SAJAN FF-TUM BIN JIYA JAAYE NA-chp11 updt pg 83,84 - Page 17

This chapter part A is dedicated to some more lively readers

Ammykhan, Greenleaf, vital123, koolgurl

Chapter 5 b to some more lovely writers on this forum whose words always are a pleasure to read

Princessyashika, dolly, sushups,

Chapter 5 c

To some lovely cute friends I made recently on the forum naz17555, Jia (Mohitkideewani) and Anu (kayamathfan_2)

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Chapter 5 Part A

Gunjan " Hello dear readers on IF forum. Its such a pleasure to meet you all. Waise aaj mai aap sabse apni zindagi ki sabse badi khushi baantne jaa rahi hoon. Aaj mere zindagi me sapnon ka ek naya rang ubhar ke aaya hai. Mai ek aise insaan ke rang me rang chuki hun jiske dil ka aaina, ek pyar ka jharaokaha hai, ek jhalak jiski kabhi kaafi hi nahi hoti, uske dil ke taar ka har ek connection jaise ki seedha mere dil se juda ho, uski zubaan bolti kuch hai magar uski nigahen bayaan karti kuch aur hi hai. Uska dimaag jis sach se bhagta hai uka dil wahi sachai uske chere pe bayaan karta hai. Haan yeh sach hai woh pyaar bayan karna nahi jaanta, magar usse bhi bada sach yeh hai ki woh pyar sirf dena jaanta hai.

Samrat's love is like no love u wud have even seen. He loves till ur eyes turn misty, he loves as if there's no tomorrow, he loves as if u r the only one in the world, he loves as if nothing else matters to him, he loves as if now is the only time left out. He loves as if that the only thing he's capable of. He loves like as if one life can never be enuf. Most of all he loves like this, believing he does'nt deserve anything in return and that's why his love is the most special in this whole world.

Gunjan continues A heart that's hurting as if it cannot break into anymore pieces, a mouth that spits words as if darts of poison would look trivial, but a love blooms inside his soul ,whose fragrance reaches out even before any can sniff it, ensures none of the people for whom cares are ever in pain and gives his love unconditionally just like an invisible angel coz he doesn't expect you to acknowledge or return it whole heartedly. A soul that loves so selflessly even if its heart is crying out timelessly, is a soul that 's to be cherished for life beyond eternity

Gunjan "Aap hi log batayi agar aisa insaan jo nafrat ki chadar ode pyar ka toofan barsaaye , us insaan se aap kab tak apne dil de darwazon ko bahca payenge, dil ki deewaron ko toh phir bhi dimaag zanzeer ki tarah sakt banale magar rooh ki dehleez ko par kar jab uska pyar sheetal jal ki tarah fahal jaaye to use aap kaise rok sakte hain"

Gunjan Uska pyar paana toh doosri baat magar usse pyar karna hi ek vardaan hai. Uske kareeb har pal rahna ki ek shaan hai. Maine apne dil ko bahut samjhaya magar rooh pe meri baton ka koi asar nahi hua, who to uski ore keeche chala gaya. When my soul coul not resist him where did my heart n mind have a chance. I know its not going to be easy to find out whether he loves me as unconditionally as I do him. Though everyone in the gang believes I have brought changes in him where everyone one of them and others failed but is that proof enough for the fact that he feels atelast 0.1 % of what I feel for him?

Gunjan "Well I would not know unless I try and am gonna try like my life depends on it for survival coz only a fool would let go of a love of a lifetime like this. I know its gonna be an uphill task what with his wall shielding him n on top of it his arrogant attitude which wud rile me up within minutes n burn my anger like boiling point of lav'..oh god'..is this possible'.that I cud love a person so much that I can give my life for him n next minute hate the person so much but the love of his real always supersedes his artificial persona and I can only pray and hope that am able to convince him to shed this persona with my love once n for all."

