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Hello jii… Namaskaar… Salaam…. Sasriakaal… Kaise ho aap sab log…. I hope aap sab achche ho…. Aur isse pehle kii aap sab mujhse pooche main batadun main bilkul first class hoon, theek thaak hoon… aur aap sab ko surprise hone kii koi zaroorat hii nahii hai it is just me, the writer of the fanfic 'HumraahI' who has come back this time with a update.. that too is barr tho main jaldi aagayi…. Hmm… I know utni jaldi nahii aayi hoon as the last time was two weeks back… woh darsal I was going to post a update earlier but then as many of you may know that I'am currently doing a creative writing course from IGNOU, aur uske liye if I wanted to give my exams in December tho I have to submit five different assignments to IGNOU by the 30th of September, tho is liye I was working on my assignments all through last week… the coming Monday I will call them & then send them my assignments, keeping my fingers crossed & hoping that mere assignments ko approval mil jaye… guys wish me luck, I hope all goes well… then in this weeks start I wanted to start typing a update lekin it was festival time & I got a bit lazy.. hehe… waise Eid Mubarak to all of you guys… I hope you celebrated Eid nicely & received a whole lot off gifts.. & guys wish you all a very Happy Ganesh Chaturthi…. Aapke yahaan kitne logon ke ghar par Ganesh Jii bithaye gaye hai.. mere ghar mein tho Ganesh Jii bitaye gaye hai… & Ganesh Jii ke favorite modak bhii khaaye maine… I simply love them…. & yes guys sorry thoda late wish karr rahii hoon lekin Happy Janmashtami to all of you.. I hope & pray that this season of fesitivity & celebration brings success, happiness & prosperity in all your lives. I hope this festival season fills your life with colors…. Have a very good festival season…. Now getting back to what I'am actually doing here. Yes I'am here to type the next update of 'HumraahI'… is barr jaise maine promise kiya tha main jaldi aagayi update lekar… tho hui na main good girl… haan thodu sa late hui hoon lekin abhi baitkarr update type karr rahii hoon, zyada wait nahii karwaaya aap logon ko…. Waise guys thank you so much for all the comments, you have given me on the 16th part of the fanfic.. your comments always make me very happy & it is because of your comments I get inspired to writer better & better, more & more every single time I sit to write… waise you know in the previous part of the fanfic most of you liked the last scene between agni & seher main aap logon se sach kahoon tho that scene was even my favorite bit in the whole of 16th part… even I felt the emotions represented there were over whelming…. Anyway let us see ab agge kahani mein kya hotha hai… lekin guys I see that some comments from members are missing here.. please do comment.. aur joh log gayab hue hai wapas aa jao pleaseee…. Main promise karthi hoon kii ab se harr hafte mein ya dus din ko ek barr fanfic update karoongi…. So please do leave a comments even a single word or a single linme comment would do.. & if you guys are unable to find time to comment then atleast like the part isse mujhe at least yeh patah hoga kii you are reading the part…. I hope all of you like reading the part….. waise this part is dedicated to deepu/ spvd, happy birthday yaar, I know your birthday is onm the 3rd of September, sorry I'am posting the part a day late….. I wish & pray that all your dreams come true.. have fun…. & sorry I could not post the part yesterday…. Anyway now getting back to the point of continuing the fanfic… tho chalo main ab soch rahii hoon kii meri baatein kuch zyada hii ho gayi hai… aap logon ko nahii lagtha main kuch zyada hii bol rahii hoon… I'am sure aap sab ko bhii aisa hii lag raha hoga, kyunke after all kahiin na kahiin we all think on the similar lines… hehehe…. Tho is wajah se main ab chup ho jaathi hoon, aur apni bhak, bhak par full stop lagathe hue, hum log agge badthe hai to the next part of the fanfic, that is the 17th part of the fanfic 'HumraahI'…. Lekin isse pehle kii hum log kahani ko zara agge badhaye don't you think it is fair for us to see what exactly happened in the previous part of the fanfic… it is fair right, tho chaliye dekhthe hai kii 16th part of 'HumraahI' mein aakhir kya hua tha…. Chaliye daalthe hai ek nazar recap par….

Recap:- well I'am sure this time around no one might have forgotten what actually happened in the previous part of 'HumraahI' & I feel there are two reasons for this one is that I'am update rather quickly & not getting gayab like every other time when I get gayab after posting a update…is barr me back early..yeh ek wajah ho sakthi hai kii aap log pichle update ko nahii bhool le… if that is not the case then reason two for you guys remembering clearly what happened in the 16th part of 'HumraahI' would be that, in the 16th part of the fanfic you saw something or rather you read something for which you guys were waiting for a very long time…. Yess the previous part had somethings which you all guys were waiting for, I know you were waiting for it from such a long time & the realization stuck or rather a part of realization stuck in the 16th part of the fanfic…. Aur shayad issi wajah se you will not be able to forget what actually conspired in the previous part that is the 16th part of the fanfic… tho chaliye anyway as a writer it is my duty to remind my readers of what actually happened in the previous part of the fanfic, though you guys might remember it I cannot start writing the next part without the recap.. hmm… tho kya hua tha pichle part mein… let's see muskaan, maan & sneha come to 'Utpal Villa' & ask agni for seher.. yahaan jahaan ek taraf agni bohat khush hotha hai kii he is meeting muskaan after such a long time, is given a very cold treatment from muskaan.. agni finally realizing that his sister has not come here to meet him but has come to meet seher, scolds seher & blames her for the stint she played in the papers… muskaan does not pay any heed to what agni was saying, while maan defends seher… finally agni tells maan & muskaan that seher is in the second floor packing her bags as he has told her to get out of here.. maan, muskaan leave sneha there & go to meet seher… but when they actually see seher they are shocked to their wits… muskaan screams seeing a lifeless seher lying on the bed with blood dripping from her hand.. agni & others too make their way to the room… & now agni knows it is time to act fast & he arranges for medical help for seher at home as he did not want to take seher out from the front gate where the reporters are waiting for anyone of the people in the house to give a statement on that days newspaper headlines.. & in all of this messed up situation he just did not want to give the reporters a chance to have a field out there nor did he want to give them a chance to attack them regarding their personal lives…& agni did not want seher being questioned again for all of the mess.. woh bhale hii kuch bhi kyun na keh le but he knew that seher was not characterless & he never did want anyone to deem her as characterless… though he had himself called her that…. This showed he still cares….. later in the previous part we saw the team of doctors coming & attending to seher…. Agni, prithvi, damini, milind, prachi, muskaan, maan all wait outside the room while the team of doctors are attending to seher. While standing out things seem to go out of hand with all the things said & done… agni was feeling wee bit guilty as he was the one who uttered to seher that she can go die some where…. Here maan is very angry at agni… he tells agni that if anything happens to seher then the circumstance would not be good… agni in his rather rude self, in order to hide his guilt says that he did nothing… agni is of the opinion that he did right by being harsh with seher because he feels she pulled the headlines stint with the newspapers just so that she could force him into a relationship… that is when muskaan looses her cool… agni wants to know the truth, muskaan loosing her cool decides to tell agni the truth.. though she makes it clear to agni that it is not her right to tell the truth to him… but still muskaan decides to tell agni the truth… all of them go to a room at the farther end of the second floor once they are there muskaan relates to everything of the past.. muskaan tells agni o rather makes it very clear to him that seher was living with his family in California, muskaan further relates as to how in so many years seher has left them & come here for the first time away from her home, just because she wanted to solve the misunderstandings.. muskaan further tells agni that seher got to know what ever conspired between the two of them was just problems, misunderstandings created by her father & sister.. muskaan tells agni the actual story of the past which was manipulated according to avinash gujral's thoughts.. muskaan tells agni that the truth is in the past too agni, seher loved each other the only thing which avinash took advantage off was that agni, seher had never really mentioned or confessed their love for each other so this was when avinash played his cards for his dear daughter rewa.. muskaan further explains how seher lost their child because she was drugged by the goons who had kidnapped her on the orders of avinash gujral… agni then tries to tell muskaan about the mail, when muskaan just tells him that the mail was wrong as the fact remains that seher was living with her & veena all these years & that mail was just meant to create more differences between the two of them.. then muskaan also tells agni that seher knew the truth but never told agni as she wanted to come to agni win him back & muskaan also tells agni that seher wanted agni to accept her because he loves her even today & no because of the relationship of the past, she (seher) did not want to be a obligation in his life so she was here trying to win back his heart & get back her lost love…. agni here does not know how to react. The reality of loosing his child, the reality of loosing the love of his life just because some people could not see them together & created misunderstandings between them…. the harsh reality of the words he told seher strikes him back.. agni's heart is wounded, he is hurt, in pain, & in tears…. In anguish agni starts hurting himself as he is guilty & the more the truth skins in it gets more difficult for him.. agni bangs his hand on the glass, on the wall, his friends, maan, muskaan try to stop him but it was like agni's pain knew no bounds… finally muskaan & maan understand that even agni has gone through the same amount of pain that seher has gone through in all these years…. Agni's friends are helpless & watch agni in pain, no one likes it a bit… agni tells everyone that he wants to stay away for a while, after nursing agni's injury muskaan, prachi & damini leave… here agni sitting alone in the room thinks back on his life.. he thinks of what has happened in his life & he thinks about the mess being created in his life… agni ko tho maano jaise us waqt kuch bhi samaj mein hii nahii aa raha tha…. It was like what ever he had thought to be the reality, what ever he had assumed to be the truth was not the truth & he was just getting to know it… he thinks that just because someone could not see him & seher together they turned their lives upside down.. agni ko seher kii kahii baatein yaad aathi hai, agni remembers the things he told seher clearly & these things hurt agni a lot more.. agni was still in pain, he still had the guilty feeling in him but this time he knew very well that his priority should be seher agni then decides with a heavy heart that he has to go to the room where seher is there to know seher's condition.. ab chaliye agge badhthe hai aur dekhthe hai kii is kahani mein agge kya hoga.. dekhthe hai yeh kahani agge kis modh par jaake rukegi…. Kya agni aur seher ko unki pyaar kii manzil mil paayegi ya phir kuch mashoor prem kahaniyon kii tarah inki kahani bhi aadhuri reh jaayegi.. chalo dekh hii lethe hai… so here is the 17th part of the fanfic 'HumraahI' enjoy reading the part…

