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Chapter Thirty-One
(Disease)
A few weeks went by with Geet's constant chemotherapy and line of medicines. Maan didn't let her to go the hospital unless she was going for chemotherapy or she had a checkup with Heer.
Geet was always in bed and she was kept under care of Shanno. This frustrated Geet because she couldn't stand not doing anything... she felt like walking downstairs and making something for dinner... or even stepping outside for a walk.
Geet was stuck in bed watching recorded episodes of " Greys Anatomy"... " Haye rabba... yeh kahaan phas gayii" mumbled Geet as she looked through around her bed for her phone.
She found it under Maan's pillow and she took it out. Her phone started to beep and she picked it up
" Hello?" said Geet.
" Hello Geet! this is Ashleshaa!! kaisi ho tum?!" replied Ashlesha. Geet gasped, " OMGG.. ITNI DER BAAD TUMHE YAAD AAYI HUMARI!?"
" Sorry yaar... Im getting big and not very good with calling" replied Ashlesha. " Shutup! no excuses! how are you?! hows your baby?" asked Geet excitedly. Ashlesha laughed, " Good new darling... main aur Arjun abhi aur issi waqt Delhi aarahe hain tumhari taraf.. infact I heard your treatments are going on and I called Maan.. he should be coming soon..!"
Geet screamed, " ASSH! WHERE ARE YOU GUYSS?!"
" Just two minutes away Geet... we're coming and don't you dare come downstairs... I'll be coming up to you" replied Ashlesha. Geet laughed excitedly, " Jaldi se aao yaar!"
" I am I am.. Mrs. Khurana... patience" said Ashlesha with a laugh. " Acha.. we're here Geet... hum aate hain" said Ashlesha. Geet screeched, " Finally! I didnt have time to get ready.. so im in my PJ's"
" Its okay..." replied Ashlesha. "Acha come upstairs... I'll tell Nakul to get your bags and open the door and tell the guards to open the gates" said Geet. The girls said goodbye and Geet put down the phone.
She got out of bed and she tried to get up but she fell back down in sitting position. " I forgot... Im feeling weak.." thought Geet as her head was spinning. She filed back into bed and sighed, " I FEEL SO crippled"
She sat up and then got her laptop and quickly logged on. She went on skype with Maan and said, " MAAN... I FEEL SO CRIPPLED..."
Maan laughed, " Geet... relax...waisay Di aarahi hain..."
" Maaannn its NOT fair... Im so bored" complained Geet. " I know you are baby... what can we do ?!" replied Maan. " you better come back home in an hour...I miss you" pouted Geet.
Maan laughed, " Geet.. stop it.. issliye di araahi hain..."
" But I want my hubby to be here" pouted Geet.
On the other hand, Ashlesha and Arjun entered her room smirking, " Humari kya khaarabi hain?"
Geet looked up and she only jumped up, " Arjun!? Ash!?!"
Maan greeted Ashlesha and Arjun, " Hey Di... hey Arjun" They both greeted Maan and said, " To tumhari biwi tumhe yaad kar rahi hain...tum ghar kyun nahin aate Maan?" asked Ashlesha.
" Di.. thora sa kaam hain phir aaraha hoon and you are there to keep Geet company.." said Maan. " Oh ho... acha baba.. jaldi se ghar aayyiye.. hum sab aapka iintezaar kar rahe hain" replied Geet.
" Aap?" teased Arjun. " Oh ho... okay bye jii.." said Geet as she quickly shut the conversation before Arjun could tease her more. She shut her laptop off and Geet tried to get up and she stumbled a little.
Arjun and Ashlesha quickly tried to help her, " Geet! araam se!"
They both kept her balance steady and she hugged Ashlesha... " I missed you Ash.. kahaan thi?"
Ashlesha hugged her back hard, " I missed you too Geet.. aur main bus Jaipur mein thi... and handling my little baby inside of me"
Geet broke out of the hug and she;s like, " Can I feel your stomach?"
Ashlesha laughed, " You are a doctor Geet... you see this everyday?"
" Please naa!" pleaded Geet. Ashlesha nodded and Geet felt her round stomach... and then it hit Geet...She looked up at Ashlesha and said, " Sorry.." She took her hand away and looked away.