Gunjan "Hope all of u r with me in this. I know u guys are coz it can be no other ways right?"😃

Gunjan "Well just to let u know the depth of my intentions, one thing I have realized is that I cannot bring him around in my way alone, coz my love can help him to leave the cloak of his wall but I have to go his way to help him break the wall completely. There's this saying right If the Mountain cannot go to Mohammed then Mohammed will have to go to the mountain, well in my case it's a lil twisted though if Mohammed cannot go to the mountain , mountain will go the Mohammed. After all when samrat put his mind to something he can be no less than a mountain😆

Gunjan "God only can help me conquer this mountain n conquer it I will coz I feel it in my bones that am borne to share this life with him and no one else. I know am undertaking path that clearly comes with warning and danger signs but if u care u better take the dare. I care for him much more than the words can ever do justice. You might all wonder that how can I love an individual so mindlessly whom I have met only a week ago, but that's not true. I have known his physical presence a week ago but mentally a part of him became a part of me right from the time my di started confiding about this lovable childlike version of the adult he has become of, after every trip of hers to Mumbai. The more I heard the more I became curious about him, I was amazed how a guy cud be so hard like the rigid broken surface of d ravines on the outside and so soft n smooth like the rivers flowing between these ravines on the inside.(not sure if my geography is right 😆)

Gunjan "Even then I was in two mind whether he's for real who acts like an invisible god to others behind their back but spurns them on their face when they want a piece of his heart

Gunjan "Mujhe pata hai ki yeh koi aasan kaam nahi hai aur mai yeh bhi jaanti hun ki is me mera dil tootke chana choor ho sakta hai, magar who dard us dard se bahtar hoga jo mai har din mehsoos karoong if I fail to even fight for the happiness that I feel I deserve. "

Who zindagi kya jisme koi manzil nahi
who pyar kya jisme tere dil ka sahil nahi
who kasthi kya jiska kinara tera dil ka dwar nahi
who kashmakash kya jisme tere pyar ke toofano sa kahar nahi
woh shitij kya jiske anth me tu mera nahi

Scene shift to samrat

Samrat is trying to run away, he's trying to escape the ball of fire which is chasing him. He knows this time there's no escape. He knew this time the flames would engulf him and there would be no tomorrow. He was finally caught in the worst possible flame and he wanted to see only one face before the flames engulf him forever. Before this nightmare ends n ashes cover his body. He wanted only one thought with him when he finally gave up the fight. He wanted only person's words to sooth him when he was fighting his last moments. He wanted to speak only one word if his voice had been left with any power "Chashmish"

The shriek reeks throughout the guest house. It was a surprise that Mayank could not hear him or may be had he gone for his morning walk

Samrat wakes up with the very name he was fearful of ever not being able to say again'.He wonders "am I thankful that this was just a nightmare or should I worry its d indication of more nightmares coming my way'..I have to be careful. I cannot handle chahsmish like the way I have done the other girls. She deserves much much more, but Can I give her that 'Dude, what the hell are u thinking?😲....have u lost ur mind or yesterday did flame smelt ur brain as well😕'..tu aise baaten soch bhi kaise sakta hai'.dotn u know u can never love anyone?

Samrat shouts in ager to his conscious mind as if it was another human being

Samrat "I know, am the chosen one, who cannot love, who can only hurt, who cannot wish , who cannot ask, who cannot expect,in short who cannot live

Samrat "I know am destined to be a loser even if I try n u don't have to remind me of my misfortune, as if u cud allow me ever forget it'.the great samrat'.in his real life d totally not so great'.n a perfect opposite of his name samrat'..the real beggar who can't even beg for what his heart wants'.after all who's listening to him n even if someone listens by mistake they need not take an effort coz even if by chance its granted to me, am bound to lose it only before I can even rejoice in my wish being fulfilled.No there was no point in believing in the unbelievable and wanting the impossible n chashmish was just that to him, she was too good and too beautiful that a heart like his can never match n dream to make her his'..no he will not go there'..he knew yesterday and the nightmare of this morning had forced him to wake up to facts. '.

Samrat thinks he cannot hide under the tag of friendship when his heart was craving n feeling some other things'.he knew he cannot deny the attraction he felt for her anymore but attraction was all it ever going to be , if he was sane enough and smart enuf to stay away from further heartbreaks and this time he knew he would not be able to recover if he lost it'.."so I will be careful'.i will stay away from her and be cool and if situations force us to meet otherwise '.act like a polite friend to her"

Samrat "Yes that's the best thing I cud do for her and for myself and when I have done it before it shud not be anything new for me. He imme remembers the tear filled face of the neetha 'before he can stop his mind from going there, his face is crowded with the tears of guilt, tears of what if, tears of how could this happen? n within moments that last meeting was framing in his mind so clearly n his throat was choking just on remembering all about her'.the last time he had seen her'..

