Part # 7
After that day'..Alpana starts keeping a lil distance from Rudhir'..she was being formal wid him'.much like she was wid him'.at the beginning. Firstly she cudnt digest the fact that HE cud treat just abt any1 the way he treats HER!! But her prime concern was' this whole thing was affecting her''which directly implies'..she had feelings for him!!
"Samajhta kya hai wo apne aap ko?? HE can affect me?? Nahi'..aisa nahi ho sakta'..If I don't mean anything special to him'.then how can he?? Ye sab bakwas hai''kabhi kabhi hota hai aisa'..we think we feel something'.but we actually don't!! Mere saath bhi aisa hi ho raha hai'..I just think I feel for him'..but I actually don't'..Do u hear me Rudhir Mittal'..I don't feel a single thing for you!! U can be wid ur Mish-ti till the rest of ur life'..I don't care a dam abt u and ur life!! Its ur darn life'.and u can do whatever you want'.I am just not interested in you'!!"
No matter how many times she thought such things in mind'.no matter how much she wanted to pour out all her anger and frustration'..she just cudnt!! The fact that'.she had no right over him'.pinched her sumwhere'.near the 'heart''.and she hated that feeling!! She felt frustrated to knw that suddenly someone had becum an important part of her existence'.and she felt incomplete widout that person!!
Here Rudhir was nothing more than clueless abt wat was happening wid Alpana'.inside her head!! He didn't knw wat all she was thinking all day long'.and he definitely had no idea why she suddenly had started to keep herself a lil aloof from him. At first he thought she was tensed abt sumthing'.perhaps sumthing related to her work'..but now'.things didn't seem to be that easy!! Wid each passing day'.she was getting on his nerves. He didn't like the fact that she didn't look at him while talking'.let alone look into his eyes. He felt hurt to knw she now doesn't w8 for him on dinner'.instead she has it alone'.even if he returns home early!! Now-a-days there were no moments'.when they were 'together''..sharing a laugh or something like that!! In fact'.he hardly had tym wid her. She seemed to be going away from him''and this clearly enraged him!!
"Why on earth are you behaving like this Alpana?? Everything was f9 sum days bak'..then wat happened suddenly?? Aise kyun behave kar rahi ho jaise hum ajnabee ho'..why r u going away from me? Cant u see'.I don't like it?? Don't u see it Alpu''or perhaps it doesn't matter to u ha? U r hurting me dam it'.and it doesn't matter to u???"
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Just another day''Rudhir was in a relatively better mood'..a deal that was stuck for long had finally been finalized. He was happy'.and wanted to share it wid sumone'.who cud be none other than Alpana!! But he had been trying her phn for quite a while'..yet getting no reply. He was a lil confused as to why she was not picking up his call'.however he was on his way to her working place'..as he thot they cud hav the lunch together'.if she was free!!
After sumtym she attended his call'
Rudhir: Hi'.busy ho??
Alpana: Umm'.kyun?
Rudhir: Actually'.aaj main kaafi khush hu'.ek deal finalize hui hai'
Alpana: Oh'congrats!!
Rudhir: Thanks'..actually main soch raha tha'.issi khushi me treat de du'..tum free ho??
Alpana: (didn't really get the fact that the treat was meant ONLY for her) No'.main bahut busy hu'.u continue wid ur treat'.and hav a 'sweet' tym!! Once again'.my heartiest congratulations to u!! (saying this she hangs up the phn)
Rudhir was more than just shocked to see her 'rough' attitude'..he wondered if he had disturbed her amidst sum really important work'.but then as he was abt to turn the car'..she saw her in a taxi!! He followed the taxi'.and found that it dropped her home and went away!!
Rudhir didn't knw wat all to think abt'.coz at that moment thousands of thoughts were rushing by him'.and adding everything together'.he came to a conclusion'.sumwat like this:
"So tumhara itnaa zaruri kaam tha ghar ana. Tum mujhe sidhe sidhe bata sakti thi'.but u didn't. You didn't even hav the time to talk to me properly'..becoz u were just not interested!! Main hi bewkuf hu jo'.kuch bhi sochta rehta hai'..Its so clear that'.u don't want me interfering in ur life'.and of course its f9 wid me'..after all that's how it shud always hav been!!"