Ashlesha put her hand on Geet's cheek, " Geet... I promise you'll get to feel this beautiful feeling..."
Geet pretended to shrug it off and she only smiled, " Its okay.. I will give you another devil to worry about"
Ashlesha laughed, " Yeah right... acha did you eat? if not then come downstairs.. Dadimaa is waiting for you" Geet nodded, " You guys go ahead, I'll come in five minutes"
Ashlesha and Arjun nodded and they exited the room, leaving Geet as she closed the door. She slowly walked over to the mirror and looked at herself closely... she observed her tired eyes...her hair that was always up in a bun because she hated to comb it... hair would be falling out. Geet felt so ugly... she ran her hands down her cheek and noticed the dryness... Her chapped lips and deep lines on her forehead.
Geet's heart dropped... she felt ugly and on top of that... she felt like an incomplete woman... she never got to be someone's daughter... she never got to take the advantage of being someone's wife and finally... she possibly would never get the chance to be someone's mother. If that wasn't incomplete, then she would change her name.
" I hate this..." grumbled Geet. Geet walked over to her closet and stepped inside... she looked over to Maan's clothes that smelled of his usual cologne... mmm... her yummy husband and then she looked at her beautiful suits. She picked out her light blue and white churidaar. She took it out of her closet and filed out slowly. She went into her washroom to freshen herself up.
Geet was ready in five minutes and quickly let her hair down. She brushed it with her fingers softly and she applied her sindoor and put her long mangalsutra that she got as a wedding gift from Maan.
She put her bangles on and a small silver bindi. She put her earrings on and then put light makeup on. She heard Arjun calling her name and she quickly walked over and then found Shanno waiting for her outside her room.
Shanno looked at her and smiled, " Choti memsaab... aap bohot achi lag rahi hain"
Geet smiled, " Thanks Shanno... waisay aap yahaan kyun hain?"
" To help you down maam" replied Shanno. Geet sighed, " Chaliye" Maan wouldn't even let her go downstairs without some sort of help... because last time, she almost fell down the stairs because she felt dizzy and weak.
Shanno helped Geet down stairs and Maan was right... she felt dizzy. "Drats! Maan was right" thought Geet as she rolled her eyes. Shanno helped her down and they went into the dining room where Dadimaa, Ashlesha, Arjun and Maan were sitting.
Geet looked at Maan and smiled, " Aap aagaye?"
" Tumhari dhamki jo mili thi" joked Maan. " Very FUNNY" pouted Geet. "Oh ho.. Geet... you dressed up?" asked Ashlesha. " Woh naa.. sabke saamne aapne PJ's nahin pehen sakti naa" replied Geet as she sat beside Maan. Maan looked at her... after almost a few weeks he saw Geet dress up. He loved her anyway but she took the effort to dress up.
They all started to eat and talk... " Ash.. how long are you guys staying?"
" Until your chemo is done and you're well" replied Arjun
Geet frowned, " But Ash's delivery date is in 3 months... and my chemo will take more time than that"
" Listen Geet... we're planning to have our baby here and especially in Sanjeevani in Delhi.. where our love story and your love story started" replied Ashlesha as she beamed at Arjun.
Geet smiled, " That's so sweet guys!"
" Acha Ashlesha bete, aapko bhi aapna khayal rakhna hoga... you are at you're grandmothers house! and your maayka" smiled Dadimaa. " Of course..!" replied Ashlesha.
" Acha Geet..how many more chemo sessions?" asked Ashlesha. Geet put her fork down and she looked up at her, " Can we not talk about that for once?"
" Yeah Ash... cut her some slack.. shes with family now" smiled Arjun. " Finee" smiled Ashlesha. " So how is the baby? did you find out the sex of the baby?" asked Geet. " Its a surprise for all of us... we didn't want to know" replied Ashlesha.
" Ohh! thats good!" replied Geet as enthusiasticly as she could.
Geet played around with her food and she heard Ashlesha talk on and on about her pregnancy. Geet was getting even more restless... it was clearly felt by Maan who was sitting beside her.
He saw her play with her fork and food... she didn't say a word for a couple of minutes until Arjun said, " Geet.. why are you so quiet?"