Samrat thinks "the innocent beauty of her face turned ghost white , the thin veil of hope dying ever so slowly in her eyes, the mist of emotions melting n making way for d disastrous reality to sink in her, her eyes crying out to him to stop her just this once, her tears willing him to stop the harsh flow of words which were being hurled her way , her heart waiting for some signal to say this was all not true, her hope sliding away but unable to give way to pain and fear, just holding on as if extending the moment cud change the outcome forever'.n it did change forever'.not for just her but for him as well'as the face was fading away, it was as if he was back in that time n moment 'he was raising his hand in present as if he could somehow stop her , somehow make her understand she had got it all wrong, somehow tell her this was not supposed to end like this, as if he needed a moment just to explain it all, as if one gesture n she wud come n back'n begging aloud "neetha pls come back'..tumhe meri kasam'.bas ek baar mere liye wapas aa jao'.i swear I will make it alright, I will explain everything'.but pls give me a chance,'.just one chance,,'.plsssss plsssssss neethaaaaaaa come back dammint'.y wont u listen to me'.cant u give me a bloody one chance'..plsss y do u have to do this"'.but already her ghostlike white face was going into oblivion, her hands were being snatched away before he cud reach out, her eyes were closing to the pain before he cud call out, her hope was dying away even before life got to her

Samrat's heart cries in a wail "am sorryyyyy neetha'.for d nth time'.am sorry'.can u hear me'.can u feel my pain'.can u forgive me''am so very sorryyyyy'.neetha wat wud not I do get this chance to make it right for u''neetha'pleeezzzz forgive'.show me some sign u r listening to me'.show me some hope that all is not lost'.pls god r u listening'.pleez show me some way'..god neetha'.plsss neetha

''..alas ''but reality was totally different, he cud not do anything now'.he cudnt do anything for the past few years'.he was left to live in this guilt n hate for himself,'.he jolly well didn't deserve any love '.he was the prisoner of fate for whom misery was the only thing left and never in small bouts'..

Samrat says aloud "no" as if coming out of the nightmare of past finally , unaware of the tears that have flooded n drenched in his face while his mind was busy reliving the agonies of past'."no" this time he mouths it more vehemently'.i cant let anything to happen chahsmish'.."no" this time the shriek was even louder as if some bad turn was going to catch up with chashmish'.."no'.mai aisa kuch hone nahi dunga'..i will not allow fate to play the same games with chahsmish'..chahsmish will not become a victim like neetha becoz of me'..nahi''mai aisa kuch kabhi hone nahi doonga''.i will protect her by staying away from her'..i don't deserve her, she doesn't deserve this''no'.i will not''I will not"

"samrat'.sambhalo'.samrat'kya kar rahe ho'..look up" samrat" Mayank's voice finally breaks the nightmare of multitude magintitude for samrat

Mayank "yeh kya kar rahe the tum. tumhara haath khoon se lathpath'.hai'..have u lost ur mind'.yeh tumhe kya ho gaya hai"

Samrat realizes in his emotional turmoil, he had hit his hand against the glass table lying next to his bed. He could still not feel the pain in his hand as he was still enmeshed in the pain of his past which had manacled all his happiness and the key had been thrown in some deep sea, d key embedded somewhere below d mountain of misery reserved by fate for him that no one'.no once cud retrieve it even if they wished to release him from these shackles. Yes that was his destiny, forget about wanting he cud not even dream about ever achieving happiness

Mayank could not understand what was flowing fatser his tears or his blood. Use yeh samajh nahi aa rahi tha kis ka dard woh pehle theek kare, uske dil ka chot jo uski aankhon se beh raha tha ya uske hathon ki chot jissee khoon bahe jaa raha tha