****HumraahI – Part 17****

Agni then suddenly comes out of his thoughts, he makes up his mind to check first how seher is doing… agni thinks to himself that if something happens to seher he would end his life too… agni then wipes his eyes, he knows that his priority at that moment was to know about seher, he tells himself he will set right things, wiping his eyes dry agni walks out of the room & in quick steps he goes towards the room where seher is there… when agni is going there right at that moment he sees the doctor coming out of the room along with his team… agni rushes to him, wile maan, muskaan, prithvi, damini, milind, prachi also surround the doctor… agni reaches the doctor & in a very frantic voice says:- doctor, seher, woh theek hai na…. worry is written all over his face… while others also seem concerned… the head doctor says:- Mr. Garewal, Miss. Seher is fine… we have put stitches on her wounds… as she had cut her wrists plus she had cut her hand till the elbow in a straight line, we had to put twenty five stitches… khoon kaafi behh gaya tha, lekin abhi woh theek hai… we have given her sleeping dose injection she will be awake in about ten hours, it is possible that when she is awake unhe pain ho, here is the prescription with the list of medicines you have to give her… & yes though we have attended to the wounds, there may be pain & the scars of wound will take quiet some time to heal… all you need to do is take care of her… & all of you need to see to it that she is not stressed or depressed… & get her to the hospital after three days, So that we can change her bandage… agni is listening to everything very carefully, he just nods his head, soon milind, prithvi leave with the team of doctors, to leave them out… while here prachi, damini, realize that muskaan & maan might be hungry, prachi, damini ask the two of them to come down with them to eat some thing… maan, muskaan agree as the tiredness of the long journey gets onto them & they also want to check on sneha…. Prachi, damini ask agni to come along but agni says he would come down later… prachi, damini, muskaan, maan understand agni's state, they decide to leave him alone for the time being… maan in a gesture of empathy presses his hand on agni's shoulder, offering him support, agni looks at him.. then maan, prachi, damini, muskaan walk down…. Here agni looks at the closed door jiske peeche seher was there, he in a very slow moment opens the door, closes it back once he is inside.. in very small steps agni goes towards seher, he keeps looking at seher keenly… he walks by the bed, sits at the edge of the bed, he takes seher's injured hand in his, seeing the injured right hand, agni kii aankhein num ho jaathi hai… agni places the hand down & very slowly he runs his hand on seher's forehead… agni keeps looking at seher, he bends his head down so that his lips are touching seher's forehead, he in a very low whisper says:- I'am sorry… I love you…. I promise main sab kuch theek kar doonga… tumhe shikayath ka mauka nahii doonga…. I promise I will make everything alright… agni ke aakhon se halke se ek aasoo seher ke maathe par girthii hai, agni in a very swift momemt kisses on seher's forehead were the tear has fallen…. Agni then sits straight, leaning back on the bed post, he keeps rubbing seher's forehead & cheeks in slow movements & gestures… agni just sits there watching seher intently, it was like agni's life depended on the existence of the person who was sleeping beside him… it was as though agni ko us waqt aur kuch bhi nahii chahiye tha, all he wanted was his seher to be alright, all he wanted was for his seher to be awake again… agni was thinking that even if seher gets up & hates him he can bare it, but he cannot see seher in such a state.. agni seher ke maathe par barr, barr reh, rehkarr apne haath pher raha hotha hai.. this seemed to relax seher in her deep sleep as the frown on her face was slowly vanishing… while on the other hand what agni was doing was in some way or the other calming his nerves too… the fact that he was sitting by seher was acting like a cooling effect on his nerves, whichother wise were at the verge of a nevre wreckage… the more agni was watching seher's sleepy form the more he realized that he just could not look away from her even if he wished too.. agni thinks about how it has always been like this between him & seher.. from the time they were children, he was always at logger heads with her.. agni thinks that may be he had differences with seher not because he did not like what seher did or he did not like her but because some where deep inside his heart seher always striked a chord in his heart & agni thinks that just to avoid those feelings he always was at logger heads with seher.. he thinks of the umpteen times seher had tried to befriend him… he thinks about all the time from childhood when he has let seher down… agni ko yaad aatha hai uski recently kahii hui baat to seher where he had told her that she does not deserve a family… he thinks about of he accused seher of being characterless, he thinks about how he talked lowly about their lost child… agni ko yaad aatha hai kii he has accused seher of a abortion aur yeh saari cheezein agni ko aur bhi zyada takleef de rahii thi.. agni ko reh, rehkar yeh baat sataa rahii thi kii after every thing said & done between him & seher he was thinking as how he will face seher… he was thinking kii kaise woh seher se nazrein mila paayega…. Agni thinks about all those things he has told seher, he then looks at seher with pain filled eyes, at that moment it was like his eyes were speaking more than words & even more than his thoughts… his eyes expressed the extent of his hurt & he just did not seem to understand what to do with the hurt & pain in his heart, it was getting unbearable for him.. & the point that he had caused seher pain, he had hurt seher, he had brought tears to her eyes, he was the reason why seher was lying there with her wrist & hand bandaged, he was the cause for seher to attempt suicide, was killing him inside all the more… agni thinks that he never wanted any of these things, but life was playing games with the two of them & he could not do any thing about it… agni's thoughts go back to some time before where muskaan told him about the loss of their child… agni ke kaano mein muskaan kii kahii huibaatein goonj ne lagthi hai….:- 'B' was kidnapped, tortured & when she came back there was no life taking breath inside her, as her first child could not face the stress the trauma & the torture.. the baby was two weeks old….. agni closes his ears to block out the voices he was hearing but even that did not seem to help him in anyway possible.. even though he closed his ears the voice keeps ringing in his ears continuously:- she was pregnant with your child… she lost the child… the child was two weeks old… she was pregnant with your child… she lost the child… the child was two weeks old… she was pregnant with your child… she lost the child… the child was two weeks old… the child was two weeks old… it could not stand the trauma… agni ko yeh baat yaad aathi hai kii muskaan told him that his & seher's first unborn was killed because rewa & avinash did not want the child to bridge the gap they created between agni & seher… the words still keep ringing in his ears…. The child was two weeks old… the word unborn child… the word killed.. & the words two weeks keep jumbling in his mind, heart, body & soul & without understanding what to do, unable to stop himself, agni cries… tears flow down on his cheeks from his eyes on a rapid force.. the tears keep making their way down, agni does not even attempt to rub them off.. he just watches seher & the tears in his eyes keep flowing… yes even the truth that seher was in love with him, she never cheated him was bearable & he could have made amends for them.. but the other part of the truth were muskaan told him that seher lost the child growing in her womb, their child, the child was two weeks old, this fact was slowly eating up agni alive… a innocent life was life in seher's womb. The child had not even come to life & live in the world when it became the target of others manipulations…. Agni thinks that this is some thing he can never compensate for.. he feels all the more guilty as in all of the ordeal it was seher who has suffered the most.. yes even he had faced difficulties even he wasdheart broken, but on the other hand he had left seher heart broken & that too at the time when she needed him the most… he left her in a vulnerable state at that time when she had lost their child.. it was as if she had lost a part of her.. in this whole game of manipulations, where he & seher were targeted on one hand only his heart was broken but on the other hand seher was shattered through the whole ordeal… agni was feeling worse that he could not do anything for seher.. he could not do anything for seher back then & even now he is unable to do anything for her… agni thinks that he has only increased troubles & pain for seher.. he thinks about the recent times when he hurt seher & seher never told him the truth & listened to all of his accusations…. Yes there were times when seher answerd him back in her own spiteful way but that did not stop agni from getting all the more rude & harsh with seher… it was like seher ne agni se itni saari jhooti baatein kahii, but every single time she lied agni did not leave any stone unturned on her, it was like every time seher answered back agni, agni got all the more hateful towards her & he uttered words of hatred all over once again… itna sab kuch hone ke baad agni ek baat tho bohat achchi tarah se jaantha tha aur woh yeh tha kii joh bhi uske aur seher ke beech che saal pehle hua yaa phir joh kuch bhii un dono ke beech tabse se ho raha hai jabse seher wahaan uske ghar aayi hai, is sab mein se kuch bhi badla nahii jaa saktha… agni knew it very well that past can never be changed, bhale hii woh kitni bhi koshish kyun na kar le lekin ateet badla nahii jaa saktha.. shayad ateet kii kadwi yaadein mitane kii koshish, ek insaan apne aaj mein karr saktha tha, apne aaj mein itne haseen yaadein jodh saktha hai jisse uska ateet dhoondla pad jaye lekin ateet ko badal na namumkin hai, aur yeh baat agni jaantha tha… agni ke zehen mein barr, barr ek hii baat aa rahii thi aur woh yeh kii though he could no change his past, he surely wanted to make his present & future better & agni thinks that he will do anything in his hands to make sure that the present & future is nice & happy.. aur yahaan tho agni was like he did not care for his present or future, but all he cared about was for seher's present & her future.. it was like agni was thinking on the lines how to make seher present & future happy… agni thinks that though seher ke aaj ko khush karne mein bhale hii usse kitni hii kyun na takleef se guzar nii pade but he would do it, without any doubt in his mind.. he wanted to make everything right… he did not want to mess anything this time around… sitting there beside seher all that agni prayed for was that seher should be alright & he hoped that seher still wanted him in her life, he hoped that seher did not throw him out of her life & he hoped she at least gave him a chance to prove to her that he loves her with all his heart & he hoped truly that she does not shut him out of her heart, mind, soul & life… just this thought that seher may not need him in his life anymore was making him shudder with fear.. yes Agni Vashist Garewal, the man who was a tough businessman, the man who did not care for love, the man who had shut a part of his heart & turned to ruthless person was scared, yes he had his fear… the fear which came when his love opened up for the one person whom he loved with all his heart again… it was as though agni apne pyaar ko khone se darrtha hai.. ek barr tho woh apna pyaar khoo hii chukka tha lekin is barr bas is khayal se kii shayad seher will not want him in her life anymore was shaking him to his roots, as this time he did not want to loose his love at any cost… agni ko maano aisa lag raha tha kii agar is barr usne apna pyaar khoo diya tho woh jee nahii paayega… last time around he let seher go because he was of the opinion that seher did not love him & her happiness lay else where but this time after knowing that he & seher could have a future & a present together, accompanied with the thought of loosing seher was creating fear with in himself…. Agni was silently praying that joh bhi ho seher just does not decide to throw him out of her life, because this time around he will not be able to overcome it.. agni was just hoping that seher gains her consciousness soon as he has many things to tell her many questions to ask her, but all this could be done only when seher gets up… agni seher ko daant na chahtha tha kyunke seher ne apni jaan dene kii koshish kii, agni seher ko manana chahtha tha harr us kahii baat ke liye joh unke dono ke beech hui hai… woh seher se apne pyaar ka izhaar karna chahtha tha, woh chahtha tha kii seher usse apne pyaar ka izhaar kare, uske dimaak mein, dil mein maano kayi baaton kii khichidi pakh rahii thi… & in sabse badi baat joh agni kudh se kahe jaa raha tha from time to time was that he did not want to mess it up this time.. agni sochtha hai kii is barr sab kuch waise hii hoga jaisa seher chahegi, even if seher wanted to leave him, he thought he would allow that no questions asked no answers given… he thinks that even if seher needs time & space he will give it to her as he feels seher deserves at least so much… in sab baaton mein agni kudh ke bare mein tho soch hii nahii raha tha, for now all he cared about was seher, for now everything for him revolved only after one person & that was seher for him… he did not know what life had in store for him, he did not know now that he knows the truth as to where life will take him from there, but he knew one thing for sure & that was all of his concerns, worries only involved seher at the moment & it was like he did not care for anyone, not even himself at this stage in life… agni had made up his mid thinking as to what he would do… he promised himself that if at all seher gives him another chance he will prove it to her that they were meant to be.. keeping his fingers crossed all agni could hope for was everything to go fine, he did not want any other problems now in his life… agni ke dilo, dimaak mein jab yeh sab khayaal chal rahe hothe hai, in khayalon ke saath saath uske dil ke kahiin ek kone mein yeh darr tha kii seher usse dubara apnayegi nahii.. though seher had come to delhi to win him back, win his heart back, but now seeing the situation that he has literally pushed seher on the verge of commiting suicide he highly doubted that this time around things are going to be easy for him to win over seher's love & trust… he knew it would be a very difficult task which he has to perform, but he also very well knew that he had no other way out from this situation.. he knew he has to prove to seher that, they both are worth it, their love & their relationship is worth the fight against destiny… agni vows to himself that he would surely prove it to seher if given a chance & now all agni cared for & all agni craved for was a chance to prove his love, to prove that it was worth it… but the main question running in his head was that whether seher would give him that chance.. apart from this there was also one more question running in his head & that was if he deserved that chance.. that was the main thing he was worried about, some where inside himself agni was starting to believe that he did not deserve the chance.. after what ever has happened between him & seher, after the recent accusation of his which has led seher close to death he was starting to think that he did not deserve the second chance with seher.. he was starting to feel that may be seher deserved someone better, but though he was having these thoughts on one side on the other hand