Sid - It's gonna hurt while it heals Pt 38 Pg 106 - Page 58

DJ am sooo happy that u hav decided to continue with the SS. Awesome to say the least and absolutely loved the SR confrontation in the bar. OUR SIDDY BOY STILL MELTS WEN HIS RIDZY IS CLOSE BY AND ALSO WEN SHE IS HURTING HE HURTS. pls DJ update soon. . am loving it.🤗 and definitely agree with Zarqs u definitely know the characters inside out. 😛😛😛

finaly u updated 😆 n thnk u 4 d recap 😆

Res

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AMAZING update bro !!!!!

Ufff Sid is sooo stubborn :P he's not ready to take Ridz's help but she also knw how to do mazboor him 😆

I'm really liking this Ridz - confident & determined :)

Love the bar scene , it was beautifully written <3 Ridz strategy was fab !! No matter what Sid can't see her in pain & she very well knw this ;) loved how u ve showed both their thoughts :)

Also loved the ending line ;)

'' Riddhima had won the first battle not the war ''

yeah she def won this battle BUT Sid is not going to give up so easily bahut papad belne padenge Ridz ko 😛

Looking forward to the next part
Continue soon...

awesome update..

short update dj , for i know far more is coming .😊 Cant wait ab😃

I jst joined this FF
this is so intesting nd beautifull update
luv the bar vala scene u wrote this so beautifully i luv the SR bonding nd chemistry
waitin so eagrly fr nxt update plz update soon
i wil follow this update till second last part i wil nt read the ent part
sry bt last time that ws realy unexpected disappointed nd shocking nd i know u wil again do this
anyways i realy luv this update nd waitin fr next
thanks

Awesome update!!!! Love the bar scene...
Continue soon...

want an update as a new year gift..

Wow... Loved their stubborness.. But Sid being sid as always...

Part 35

Sid studiously maintained his distance from her striding briskly in front but made sure that he did not let Riddhima lag behind. It was an unknown place and quite late in the night. Instinct had him worrying for her safety and protecting from any danger that lurked around in the darkness of the night.

'She is just another girl. I am doing what I would do for any other girl.' his mind argued as his heart questioned.

Riddhima kept calling out to him. She wondered where he was going as the the guest house was left far behind.

After walking some more yards did she realize what Sid was doing and a smile appeared on her face. 'Mujhe tum akele raat ko anjaan jagah mein chod nahi sakte na. Tumhe ab bhi meri chinta hai toh kyu iss jhoote mukhote ke peeche apni feelings chupa rahe ho.'Kyu khud ko dukh de rahe ho.'Kyu bhag rahe ho mujhse khudse.'

His actions was proving that her Sid was not completely lost. Her resolve just strengthened seeing him not wanting to leave her alone. He was indeed was wanting to walk her back to the orphanage.

This time was perfect. Sid was vulnerable and she had to make her move fast.

She tried to catch up. At times calling out to him plainly or taunting him to stop running away and face the truth but could none worked and soon they reached the gates of the orphanage.

Throwing open the gates Sid stepped aside to let Riddhima through.

He was angry which meant he would again torture himself. He would be back to his old routine which would defeat the entire purpose.

'Andar chalo Sid.' she commanded.

Ignoring her he tried walking past her. But Riddhima was not going let this golden opportunity go waste.

She needed to get Sid talking his heart out. She needed to address all those questions which Sid was fighting with.

She caught hold of his hand and commanded again 'Andar chalo.'

All his defenses were crumbling. This was the adamant Riddhima who would go to any extent to prove her point and achieve her goal. She would get her way yet he tried. Shrinking her hand hand away he threw a disgusted look her way to tell her he detested everything she did.

'Mujhe maloom hai tum wapis pee ne ke liye jaoge aur main yeh tumhe karne nahi doongi. Andar chalo.'

Sid was baffled how Riddhima knew that he intended to go back to the bar. It was such an irony that she never knew much about him to the extent of causing a major embarrassment on night of Teej yet she always managed to read him like an open book. Riddhima took her chance seeing Sid soften and tried leading him inside.

'Kya pareshani hai. Baat karte hai. Chalo andar.'

'She is playing her dutiful wife's role and you are falling for it. You are such an idiot Sid.' his mind warned him. Shirking her hand Sid tried stepping away again.

He tried dodging her. Every time Riddhima successfully blocked him. He wanted to lash out. Maybe some vile words would deter her but the thought of them hurting her stopped him. Yet he could not let her win so he used his best weapon - Silence.

Riddhima again tried to lead Sid in when Sid's phone rang. It was the matron calling. He moved aside to answer and Riddhima followed not wanting to give Sid any space. Sid put the phone on loud speaker. She could hear the matron speak asking about Riddhima.

'Kya Dr Riddhima bhi aap ke saath hai?'

It irritated Riddhima that Sid was not ready to converse with her even to give a message.

'Haan main yahi hoon boliye kya hua?'

As the matron continued they both listened with full attention.