Mayank knew something was troubling him coz as soon as he entered the guest house, he could hear a loud wail but the name "neetha" didn't make any sense to him. He thought imme maybe benji should know who that is n he knew he heard chashmish n wondered if this neetha was the same girl. But now was not the time to dwell. He immediately shook samrat to bring him out of the dark abyss he seemed to have landed himself into. "Samrat smbhalo apne aap ko"'..dekho kitna khoon bah gaya hai'.kya hogaya hai tumhe'..pls wake up'.look at what you have done to yourself''dont u care even one bit whats it doing to ur hand"

Samrat seemed to have woken up to the only word that surpassed the walls of dark cloud engulfing his brain n heart "care" . Yes that was the biggest enemy if he ever had one. He didn't know how to care he didn't know what was it care for others feelings, others emotions, he didn't care enuf and that's why he was suffering n neetha was free'..noooo he cant go there, he had to be strong,,'he had to erect the walls which chashmish had managed to temporarily break in, he had to do it for his friends mayank and nupur , they didn't deserve this burden, this baggage he was carrying. He had to do it for his firnds benji and dia who had saved him from a disastrous fate yest. He was wishing in his mind for a min would it have been better if it all had ended yest for him. Then imme a peaceful face crops into his mind n he shuts his eyes n mind as if pushing it away for one last time this morning. She didn't deserve it. She cannot be sacrificed like'."no stop it" he shouted silently but vehemently in his mind

Samrat "am ok mayank'.woh bas'who kal raat ka'woh thoda'.kal ke episode ko sochke '.woh dia ke 'liye 'woh"

Mayank understanding that samrat was covering up for something else didn't prod him "its ok samrat mai samajh sakta hun'mai tumhari jagah hota toh mai bhi itna hi disturbed hota'chalo tum haath wash karke aao, bahut khoon beh gaya hai , mai first aid box leke aata hoon"

Samrat knew yest he had resolved that he cant let go off her just as yet but this morning's rude wake up call cured him of his childish desire to hold on to the flicker of hope she had ignited in his heart. While washing his hand, samrat was mentally washing the last bit of so called feelings trying to break free from bondage they were being sentenced to but samrat's resolve was stronger this time as sheer as a rock, totally unmovable

To be continued

Chapter 5 -PART B

Samrat After having attended to his hand, to divert his mind, he went for a stroll and while coming back he went and met dia who was looking and feeling much better and that was the brightest aspect of the day so far. Soon enough forgetting the turmoils, they all got into the spirit of the sangeet function scheduled for evening. Nupur was busy showing them her costumes and talking non stop about the arrangements of the wedding

The whole morning seemed to have passed away and samrat made his excuses and headed for the college before chahsmish could come home from the school for changing. He asked Benji to stay the day with dia. He knew he couldn't avoid her in the training session but he will find a way to avoid her if his life depended on it

Gunjan was disappointed to know that she had missed samrat just by few minutes. After her new found realization of the budding love waiting to bloom, she seemed to searching samrat in everything her thot, eyes were coming into contact with. It was as if within a day he had reduced her to gibbering idiot who had not better job than to fantasize about her new found love. Uff when she addressed the kid who was playing pranks in her class as samrat and when she was talking to Deepak she was bringing somehow samrat into topic without her knowledge, talking like samrat this, samrat that to the extent Deepak with an indulgent smile asked her if samrat was the hot news in today's newspaper

Gunjan admonished herself mentally for being such an obvious idiot as she got ready for college but she cudnt stop the butterflies fluttering in her stomach with the anticipation of meeting samrat and wondering how to tell him, what to speak to him, how to open up….god how was she going to do this

Gunjan's thoughts chased her till she reached the college, she was surprised to find the training session already on n one of her team members informed her that the training was already on for the past one hour and they were going to wind up in 30 min.

Gunjan was stunned for few min wondering how could samrat start without her. Surely he would have some reason, some emergency, some work or else he woudnt have started but somewhere while she was changing, the unknown small prick was paining a little bit as if worried about some bad time awaiting her…."no gunjan"….dont be stupid….samrat ne aisa jaan poochke nahi kiya hai…tu bekar me dimaag pe tension le rahi hai"

But as she went into the court and tried to approach samrat , he cut her short" sorry gunjan , we could not wait for you today as the team is still lacking in certain ares, we understand you have your own priorities and you are already a good player, so we thought could get started and any help you need we could see it as the practice sessions move along. I hope you don't mind that we started without you.

