IPKKND: All I want: Chap-5:43 - Page 22

So I searched this SS which lilmzsunshinewas lukin 4 n found it.. then thout why nt read it as well...n thank God 4 dis thout or else I wud have missed something sooo addictive..👏

All I want is to b with u ...Through da darkness...da darkness that their love has been scorched with n hope their love will blind it.

I just love how evry1 has a say in ur SS...I generally don't read 1^st person writeups as it bcomes difficult 2 undrsatnd other characters n their feelins as all is conversed throu dat 1^st person's perspective😭...But ur's is an exception...Both Arnav n Khushi have equal share of expressions n evn da 3^rd person is present givin it a visual flow...While reading I felt Im nt missin anything out...all is clearing happenin infront of me in true colors...👍🏼

I have a habit of visualizing my characters n their situations while reading n gud story telling always help goners lyk us😉...

So da prologue Questions me...is it Arnav realizing Khushi's worth n HIS love wen hes actually on da verge of losin hr..or Khushi realizing da depth of her love wen seein him in cutting pieces in concern of his Di, seeing da Mighty Man fall dwon to his emotions... or both searchin a way 2 reach eachother 4rm da darkness of misundrstandins..4rm da clutches of cruel games or 4rm da vices of untold emotions weaved around them..

Blur...dat wat happens wen ur heart knws da its beats r getting erratic...why?..coz 4 whom it beats is getting far away..

Arnav loves her a lot..i adore U 4 writin dis chapter...he can sense sumthing is wrong. The house was filled with an eerie silence n da light of da darkness was definitely piercing Arnavs eyes. He was nt able 2 find his Khushi.

N his heart wasn't wrong...Arnav's n MY horror was quite equal wen we saw Khushi by da poolside...the lifelessness was fillin her...her blood increasing da depth of da pool...marks engraved on her soft wrists n da sudden increase of bangles as lay broken in pieces around her...the blood had dried thus time had passed...

I felt broke watchin em slippin away...Khushi coz of da cruelity of lust n greed n Arnav coz of da love of his life...seeing him collectin da pieces of his life scoopin em up n takin em 2 mend...tryin 2 put bak his Khushi...

His struggle defines love will take u higher in authority as bringing bak a life is in hands of de Almighty n NOTin a mere man...bt love gives strength 2 fight... reason 2 live... n a place 2 call ur own kingdom...

So u got me at dis particular line ...

God I felt de earth shake...The man has a way 2 reduce u 2 poodle..da way u wrote this simply tells dat Arnav n ASR r just facades...its Arnav Singh Raizada who stands alone shielding his loved ones...using ASR to shield himself n Aranv 2 reveal his love 4 Khushi...

So I do have questios..wats botherin Khushi? Doesn't Arnav knw about Shayam..or is it lyk he knws bt Shayam is actin all changed man 4 Arnav 2 see n is blacmailin or manupulatin Khushi or even threatening her..?😕

Corpse...Many may not lyk dis word bt wen ever I read\hear it somewhere it gives me a feelin dat sumthing is gonna rise up n live again... fulfill its purpose(mayb coz I relate it to da Original Frankenstein by Mary Shelley)jst my theory I knw rubbish😆...

So now dats wat Khushi's state is...full of lifelessness...bt risin up 2 da opportunity makin her love breathe normally again...fulfillin her duty by keeping his worries about her at bay...tryin 2 show shes better n alive...n here we see dat SHE loves him a lot...shes feelin helpless bt is still strong enough to help him...reassure him dat she'll b back...

I blinked my eyelashes to dry the drops(ur lines) dat formed wen I read dat she noticed him sweatin n came to knw dat Arnav had forgotten to take his medicines...then these drops just melted away startin 2 find an escape route wen he realized da strength of her love n care 4 him wen even his Di had forgotten.

Wat binds Arnav n Khushi is their realization of the truth THAT IS their love...bt im afraid....wat if they don't knw that the other feels da same way...

So my question is dat its clear some1(maybe shayam)is mxin something in her food n she did had her wrists pierced or cut right?...n JP had tended to it...so how come Arnav didn't see it while he cheked her n came 2 knw she has fever n den JP telling about her faintin spell bt nt da injury or did he?...im alilte confused here...

Bt this was an absolutely splendiferous chapter👏👏👏👏....u r a maven in writng...u have an Eloquent writin style...it speaks 4 itself... its difficult to read n forget about it...da whole tym I'll keep on thinking wat might happen nw...ur keeping me on edge....i don't knw if its da sweet melancholy which wants an end or da slight macabre dat feels soo real or more profoundly da forever kind of love...the amaranthine love which every line professes of...

While reading dis part I don't knw why but these lines jst kept buzzin around my head..

"I meant to tell him, but changed my mind...
I needed a friend, and he seemed kind;
So I put my gloved hand into his glove,
And we danced together...and fell in love"...Alice Duer Miller -The White Cliffs😉

Lovely update...so many things coming up to light...bt I as usual have questions...

So why is Khushi hidin in da dark corner...I too am worried after reading da flashback.

Why ask Arnav about his trip n nt even meet his eyes...wats happenin 2 her...the whole nite the Arnav in flashback n I thout the same...why she asked ids?...was she afraid of sumthing happenin while hes nt there n didn't wanted him 2 leave..thus shyin away nt meetin his eyes so as not to look needy or greedy 4 his presence or is she truly hidin something...if her troubles r nostalgic den his r burning.

Here Arnav knws about Shayams truth ..bt does Anjali knws it?...bt if Arnav knws the truth den why hide anything....n if her family(or wat these ppl call emseves)had insulted hr on da loss of their beloved Shayam so dat means they too don't knw da truth...n if Arnav has doubts about hr behavior den dat means no confession has taken place either...why Khushi sent JP to village n how come Shayam knew Arnavs absence?...

Bt I knw sumthing Arnav doent knw...da attraction was mutual nt just him...she equally yearns 4 him...hes her Poseidon all da way

I love dis chapter coz I see a more human Arnav here...hes bravely afraid of losin her...hes confidently confused about her feelins 4 him...n acutely clueless as to how he'll survive without her...Yup hes soo human n feeble with da strength of TITANIUM...

ur a just WOW!!! Ur writin reminds me of dis thing Richard Wright said..

"I would hurl words into this darkness and wait for an echo, and if an echo sounded, no matter how faintly, I would send other words to tell, to march, to fight, to create a sense of hunger for life that gnaws in us all."ur writin makes me hungry 4 more echos...

I don't knw why bt these poems r nw makin themselves remembered(wished I had em in my head durin exams)bt Arnav is lossin Khushi n my heart jst turns around to dese lines...