Rudhir doesn't return home all day long'..and Alpana gets disturbed naturally!! She was trying his cell'.it was ringing also'but he didn't pick it up once!! And now'at abt 2 a.m. in the night'..he returned home. He was surprised to find Alpana awake till so late'..but then he was too angry to ponder over her concern 'for' him!!
Alpana: Ye koi waqt hai ane ka? Phn tak nahi utha rahe the'.
Rudhir: So? How does it even matter to u??
Alpana: Now wat do u mean by that? Tumne kaha tha'.aisa phir kabhi nahi hoga'.U said'.agar phir kabhi kisi kaam me atak gaye to tum inform kar doge'..why don't u get it straight that'..(and she stops'.fearing to even think abt the thoughts she was having sum time bak)
Rudhir: That?? That wat??
Alpana: Rehne do'.
Rudhir: Yeah'.rehne dete hai'..Alpana!!
Since then'..both Rudhir n Alpana behave formally'.and now even Rudhir being angry''he doesn't make any effort to make things better!! Life was now going exactly the way they had thought once'.now they literally don't interfere in each other's life'.and sumtyms they don't even realize the other's presence!! Life was now going smoothly'..hassle-free'..where they didn't need to bother abt anyone else'.but their own selves. Everything was just the way they had wanted it to be. Yet'..nothing was f9!!
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Alpana: Thnx for taking sum tym out'and coming to this party wid me.
Rudhir: Its ok'.I wasn't busy at all'.
Alpana'just looked at his face'.to find him looking in the front. She was hurt to knw'..he now didn't even look at her while talking!!
After a lil while'..
Alpana: Didn't I ask u to serve me??
Waiter: Ma'm'.I think'.
Alpana: Uff'.stop thinking'..and do wat I say'.otherwise am gonna raise my voice'.and make a fuss abt it'.u want that?? (she says in a low 'serious' & DRUNKEN voice)
The waiter being helpless serves her another drink.
Rudhir who was just getting back to the bar-counter after looking at the interiors of the place'..which was designed by his talented wife''.was literally dumbfounded to see the view in front of his eyes. Alpana'.who was always very strict wid things like no drinking or smoking''.was now taking tequila shots one after another!!
At first'.Rudhir was too shocked to even react'..but within a few seconds'..he came out of his shock'.and went towards her!! She needed to be stopped!!
Rudhir: (taking the glass away from her) Alpana'.wat do u think u r doing??
Alpana: Ohh'hi Rudhir'.tum yaha kya kar rahe ho?
Rudhir: Wat? Tumhare saath hi to aya tha'.
Alpana: Mere saath?? Kyun aye mere saath?? I don't want you'.mere saath!! Jao yaha se'.
Though Rudhir was clearly annoyed at her statement'.he knew he cudnt afford to get angry at this point'..coz she was not in senses!!
Rudhir: Alpana'.abhi tum hosh me nahi ho'.c'mon lets go home'.
Alpana: Home?? Nahi'.mujhe home nahi jana'.main to drink'.(looking at her empty hand) arre meri drink kahan gayi? (now she finds it in Rudhir's hand) Tumne meri drink kyun li?? Agar tumhe bhi peena hai then khud ka order kar lo''this waiter is gud'.wo tumhe de dega'..aur agar nahi diya to mujhe batana'.main'
Rudhir: (cutting her) Alpana!! Mujhe drink nahi karna hai'.mujhe ghar jana hai'.so lets just leave'.
Alpana: Agar jana hai to jao'.mujhe kyun bula rahe ho? Main baad me aungi'.(she says wid attitude)
Rudhir: Baad me kaise aaogi?
Alpana: Wo baad me dekh lungi'.abhi jao tum'.disturb mat karo'.