he knew it pretty well that his life was incomplete without seher, in the same way he also knew that seher's life was not complete without him… yes he knew this because if seher's life was not incomplete without him, if seher was happy without him then seher would have never come to Delhi all the way from California, just for his sake, just for the sake of his love, just for the purpose of winning his heart… thinking that seher has come all the way from California, leaving her comfort zone with his family which she had made in the past six years & to come here & face all his wrath & snide remarks, was accountable to something… agni thinks that if seher had learnt to live without him then she would not have come here from all the way… this thought gave agni a glimpse of hope, this showed him that may be all was not lost… agni feels that may be his & seher's relationship is so strong that it is over coming the hurdles in it's way with a greater amount of force & vigor.. the force getting them back together, or rather getting them closer was far stronger then the force which separated them, made them part ways, years ago… this thought was reducing agni's fear to an extent, but still it could be said that still the fear lingered at the back of his mind… he knew that if the love was true than nothing can keep two hearts filled with true love apart, but he now did not want seher to deny it… agni sochtha hai kii is barr bhale hii kuch bhii kyun na ho jaye lekin woh seher ko, seher aur apne rishthe ko apne haath se choot ne nahii dega…. Agni sochtha hai kii woh harr mumkin koshish karega jisse kii seher accepts their relationship.. but this situation would only arise if seher shut agni out of her heart & life & agni was hoping against all the odds that seher does not do that… but agni knew that what he was hoping for had a very minimal chance to happen.. yes he knew it pretty well that things will not be easy, neither for him & nor for seher, he knew that seher was very stubborn, he also knew if seher decides to shut him out of her life then she would do it without any hesitation, though it might hurt her she would still do it… agni remembers the time when he told seher about giving a proper closure to their relationship & now in this situation all he prayed for was that seher does not get the idea of closing or rather ending whatever little of the relationship which is between the two of them.. agni yeh baat bhakhoobi jaantha tha kii joh bhi hua us sab mein ghalthi dono kii thi…. But according him seher suffered more through this ordeal.. what agni did not know was that seher on the other hand felt that agni suffered more, seher felt like this because what ever happened it was because of her family.. agni did not know this…. What both agni, seher did not know was that in love there is no more suffering or there is no less suffering in love when either one is hurt, in pain or in tears both suffer equally & this was the power of love, the magic of it which binded two people so together that they find their happiness in each other & also find their pain in each other too… & what he did not know was that being in love, sharing pain reduced the intensity of pain, both seher & agni did not know that love had healing powers to the extent that any amount of pain, any amount of hurt can be cured with just a mere touch of love… such was the power of love.. & it had the power & will to get two people made for each other against all the odds.. agni did not know this, even seher did not as life had never in their past given them a chance to know the depths of their love & may be now after their testing time for so many years, after so many hurdles now was the time for them to know it…. But they themselves were uaware of it.. may be with time they will know & learn about the depths of their love…. May be time was the best medicine along with love to cure all the wounds of the pasts & also to clear the scars of the past which they had got.. agni was at the verge of having a nerve wreckaghe, he looked almost like a wreck & without understanding what else to do agni gets up from the bed takes the cigar from his pocket, lights it & starts smoking, pacing to & fro in the room, from time to time every ten seconds he used to stop look at seher sleeping form & then again continue pacing… he kept doing this again & again… he was getting even more restless now as he was not in close proximity with seher & right now in this situation all he needed to assure himself everything would be alright was seher's closeness.. his restlessness seemed to increased along with the puffs of smoke in the air… as the smoke increases to a extent in the air seher starts coughing in her sleep… agni looks at seher, he sees that seher's face has a uncomfortable look, he sees that seher's face has got a deep frown… seher continues to cough in her semi conscious state, agni then looks at the cigar in his hand & knows that it is because of this may be seher is coughing… agni immediately puts off the smoke in the cigar, he rushes to be by the side of seher… he takes the glass of water placed on the table in his hand & sits by seher… sitting by her side agni pours the water in seher's mouth, seher in her semi conscious state drinks the water, while agni keeps pouring small amounts of water in her mouth… agni then rubs seher's back.. & give seher a little more water… once seher drinks water she from her semi conscious state goes back again to sleep… agni sees that a little amount of water is flowing from the corner of seher's mouth… agni looks at seher's face which looks so innocent & pure, then he sees the water droplets at the corner of her mouth…. Agni in a very slow moment, bends down, he takes his thumb close to seher's mouth, wipes of the droplets of water in a slow moment & once he does that he places his thumb in his mouth & agni ke chehre par ek halki si muskaan aa jaathi hai, he in a very low voice says:- sweet & pure just like you.. agni sees that seher has got a smile on her face…agni thinks kii na jaane woh kaunsi baat hai which is getting a smile onto seher's face… then suddenly a thought crosses agni's mind & agni wants to test the thought or rather the theory which he feels is the reason for the smile on seher's pure & innocent face… agni for testing his theory, gets up from the bed, & stands a bit far from the bed, as soon as he does that agni observes that seher has got restless in her sleep.. he sees that seher's face is loosing the serene smile, the smile which he admired & loved so much on her face…. Agni then takes two steps closer to the bed & sees that seher's restlessness reduces, but still there is a frown on her face…. Then again agni this just stands close to the bed & this time he sees that seher's restlessness is all gone but still the frown is still there.. agni smiling to himself & patting himself mentally that his theory is being proved right, takes the last step to prove his theory to himself, he sits on the bed very, very close to seher not leaving any gap between the two of them & this is when agni's theory proves to be totally correct… as he sits beside seher agni observes that seher's face looses it's frown & there is once again a smile on her face…. Agni is happy to know that his closeness & proximity is affecting seher even in her unconscious state just like it is affecting him… agni now had more hope that may be, just may be he & seher had a chance to revive what they had lost… he believed that if his proximity & closeness was affecting seher to such a extent in her semi conscious state, then she would really feel something for him when she was awake… he was glad that he was having such effect on seher…. It kind off proved it to him that seher cared for him, she had feelings for him… & these were the thoughts that brought a big, huge smile on agni's face…. It was as though now he just wanted seher to be awake & then he wanted to set everything right, from every little thing which was messed in the past to the biggest of the mess in their pasts he wanted to set every thing alright….. agni looks at seher he gets a smile on his face thinking that his love, his wife, was so attached to him & was responding to him even in her deep sleep… agni blushes thinking that agar neend mein seher was reacting to his closeness like this then how would she react to him when she was awake….. agni kudh se kehtha hai:- chahe jaise bhii react kar lo yaar lekin please Jhansi Kii Rani bannke mere peeche matt daudna… agni imagines him running away from seher & seher running back behind him catching the kitchen sword…. This image makes agni gulp down his saliva…. He then looks at seher & says:- naah.. seher aisa kuch nahii karegi.. after all woh mujhse pyaar karthi hai…. Then in a doubtful tone agni says:- karthi hai na…. agni has a question mark kind of expression written all over his face… & agni thinks that this question will clear off from his mind only after seher replies to his queries…. He just hoped that all was not lost in his & seher's relationship…. He hoped that there was still hope in their broken relationship… agni smiles thinking that how years back he stopped himself from submitting the divorce papers.. agni thinks that he did not know what stopped him from submitting the divorce papers six years back, but today when he looks back at the situation he sees it as a hint from destiny & God, that seher cannot be removed out of his life…. & today he was glad that he did not submit the papers, because it is for that reason that even today there was a thin line of relationship between him & seher…. Agni thinks that may be if he had submitted the divorce papers then it would have been even more difficult to mend the relationship which was already broken…. But today he was happy that he & seher never really or divorced… it made agni feel that he & seher were connected at some level & this thought was bringing his mind ease & putting his minds to rest… looking at seher very intently agni starts talking with in himself…. Agni tells himself:- na jaane kismat ne humare saath pehle khel kyun khela aur na jaane humare aaj mein humari kismat humein kya rang dikhayegi.. yeh sab tho nahii jaantha hoon lekin main itna zaroor jaantha hoon kii jitna bura mere aur seher ke saath hona tha, jitna log humara bura chah sakthe the woh sab hogaya, guzar gaye woh saare kadwe pal au ab waqt hai joh ghaltiyaan humse hui hai unhein sudhaar ne ka… ab waqt hai humara aane waala kal sawaar ne ka.. ab waqt hai humare aaj ko ek saath khulkar, khushi, khushi jeene ka… zindagi mujhe aur seher ko yeh mouka de rahii hai… it is said that luck & love do not knock on one's door twice… lekin shayad main aur seher kismat waale hai kii humein humari zindagi, humari kismat humein ek saath hone ka ek aur mauka de rahii hai… love & luick are knocking at our doors the second time, giving us a second chance in life…. & this time I will make sure that we don't loose this chance.. this time around I will make sure that you & me will not loose our chance at love… main saari duniyaan ek karr doonga, if that is what you want… I will give you all the happiness, I will give our relationship the respect it deserves, I will prove it to you seher that our love is strong enough to overcome all the hurdles in the way.. main yeh baat saabit karke rahoonge seher kii humara pyaar kamzor nahii hai… haan main yeh baat maantha hoon kii kuch logon ko lagtha hai kii humara pyaar kamzor hai, haan main yeh bhi jaantha hoon kii humne pichli barr apne pyaar ka izhaar ek dusare se nahii kiya tha tho kuch logon ko mauka mil gaya humare beech ghalatfaimiyaan paida karne kii, lekin is barr main kudh se yeh waada kartha hoon kii main kissi ko bhi humare beech kabhi bhi, kissi bhi haalat mein nahii aane doonga….. is barr main woh ghaltiyaan nahii douharaoonga joh humne pichli barr kii thi… is barr main is baat ka dhyaan rakhonga kii sab kuch sahii ho, koi bhi gadbad na ho… jab humari shaadi hui thi thon a tho us baat se main khush tha aur na hii tum.. lekin is barr ab zindagi humein ek aur mauka de rahii hai tho main is baat ka dhyaan rakhoonga kii is barr humare rishthe mein koi ghalthi, koi ghalatfaimi, koi rahasya na ho… is barr main kudh se waada kartha hoon main koi bhi cheez ghalat hone nahii doonga… bhale hii tumhare khushi ke liye mujhe kudh kii khusiyon ka bali kyun na chadana pade, chahe tumhare hasi ke liye mujhe kudh kii hasi ko dabana hii kyun na pade main woh karoonga.. main is barr humare rishthe mein sab kuch sahii tareeke se karoonga… I will not let anything go wrong at any place this time in our relationship… yeh mera waada hai tumse seher…. Apne sachche pyaar se yeh waada hai mera… main harr woh namumkin koshish karoonga jisse humara yeh rishtha work karega.. agar tum humare is rishthe ko ek aur mauka nahii bhi dogi tho I will give you the time & space to decide….. lekin haan seher… [agni looks at seer's sleeping form & once again this thought process continues…] main kudh se yeh waada kartha hoon kii joh bhi humare beech kii dooriyon ke zimedaar hai, jisne bhi hum dono ko alag karne ke liye humse humara bachcha cheena, jisne bhi humara jeena mushkhil kiya, jis kissi ne bhi humse humara such, chaine, cheena main unhe nahii chodoonga… I will not leave them… agar woh log marr bhi gaye tho main phir unhe zinda karke adpa tadpa karr maroonga…. Yeh mera waada hai kudh se, yeh mera waada hai tumse aur yeh mera waada hai humare us bachche se joh in logon kii wajah se hum se chin gaya…. Agni then thinks:- tum jaanthi ho seher main tumse naraaz bhi hoon, tum sach jaanthi thi phir bhi tum ne mujhe kuch nahii bataya… agar tum wapas aathi aur mujhse saari sachchayi pehle hii bata dethi tho main kissi ko bhi humare beech ghalatfaimi paida karne ka mauka hii nahii detha.. arre pagli kyun nahii samjhi tum kii tum mere liye kabhi bhi obligation nahii ho sakthi… pyaar kartha hoon main tumse… utna pyaar jitna kissi se bhi aaj thak nahii kiya hai.. kudh se bhi zyada meri nazron mein tum mayine rakhthi ho… haan sahii suna tumne bohat pyaar kartha hoon apne golo molu, chashmish se… shayad kabhi humare khushi ke palon mein, main kabhi tumse kehh nahii paaya kitna chahtha hoon main tumhe, lekin sach tho yahii rahega kii tumse jitna pyaar hai utna tho pyaar main kudh se bhi nahii kartha… kudh se zyada mujhe tumhari parwaaj hai.. kudh se pehle mujhe tuimhari chinta hai… kudh se zyada tumhari fikar hai… aur kudh se zyada tum se mohabbat…. Agni gets up from the bed, he then kneels down near the bed, he runs his hand on seher's head, seher sighs in her sleep… while agni in a very low voice whispers to seher:- main kabhi tumse shaadi nahii karna chahtha tha, lekin humari shaadi hone ke baad maine jaana ki pyaar kya hotha hai.. main jisse pyaar samajtha tha woh tho bas mera ek vehem tha… mera pyaar, meri zindagi tho tum ho… tum mein basthi hai meri zindagi… isee achchi baat tho mere liye aur kuch bhi ho hii nahii sakthi kii tum meri ho… tum mere liye banayi gayi ho… tum meri jeevan sathi ho.. meri sangini ho…. Jaanthi ho seher mujhe is baat se behad khushi hai kii tum is jeevan kwe safar mein meri humsafar, meri humkadam meri humraahi ho…. Aur is barr main apne is saathi ka thaama hua haath nahii chodoonga… seher yeh mera tumse waada hai chahe kuch bhi ho jaaye tum mujhe apni zindagi se nikaal ne kii kitni hii kyun na koshish kar lo, chahe tum mujhse durr kyun na jaana chaho lekin is barr main himmat nahii haroonga.. main ladoonga… humare pyaar ke liye.. humare rishthe ke liye… aur agar tum mera saath dogi tho mujhe yakeen hai kii main is pyaar kii pareeksha mein bhi pass ho jaaunga… bas mujhe tumhare saath kii zaroorat hai.. sirf tumhare saath kii.. agni once again bends his forehead, slightly touches it to seher's forehead & says, I promise you this is barr sirf humara pyaar jeetega… ho sake tho mujhe maaf karr dena… main nahii jaantha kii tum kaise react karogi jab tum mujhe apne pass dekhogi, lekin is barr tum bhale hii kitne bhi hadh thak