Geet looked up and said, " Oh no nothing... just a little tired"
" I understand, go rest then! we'll meet tomorrow!" smiled Arjun. " Thanks bro... Im alright... I can survive.." replied Geet as she started to eat slowly. The evening was full of conversation and restless feelings with Geet...
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The next morning, Geet laid in bed and she looked to the other side to find Maan still sleeping. It was almost 5 am in the morning and Geet could not sleep all night... the thoughts of her being incomplete was bugging her.
She wanted to wake up Maan and tell him... but she wanted him to rest. He was always in a hurry everywhere he went... either he would be in the hospital or at home taking care of her.
A tear slipped out of her eyes as she thought about everything again. She wiped her tears and decided to call Meera... only she would understand... It would only hurt Maan to even know or feel that she was feeling that way.
Geet slowly slipped out of bed and put her robe on and then she took her phone. She went out into the balcony and breathed hard, the soft wind was blowing against her face. She dialed Meera's number and she hoped for an answer.
Meera picked up the phone and sleepily said, " Hello?"
Geet started to cry... and she shakily said, " Meer"
Meera jolted out of her sleepy voice and she said, " Geet! tu ro rahi hain? kya hua!?"
" I want to talk..." whispered Geet.
" Haan haan... bol" replied Meera as she was so worried. Geet started to ball her eyes out and say, " i feel ugly.. incomplete.. worthless.. useless?! why am I alive Meera?I cant even give my husband the proper attention... i cant even make him happy!? I always frustrate him.. I knew I should've kept this a secret..."
Geet sat down and leaned on the railings... and she cried and cried.
"Geet.. don't talk like that... you are priceless to us all Geet... you are not incomplete and trust me Geet... you will find your portion of happiness! you are a good human being Geeto... we all love you.. Jeej loves you to bits and I love you to bits" replied Meera.
"I want to die Meera... I just want to end this once and for all..." sobbed Geet. " No Geet! aisi baatein mat kar! and life is to live Geet.. you taught us all that! And jeej? he loves you so much!" whispered Meera.
" i know.. I love him more than my life... but why Meera? if Im losing hair.. if Im losing the most basic of things then whats the use? " sobbed Geet. Meera explained to her and calmed her down..Geet was crying her eyes out... she felt like a disease in Maans life... a disease that he had to take care of.
"I feel like a disease" sobbed Geet... she cried as the wind blew harder on her face..." GEET! dont EVER talk like that! you are special.. you are an angel Geet! you brought love and affection in our lives... you protected me like a mother... you lit up Jeej's life..." whispered Meera.
" Please.. im ugly.. im a disease and I have no purpose in this life at all" snapped Geet. " No... that isn't the right way to go Geet... what is wrong with you!?" demanded Meera.
" Please dont tell Maan this Meera.. if he ever asks you" whispered Geet. She was about to say something else until she looked up... and then she dropped her phone.
She looked at Maan who was standing there.. looking very... upset and angry.
" Maan woh-" began Geet. She shut her phone quickly and tried to stand up without wobbling around. She stood up and held onto the railing... Maan gave her the death glare... he was definitely angry.
"Maan.. I was just... just... talking to Meera... and I just needed someone to talk to.. and" stuttered Geet. Maan raised an eyebrow, " And?"
She looked around nervously and said, " Nothing..."
Maan lost it, " WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!? YOU KNOW WHY YOU'RE SICK FOR A PROLONGED TIME? BECAUSE YOU CAN'T FORGET ANYTHING... YOU HAVEN'T LET YOUR PAST GO... YOU DON'T LET YOUR FUTURE IN..!!!! ARE YOU FREAKING CRAZY GEET? HOW DARE YOU SAY THAT YOU'RE A DISEASE? DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT YOU JUST SAID?"
Geet looked down and closed her eyes... she shook a little... she had never seen Maan so angry..
He walked upto her and grabbed her arms and pulled her against him, " GEET! ANSWER ME"
She struggled out of his arms, " I WANT TO COMMIT SUICIDE"
Maan let go of her and then he was definitely dumbstruck.
Her eyes were red from all the crying... and she only sobbed more, " Why don't you let me die?... why?"