Rudhir just looked around'.to find too many ppl out there!! He cudnt afford to force her in coming wid him'.and create a scene. But then'.he needed to take her home as well'.
Rudhir: Umm'.actually ghar me tumhare liye isse achhe drinks hai'..to tum wahi chalo na'.araam se drink karna apne ghar me'.
Alpana: Ghar me?? Kal tak to ghar me koi drink nahi tha'..aaj kaise hai??
Rudhir: Kyunki'.maine aaj hi mangwayi hai'.chalo na'pls'.wo drinks isse achhi hai'imported hai!!
Alpana: Sacchi?
Rudhir: Yeah yeah'.sacchi'lets go!!
And sumhow'.he manages to take her home. But as soon as they enter'.she begins to search for the drinks'..which she obviously doesn't find anywhere!!
Alpana: Kahan hai??
Rudhir: Kya kahan hai?
Alpana: Drinks'.meri drinks kahan hai?? Mujhe peena hai'.it was nice.
Rudhir: Ek raat me isse zyada drink nahi karte'.tum abhi so jao'.kal pee lena'.
At this'.Alpana joins her eye-brows'.as she clearly gets he was simply lying to persuade her to get bak home'.so she turns towards him'.in a 'charging' attitude.
Alpana: Youuuuuuu'..LIAR!! Tumne jhooth bola mujhse'.(and she is abt to go near him'.but trips on her saree'.and is abt to fall'when he holds her by the arms)
Rudhir: Sambhal ke baba'.kya kar rahi ho? Dekho'.abhi tum hosh me nahi ho'.kal baat karte hai'.
Alpana: Nahi'.faisla abhi hoga'..aur'.aur'.faisla ye hai ki'.tum jhoothe ho'makkar ho'..
Rudhir: Makkar?
Alpana: Haan'.jo jhootha hota hai'.wo makkar bhi hota hai'..filmein nahi dekhi kya??
Rudhir: (rolls his eyes to see her drunken madness) Listen Alpana'.pls bedroom tak chalo'.aur so jao'..u r '.
Alpana: Shut up'.tum jhoothe ho'.isliye tumhe bolna allowed nahi hai'..aur tumhe kya lagta hai'..mujhe behla fusla ke ghar leke aoge'.to main phir se bahar nahi jaa sakti kya'huh!! (and she is abt to move when he pulls her by the arms)
Rudhir: Alpana'.maine kaha na'.
Alpana: Arreee'.maine bhi kaha na'.mujhe'(now he doesn't w8 to listen to her blabbering and picks her up in his arms) Ayee'.niche utaaro mujhe'.gir jaungi'.
Rudhir: Nahi girogi'..
Alpana: No no'.I don't trust you'.u r bad'..very very bad'..u don't care for me at all'.tum mujhe zarur gira doge'..chalo chhoro mujhe'..
And she begins to hit him so hard that he actually was abt to lose balance and she was abt to fall'.but he sumhow makes her stand on the ground'..and now they were at the entrance of the bedroom'
Alpana: See'.tumne mujhe gira diya'
Rudhir: Arre'.giraya kaha?? Achhi khaasi to khadi ho'.
Alpana: Abhi to gira diya'.kaha tha na'..u don't care for me at all''that's why I don't trust u'.
At this Rudhir gets extremely frustrated'..firstly he was already not pleased wid the way things were progressing btwn him n Alpana'.he didn't like that stint of breach in the relation'..he already felt vacant inside'.as things were definitely not the way'.his heart wanted them to be. And now'to top that'.she constantly says'. "She doesn't trust him"!! He knws'.she is drunk'.but the saying goes'.ppl speak the truth when drunk'.don't they??
So Rudhir just pushes Alpana is a rush'.and pins her to the wall behind'..At this she hits her head on the back'and so takes her hand to the back''.
Alpana: Oww'see'see'.tum mujhe dard bhi pohuchate ho'.and u don't care abt it too'..bilkul parwa nahi hai tumhe'.