mujhe kyun na dhutkaaro, is barr main peeche nahii hattne waala, kissi bhi haal mein nahii, kissi bhi keemat par nahii…. Aur waise bhi kehthe hai na, jab sachche dil se koshish karthe hai tho harr mushkhil aasaan ho jaathi hai, is barr agar tum mujhse durr jaana bhi chahogi tho main tumhe nahii jaane doonga… na us dil se durr jaane ki ijazat doonga tumhe aur na hii tumhe mujhse durr jaane kii ijazat doonga… I will give you all the happiness in the world…. Main tum par itne hadh thak pyaar barsa doonga kii tumhe humare ateet kii ek bhi kadwi yaad, yaad nahii hogi… I will make sure life for you is happy & loved… aur main humare beech kissi bhi theesre ko aane nahi doonga.. sorry seher harr us baat ke liye joh maine tumse kahii hai, sorry seher tumhare harr us dukh liye joh meri wajah se hai, I'am really sorry for the hurt, pain, tears I have caused you… I'am sorry that it is because of me you are lying in this state.. I'am sorry for everything… ho sake tho mujhe maaf karr dena.. main kabhi kudh ko baaf karr paaunga ya nahii yeh tho main ahii jaantha, lekin haan itna zaroor jaantha hoon kii main chahtha hoon kii tum mujhse maaf kar do… shayad kudh kii guilt ke saath mein jaise taise karke jee bhi saktha hoon, lekin agar tum mujhe maaf nahii karogi na seher tho main marr jaaunga…. Please seher ho sake tho mujhe maaf kar dena, meri harr us ghalthi ke liye joh maine jaane anjaane mein kii… I'am really sorry seher.. I know I do not deserve a person like you, I know that you deserve someone who is way far better than me, but I just cannot live without you.. isse chahe tum mera pyaar kaho, ya meri majboori, ya phir meri aadat lekin tumhare bina jeena maut ke barabarr hogi… aur tumse durr main ab aur nahii reh saktha…. Ho sake tho mujhe maaf kardena seher….. agni looks at seher's sleeping form, agni ke aankhon mein name hothi hai.. he bends down his head while still being on his knee, he brushes his lips at the corner of seher's mouth… the smile & relaxed deeling on seher's face seems to double as agni does that… agni then gets up, sits on the bed once again, he leans back on the bed post…. Takes seher's hand in his in a very light moment & keeps stting there holding seher's hand, though in a very light grip, agni is holding seher lightly as he did not want seher's wound to pain…. But though the hold of agni on seher's hand is as light as a feather touch, the hold agni has on seher's hand shows to what extent he is protective of her… the slight holds itself proves agni's determination that he will never let anyone harm seher neither will he let anyone to create differences between the two of them once again…. Agni keeps sitting there in silence.. jab uski nazar bed parr pade seher ke cell phone pe jaathi hai… he sees that the cell phone is placed on te side table & he observes that the cell phones keeps blinking again & again giving a notification… agni takes seher's cell phone in his hand to check what is it… when agni takes it, he sees that the cell phone is recording something… agni then stops the record button he plays it.. & to his surprise he hears seher's voice:- vaashu…. Shayad yeh aakhri barr hai jab main tumse baat karr rahii hoon… yun kahoongi tho theek hoga kii shayad yeh aakhri barr hai jab tum meri awaaz sunn rahe ho…. Vaashu aaj humare beech joh bhi hua mujhe usse is baat ka yakeen ho chala hai ki tumhari zindagi mein meri koi emiyath nahii… main aaj wohii karne jaa rahii hon jaisa tum hamesha se chahthe the… yes sahii sunna tumne main aaj tumse durr jaane waali hoon…. Durr nahii bohat durr jaane waali hoon tumse, shayad itna durr kii agar tum mujhe wapas bulana chaho tab bhi tumhari awaaz mujh thak na pohanche…. Yes today I have finally decided to go by your advice & end my life… tumhe patah hai tum sahii kehthe ho main kuch bhi deserve nahii karthi, na tumhara pyaar, na ek proper family…. I do not deserve anything at all.. after all itni buri joh hoon main… lekin vaashu before I go & die somewhere like you said, main tumse kuch baatein kehna chahthi hoon.. shayad phir kabhi yeh mauka hii na aaye…. I hope tum yeh recording sunoge aur agar tum yeh recording nahii sunoge tho bas meri tarah is recording kii kismat bhi dhuiri reh jaayegi…. Vaashu tum mujhse nafrat karthe ho na kii tumhara pariwaar mujhse pyaar kartha hai, tum mujhse nafrat karthe ho na kyunke tumhare pariwaar ne tumhara saath chodkarr mera saath diya, main jaanthi hoon vaashu how it feels when your family does not love you, I know how it feels when your family does not value you, I know how it feels when in the eyes of your family you turn non existent… mera so called pariwaar jahaan mere dad, meri mom aur behen hai, lekin woh mera pariwaar sahii maayino mein kabhi nahii bann paaya, kyunke unke nazron mein meri koi value hii nahii thi, I was nothing for them, this was the truth & I accepted it… you know sometimes I feel I'am lucky that mujhe woh pyaar, woh apnapann tumhare pariwaar mein mila.. bachpann se hii I never realized when your family became mine & I became a part of your family… lekin meri baat ka yakeen maano vaashu maine kabhi tumhare pariwaar mein tumhari jagah lene kii koshish nahii kii… main bhi tumhare us pariwaar mein apne liye alag se jagah banana chahthi thi.. aur maine banayi bhi, lekin tumhe laga that I was replacing you… but that was not the case… mere naye pariwaar ka hissa um bhi the, jaise bhi the tumhare bina mera pariwaar hamesha adhura hii rehtha tha.. shayad kabhi mumma aur paa ne mujhse zyada pyaar jataya ho jis wajah se tumhe laga ho that I'am replacing you, but let me assure you vaashu that it is not true… haan shayad un logon ne mujh par zyada pyaar zaahir kiya, main sochthi hoon kii iski wajah shayad yeh hogi kii woh log nahii chahthe the kii mai kabhi bhi akela feel karoon… jab mumma aur paa ne yeh dekha kii mujhe mere pariwaar se pyaar nahii mill raha hai tho they just tried to compensate… yeh baat alag hai kii mujhe hamesha yeh baat chubthi thi kii mera pariwaar meri qadar nahii kartha, mere pariwaar ke nazron mein, main koi maayine nahii rakhthi, is baat ka ehsaas mujhe tab hotha tha jab tum bachpann mein apne pariwaar pe haq jamathe the aur tumhare us pariwaar mein, main kahiin nahii thi… tumhare pariwaar mein main fit nahi hothi thi aur mera pariwaar tumhare bina hamesha se adhura hii reh jaatha tha.. mera pariwaar hamesha se adhura raha hai, na hum kabhi dost bann paaye aur na hii hum kabhi ek dusare ke dil kii baat ko, ek dusare ke pyaar ko samaj paaye.. tum jaanthe ho vaashu jab humari shaadi hui thi tho mujhe mera yeh adhura pariwaar poora hothe hue dikhayi de raha tha.. I was starting to feel that yes there is a chance that my family will be complete, because now you had become a part of me, my husband… lekin main yeh baat tho bhool hii gayi thi kii I do not deserve a family… it was as though my fate was mocking at me for believing that my family could be complete… the fate mocked & my family was once again left incomplete when you walked away more than six years back…. Even today my life & my family is incomplete without you… when I got to know the truth that my so called family was the root cause of all the misunderstanding between the two of us then I thought I had another chance to complete my incomplete family but again I was proved wrong today & today I have decided to end my life just as you said & leave behind the dream of my complete family.. lekin shayad mere kismat mein kabhi mere pariwaar ka poora hona likha hii nahii tha.. us wajah se hii tho zindagi ne mujhe kitni saare mauka diya to make my incomplete family complete, but as & when life gave me oppurtunities it also mocked at me & took those chances away… & now after all the things which has been said & done between the wo of us I do not think ab agge koi bhi umeed baaki rehthi hai… I don't think umeed rehni bhii chahiye… tum jaanthe ho vaashu, ek baat main tumse sachchi, sachchi kahoon, tum kissi se kahoge tho nahii na… mujhse aur bardhast nahii hotha vaashu.. mujhe bhi dard hotha hai, takleef hothi hai… shayad avinash gujral sahi hi kehthe hai main manhoos hoon… dekho na main na kudh ko koi khushi de paayi na mujhse jude rishthon ko… vaashu tum jaanthe ho maine kayi barr mumma, muski, prerna dii, jijzz se yeh kehne kii koshish kii kii woh log meri wajah se tumse rishtha na thode, maine unse kaha kii woh tumse theek se baat kare, bilkul pehle kii tarah… lekin woh kabhi meri baat nahi mane… believe me when I say it, there was nothing I could do… mujhe kabhi kabhi lagtha hai kii your family supported me because may be they sympathized with me…. Aur kya wajah ho sakthi hai sympathy na hai tho, after all tumhare hisaab se tho I do not deserve love & care at all right… so may be it was sympathy… lekin vaashu sach yahii hai aur yahii rahega kii main kabhi nahii chahthi thi kii tumhare aur tumhare pariwaar ke beech mein koi bhi differences aaye… woh bhi meri wajah se tho kabhi bhi nahii… kyunke main jaanthi hoon agar kudh ka pariwaar mooh modhle tho zindagi kaise ho jaathi hai…. I never wanted that for you… main tho chathi thi kii meri life adhuri nahii complete ho, aur meri life complete sirf tumhare saath ho sakthi thi… lekin aisa na kabhi ho paaya tha aur na kabhi ho paayega… shayad yehii adhurapann meri kismat hai… tum jaanthe ho vaashu kabhi kabhi mujhe aisa lagtha hai kii issi zindagi ke adhurepann ke saath jeena meri sazaa thi aur aaj apni jaan dethe waqt bhi yehii adhurapann hai joh mujh mein hai.. yeh adhurapann na tho mujhe jeene detha hai na chaine se marrne… shayad yehii meri sazaa hai… mujhe lagtha hai kii tum hamesha se sahii the, I do not deserve love & care.. main shayad unke laayak hii nahii.. bas ek main hii is baat ko samaj nahi paayi aur koshish karthi rahi apne zindagi se ladthi rahii taaki kabhi na kabhi main apne family ke adhurepann ko durr karr sakoon, main koshish karthi rahii kii apni family ko poora karr sakoon, lekin afsos aisa kabhi ho hii nahii paaya…. & now if you are listening to this then may be that I would not even be breathing, sach kahoon tho ab mujh mein jeene kii aas nahii hai… so I have just decided to take up your advice & end my life.. shayad yehii achcha hoga… tumhare liye, tumhare pariwaar ke liye… mere apno ke liye, opps.. sorry main tho bhool hii gayi mere koi apne nahii hai jinhe main apna maanthi hoon woh tho tumhara pariwaar hai aur tumhare hisaab se tho tumhare pariwaar ka main kabhi bhi hissa nah ii thi aur na kabhi banoongi… may be now I have come to accept this fact that I have no family… main jaanthi hoon kii agar mumma, muski, dii, jijzz meri yeh baatein sunenge tho unhe bohat bura lagega, main yeh bhi jaanthi hoon kii woh log mujhse behad pyaar karthe hai, lekin vaashu tum unse keh dena kii main unke pyaar ke kaabil nahi.. unse sorry bhi keh dena, kyunke main jaanthi hoon joh main karne jaa rahii hoon usse unhe bohat dukh pohanchega…. Tum please unhe samjha dena kii main joh kar rahi hoon sabke bhale ke liye hii karr rahi hoon… it is better I end my life instead of being around & causing pain to every one around me… vaashu main jaanthi hoon shayad ab bhi umhe meri baaton par yakeen na ho, shayad tumhe ab bhi yehii lage kii main jhoot bol rahii hoon lekin vaashu sach yehii rahega kii mera pariwaar tumhare bina adhura tha, hai aur hamesha rahega… maine jab se pyaar ko jaanna hai, jab se pyaar ko mehsoos kiya hai tab se lekar aaj thak mere liye pyaar ka doosra naam sirf tum the.. mere liye mohabbat ka doosra naam, doosra roop tum the… ek tumhare alawa kissi se bhi na aaj thak pyaar hua tha, na mohabbat hui hai… bas mere liye tum hii meri mohabbat, mera pyaar, meri ibadat aur meri zindagi ho, the aur hamesha rahoge… lekin ab tho meri zindagi bhi baaki nahii rahii tho shayad zindagi ke baad bhi aur koi zindagi hai tho tum hii mera pyaar rahoge.. is baat ko lekar kabhi bhi dil mein koi aashnanka matt rakhna, meri zindagi mein tumhare alawa na koi tha, na koi hai, na kabhi koi reh saktha tha agar meri zindagi baaki reh gayi tho.. vaashu I really, really love you… I have always loved you… all my life I have loved only one person & that is you…. Bas jab dil ko tumse pyaar hua phir dil ko kabhi kissi aur se pyaar karne kii chah hii nahii utti… tumse pyaar hua tho maano jaise zindagi mil gayi… aur zindagi itni haseen kabhi nahii lagi… tum mujhe apna pariwaar ka hissa maano ya maano lekin mere liye tum mera pariwaar ho… the family which I have is because of you, my family, my life revolves only around you… tumhari wajah se main ek rishthe mein bhandhi, mujhe rishthe mile tumhare pariwaar mein, warna tho zindagi mein koi rishtha aisa na tha jiske dum par main jeethi ya muskurathi… thanku vaashu… tumhari wajah se mujhe chand rishthe tho mile.. I sometimes feel lucky that I know you & I was a part of your life… while I'am glad I'am sure you are not glad.. tum shayad us pal ko bhi khos rahe hoge jab main paida hui, sach kahoon tho shayad main bhi us pal ko khos rahii hoon when I was born, kabhi kabhi tho sochthi hoon that life would have been better if I was never born…. Aur ussi wajah se shayad aaj jab maine soch liya hai to end my life ek sukoon se mehsoos karr rahii hoon… dil mein is baat kii tasalli tho hai kii kabhi na kabhi tumne bhi mujhse pyaar kiya… aur yehii kaafi hai mere liye.. aura b issi sukoon se saath main apni jaan bhi dena cahthi hoon… so vaashu sorry for all the trouble I have given you in your life…. Mujhe lagtha hai abhi tumhe apne family ke saath wapas pehle jaise relations qayam karr lena chahiye bejhijhak kyunke ab tho main nahii hoon na tum sab ke beech… so you can go back to your family… aur ab tho main bhi nahii rahoongi tumhara haq cheen ne ke liye…. So just mend all the differences with your family vaashu.. is baat se mujhe behad khushi hogi… aur haan vaashu agar tumhe ab bhi yakeen nahii hai kii main tumse pyaar karthi hoon tho main kuch nahii karr sakthi… bas itna hii kehna chahoongi tumse that I truly love you… I have never loved anyone else but you.. I thought you should know it as I feel you deserve to know it…. For me your name & the word love were synonyms all my life… I really love you vaashu… shayad ab kabhi tumse yeh baat nahii keh paaungi lekin sach yahii rahega…. Aur haan meri baat maano mere jaane ke baad, tumhe tho hamesha ke liye mujhse chutkaara mil jaayega tho tum kissi aur ladki se pyaar karna aur shaadi kar lena…. It is better you move on… I have found my peace in life… my peace has been found in my death… I hope you move on in your life & find your peace.. haan tum soch rahe hoge kii Thank God, bhala chutti…. So fine be it… you have a very good life without me…. Kyunke is barr agar mujh mein thodi sib hi jaan bach gayi na tab bhi main tumhara aur mera future saath mein nahii dekhthi hoon… & to tell you the truth I wish I die… I do not want to live…. Lekin tum tho yeh baat jaanthe hii ho na kii meri kismat kitni khaaraab hai, kabhi bhi woh nahii hotha joh main chahthi hoon so even if I'am alive consider we are over… kyunke jaise maine pehle bhi kaha ab mujhse aur bardhast nahii hotha aur main aur bardhast karna bhii nahii chahthi… chalo vaashu or should I say Mr. Agni Vashist Garewal, ab zindagi baaki rahii ya na rahii but we are over… humare liye agge koi bhi umeed nahii hai… so goodbye… have a good life… aur haan ek yaad yaad rakhna I do not blame you for my suicide…. Even this is my fault kyunke main zindagi mein nakamiyaab hui hoon… I have proved to be a failure so remember you are not at fauilt.. anyway now you enjoy your life… I wish you all the luck & all the happiness… joh khushiyaan main tumhe nahii de paayi I hope you get the happiness else where & find true love which will last a life time…. You take care.. it was nice knowing you… bye my dear vaashu…. Oppsss sorryyy not vaashu… bye Agni Vashist Garewal, have a good life…
(For those members who are confused as when seher recorded this message, while this was just before seher cut her wrist & hand, after agni uttered the words off go & die some where to seher.. I hope this clears of your confusion..)

