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Khushi's Happiness. It had been three months that she walked out of his life. It had been three months that her heart had stopped working. Three months since she cared for wnyone else. Three months that she survived without his touch, his voice and his presence. She knew that she loved him. But what was love without being reciprocated from him. He did not love her. He hated her. She was a pawn to bring his jijaji to obey him. How was she responsible if his perverted jijaji fell for her. She was equally a victim in his jijaji's plans and even more affected as he had tried to kill her father even. How was she responsible if his jijaji say that he would do anything to get her. Even divorce Anjali Di. So he had taken a drastic step to prevent his Di getting hurt and in the process hurting himself, her and lavanyaji. He had married her so that she can never be his jijaji's. Well that was isx months before. They had pretended it to be a marriage out of love. That had been enough for Lavanya to vent her anger on Khushi and say that she betrayed their friendship. She had even taken that quietly. She had taken all his taunts with patience that on day her love will make him realise that she was indeed right and never did she love Shyam. However Nani and anjali Di had been really supportive. They had made her fit into the family and Mami was just Mami. She had wanted Lavanya as her Bahu and she hated the very sight of Khushi and did not leave her wihtout her comments of course when Arnav was not around for he maintained the love marriage image really well and snubbed at Mami when she comments on her. Akash was really happy and Mama was unaffected by anything happpening around him. Finally Shyam was always behind her taunting her for marrying Arnav for his money and also trying to get close to her whenever he gets a chance. And she had not said a word to Arnav as she did not want to hurt him more than he had already suffered. And she had regretted it for not saying to him. For once when Shyam had tried to get close to her Arnav had come in and of course just like he does he had indeed interpreted it to be them trying to make out. He had been so angry. Really angry that the moment shyam had left the place he had wanted to punish her that he had kissed her ferociously making her stunned. He had then showed his anger on her on her body not letting her escape and finally he had torn her heart to pieces by placing money on the bed side saying her," You wanted money. Here is some. you could have your share of physical pleasure and I could have mine thinking you are Lavanya. So no need for my jijaji anymore and stay away fromm him. You are not my wife but a wh**e." That day she had left his house thinking never to return there. Now three months later she was sitting here in the hospital as she had not been well. Waiting for her reports she went back her memory lane. The doctor called her and she made her way inside and once seated the doctor said," congrats Ms.Gupta. You are going to be a mother soon."PART TWOIf one could be overjoyed and feel extremely sad at the same time then that was Khushi feeling at that moment. She was happy because it was one of her dreams along with her fantasy of a prince and she was sad because it was not exactly what she expected now in her situation and the fact that how the baby formed still pained her. He had never loved her and the baby their baby was a result of his hatred on her and her love for him. She needed to think peacefully for her heart had a whirlpool of emotions now. She promised the doctor that she would come for regular checkups and left for the Siddhi Vinayak temple in Dadar as she needed to keep the baby or not. She went and prayed. And then she sat in the temple in the idea to think clearly. Now she analysed the pros and cons. She could keep the baby for she has no one else now in her life. It was after all her symbol of love and it could be a reminder of him. She could fnancially handle the situation as she had a job now. She should not keep the baby because he had treated her like a wh**e and said the same and it would constantly remind her of the humiliation she felt at his hands. On the other hand she could not kill a baby because of what its father did. He was extremely angry and everyone knew that Arnav Singh Raizada would do anything in anger. Probably he regretted it the next morning for she was not there to see him as she had left his house by then. She finally decided to keep the baby as she needed a support in life and probably deep within her heart she knew,that she needed a part of him with her. When she was about to leave the temple she heard someone calling out to her. She turned to see Anjali Di there. Anjali came and hugged her. She could not believe her eyes and did not let Khushi go for a good ten minutes. Anjali then asked,"Khushi, how happy am I to meet you?Did you complete your Dharshan. PLease accompany me once again even if you had completed. I need to talk to you. Akash is in the car waiting for me and we will go to your place after the Dharshan." She kept on planning but did not fail to notice Khushi's expressions. First it was genuine happiness on seeing her and then it had become a morose expression. So she told her that she needed to talk to her and will not compel her to do anything against her wishes and will even keep it a secret to chote that she even met her. After further persuasion and little of her puppy looks Khushi finally relented. They went to the temple and after that she took the both of them to her apartment. It was a single bedroom flat and was pretty decent at it. She went to make tea for her Sister in law and Akash when Anjali also accompanied her inside the kitchen. She really felt bad for Khushi. The wife of the great ASR leading a simple life like that and that too because of her husband no ex-husband. She thought ruefully how some forty five days before she had accidentally tumbled across the truth. Arnav and Khushi were busy hiding the fact that Shyam was perverted that they forgot one loose end. Khushi's father. After Khushi dissappeared she decided to search for her as she could see her brother was pretty upset. He was always looking at her pictures seeking an apology and he had lost his appetite, his interest to live and became quite a recluse. He was either at his office or inside his room. She tried to know what had been the conflict between them but he had said clearly to her that he had hurt her real badly this time that he would never be able to sought for her forgiveness. Not this time he had said. So she decided to search for her and had headed for Lucknow where her estranged parents were. Her Babuji had become well and the moment he saw her he recognised from their encounter in the temple and told her everything about her husband. She was quite dumb and had fiured out the rest. She had confronted her brother and husband and finally her brother had broken down revealing everything to her. She was heart broken but she now knew what she was living was just a dream. That man who was her husband never loved her and all tese three years of marriage was a facade and she had been used by her husband like an ATM machine. The thought that he had not reciprocated her love only hardened her. So she told him never to set foot in RM leaving her chote speechless. She was in her own thoughts that she did not notice when Khushi collapsed down unconscious.