Rudhir: (with extreme irritation) Stop it Alpana'..stop pinching me wid ur words'.mujhe pata hai tum hosh me nahi ho'.lekin phir bhi mujhe takleef ho rahi hai'.pls stop this Alpana'Main tumhe kuch keh bhi nahi sakta'..aur naa hi tumhe samjha sakta hu'.kyunki tum uss halath me nahi ho'.Otherwise I wud really love to confront u'..kyunki kuch baatein mujhe andar se khaye jaa rahi hai'..But anyways'..tum hosh me nahi ho''so just go to sleep Alpana'.
He loses his grip on her but she doesn't move'.instead she now looks up to see his eyes. Here Rudhir'.who was looking away'.doesnt feel her leaving'.so he turns to find her looking at him intently'.and he stares into those beautiful eyes in confusion'.as to why they were almost brimming wid tears!! Now why did she need to cry???
Alpana: Haan'.ab to tum mujhe Alpana hi kahoge na'.kyunki tum uss Mish-ti ko Mishtooooo bulate hoge'.hai na? (she expressed her anger and frustration both in a childlike manner)
Rudhir: Mishtoo? Kaun Mishtoo? (he was completely clueless)
Alpana: Tumhariiiii Mishtooooooo'.(she screams)
Rudhir: (steps away a bit as she screams loudly) Arre yaar'..meri Mishtoo kahan se paida ho gayi??
Alpana: (holds him by the collar) Wo to tumhe pata hoga na'..mujhse kya poochhte ho?? Itne saalon se lift dete aa rahe ho'.puri biodata pata hoga na tumhe'.huh!!
Rudhir: (murmurs) Lift?? (a lil later he realizes she was talking abt Mishti) Ohh'Mishtoo se u mean'.Mishti'..!! Usse tumhe kya problem hai??
Alpana: Koi problem nahi hai mujhe!! (now she leaves the collar and turns around'trying to make her way to the bed) Mujhe kyun problem hogi''mujhe pata hai'.I am not supposed to have any problem'.I don't hav that right na? (and now she sits on the ground wid a thud'.as she illusioned it to be the bed) Ouch'..main gir gayi'..aur tum'..tum wahi khade ho kar dekh rahe ho'.mujhe uthane tak nahi aye'..kyunki tum to apni Mish-ti ke bare me soch rahe ho'.hai na?
Here Rudhir'.who was trying to put two and two together'..looks up at her as he hears those words. And though she was almost on the verge of crying'..he smiled to see her. Coz he suddenly realizes'..all her words'.that didn't make any sense few seconds back'.are now perfectly falling in place.
"Oh yes'..she is jealous!!"
But still'he just cudnt blv or perhaps wanted to be 'sure''.so he went towards her and knelt down beside her'
Rudhir: Alpan'.Alpu!! (now she looks up to him wid a childlike anticipation'.while he stares at her for a while)
Alpana: Kya hai?? Kuch bolna bhi hai ya nahi??
Rudhir: (smiles and stretches out his hand) Lets get up'..
Alpana: (looks at his hand and then at his face'.which had a smile'..and as she didn't understand why he was smiling'.it irritated her) Why on earth are u smiling?? And haan'.mujhe''mujhe uthne ke liye'..tumhari help ki zarurat nahi hai'.I don't need ur hand'..so keep ur hand'.to urselfff'.(and she tries to get up'.but obviously loses her balance and Rudhir holds her by the waist) Why are u holding me?? Girne dete mujhe'.achha hota na?
Rudhir: Kyun?? Achha kyun hota??
Alpana: Agar main gir jati'.aur marr jati''to tumhari saari tension khatam ho jati.
Rudhir: Tum yaha se gir kar marr jati?? U think so??
Alpana: (shrugging off his hands) To bata do'.kahan se gir kar marna hai'.wahi se gir jati hu'.(and she finally lets her tears flow)
Rudhir: (nears her) Mere liye wo bhi kar dogi??
Alpana: (looks up at his eyes'.which were now looking at hers dearly) Tumhare liye'..nahi'tumhare liye nahi'..kisne kaha main jo bhi karti hu wo tumhare liye karti hu?'.I don't!!