The message goes blank…. & the recording stops…. While here agni keeps staring at the phone in his hand… with every word that seher has spoken his heart has died a thousand deaths, he keeps looking at the phone with a blank expression in his eyes.. it was like ab usse dard ka ehsaas bhii nahii hotha.. hearing to seher's talks agni further realizes that what he has put seher through…. He realizes to what extent his words have affected, harmed, pained & hurt seher… agni starts to feel all the more guilty, maano jaise ab seher kii baatein sunnne ke baad agni ko samaj mein hii nahii aa raha ho kii aakhir woh kare tho kya kare… agni ko seher kii kahii hui baatein barr, barr yaad aa rahi hothi hai… he realizes that seher kii baaton mein meethas nahii balki kadwapann chupa hua hai & agni further realizes that it is because of him & his words that have caused seher to be so bitter towards her own life… aur yeh ek aur wajah thi jiske liye agni kudh ko maaf nahii karr paa raha tha…. He thinks about the recorded message where seher reffered to him as Agni Vashist Garewal, agni realizes that in the whole recorded message she called his full name twice & now when he thought about it, that small thing stung his heart… he realized it now that he liked being called vaashu… it was her name for him & he really did not like her calling him his full name, Agni Vashist Garewal… it made him feel like a outsider in his own life…. Agni looks at seher…. He keeps a hand on seher's forehead & he says:- main hamesha tumhare liye vaashu hii rahoonga… tum bhale hii mujhse naatha thodna chaho, par main apne dil se kabhi tumhe nikaal nahii paaunga… agni thinks about what seher said, where she said even if she was alive consider their relationship to be over.. he thinks about what seher said, that you & me are over… is baat se agni ko aur bhi zyada takleef ho rahii thi… the words we are over, was what troubling agni again & again… after listening to seher's thoughts of how they are over, kaise usse ab aur bardhast nahii hotha, agni ko apni zindagi aur dhundli si nazar aa rahii thi… agni in a very slow moment, places his hand on seher's stomach & then in a very low voice says:- sorry baby…. Mujhe patah nahii tha… I lost you even before I knew you… baby agar aap aaj hothe tho aap mujhse bohat naraaz hothe na kyunke maine aapki mumma ke saath theek nahii kiya… main jaantha hoon baby, maine joh tumhare saath kiya, aap ki mumma ke saath kiya woh ghalat tha… I was not being fair… lekin baby mujhe kabhi patah hii nahii tha… agar mujhe tumhari mumma ke pyaar ka ehsaas hotha, agar mujhe tumhare hone ka ehsaas hotha tho main saari duniyaan ek karr detha aur tum dono ke kadmo mein duniyaan kii saari khushiyaan nyochaavarr karr detha… saari duniyaan se lad jaatha tum dono ko protect karne ke liye… but I never knew… [from the corner of his eyes, a tear rolls down agni's cheeks & agni continues talking…] baby aap ko tho main bohat pehle khoo chukka hoon & I could not even mourn your loss… lekin ab main tumhari mumma ko nahii khoo na chahtha hoon.. tumhari mumma meri zindagi hai baby… aapko tho maine khoo diya, lekin agar tumhari mumma ko bhii khoo doonga tho shayad main jee nahii paaunga… please baby, aap apni mumma ko yeh baat samjhaoge na…. I'am really sorry…. I will make up for all my mistakes… aur haan yeh mera tumse waada hai baby, avinash gujral, rewa gujral ko main chodoonga nahii.. jisne humari khushiyaan cheen lii main unhe aisi sazaa doonga kii woh na tho chaine se jee sakenge aur na marr sakenge… this is my promise baby… I swear on my de..[agni hesitates & continues] my dead child, I will seek revenge, I will not let them walk away scott free.. aur haan baby bhale hii aap aaj humare saath na ho lekin aap humare saath humare dil mein hamesha zinda rahoge.. I love you my baby… agni bends his heads down & kisses seher on the stomach….. he then looks at seher & says:- meri zindagi, mera pariwaar tumhare bina utna hii adhura hai jitna kii tumhari zindagi aur tumhara pariwaar hai… I need you in my life seher…. Mujhe tumhari utni hii zaroorat hai jitni tumhe meri hai… this is a promise seher I will set everything right… I will not let anyone mess our relationship this time around… aur haan seher we are not over, because I will be there where you will be… I will never let go the second chance life is giving me… I have messed up quite a number of times in life, this time around I would not do it… I will not let you walk away… main tum parr itna pyaar nyochaavarr karoonga kii tum humare ateet kii harr kadwii yaad ko bhool jaaogi…. I will make this this time around that everything is in place, in order just like a couple in love, a happily married couple… I will make sure you get your share of happiness… we are not over seher… we were not over in the past… we are not over in the present, neither we will be over in the present, I promise you that…where ever you go I will follow, because you are my heaven, you are my earth, you are my family, you are my life & you are my world…. Agni looks at seher & gives a small smile… agni sighs, continues to stare at seher's sleeping form quiet intently….

