AR FF-'My every breath in ur name' final pt in p41 - Page 6

Originally posted by: navtinder

great part.

poor armaan, atul is a great friend.

feel bad for both armaan and ridhima, it's not there fault that they are in such situation. sid should unite them as he knows that even ridhima loves armaan.

please continue soon

very nice part loved it

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Originally posted by: JUHI_dmg

very nice part loved it

continue soon

loved the writing! update soon! wish to see them together asap!

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Sid's POV

(Waiting in Riddhima's cabin in Sanjeevani)

I was determined to talk to Riddhima at any cost today. I had to know what's going on in her mind – or rather heart, to be accurate. Armaan is miserable. Riddhima is in pathetic state and I am not happy as well. Three lives are getting spoiled. I had to end this. Infact I am the only person who can end this.

Just then Riddhima entered her cabin. I took a deep breath and prepared myself.

"Sid……. Here?" she said not expecting me. She looked very tired and completely lost. I can never relate her to the Ridhhima that Dr.Atul told me about. She is just breathing, not living and so is Armaan. I concluded. And what about me? The question rose in brain immediately.

"Yes, Riddhima. I want to talk to you. I went to your home. Dr.Shashank said that you were here. So…" I said slowly.

"Dr.Sid, if you want to talk about the patients, you are welcome. Or else I am busy." said she searching for some file on her desk.

"Riddhima, I want to talk about Armaan. He…" I didn't complete but she cut me off and said. "Dr.Sid, there is nothing to talk about Dr.Armaan. You may leave if it's all that you want to talk about." said she without meeting my eyes.

"Riddhima, I am not here to talk about Dr.Armaan. I want to talk about Armaan and you" I returned back without waiting a moment.

"Sid, please" said she this time almost requesting me. I noticed tears escaping from the corner of her eyes.

"Riddhima, whom are you running away from? Why are you doing this to yourself? I know that Armaan loves you and you too….." I spoke softly so that my words would not hurt her more.

But she didn't let me complete my sentence and shouted back. "Armaan, please stop it. I don't…." she suddenly realized what she said and stared at me in horror and broke down to tears. She fell back in her seat.

Armaan is her world. Her every thought starts and ends at Armaan. I was convinced of that fact now even more. My heart twisted in pain at that thought. But I have decided. So put my thoughts aside and slowly walked to Riddhima's chair and kneeled down beside her chair.

I started calmly "Riddhima, I know you can never eliminate Armaan from your heart. So why are you fighting against your feelings? You are only hurting yourself more. And moreover hurting Armaan and me. We both want your happiness. And I knew that your happiness is only Armaan" said I.

"Sid please. Armaan left me when I needed him. He never looked back. You were the person who stood by me and……" her voice trailed off.

"Riddhima, you know very well why Armaan left then. He thought he might hurt you and he was scared like hell at that thought. Was he happy parting from you? I guess you know the answer very well than me. He was helpless then Riddhima. But you took it for his rejection. I am pretty sure you might have done the same thing if you were in Armaan's place." I said looking straight into her eyes.

She didn't speak for few minutes and the silence tore me apart. Then she said slowly "Sid, why are you doing this?"

Why I am I doing this? Do I have a reason? All I know is that I want Riddhima to be happy and she would only be happy with Armaan.

"Riddhima, I am doing it for myself. Remember, I promised you that I would unite you with Armaan? You know, I always keep up my promise." said I and winked. She remained silent. I know I have a very bad sense of humor.

"Riddhima, a relationship is one that brings two people closer only if they are happy. No matter how long we stay together, we are not going to be happy and content; and that's the truth. You are just risking three lives, depriving them of happiness. Don't think that I am pushing you away or sacrificing. No, I am just safeguarding a pure love from getting lost. I know Riddhima, we rarely find true love. I want to be someone's Armaan, Riddhima. Armaan and Riddhima are meant for each other. And I knew it." I finished. I noticed that tears also formed in my eyes.

Riddhima still looked at me with shock in her eyes "Sid, but…….. but what about you?" said she in weak voice.

What about me? I didn't have an answer for that one. I took her hands in mine. "Riddhima, I am fine. I'll be fine. I assure you. I'll talk to Dr.Shashank about this tomorrow. Don't' worry about me. I am sure that I can live without you. But Armaan can't live without you Riddhima. He's madly in love with you and I saw that. My feelings for you can never match to that of Armaan and I know that. You are his life Riddhima and he yours. Please don't hurt yourself and Armaan more." I said and stood up. I looked into her eyes for few moments and started leaving.

"Sid" Riddhima called me. I turned around and faced her. She came towards me and hugged me gently. "Sid, you are a very good person. I am glad that you were in my life. I owe you a lot." said she and cried.

I held her securely in my arms and drew back after few moments. I looked at her for one last time and left.

My heart grew heavy with pain. I said that I would live without Riddhima but can I? The question haunted me for all the day.

I drove back to my house and fell flat on bed with mind full of thoughts. I didn't understand how to talk to Dr.Shashank about Armaan. About Riddhima and me. I could no longer sleep. I stared into darkness not sure of where my thoughts led me.

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Originally posted by: bushrayou

loved the writing! update soon! wish to see them together asap!

Originally posted by: naureen_aly

just read all the parts

and its awesome

never come across of this ff

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