Rudhir: Kisine nahi kaha'..(He says this very softly as he takes a few strands of hair that were coming on her face'.and tugs them behind the ears)'.
Alpana: Gud'.kehna bhi nahi chahiye'.(and she leans on him as she is unable to keep balance for so long and hugs him for support)
Rudhir: Achha'ek baat puchhu?
Alpana: Uhuu'(and she digs herself deeper into him'while he finds it a bit hard to resist)
Rudhir: Okay then'.nahi puchhunga'.
Alpana: (withdraws herself) Kyun nahi puchhoge?? Uss Mish'..(this tym he doesn't let her complete and he keeps his finger on her lips)
Rudhir: Main tumhare alawa kisi aur se nahi puchhunga'.kyunki Iss baat ka jawab tumhare alawa koi aur nahi de sakta'.after all har koi meri biwi nahi hai na?? (he winks while she lets out a small smile)
Alpana: Hmm'.har koi biwi ban bhi nahi sakti'..sirf ek biwi hi'.biwi ban sakti hai'..aur tumhari biwi to sirf main hu'..(and she smiles to herself as she realizes this pleasant fact)
Rudhir: Yes'..and I think'.abhi meri biwi ko so jana chahiye'..she must be very tired na??
Alpana: Hmm'(and he picks her up in the arms)
Rudhir: Ab bhi lagta hai'.ki main gira dunga??
Alpana just shakes her head in a no'.and circles her arms around his neck. Rudhir places her on the bed'.but she doesn't let him go'.
Alpana: Dhir'.(and he looks at her being surprised....as he cums to knw she has shortened his name to 'Dhir') tumhe kuch kahu to bura to nahi maanoge na??
Rudhir: Nahi'.
Alpana: Tum gussa to nahi karoge na??
Rudhir: Bilkul nahi'.
Alpana: Agar tumhe achha nahi laga'to tum mujhe chhor kar to nahi chale jaoge na?
Rudhir: Kabhi nahi'.
Alpana: Agar main kahu'.ki main '.main tumse pyar karti hu'.to kya tum mujhse pyar karoge??
Rudhir: Hargiz nah'..(stops as he realizes wat she said) kya kaha??
Alpana: Mujhe lagta hai'..main tumse pyar karne lagi hu'.lekin tum hi batao'.main tumhe ye kaise kahu?? Agar tumhe ye bekaar ka bandhan laga'.to main bardasht nahi kar paungi. Mera dil'.tut jayega'.aur maine suna hai'.dil tutne se bahut takleef hoti hai. Mujhe darr lag raha hai Dhir'.agar tumne mana kar diya to?
At this Rudhir just places a kiss on her forehead passionately'..as if to sink the words she just let out''and here she closes her eyes which lets her tears roll down the cheeks. Rudhir caresses her cheeks wid his thumb and wipes away those tears. Now he touches his forehead to hers'.and looks into her eyes deeply'.
Rudhir: Tumhara saath ho'.to har bandhan manzoor hoga'..but mind you'.. sirf tumhare saath!!
Alpana: Sach me??
Rudhir: Hmm'.(and now he lies down beside her'.while she pulls him closer to herself digging her head into his chest)
Alpana had her eyes closed'.and she was slowly drifting off to sleep''but here Rudhir was staring at her unblinkingly. He was pleasantly surprised and a bit amused at the new revealation. He felt he was a bit stupid'.but a way too lucky!! His Alpana'..whom he thought to be going away from him'..now lies in his arms'.that too after voicing her love for him. Just an hour before'.life seemed to be so empty and meaningless'.but now it has found a whole new worth!! And he loves this new feeling'..becoz HE LOVES HER!! He softly moves his fingers over her cheeks'in a rotating manner'.and kisses her nosetip. As she feels his breath on her face'..she clutches him all the more tightly'.and all he does is to hug her back.
"U r not in ur senses my darling wife"
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Edited by sumaiya wahid - 14 years ago
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