesterday and today again I doesn't wanna tire u. Tomorrow is Janmashtami and Radhika has to practice still , may be u people would like to visit places as u people will stay here only for three days. So... we can leave on our own.

Birju:Fine aunty.

Shanthi:Okay chote usthad, ab main chalta hun, Driver start the car.

Shanthi looked at Radhika who was looking at her from back and was waving ehr hand.

Shathi smiled and waving her hand left off...

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Radhika , Dev , Chaya, Hari, Birju and Pari are in the mandir place...

Radhika selected that place for Dance practice becoz, of the largeness and calm atmosphere and peacefulness. Dev asked Hari and chaya to help them so that they can get some good steps. Hari and chaya agreed and Pari-Birju who were excited to see the dance stood there.

Hari: Bolo radhika, what type of dance are u comfortable with.

Radhika:Sir, actually Raas leela has nothing to with the dance styles which we now like Khatak, or odissi or bharatnatyam or kuchipudi. But its a way fr us to convey the feeling of love between Radha and Kanha.

Hari:Haan lekin Music toh aata hain tabhi tho hoda sa steps karna hain na.

Radhika:Vuske liye hum normal style use kar sakhte hain na...

Chaya:But whats the song. which song did u choose.

Dev: Actually we spoke of it... actually we doesn't need any song.

Pari: How is it possible.

Radhika smiled and said "Pari, this is the dance to show the feeling of love and devotion between Radha-Kanha. And Raas leela was said to be the dance done by Radh and Kanha when they both meet each other forgetting the whole world around them. The only music which we had here is the music of air mixing with the music of the flute, which Kanha plays that gets completed with the sound of the ghumroo of Radhika

Birju:Got it... Dev bro was an exceptional flute player so if the flute music was only necessary then there's no need for any filmy song.

Radhika:Exactl;y birju.

Chaya: but why this complicated... U can simply use any song of 70's right. there are Many raas leels songs then,

Radhika:Aunty, yes but we are doing it in devotion to kanha and Kanha Radha will never have words in between them, their eyes talk to each other and their body language and their dance talsk to each other. And we wanna have it in the same way.

Chaya:But...

Radhika:I know aunty what u are saying, I am not sure that we can create that magic, but we are trying. and Hope my kanha will help me. So...

Hari; Dev and Radhika u had the good plan.. start to play the music Dev.

Radhika:haan Dev u first play ur music I just wanna listen it so that we cna formulate the rhythm of composition.

Dev nodded and he started to play a music... The next minute expression on Radhika's face was a smile . Radhika was smiling her self becoz she was remembering what made her lead to him for the first time in her life. What made her mesmerised, beides her mothers song. what made her go into trance... The very music, She now she need not require any more gurus here and she will automatically do the song. But Dev???? so she tried her self to maintain herslef rom going into trance.

Dev completed the music and then only Chaya's phone rang... Chaya excused her self and left...

Dev was now in a thought " God. I am sure Even if I practice Its of no need and I will loose out my self and will be into some other world. How can I forget that when ever I play flute I close my eyes so that I can stop the words that my eyes will coney to Radhika. And am sure Radhika will be too same, but what abt Dad. Now how can we practice infront of Dad. what will he think? Definitely it will create an air of sensivity, if ever Dad mis understand. God... help me"

Hari: Dev-Radhika I know its rehearsal but u are going to practice Raa leela. Radhika u gave a perfect explanation to Raasleela , then u should also know that Raas - leela can be achived from our inside. Its a dance that need no lessons, no practice nothing. when two people do this dance they should forget who they are , I am radhika, I am Dev , the person infront of me was my dad, my mom, I hate my dance mate. U should forget all this/ U should close ur eyes and compose ur self into Kanha or Radha. and U has to think ur selves as Radha-Krishna who are doing the dance to express their love to each other. I know that the way u are doing it may give some sensitive atmoshphere and may be some will hesitate to dance it infront of their parents. But u should forget all this and thhink that u both are only here and u both are the Radha-Krishna and dance."

Dev thanked God for clearing his problem and saying "Yes papa." he closed hie eyes. Radhika prayed to Kanha saying that "Kanha, We both are not that great to take the roles of u and Radha maiyya. But still we are doing. By doing this we had no intention to humiliate u, but showing our devotion to u in this way one of the Nine ways of expressing devotion. Please forgive us for our mistke. and help us, that we don't do any sin by doing a mistake."