PART THREE
When Khushi regained conscious she was in a completely different place. She was lying on a bed and everywhere she looked it was white and a small IV stand made her realise that she was in a hospital. She then remembered the day's happening and suddenly realised that Anjali Di now probably knew that she was pregnant. Oh! no hey devi maiyya, she thought sadly. She did not want him to know that nor did she wanted him back in her life. When she started to climb down her bed,Anjali came inside the room and hugged her tight. When she released her, Khushi could see tears of happiness in her eyes. So she knew, thought Khushi wryly. Anjali then said,"Khushi you have given us the best gift in the world. My Chote's baby. I am so happy that I am gonna be a Bua. After all the pain that that Bast***d caused us, all that had vanished by this news alone. I am very much overjoyed. I need to tell Chote immediately but he is not responding at all." At this point Khusi interrupted her happy banter. Khushi looked at her sadly and nodded her head in negative and said tearfully,"Do not say him. I do not want him to know. I do not want him back. Please Di. Please I will die out of humiliation if he comes here and I do not want him to know that his child is in the womb of a wh**e." Anjali slapped her hard,"What are you saying? Have you lost your mind?" Khushi hugged her and cried. Cried till no more tears could come. Anjali felt bad for what she did seeing her crying. Then she said,"That is what he said me to be. That is what he thinks I am. A gold digger. A cheap rated woman who would do anything for money."
Anjali slowly consoled her and then laid her down on the bed and said softly," Khushi I know, if you had not noticed. When you left, I went in search of you to Lucknow and there your Babuji, whom I had already seen in the temple once when I went with that snake, who was my husband and he revealed everything to me. Why do you think I was in Mumbai? I am on a tour visiting temples across India just to distract myself from the Divorce. He left us, Khushi, forever and will never interfere in our lives. Chote is really hurt for what he did to you and also he also told me why you left, saying that he had done something that is beyond forgiveness. There is no life in him without you. He is not interested in anything. I once told him that when your loved ones leave you, your breath will stop. That is exactly what he is experiencing. I am not compelling you, Khushi but think once again. He loves you but after all these years of shutting his heart to the world all of a sudden he does not know to express his feelings, express his heart and please do give him some time. You also know about his anger. And what he will do when he is angry. Please Khushi. I know you love him. Please just reconsider it once." Khushi just nodded her head that she will reconsider again and told her," Till I decide please do not say him. Please Di."
Khushi then shut her eyes and then she went back to the time when she was in Lucknow and once again she started thinking of how her life changed after the fashion show she had accidentally attended. She knew she loved him. She at once thought she needed Devi maiyya's help now to for her decide. She immediately opened her eyes and asked Anjali Di whether she could leave the hospital. Anjali Di replied that she could be discharged and told her it was general weakness and she was actually waiting for Khushi to regain consciousness. Khushi then told her," Di I need to go to Devi maiyya's temple. Please take me there." Anjali nodded and took her to the nearby temple. Khushi prayed with all her heart for Devi Maiyya to guide her this time.
Sudenly a baby pulled her saree pallo. She knelt and asked the baby what it wanted. The baby was so cute and she pointed to another baby which was ringing the bell with the help of a man who seemed to be the baby's father. She then lifted the baby and helped her ring the bell and asked her where her mother was when a lady came and claimed the baby.She kissed the baby goodbye and turned back to her Devi maiyya. She thought,"So Devi Maiyya is trying to say that my baby needs a father." When she got the prasad the pandit gave her sindoor and she thought maybe Devi maiyya is giving her the path. She had to folow the path that Devi maiyya is showing her.
Khushi having decided told Anjali that she is ready to leave for Delhi. Anjali was overjoyed.
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