He didn't answer her.
" Let me die Maan.. please" pleaded Geet. She fell on her knees and begged, " Please! let me die"
Maan quickly helped her up and he said, " Shh...no.."
She tried to struggle out of his arms, but he only kept her in his arms tightly, " No.. Geet... If you die.. it'll be the end of Maan Singh Khurana"
Geet sobbed, " I can't give you a baby... I can't even give you something that I've kept for you... all this time... for what? just because Im sick... I want you Maan.. I want to feel like you're mine.. and Im yours..."
" You are mine baby... I love you... and I always will Geet... I love you because you became the light of my life.. and you showed me how to love again.. how to feel again... you showed me how to live... Geet... jab tum meri zindagi mein aayi thi, to mujhe lag raha tha kay mujhe jeene ke ishare mil gaye hain..." whispered Maan.
Geet cried and cried... " Im sorry... "
" Don't be Geet... please..." whispered Maan. She cried for a couple of minutes and she said, " Maan... two more chemo sessions and then everything will be fine right?"
Maan was sure of it... he knew it... she had been getting it done for so long and now the reports should be fine now. " You will Geet.. I promise" replied Maan. Geet believed him... he would never lie to her about anything like that..
" I believe you Maan" whispered Geet. He broke out of the hug and he wiped her tears... " I love you" whispered Maan. Geet smiled a little, " I love you too"
" Can we get to bed now?" asked Geet. " Of course" replied Maan. They both entered their room again and Geet slipped into bed... she took her robe off and Maan slipped his shirt off.
He slipped into bed and Geet snuggled in with him, " I love you dhak dhak"
He chuckled to himself, " You are one ticking time bomb"
" Thanks babe... you are too!" replied Geet. She kissed him and they both closed their eyes and drifted off to sleep.
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The next few days were made up of Geet's chemotherapy sessions. She felt weaker by the day, but the treatments were working since the cancer was not into the middle stage just yet.
Ashlesha was often at home taking care of Geet and watching over medication, while Arjun and Maan were at Sanjeevani. " Ash... I haven't even gone shopping with you yet either!" complained Geet as the girls sat on her bed watching a movie.
" Oh ho Geet... its okay naa, once you're better we can always go shopping!" smiled Ashlesha.
" For sure!" replied Geet. " Acha chal, I'll get going to my room! its already 10 pm... the guys are probably waiting" said Ashlesha. She slowly got up out of bed and she said, "Rest well! tomorrow is your final session and then after that! you'll be fine!"
Geet nodded and Ashlesha exited the room. Geet was about to get up and change, until she felt strange feeling... she tried to get up, but then she felt nausea..
Geet felt a burning sensation in her throat and she ran into the washroom and started to vomit uncontrollably. She felt so dizzy, but kept on throwing up. Geet needed help fast.
After a few minutes, Geet stopped vomiting and she lay on the floor unable to get up... her body felt like it had given up on all ends. " Maann" whispered Geet. No one was there to help her.
She laid there for a couple of minutes and she was unable to get up... her muscles felt like absolute jelly and her head was spinning. " Maaan" whispered Geet again as tears began rolling down her eyes.
Suddenly, Shanno came into the room and called out, " Choti memsaab??"
No answer... but then Shanno heard something soft... as if it was a whisper for help. She walked slowly towards the washroom and opened the door. Her eyes grew wide and she only managed to yell, " Memsaaab!"
Shanno went to go help Geet and she put Geets head on her lap, " Shanno... call Maan..."whispered Geet. " memsaab! kya hua?!!" demanded Shanno as she was wiping Geet's forehead with her duppata.
" Call Maan!" whispered Geet. " Ji memsaab!" replied Shanno. She put her head down softly and Shanno ran out of the room and screamed, " SAAB JII! CHOTI MEMSAAB KO KUCH HO GAYA HAIN"
Maan was sitting in the living room watching a soccer game with Arjun and he heard Shanno calling him. " What is she saying?!" demanded Maan as he got up.
He walked into the main hall where the stairs were and Shanno came running down screaming, " CHOTI MEEMSAAB KO KUCH HO GAYA HAIN"
Maan's eyes grew wide in terror and he ran up the stairs and into their room. He looked around and then Shanno came in running, " Washroom sir!"