Radhika opened her eyes and doing the namasthey to the Kanha idol let her self in into the practice.

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Pari and Birju were in the bed room given to birju and Dev. They were still shocked of the practice...

Biirju: Pari. I think there was soem thign between them

Pari:Birju, wo dance. God.. really they were such involved, it looked like I am seeing a true couplewho were in immense love...

Birju:Haan rey mujhe bhi, shayad wo donom such mein ek doosrein se...

Pari: Nahi nahi, I heard bro saying once or twice to Arjun that he hate Radhika.

Birju: Bhai na, he was such an introvert, he will say one but will have other in hsi heart. U has to look into his eyes. and Upto today I never found any hatred for Radhika didi in his eyes, but haan I always get some pain in his eyes along wiht love. I doesn't knwo why the pain was, but I am sure there was love in his eyes.

Pari:Thats right... but still I am unsure

Birju:U say Bro hates di, if so why he will be friendly and afterall we knwo di right, she's suhc a sweet lovely person why will soem one especially a person like bro will hate her, \

Pari:What do u mean by 'especially a person like bro' ?

Birju:U know what, upto where I observed there are many similarities in taste and behaviour between them both and Bro likes people like him a lot, then why will he hate di.

Pari:Wo bhi hain yaar... My eyes show me the love in Bro, but my senses and brain say me he hates her from what I heard. what to believe/

Birju: If u want once again tomorrow u see, they will for sure make the whole vrindavan dumb struck

Pari:Hope so...

Birju:But I will be really happy if it is Radhika di, who was the one in Bro's life.

Pari: I too wish it, but we can't do any thing right.

Birju: Yeah wo toh hain. now god will show us tomorrow what was right

Pari:But may be they were really involved in that characters completely.

Birju:Haan rey, they had split persnality na, to involve in character which they imagine to be in a perfect way.

Pari:Haan wo bhi hain, Kanha-Radha's this raas leela was a completely imagined one, there was no any recorded explanation na. U are right.

Birju:ANy way lets see.

Pari:Haan

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Radhika was standing in the balcony on upstairs looking at the moon in the sky.

Dev came from back holding a glass of cool drink in his hand and said "Kya kar rahi ho"

Radhika with a smile "Nothing... Just trying to find some one."

Dev:Why u always look at stars and Moon with such an intent passion.

Radhika:I like the way they were, and also was trying to find my mom and daadji from there...

Dev:Ur mom and daadji in stars?

Radhika:My mom always used to say that our favourite persons will become stars when they die and they will observe us always ...

Dev smield and said "Interesting, but what abt falling stars"

Radhika:They are those persons who take anohter life means Punarjanam to reach those people whom they love, or to complete thier unfinished tasks.

Dev:Oh... God. radhu... U believe this, Didn't u read the life cycle of the star and how it transforms into Black body in Gravitation of our 12th

Radhika smiled and said "Acha Dev, that's the scientific explanation, this is the normal mans explanation. well the very science says there was no god, but u believe in god right, in the same way"

Dev sighed and said "Of course..."

Radhika:Thanks a lot Dev

Dev:Why

Radhika:U are helping me in surprising Rohan. Definitely tomorrow he will get the biggest surprise

Dev:Hain, but why raas leela only, that too...

Radhika:Actually I have many targets in doing this, Rohan will like to see Raas-leela so he will be there and also, Raas-leela in this way, its the actual perfect way, and I doesn't wanna do as in by doing it in an imperfect way.,. thats it. I know it was some troubling to u, but...

Dev:Its of no Trouble to me becoz, I am lost myself into another world and I did it all like a trance, I am no more Dev while I did this. May be Kanha helped me.

Radhika said "Haan, my mom always used to comment on raas - leela that, if u intend to do Perfect rass - leela true hearted, then Kanha only will guide u through the steps and expression. U need not do any thing."

Dev:May be ur mom was right.

Radhika:Haan my mom was right

Radhika was thinking of some other words of her mom too "Kanha will select his Kanha and Radha for such a raas leela. "