Songs In The Background:-

"Arzz Hai Ek Daastaan….
[agni thinks about how his life has gone through various amounts of up's & down's.. & he thinks that his & seher's life is no less than a roller coaster ride…. Agni then thinks that more than up's in their life they have faced the down's… agni's thoughts start revolving around the happenings of his past…]
Iski Hai Na Koyi Zubaan..
[agni thinks that how true it is that even if he wants to express his pasts in words, the words would not leave his mouth, or rather the words would not come out of his mouth… agni feels as though when ever he thinks of his past he goes totally numb… aur uske zubaan se koi baat nahii nikalthi hai….]
Sunte The Hum Lekin Magar….
[agni thinks of how just because certain truths have come out, his life has changed drastically.. & for him all of this was surely a bit confusing & also over whelming at the same time & the reason for this was mainly that all the truth has come out so suddenly & all he can do is accept it & move on in his life, instead of brooding over the truth of the past…..]
Likhne Waale Ka Hai Na Patah….
[agni thinks about how in the pasts he always took seher for granted, he thinks about the time when he & seher got married…. Then again he thinks about the time when he & seher started getting adjusted to their married life & how they started liking each other… then agni thinks that it is his destiny which played such games with him & it was his destiny & fate which brought seher in his life, made him ealize her importance & then it was the same destiny which turned sides & separated the two of them & the destiny played it's role… agni looks up & thinks that may be all of this was just written.. agni smiles sarcastically thinking that, destiny tho has played it's role, but still no one knows who actually writes them..]
Hai Kahaani Aisi Meri….
[agni closes his eyes & thinks about his life… it was like he was reflecting back on his life… thinking kii uski zindagi mein kya achcha hua aur kya bura… while thinking all of this, jab bhi agni reflects back on him & seher, it was only giving rise to happy thoughts & happy feelings in his mind… this made agni's mood a bit happier considering the given situation, in which he found himself in.. & this happy feeling made agni think positively & he had a feeling that every thing was going to be alright… agni thinks that this time even their destiny, that is his & seher's destiny also cannot go against them…. ]
Hai Aazaadi Is Mein Meri...
[agni thinks that how the truth has come out suddenly in front of him, after so many years & he thinks that now that the truth has come out he is free… yes that was the truth, with the truth of the past being revealed agni felt free, more relaxed & calm then he had ever felt in these six years… it was as though with the truth coming out agni's mind, heart & soul were put at ease…]
Le Chalo Mujhe Jannat Wahaan…
[agni thinks of how his whole life & how his whole purpose of existence revolves only around seher… he thinks how seher jaane, anjaane mein hii sahii has made a place so strong for herself in his heart, that today he cannot even imagine a second of his life without the mere name of seher in it… agni thinks about how his world revolves around seher.. he also thinks that may be earlier when before knowing the truth he did not want seher's presence in his heart, mind& soul, but he never could dicard seher out… agni thinks of how in these six years after getting separated from seher still he could not hate her though he wanted to, he could not forget her though he wished too… agni smiles thinking that whether it was the past, the present or the future but seher would always be a part of his life & his existence... & this thought brought a big smile on agni's face…. He looks at seher & thinks that may be this is what is called fate & destiny..]
Toh Aawaaz Pukaaro Mujhe Ye, Ye, Yeh…. Yahaan...
[agni imagines that seher is awake… his imaginations goes where seher is fit & fine & she is with him in the Utpal Villa.. agni imagines that seher is with him in his room, in the hall with hiks friends, in the kitchen showing him the belan, when he tries to romance her there… he thinks seher is walking around the villa as a member of the family having a serene smile on her face… agni thinks that he is coming home late one night & seher is waiting up for him… he thinks that he is hiding some where in the house while seher is calling out his name searching for him… & suddenly he imagines that he is hugging seher fom behind, startling her… he imagines that rootna, manana, followed by romance between any normal couple between him & seher… agni comes out of his imagination & wonders that life would be beautiful & blissful if his dreams turn a reality… he gets a smile on his face thinking about his imagination..]
Le Chalo Mujhe Jannat Wahaan….
[agni thinks that agar seher ne uska saath de diya tho it will be heaven on earth for him… & he thinks that he wants nothing more than seher & he getting back together.. & being in love, happily married…. Agni wishes with all his heart that this becomes possible & he wishes that seher gives him a second chance….]
Toh Aawaaz Pukaaro Mujhe, Ye, Ye, Yeh… Yahaan...
[in her sleep seher catches hold of agni's hand… agni comes out of his thoughts, he sees his hand which seher has clutched… he thinks that may be seher holding his hand is the hint from destiny, hint from their fate that there is still hope for their relationship, which was lost during all these years…]
Kuchh Hi Lafzon Mein Mera Jahaan….
[agni thinks of how apt it would be to summarize his life… in just a few words he can do it… & he thinks he would use the words like love, trust, betrayal, coming together, falling, apart, misunderstanding, truth & again coming together, this was what his life was all about… these were the thoughts running on his mind.. agni thinks that though these are the only words to summarize his life but still he has gone through the whole phase in life.. though now those words only seem to be words but all that, uski apni zindagi mein us par beeti hai… agni thinks that shayad lafz ka mahatav ussi ko patah chaltha hai who has actually gone through that phase whether it love, betrayal or misunderstanding…. Only those who go through it know life's value…]
Saamne Hai Jaisa Hua…
[agni feels that everything seems to have happened in his & seher's life only yesterday… he has thoughts about his & seher's life from their childhood, some thoughts getting a smile on his face, while some thoughts getting a feeling of guilt on his face, while some getting a frown, while some getting a very relaxed feeling… he thinks that how time has passed so quickly & he had not even realized it… agni smiles & thinks that may be it is true when people say that time & tide wait for none & also that time fly's…. agni thinks kii kal hii kii baat lagthi hai when he & seher got married then got separated, but no he also knew it very well that it has been more than six years for that time & he also know that now destiny & time have brought back seher in his life.. he just sees his hand which seher is still holding, he increases his grip on the hand, just to make sure that seher was really beside him….]
Ab Kisi Se Na Kuchh Hai Chhupa…
[agni thinks that how suddenly the truth has come out, all of a sudden life for him & seher seems to be clearer then ever…. He thinks of how the secrets of the pasts have come out, with total force & no one could even stop the truth from being revealed… agni thinks that it is said that secrets cannot be hidden forever & the secret of the past coming out proved that too him… he thinks that the secret of his & seher's life, completed it's life in their destiny & fate wanted the truth to be out one way or the other…. He shudders at the thought that if he had not known the truth forever, if seher had not come to know the truth, then how would life have been for both of them, miserable… whatever it was, however the truth came out agni is glad that the truth unveiled itself in the course of harsh realities…]
Syaahi Ke Chaadar Par Hai Nishaan…
[agni thinks that though the truth has come out now, yes he is thankful to his fate, to his destiny, to God that the truth is finally out & he is glad that there will be no bitterness between him & seher at least where their past is concerned, but still agni feels that the truth has taken a long time to reveal itself, he thinks that in between the time of the misunderstanding & the truth revealing itself, life was very painful for him & for seher… yes the truth has come out before it was late, but the thought agni had in his mind was that has the truth come out before everything was lost, has the truth come out really before it was too late, agni looks at seher, then sees her bandaged hand & wonders yes the truth has come out but at what cost… agni some where in his heart & mind knows it very well that though the truth has come out, it has still left many, umpteen scars & wounds behind… now with the truth coming out the question was whether the scars, wounds, hurt, pain, tears of the past would heal… agni thinks that people say time is the best medicine to heal scars, but the question agni asked himself again & again was that would time be the best medicine for the wounds he & seher had suffered… though the truth was out will life be normal anytime again… would the scars of past fade away with time or would they act as a hindrance for their, his & seher's today & for their coming future.. the scars were there in their life of yesterday, but what troubled agni the most was whether these scars will start hovering & shadow their today & tomorrow… agni bas issi baat ka jawaab dhoond ne lagtha hai, by brooding about it…]
Hai Kahaani Aisi Meri…
[agni thinks of how his life became a joke for others… he thinks of how his & seher's life was made a joke & he thinks of how they both were left stranded in life… like alone in the chaos of the crowd… agni thinks about the Gujral's & how they made a sick joke of his & seher's relationship & life.. he gets angry on them, because they have made agni & seher nothing but mere puppets in their hands, & they manipulated them, twisted & turned them how ever they wished too… agni ko kudh par aur bhi zyada ghusa aa raha tha kii he gave those people the opportunity to ruin his & seher happiness & chance at life… agni thinking about the Gujral's also thinks on the lines of how they can be so mean to their own blood seher… agni ko Gujral's se pehle se zyada nafrat ho rahii thi as they put seher through so much of pain & misery…]
Hai Aazaadi Is Mein Meri….
[agni thinks that, now that the truth is out, he does not cary any hatred for his past.. yes he hates people who have caused him & seher pain, but e does not hate his life anymore.. he does not hate anymore… all these years he harbored ill feelings for seher in his heart because he thought that seher did not love him & she betrayed him, but now with the coming out of the truth, that harbored feeling of hatred against seher some where in his heart has vanished… & he does not hate seher even a wee bit… this thought made agni happy..]
Le Chalo Mujhe Jannat Wahaan….
Toh Aawaaz Pukaaro Mujhe, Ye, Ye, Yeh… Yahaan...
Le Chalo Mujhe Jannat Wahaan….
Toh Aawaaz Pukaaro Mujhe, Ye, Ye, Yeh… Yahaan...
[agni thinks that now seher is his life.. & he would do anything, when he says anything he means any thing in this world to make sure that seher receives the happiness, love & care which she was deprived off… agni kudh se yeh waada kartha hai kii ab agge se kabhi bhi he will never let seher's perfect family incomplete… agni vows to himself kii woh seher ke adhure pariwaar ko poora karega… he will give seher the place of his love, his wife & his life on his life… he thinks that now is a new beginning in his life & he promises himself that seher will have more right on his life, even more than he has.. he promises himself that from now on come what may seher will be his priority…]
Marrz Hai Aisa Yahaan…
[agni's thoughts again go back & he starts brooding about the scars the past has left behind on him & seher… he thinks that he does not even know whether they will heal any time or no… he is angry that because some people could not see them together they played tricks on them & gave them wounds which never may be healed in this life time… agni is feeling helpless thinking about the past, he is feeling helpless thinking about the scars the past has left on their life of today… he is helpless seeing seher in the state she was in, in front of his eyes.. & this helplessness was slowly turning into anger against the people who have done wrong…]
Jiski Hai Na Koyi Dawaa…
[agni thinks that would the scars of the past ever heal… would the scars ever let them have a happy today & happy tomorrow together… agni broods over the fact that whether he & seher would be able to look ahead in their life forgetting the scars the past has left behind.. agni was hoping that this would happen… agni than thinks that love cures all, he thinks that love has so much strength to heal & now agni just hopes that uske aur seher ke pyaar mein itni taakat ho that woh apne ateet ke harr diye hue chot se bahar ubhar paaye…. He thinks that may be their love will teach them to over look the scars of the past & will help them build a new life together..]
Hota Na Ab Koyi Asar….
[agni thinks that usko aur seher ko itni saari takleefon se guzar na pada hai, itni saari chot khaayi hai dono ne kii ab sab kuch bemayine lagtha hai… he feels that every thing is meaningless… yes with the truth coming out it has surely paved way for both of them to start a new life but right now the coming out of truth also feels meaningless… because of the fact that seher tried to end her life… agni feels some what numb in his heart… his heart was going haywire with the emotions running on a high..]
Ab Toh Main Aur Mera Kaarwaan….
[agni's thoughts go back to the recording of seher… seher kii kahii huii baat that consider they are over usse yaad aathi hai.. & now agni wonders he does not know where his life is headed too after all the things said & done… agni thinks about how seher said that she wishes she does not survive, this things pricks agni… & he tells himself agar seher ko kuch hogaya na jaana how he would survive…. He thinks that ab na jaane zindagi agge chalkarr usse aur kaunsa rang dikhayegi, usse kaunsa naya khel dikhayegi…. He just thinks that he hopes that life does not take a drastic 'U' turn on him once again & separate him from seher.. he really did not want such a life now… meither could he now imagine his life like that…. The thought of living without seher after getting to know the truth was scaring him… he smiles grueling over the fact that na jaane how he survived so many years without seher...]
Hai Kahaani Aisi Meri….
Hai Aazaadi Is Mein Meri...
[agni thinks that yes this was his life, he cannot deny what has happened in his past, neither could he shut his past… because whatever it was the truth remained that it was his life & his past was a part of his life… he knew very well that he cannot set himself apart from the past without setting things which went wrong in the past right…. He knew this time around he had to take the initiative to set things right & this was because he knew seher had tried earlier to savage their relationship, every single time…. But this time agni knew that even if seher tries to go away from him he should prove it to seher that it is worth it… the fight, struggle is worth if not for anything then for their love, for their happiness for their future which had the key for them to be together… & thisd time agni is determind & no one can dare to break his resolve… itna bharosa tha agni ko apne pyaar parr… & he knew that their love had the power to over come all the hurdles & this time around he just had to prove it & in turn prove it to everyone that they are meant to be together…]
Le Chalo Mujhe Jannat Wahaan…
Toh Aawaaz Pukaaro Mujhe, Ye, Ye, Yeh… Yahaan...
Le Chalo Mujhe Jannat Wahaan….
Toh Aawaaz Pukaaro Mujhe, Ye, Ye, Yeh…
Le Chalo Mujhe Jannat Wahaan….
Toh Aawaaz Pukaaro Mujhe, Ye, Ye, Yeh… Yahaan...
Le Chalo Mujhe Jannat Wahaan ..
Toh Aawaaz Pukaaro Mujhe, Ye, Ye, Yeh… Yeh Kahaan..."
[agni with a whole new amount of confidence, strength & will power decides that come what may he will win his love… the love where his heart resides.. agni has a new found determination running in his mind, heart, body & soul which no one can deter… he thinks that their love is what keeps bringing them together & even this time he has full faith in his love that nothing can go wrong & in the end only their love & their relationship will emerge out victorious…. Thinking on these ines puts the restlessness in agni's heart & mind to rest to a great extent….]