Maan went into the washroom to find Geet laying there... with her eyes closed... her skin pale and he could only hear her whispers, " Maaan..."
Maan was horrified and he immediately went into the washroom and picked her up in his arms, " Geet?! kya hua!?"
" Memsaab ne ulti ki hain!" said Shanno. Maan's eyes grew wide and he immediately ran out of the room with Geet in his arms... He ran down the stairs and said, "Arjun! take care of Di! i have to take Geet to the hospital"
" Lekin Geet ko kya huaa?!" demanded Arjun as he opened the door for Maan. "I'll tell you later.. just take care of Di"
" Maan bete! kya hua Geet ko!" said Dadimaa as she rushed in. " Dadimaa.. aap Ashlesha ka khayal rakhein.. mein Maan kay saath jaa raha hoon" said Arjun. Dadimaa nodded, " Aap jayiye!"
Dadimaa rushed upstairs and saw Ashlesha standing there shocked. Dadimaa quickly went to her and took her hand all the way to the room. "Ashlesha bete.. rest.." said Dadimaa.
" Par dadimaa..Geet ko kya ho gaya?!" demanded Ashlesha. " She just isn't well bete" replied Dadimaa. " Dadimaa I want to go to the hospital as well!" said Ashlesha. Dadimaa put her hand on Ashlesha's cheek and said, " Bete.. aapki halat aisi nahin hai kay aap kahin jaayein"
Ashlesha sighed, " I know Dadimaa.. main bhi doctor hoon.. I tell my patients the same thing you tell me... but Geet?! kya ho gaya usko!? woh theek to hain naa?"
" Bete.. humay bhi nahin pata par sab kuch theek ho jayega.." smiled Dadimaa. Ashlesha nodded and Dadimaa helped her lay down. Dadimaa stayed in the room with Ashlesha and told Shanno to stay nearby.
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Arjun drove very fast while Maan was in the backseat with Geet in his lap. " Geet. its okay.. I know..just stay calm" said Maan as he wiped the sweat off her forehead with a tissue.
" Maan... no..." whispered Geet.
"Geet.. just hold on okay? hold on for us" whispered Maan. Maan's heart was beating fast... Heer had not told him of any effects or any reactions like this one..
They reached the hospital and Arjun parked the car. Maan took Geet into his arms again and filed out of the car. He and Arjun quickly ran into the emergency to find the interns still there... as some worked overtime to get their hospital hours done in case they had missed any days.
" GET A DAMN STRETCHER" yelled Maan. Armaan quickly called out the nurses and they brought a large bed. Maan put Geet onto it and they rushed into the hallways. " CALL DR. HEER NOW!" ordered Maan.
Armaan nodded and he went off to call Heer. Heer came in two minutes and she quickly said, " INTO THAT ROOM NOW!"
They wheeled Geet into a room and Heer stopped Maan in the middle of the doorway, " Maan... you can't come in..."
Maan looked at her frustratingly, " WHY?"
" Its rules Maan... you made them.. so follow them" replied Heer. Maan sighed and he stepped back. Arjun came running up, " Dr.Heer... can I help?"
" Yes.. come in" replied Heer. Arjun went in and left Maan waiting outside the room. Maan sat down on the hallway bench in frustration... he leaned back and sighed, " What the hell is happening? she was fine and now?"
" I should call Meera..." thought Maan.
He quickly got his cell out and called her and she picked up, ' Hello Meera?"
" Hey jeej? whats up? you're calling so late? Geet kahaan hain?" asked Meera casually.
" Come to the hospital right now.. Geet is not doing good" replied Maan. Meera gasped, " WHAT?"
" Just come quickly" said Maan. " Im coming in TWO minutes jeej" said Meera. She put the phone down and quickly got into her car to come to the hospital.
Maan was so worried... what was going on!? Tomorrow, was her final chemotherapy session and her body was letting go of her? Why.?