'Good Sachin ko thoda bukar ki tarah lag raha hai wapis.'

Both their minds started working on it immediately.

'Sid par dawai ka stock khatam ho raha hai I think we will need more supplies.'

Sid thought for a moment.

'Shielaji Aap tension mat lijiye. Main dawai arrange karta hoon aur tab tak Dr Riddhima Sachin ke pass rehegi.'

'Theek hai.'

Back at the orphanage Riddhima checked up the patient and called Sid to confirm the list of medicines required.

'Sid yeh sab kafi hai kal subah tak.'

'Hmm'

'But I am worried for Sachin. Bukhar kafi tezi se badh raha hai.'

'Kal tak bukhar control mein aa jaye toh hum usse Sanjeevani shift kar denge.'

'Hmmm ...Acha Sid ..Please gaadi dhyaan se chalana ..Sid ..Sid ..'

Sid was back soon. He was a thorough professional did not let his differences with Riddhima come in way of the treatment. He smartly routed all instructions suggestions or affirmations to Riddhima's advice through the nurse that he had gotten the chemist to arrange.

Though Sid's did not utter a word his concern for Riddhima seemed too obvious. Another reason for arranging the nurse was giving Riddhima rest. Though being on leave she had worked the whole day and he knew they had a long night ahead of them. Also he kept pushing for Riddhima to go take some rest when Riddhima kept waiting upon the child.

'Sheilaji nurse aur main yaha pe hai ab Dr Riddhima aur aap rest kar lijiye.'

His efforts continued seeing Riddhima refusing to leave Sachin's bedside.

'Nurse Dr Riddhima abhi tak sowi nahi hai. Unko boliye ki main hoon yaha pe aur aap bhi todhi der rest kar lijiye.'

'Thank you for coffee kya Dr Riddhima ko bhi aap ne coffee de di.'

All these gestures warmed Riddhima's heart but did not give her much solace knowing that Sid still beyond her reach.

Finally in the wee hours of the morning Riddhima gave in and went off to sleep. The child would need constant monitoring through the day and Sid also needed to rest. Riddhima thought of relieving Sid in the morning but Sid remained stubborn.

The tension was growing as the fever refused to subside . Sid visibly tiredness increased Riddhima's anxiety.

Towards afternoon things started coming under control and Sid retired for a brief nap.

By evening things seemed much better. 'Shielaji Sachin ko Sanjeevani shift karwana theek rahega. Kuch tests karna zaroori ho gaya hai.'

'Jaise aap dono theek samjhe.'

'Good main ambulance ka intezam karta hoon. Kal subah hum Mumbai ke liye nikhal jayege.'

That evening understanding he might be required by Sachin Sid dropped his plans to visit his favorite evening hangout. He planned to make an early start next morning so he decided to fetch his stuff back from the guesthouse. He informed the nurse to buzz him immediately if Sachin's health deteriorated and took his chance to sneaked out fearing Riddhima would come following. But his absence did not go unnoticed. Riddhima worried for Sid incessantly called him. Since the nurse hadn't called him he gauged the real intension behind Riddhima's calls and he promptly ignored all of them.

Otherwise she would have been miffed by the non response but now the situation was different.This was a different Sid whom she could nor recognise nor predict. Would he be on a drinking spree even though his patient lay sick in bed? Her heart refused to believe but now her mind had started deriving on its own accord. There seemed greater possibility which angered her to no extents She paced the porch anxiously pondering on possibilities of what Sid was up to and this was Riddhima for whom jumping to conclusions was like second nature.

So when Sid arrived she threw an accusing glance towards him blaming him for all that he had not done.

'So not only you drink but also drink and drive. Do you know how dangerous it is? Why are you doing this? Do you even care?'

Sid chose to ignore even though irritated at Riddhima's boring blaming eyes which were screaming accusations at him. He was here for Sachin and that's what he intended to do. Walking into Sachin's room he cooly to check on him. Riddhima seeing this got more agitated. 'I have done that he is fine.There is no need for you to check on him now.' she said spitefully.

'There is no need for you to check on him now.' That ticked off Sid. Still he managing to keep his cool to complete his checks and walked away in a huff.

He felt used yet again.'So now you are not required. I told you all this was a bloody farce. Concern for you was just a farce but you did not listen.' his mind mocked him as he paced the porch. 'Actually I don't know why I came back. Keeping everything aside. I am not required. I was never good enough for her. And now my services as a doctor are also not required. Why would they? I don't know why I alter my life thinking of others. I should have gone ahead with my routine not thinking about anybody Not even Sachin. Now Riddhima No Dr Riddhima is there finds me inadequate as a doctor too. I think I better go and live my live.'

Riddhima watched him from far first not feeling like approaching him. She was still angry. But as time passed his discomfort was became more and more evident. Sid had been abusing alcohol for the last four months. Immediately leaving it for day was taking it toll on him. He felt uneasy and irritated. Not only from the lack of alcohol but also what Riddhima said back in the room. His insides cringed. He felt nauseated and was profusely sweating. He finally settled down on the easy chair and tried to ease himself.