[Courtesy: Movie: Soundtrack]

***Continued In The Below Post***

Edited by Surya.Ravi - 14 years ago

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Agni is far more relaxed now.. after all the thought process running in his head… he seems to smile a little more… agni then looks at seher & he says:- ab seher utto bhi.. kitna soyehi meri pyaari golu, molu chashmish…utt karr mujhse ladayi karr… mujhe chaped marr lekin yun sothi tho matt raho… uttooo yaar….. agni tells all this in a very cute & sweet manner… now seeing that seher is not going to awake any time soon…. Agni just decides to lean back on the bed post & admire his wife puritiy, innocence & the calm appearing on her face… & agni does just what he thought, he leans back on the bed post & starts looking at seher eyes with love & care.. but there is also a sense of longing in his eye, which shows that all now now agni wants is for seher to be awake… agni ko agar seher uthkar daantegi ya dhit kaaregi still agni feels he would have no problem with it.. agni keeps telling seher's sleeping form from time to time to be awake fight with him, hit him, cry on his shoulder, or just look at him, but it seemed like seher was in no mood of getting yp, she lay deep in her sleep, just that her smile kept increasing in her sleeping… & some times when agni was close to her even her heart rate seemed to increase aur yeh baat agni bhi mehsoos karrtha hai… looking at seher & lost in his own world of whirlwind of thought even agni gets tired, the day's events take a toll on him & agni just closes his eyes & dozes off to sleep… & gets lost in his dream world, where he imagines living a happily ever after life with seher… & this dream also brings a look of contentment & happiness on agni's face while in his sleep…. The point which was adding more to his face's contentment & happiness apart from the dream was that seher was close to him… agni sleeps thinking about a brighter & happier tomorrow where there is nothing but happiness & togetherness for him & seher….
Dekhthe hii dekhthe time passes by & now it is almost close to mid night.. agni is still leaning on the bed post & sleeping… while even seher is asleep, in her sleep seher has cuddled herself close to agni's lap & in his sleep agni has placed a hand on seher's hand… they both seemed peaceful in their sleep… during dinner time prachi had come up to call agni for dinner but opening the door to the room & seeing that agni is asleep prachi decides not to disturb him as she knows that it has been a hard day through out for him… so prachi goes back down informs everyone then all of them have their dinner.. after dinner when prachi, muskaan, damini, milind, maan & milind settle down with a cup of hot steaming coffee in their hands, agni's friends ask muskaan all about agni & seher's life from their childhood.. with a sleeping sneha on her lap muskaan relates to everything that is related to seher & agni's life… from the minutest detail to the biggest one… agni's friends, milind, prithvi, prachi & damini all they can think off is life was unfair to agni & seher.. & they also realize that they were not fair to seher when seher tried to tell them the truth… agni's four friends have only one thought running in their heads & that is they will make up for their mistake & apologize to seher.. now coming back to the time of mid night…. It was around three in the mid night… & that is when seher who is in her sleep starts getting restless first & then slowly very groggily opens her eyes, as seher opens her eyes, first she moves a bit trying to see where exactly it is & what time of the day it exactly sees… seher sees outside the window & she sees that it is dark outside, seher has a bad headache she wonders as to for how much time has she been asleep… seher tries to move her bandaged when still in a wee bit of sleep & that is when seher feels the immense amount of pain in her bandaged hand & seher looks down at her hand, she sees that her hand is bandaged, still lost in a bit of sleep seher wonders as too why her hand in bandaged… with these thoughts running in her mind, seher closes her eyes once again unable to keep her eyes open due to the sleeping injection… but as soon as seher closes her eyes the events of tha day come back to her… seher has flashes of the article about her & agni in the papers, she then has flashes of agni shouting at her, slapping her, she gets flashes of agni telling her that she is not fit to be alive, she gets flashes of agni telling her to go & die some where, then seher remembers how she cut her hand & wrist… as soon as seher thinks about this she opens her eyes wide & sleep seems to be far away from her, seher once again looks at her bandaged hand & she just cannot stop sarcastically thinking about how unfair her life could get, as she tried to give her life, rather end her life & once again she was proved to be a failure in that aspect too…. & her being alive now proved that….. seher looks at her hand, when she tries to move it, that is when her hand hits something, looking side ways to see what she has hit, seher turns her head & to her utmost surprise & shock she sees agni sitting there by her side with a hand of his in her hair…. & she sees that agni is sleeping leaning on to the bed post… seeing agni the first thought that comes to seher's mind is that he looks so peaceful, but then suddenly all the things said & done between the two of them comes to her thought & the next second seher start withdrawing away from agni… it was like seher could not stand the fact of being so close to agni… yes her life was agni but then now she did not want that… seher in order to move away from agni, slowly tries to move in the bed & put some distance between the two of them… seher moves away a little bit, seher was feeling to go away from agni so in that thought seher does a futile attempt to get up, as soon as seher does that, a amount of her body weight falls on seher's bandaged hand & seher involuntarily shouts in pain… seher:- ahhh…. Here agni who is asleep beside seher as soon as he hears seher's scream gets up with a jolt & the first thing he does is to look at seher & make sure she is doing alright… agni sees that seher is awake & there are tears running down seher's cheeks… agni's sleepy senses comes to high alert & he starts getting all panicky… he immediately rubs off seher's tears, while seher winches away from agni's touch, agni notices that but he does not pay heed to it as right now all he wanted to make sure was that seher was alright… agni, then keeps a hand on seher, while seher still tries to get up.. agni places a hand on seher aur woh seher ko apne haath se ishara kartha hai to wait.. & in a very low tone says:- seher tum ruko… main tumhari madat kartha hoon… tum zyada hilo matt kyunke agar tum hilogi tho tumhare haath mein aur dard hoga… seher does not say anything still keeps continuing to try & get up, as though agni had not spoken a word… then agni sighs & with quiet some difficulty makes seher sit, though seher does not corporate with agni while he tries to make her sit, but one cannot deny the fact that agni was the stronger of the two… agni makes seher comfortable, he puts two pillows behind her on the bed post & makes seher lean on it in siting position… then again agni gives seher a winning smile which says see I won… while here seher just does not seem to react… it was like her eyes are null & void of any emotion & so was her life.. agni here on the other hand tries to make seher talk, he keeps asking seher if her woundd is paining, he keeps asking her if she wants water or if she is feeling hungry, but seher replies to none of agni's queries… then seeing that seher is not reacting it anyway this starts worrying agni, but without much thought agni repeats his questions again to seher, he keeps repeating them again & again in the hope that seher would answer his questions but all his hope is lost in drain, as all seher does is to keep looking at her bandaged hand blankly or to look at agni blankly when he keeps repeating his questions… agni on the other hand was getting worried that he did not want this neither did he expect seher to be so void in emotions… then agni in order to make seher react also tries making weird faces, seher though keeps seeing the weird things agni is doing still does not react… still sre eyes remain blank, null & void of any emotion. There were only traces of dried tears at the corner of her eyes… then finally agni says:- arre main bhii kitna bhuddu hoon, main yeh bhi bhool gaya kii meri pyaari golu molu chashmish ko bhook lagi hogi… tumne breakfast bhi theek se nahii kiya na, tum bas ruko main abhi laatha hoon… okiee… agni asks this raising his eyebrow, seher just looks at him… while here agni ruffles seher hair & says main yun gaya aur yun aaya…agni places a small feathery kiss on seher's head & pats on her head & starts walking to the door, before walking out of the door, agni looks at seher & he again with the help of hand gestures says, main yun gaya aur yun aaye ok… tum mera wait karna… seher looks at him but does not say anything… agni slowly walks out of the room, while here seher rests her head on the bed post & she closes her eyes.. she continuously keeps feeling pain in her hand… & in order to forget that she closes her eyes… agni before going down looks at seher from the corner chori chupke, in order to make sure seher is alright… once he is assured agni goes down…. agni is down in the kitchen… as he checks the kitchen to see if he gets anything to eat, he sees a note that damini has stuck to the fridge, damini had written in that she has kept some sandwiches & roti, dal kept in the oven & if he feels like eating he should heat it up, & the note also says that she has kept some juice in the fridge & if he wants he can have that too… agni thanks his friend for being so considerate & thoughtful, he then gets to work heats up the sandwich, roti & dal, takes the jice from the fridge arranges the food on the tray & starts taking it upstairs back to seher… here as soon as seher realizes agni is back seher opens her eyes & now agni sess a slight amount of wetness in seher's eyes, agni is relieved as at least seher's is not void of emotion.. though he diod not want to see seher in tears but he knew that some emotions was better than a void emotion… agni then very casually walks to seher, he places the tray of food carefully on the bed, he folds one of his leg & sits in front of seher…. Seher looks at agni but she does not say anything… now agni says:- chalo golo, molu, my dear chashmish khaana khaa lo dekho main tumhare liye yeh garam karke laaya hoon.. aur waise bhi main jaantha hoon my dear golo molu you cannot resist food… chal khaa lo… seher again has a blank expression on her face… agni sees that either seher is looking at him or the plate of food, but she is not making any attempt to eat the food… agni then sighs, he takes the roti piece in his hand, dips it in the dal, & takes his hand towards seher's mouth… seher looks at agni for a whole minute without opening her mouth, but here even agni does not move his hand away.. agni's eyes keep pleading for seher to eat the food, & after the whole minute seher reluctantly opens her mouth to eat… hence seher starts eating & agni starts feeding her… after eating few bites seher just utters the word bas… agni does not force her anymore but gives seher the juice glass to finish… seher drinks half of the juice returns it back to agni.. then agni gives seher some water & medicine.. seher without saying anything takes the medicine & swallows it with water…. here agni very carefully places the food tray on the table, he decides to keep the tray downstairs.. he gets up from the bed & starts taking the tray, when seher out of the blue says:- why did you save my life.. agni leaves the tray on the table, he looks at seher, seher looks straight in agni's eyes & says:- kyun bachaya mujhe…. Main jeena nahii chahthi.. why din't you let me die… answer me… why did the he** did you not let me die… I wanted to die, tum bhi tho wahii chahthe the na…. tho marrne dethe mujhe… [tears flow down her eyes rapidly… & she continues saying..] you saved me because you wanted me to suffer right… good for you now every minute I will live will only be a pain for me & you can see me suffer.. marr jaane dethe mujhe.. why did you save me… I want to die…. I want to die… [seher screams & wails loudly…] Mujhe nahii jeena hai… don't you understand… i don't want to live… please let me die.. Pleaseee.. She begs… please agni, please let me die…. Please kill me agni please… pleaseee…. Mujhse aur bardhast nahii hoga… kill me agni.. kill me… seher takes agni's hands to her neck & keeps saying kill me… let me die…. I want to die… mujhe nahii jeena.. seher keeps wailing uske aankhon se badi hii tezi se assoo behh rahe hothe hai… & yahaan even agni starts crying, he feels miserable, woh seher ke haath se apna haath chudaane kii koshish kartha hai but seher keeps putting it telling him to kill her & that she wants to die… agni with the force with which seher is pulling his hand looses his balances & sits on the bed with a force.. while here seher keeps telling that she wants to die.. agni tries to calm seher, but seeing that she is not stopping, agni just hugs seher to his broad chest tightly & let's seher cry & say whatever she wants too…. Seher tries to come out of agni hold but agni does not allow her too.. he keeps patting seher's head & back & mumbles soothing words to seher, like sab theek ho jaayega, he will not let anything happen to her, etc etc… seher in agni's embrace, keeps mumbling that she does not want to live, she wants to die… aise hii mumble karthe hue, in agni's soothing gestures seher falls asleep in agni's arms….. but still in her sleep she keeps mumbling… agni just keeps tightening his hold on seher everytime seher mumbles…. He keeps protective, caring grip on her & continues to whisper that all will be fine in seher's ears, calming her…