Maan wanted to go into the room but as per hospital rules, no family is allowed in the operation room, where the doctors are busy treating and/or operating on a patient. The only reason he was able to go last time during Geets cyst surgey was because he took part in the initial process and assisted with the surgery. Now he wasn't allowed... and Heer was right... he wouldn't be able to handle himself in the room seeing Geet like that.
Suddenly, Meera came running in and Maan stood up. Her eyes were wide in worry, " Jeej! kya hua?!"
" I don't know" replied Maan with a defeated expression. " How why?!" asked Meera as she wanted to know the answers no matter what... even if Maan didn't know them.
" The maid had said that she was throwing up and she fainted... I found her on the bathroom floor laying there..." whispered Maan as he kept the lump in his throat back. " What?!" gasped Meera.
" Yeah and now I quickly brought her here... and you are her sister, you have to know.. you have the right to know" replied Maan. Meera put her hand on his shoulder," Jeej.. Im not worried about Geet because I know that you're there for her and you'll never let her go.. I trust you..."
He nodded and she smiled a little, " Jeej... Geet loves you so much... she's holding on only because of you..."
" I know..." whispered Maan. " Lets sit down" said Meera. They both sat down and Meera took out a bottle of water and gave it to Maan, " Here... jeej.. she'll be fine.. just drink some water... you probably haven't gotten the chance to even breathe in peace"
" How can I drink or breathe when I have my wife inside who is fighting for her life?" whispered Maan. " Geet would never want you to stop your life... if she was here, she would make a big deal out of you not eating or drinking anything properly" smiled Meera.
That comment made him chuckle because he could almost imagine Geet standing in front of him and going off on him in her usual Miss. Hoshiyarpurexpress style.
Maan took the bottle of water and began to drink the water. It definitely calmed his system down and cooled his throat. Just then, Yash came running in and he said, " Maan? what happened? Meera said that Geet was rushed to the hospital?"
Maan looked at him with his tired eyes, " She is still in the room with Heer."
Yash looked at his best friend who clearly was fighting against himself... he looked defeated, tired, upset, and frustrated. Yash walked over to him and he sat beside him. Yash put his hand on Maan's shoulder, " Maan... Geet theek ho jayegi..."
" Main kya karoon? the poor girl is in there fighting for her life?! and I can't do anyything?" replied Maan. He put the water bottle down on the ground. " Trust me dude.. kuch nahin hoga..." said Yash supportingly.
" Yash theek keh raha hai jeej... Geet is a strong girl..." said Meera.
" I know Meera, but.." began Maan.
" Jeej.. aapko pata hain... the day our families were slaughtered in front of us... Geet hid me behind her, And I honestly to this day... did not see the horrors that she saw... Geet only put her hands over my eyes so I wouldn't see it... she saw it... and you tell me that she is fighting and that shes growing weak? No... Geet Handa fought in the beginning and she'll fight to the end" said Meera.
Maan looked at her with questioning eyes, " She saw all that slaughter?"
" Yes... and she kept me away from it, I could probably never imagine how bad it was... but Geet saw it... everything" replied Meera.
Maan sighed, " She was right... someone always has it worse than you... you should always keep smiling and living it... thats the best you do... it makes living this life much easier"
" I see Geet already told you" smirked Meera.
" Yes she did... in the first week we met" replied Maan. Meera laughed, " Well then..."
Maan was about to say something until Heer came out of the room. Maan, Yash and Meera stood up and Maan said, " Heer! is Geet okay?"
Heer sighed, " She is under observation, but the side effects of chemotherapy were getting to her body... nausea and vomiting is very common..."
" What can we do?" asked Maan. " Well.. for now she will be staying here under my care and the chemo will be postponed until everything is back to normal like before... and that will be the final one" said Heer.
Maan nodded and he said, " Come to my office"
Heer nodded and both walked towards his office leaving Yash and Meera waiting outside.
They entered his office but then Heer said, " Oh I forgot something in my office... I'll be back.. two minutes"
Maan nodded and looked at a couple of files still pending on his desk. Heer came back after five minutes and handed him the file
" Here are her reports Maan... read it... and you'll know what I mean" said Heer as she gave him the file. Maan took it from her and read it...his eyes scanned down the page... leaving him speechless...
" Heer?" said Maan with his eyes wide.
" I know..." replied Heer in frustration.
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