Seeing him such was confirming what Riddhima heart said. 'Sid would never leave his patient to go and drink' . The symptoms Sid experienced proved that Sid had not been on a drinking spree. She felt ashamed of inferring. She knew well sudden alcohol abstinence after prolonged abuse could cause severe damage or even be fatal.

Knowing Sid's stubborn nature, she did not have much hope that Sid would do any self medication. It was imperative that he eased himself. Usually, he would have popped his regular but tonight this pain seemed like his best friend. It was helping block out that spiteful comment which announced his uselessness.

This pain was testing Riddhima's patience. The miserable sight was bad but worst was her fear for Sid's life and soon she soon found herself standing in front of his resting form with medicines and glass of water. Setting it down she contemplated if she should wake him up.

The questions which hassled him every evening had returned to haunt him. He was already a little delirious and his sub conscious mind fighting those questions made matters worse for him. He murmured sometimes helplessly at times agitated.

Seeing him disturbed her hand moved on its own accord wanting to sooth him. His vulnerable state was making her vulnerable. Her hand slowly inched a little more closer to him and he sensing it got up with a jerk.

'Main tumhare liye dawai layi thi.' she said trying to help him make sense of her presence and proximity.

'As if she really cares.' that the only thought that could come to his mind. He looked at her with disgust and got up to walk away. He was extremely hurt and she felt it essential to make amends for her folly.

'I am sorry' she said tearfully. She was indeed ashamed of misunderstanding him. But it was not to have any effect. The wall of distrust was too strong to be broken even with such gestures. Not cause they were not genuine but they came from a person who every genuine gesture had been negated by her own act of deceit. And so all seemed only a deceit. But she would try, try until she succeeded.

'Baat nahi karni toh dawai toh kha loo. Please 'Please dawai kha lo'

'Tumhari halat dekhi nahi jaa rahi mujhse. Please 'Acha dawai nahi khaani toh baat toh kar sakte ho na.' she suggested hoping that would deviate his mind. 'Mujhe baat karo.'

Her efforts were went waste as they met with his silence. Every nerve in his body was retaliating at her persistence thinking it was a pretense but he was a gentleman who would not want to create a scene. He felt suffocated standing there so he walked passed her. He strode away briskly in the garden in an effort to avoid her.

She could sense the suffocation. She had to get him out of it and for that she needed to get him to talk.

She ran forward to catch up with him. 'Ruko Sid. Tum gussa ho main jaanti hoon. Baat karo mujhse.'

'Sid tum chup kyu ho ... Mujhe maloom hai tum pareshan ho. Tumhare dil mein hazar sawal hai. Maine sunne hai. Un aadhe adhoore sawalo ka poora jawab dena chahati hoon. Kuch toh bolo aise chup na raho. Acha 'theek hai ' baat nahi karni toh mat karo dawai toh kha lo ' yeh theek nahi hai. Tumhari halat aur bhi bigad ,,,,,.'

His killer look had her voice stuck in her throat. Taking a deep breath she steadied her thumping heart and again tried.

'Tum khud ko hi nahi mujhe bhi saza de rahe ho.' she said using her strongest weapon. Her pain made him restless and it worked but not the way she wished.

He was agitated and it added to his withdrawal symptoms. He was again sweating profusely and his limbs shaking. Yet he held his ground. Not uttering a word he shirked her helping hand and turned to walk back.

'Sid ruko tumhari halat theek nahi hai tum girr jaoge. Tumhe chot lag jayegi. Agar dawai nahi lena chahate toh ' theek hai just go have a drink.' She suggested out of sheer frustration. A low dose gave better results in the detoxification process than medication and now in Sid's case would ease the symptoms. 'please aise mat raho. Chahe toh main chalti hoon.'

Sid was completely thrown off balance. Was this lady for real? The previous evening she intending to stop him sat down to drink along knowing well he will not continue and now herself was suggesting accompanying him to a bar so that he could have a drink. All in all he now knew that the lady in front of him was not going to relent. She was on a mission - mission to break his defenses. Somewhere deep down he also felt a little scared. His mental and physical state was vulnerable and his defenses might just get shattered. He might just end up doing something he may just regret. He allow this lady to get through her ends of bringing him out of his comfort zone. He might just open up the doors to his heart which he had locked that fateful evening at the basketball court.

'Ek dost ki nahi toh ek doctor ke haisiyat se meri baar maan lo.'

'Dr Riddhima you are not my consulting physician. Your services are not required. Thank you very much.' Finally he spoke leaving Riddhima battered with his judgement.

That was the last he spoke. He never left the orphanage for a drink but finally in the wee hours of the night he did finally take the medicines left for him. He needed to be there for Sachin if not for anyone else. For Riddhima Sid having the medicines finally was enough. She had to make do with only that. The following morning they moved Sachin to Sanjeevani. The entire journey Riddhima just kept searching for the slight ray of hope, the tiniest chance but ended up only disappointed.

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