Song In The Background:-

"Tu Jahaan Main Wahaan….
Sang Sang Yu Chalu Tere….
Jaise Tera Aasmaan…
Tu Jahaan Main Wahaan….
Sang Sang Yu Chalu Tere……
Jaise Tera Aasmaan….
Jo Dhup Nikli Chaya Ban Jaaunga….
Jo Ho Tu Akeli Saaya Ban Jaaunga….
Jo Uljhan Mein Ho Mann Main Behlaaunga….
Tum Aa Gaye Ho Toh Jeena Aaya Hain…..
Khushiya Ka Tumne Yeh Jaal Bichaya Hain….
Khoya Hain Khudko Yah Sab Kutch Paaya Hain….
Tu Jahaan Main Wahaan….
Sang Sang Yu Chalu Tere……
Jaise Tera Aasmaan……
Ho Gam Ke Badal Mujhpe Tham Jaane De….
Bechainiyo Ko Mujhse Takrane De….
Dukhti Ho Koi Baat Mujhpe Aane De…..
Dil Sochta Tha Ke Koi Apna Ho….
Koi Raaz Na Ho Jo Uss Se Rakhna Ho….
Aankhein Na Kholu Main Shayad Sapna Ho….
Tu Jahaan Main Wahaan…..
Sang Sang Yu Chalu Tere…..
Jaise Tera Aasmaan…."

[Courtesy: Movie: Salaam Namaste]

agni does not leave seher until he is sure that seher is asleep totally…. He sees seher, makes her lye down the bed, he sleeps next to seher pulls seher on his broad chest. Keeps patting seher… seher goes into her deep sleep because of her medication… agni place the rug on both of the… & then agni looks at sehers sleeping form & he says:- I promise seher main sab kuch theek kar doonga… I will not let any harm touch you… aur yeh mera waada hai jin logon ne tumhe rulaya main unhe khoon ke aasoo rulaoonga… I promise seher…. I love you… agni pulls seher closer to himself & then sleep over takes his tired senses too..

So On This Note Ends The 17th Part Of The Fanfic 'Humraahi'… I Hope All Of You Liked Reading The Part… The Part Was Supposed To Be Posted On The 4th That Is Sunday, But Due To Certain Things Could Not Do It… Sorry For The Delay… Deepu This Part Is Dedicated To You, Sorry For The Late Birthday Gift…. I Hope This Part Was Worth All Of Your Wait….

Please Do Send Your Comments, Compliments, Suggestions & Criticism, They Are All Welcome… Waiting To Read Your Take On The Part Eagerly…

Precap For The Coming Up Parts:

Precap I: Pyaar Hai Ya Saja, Aai Mere Dil Bata…..
Tootata Kyon Nahi Dard Ka Silsila…..
Is Pyaar Mein Hon Kaise Kaise Imntihaan…..
Ye Pyaar Likhe Kaisi Kaisi Dastaan….
Ya Rabba De De Koi Jaan Bhi Agar….
Dilbar Pe Ho Na, Dilbar Pe Ho Na Koi Asar….
Ho Ya Rabba De De Koi Jaan Bhi Agar….
Dilbar Pe Ho Na, Dilbar Pe Ho Na Koi Asar….
Pyaar Hai Ya Saja, Aai Mere Dil Bata….
Tootata Kyon Nahi Dard Ka Silsila….
Kaisa Hai Safar Wafa Ki Manjil Ka….
Na Hai Koi Hal Dilon Ki Mushkil Ka….
Dhadkan Dhadkan Bikhri Ranjishein…..
Saansein Saansein Tooti Bandishein….
Kahi To Har Lamha Honton Pe Fariyaad Hai….
Kisi Ki Duniya Chaahat Mein Barbaad Hai….
Ya Rabba De De Koi Jaan Bhi Agar….
Dilbar Pe Ho Na, Dilbar Pe Ho Na Koi Asar….
Ho Ya Rabba De De Koi Jaan Bhi Agar….
Dilbar Pe Ho Na, Dilbar Pe Ho Na Koi Asar….
Koi Na Sune Sisakati Aanhon Ko….
Koi Na Dhare Tadapati Baahon Ko…..
Aadhi Aadhi Puri Khwaishein….
Tooti Footi Sab Farmaaishein….
Kahin Shak Hain Kahin Nafrat Ki Deewaar Hai….
Kahin Jeet Mein Bhi Shamil Palpal Haar Hain….
Ya Rabba De De Koi Jaan Bhi Agar….
Dilbar Pe Ho Na, Dilbar Pe Ho Na Koi Asar….
Ho Ya Rabba De De Koi Jaan Bhi Agar….
Dilbar Pe Ho Na, Dilbar Pe Ho Na Koi Asar…
Ho O O Pyaar Hai Ya Saja, Aai Mere Dil Bata….
Tootata Kyon Nahi Dard Ka Silsila…..
Ho O O O Ho O O O….
Na Poocho Dard Bandon Se….
Hansi Kaisi Khushi Kaisi….
Musibat Sar Pe Rehati Hain….
Kabhi Kaisi Kabhi Kaisi….
Ho O O O... Rabba, Rabba Ho O O Ho….
Rabba Ho O O, Ho O Ho Rabba….

Precap II: Jiya Re Jiya Re...
Yeh Jiya Ne Kya Kaha...
Nazron Ne Nazron Se Yun...
Jaane Kya Keh Diya...
Laagey Na Laagey Na...
Mora Jiya...
Laagey Na Laagey Na...
Laagey Na Laagey Na...
Teri Aankihyon Se...
Naina Laagey Re...
Naina Laagey Re...
Naina Laagey Re...
Teri Aankihyon Se...
Naina Laagey Re...
Naina Laagey Re...
Naina Laagey Re...
Teri Aankihyon Se...
Naina Laagey Re...
Naina Laagey Re...
Naina Laagey Re...
Teri Aankihyon Se...
Naina Laagey Re...
Naina Laagey Re...
Naina Laagey Re...
Naino Mein Aate Ho Kyun...
Mora Baalma..
Naino Mein Aate Ho Kyun...
Mora Baalma..
Tum Hi Bataao Kaise...
Kate Ratiyaa...
Tum Hi Bataao Kaise...
Kate Ratiyaa...
Naina Laagey Re...
Naina Laagey Re...
Teri Aankihyon Se...
Naina Laagey Re...
Naina Laagey Re...
Naina Laagey Re...
Teri Aankihyon Se...
Naina Laagey Re...
Naina Laagey Re...
Naina Laagey Re...
Jiya Re Jiya Re...
Yeh Jiya Ne Kya Kaha...
Nazron Ne Nazron Se Yun...
Jaane Kya Keh Diya...
Laagey Na Laagey Na...
Mora Jiya...
Laagey Na Laagey Na...
Laagey Na Laagey Na...

Precap III: The Mail Sender Revealed… A Guest Who Is Not Welcome…

Precap IV: Answers To The Past.. Dealing With The Past….

Precap V: Main Kuch Nahii Jaanthi Mujhe Yahaan Nahii Rehna Hai.. I Want To Leave This Place & Go Back Home… Dekho Agar Tum Dono Ko Yahaan Rukhna Hai Tho Theek Hai Main Aur Sneha Wapas Jaanthe Hai… Mujheghtan Hothi Hai Yahaan.. I Cannot Stay Here, Please Try & Understand…

Precap VI: A Phone Call Made By Agni To Make Sure Everything Goes According To What He Has Thought..

Precap VII: Chak De Chak De Chak De...
Chak De Saare Ghum...
Tere Sang Hai Hum..
Hans Ke To Dekh Tu Ek Baar, Khud Hi Aa Jaayegi Phir Bahaar...
Hans Ke To Dekh Tu Ek Baar, Khud Hi Aa Jaayegi Phir Bahaar...
Gaa Le Nayee Sargam, Geet Ek Naya Gaa, Aaya Naya Mausam Aaya Din Naya...
Chak De Chak De Chak De...Tere Sang Hai Hum...
Chak De Chak De Chak De...Tere Sang Hai Hum...
Ched De Dhun Vo Aaj Chha Jayein Mastiyan...
Chhod De Khul Ke Aaj Lehron Mein Kashtiyan...
Ched De Dhun Vo Aaj Chha Jayein Mastiyan...
Chhod De Khul Ke Aaj Lehron Mein Kashtiyan...
Thokar Mein Masti Ho, Kankar Bhi Jhoomein...
Man Bhi Thirak Jaye, Baadal Ko Chume...
Chak De Chak De Chak De...Tere Sang Hai Hum...
Chak De Chak De Chak De...Tere Sang Hai Hum...
Ye Hawa Tere Paas Aake Hai Bah Rahi...
Jhoom Le Mere Sang Kanon Mein Kah Rahi...
Ye Hawa Tere Paas Aake Hai Bah Rahi...
Jhoom Le Mere Sang Kanon Mein Kah Rahi...
Lahra Ke Balkha Ke Muskura Ke Ji Le...
Pi Le Hawaon Ko Gunguna Ke Ji Le...
Chak De Chak De Chak De...Tere Sang Hai Hum...
Chak De Chak De Chak De...Tere Sang Hai Hum...
Sach Hai Ye Bas Ek Baar Milti Hai Zindagi...
Karvatein Badalti Hai Pal Pal Ye Zindagi...
Sach Hai Ye Bas Ek Baar Milti Hai Zindagi...
Karvatein Badalti Hai Pal Pal Ye Zindagi...
Har Pal Ko Gale Se Hans Ke Laga Le...
Pal Pal Mein Chhupi Jo Khushiyan Chura Le...
Chak De Chak De Chak De...Tere Sang Hai Hum...
Chak De Chak De Chak De...Tere Sang Hai Hum...
Hans Ke To Dekh Tu Ek Baar, Khud Hi Aa Jaayegi Phir Bahaar...
Hans Ke To Dekh Tu Ek Baar, Khud Hi Aa Jaayegi Phir Bahaar...
Gaa Le Nayee Sargam, Geet Ek Naya Gaa, Aaya Naya Mausam Aaya Din Naya...
Chak De Chak De Chak De...Tere Sang Hai Hum...
Chak De Chak De Chak De...Tere Sang Hai Hum...

The Precaps Are In A Jumbled Form, Some May Come Before The Other, Some May Come After The Other… They Are Not Given In Order…. I Have Written About 19,826 Words For This Part, I Hope It Was Worth Your Wait & Also Worth Reading…

Happy Teachers Day Guys….

Please Do Comment… & This Time Too I Will Try & Continue As Soon As I Can…. Enjoy Reading The Part… Happy Reading Guys…. Waise Guys In The Next Part You Will Se A Bit More Of Agni's Guilty Feelings…

Take Care All Of You…
Byeee….
Love
Surya…😊

Edited by Surya.Ravi - 14 years ago