Gunjan tried her best to hide her disappointment from creeping up on her face. She didn't know wat was hurting her more samrat's casual yet indifferent attitude or he alienating himself by repetitive use of the word "we" and trying to hide behind it. She gave a tremulous smile and managed in her best tone "its ok, I understand, but bata dete toh aur acha lagta"

Gunjan's soft spoken words and her shaky smile were tearing the walls as usual but he knew if this time he gave in they were for sure headed to a disaster, may be not imme but some time soon enuf they wud, it was not going to be any diff now. He covers up his dismay "aw…sorry gunjan , kal ke hadse ke baad I forgot to inform….all of us were preoccupied right and I didn't think of it at all.

Gunjan"its ok, chalo practice Karen mujhe woh ek under the knee wala move practice karna tha"

Samrat cutting her short "tum practice karo gunjan mujhe rita ko kuch basket dalne ke techniques aur sikhane hai, u r good at it, u don't need my help" n before she could object he stormed off towards rita's direction

Samrat cud feel chashmish's eyes burning him all the way when he was moving and running along with rita. Infact he had taken extra pains to smile a lot n laugh a lot with Rita so that chahsmish could hate him n hating him she was with all d energy stored inside her, if he was to go by d looks she was darting in their direction

Samrat had aggravated her anger by snubbing her politely every now and then when she was trying to come running to him like a cute lil puppy saying "samrat kya tumjhe yeh techique sikha sakte ho"

Samrat had each time rebuffed her with "abhi nahi gunjan…..am right now teaching rita n she's a key player I have to concentrate on her, tum please khud practice karlo phir hum baad me dekhenge" and the last time she had come to him, he had admonished her a little harshly though others cud not hear him he had raised his tone "kya gunjan …tumhe ek baar batao toh samajh nahi aata….i cant believe ki tum team ki captain ho…the way u keep running upto me u luks like u r the weakest player in the team who needs the constant attention of the coach".

That did the trick, Gunjan swallowed the hurt he had inflicted with a meek sorry n assured him he need not worry, she will not diturb him any more and to add oil to the fire he was getting extra close to rita who seemed to be enjoying all the attention shamelessly

Gunjan wanted to burn rita with her eyes if she could but more than that she wanted to burn samrat first….no cut that she wanted to burn herself….she cries mentally in her mind "why did I have to fall for this guy ….every time I meet with him he breaks my heart into little pieces , don't I have any sense, god why did u have to do this to me and her tender heart which was craving for samrat's attention finally became a victim of samrat's indifference. She could not control herself any longer. The moment she sees tears breaking the barrier, she rushes out of the bb court without anyone noticing her as all were busy practicing but one pair of eyes follow her without blinking till she disappeared out of sight

Samrat should have felt happy but all he felt was a crushed feeling but he knew this had to be done, if he was to be left sane. It was better this way. After another ten minutes he dismisses the team and especially the clinging rita who seemed to have read his signals wrongly. He had put her right and he dismissed her without another word. Another ten minutes pass by as he vigorously plays alone and tires to sweat himself out and when he was sure he was both mentally n physically drained , he calls it a day

As samrat was heading towards the changing room, he saw all the girls leaving n waving him a bye on their way out. Just as he was crossing the girls' dressing room, he hears a silent whimper, as if someone was trying hard to control her sobs. He knew all the girls had left as he had seen them just a min back that means only one was left out n d piercing sensation was back in his heart.

Samrat knew who it was n he thinks "nahi samrat…..tujhe use ignore karna hoga, agar abhi tu pigal gaya toh phir wapas usi daldal me phas jaayega….no u have to do this, move on, get on to ur room" As he moves along her whimpers echo in his mind n rile him and just as he's about to enter his room, his control breaks away. He hits the wall hard with his tender hand that was bandaged coz he knew he couldn't stay away, not if he wanted to stay alive coz his mind cud rile all it liked but his heart was killing him every second n he just could not stay away

Gunjan tries to control her sobs. She knew she needed to get up n wash her face. She had cried enough for the loss of her first love. Yes she knew it now, she cud never make samrat love her. She had been a fool to fall for him. It was her mistake. Knowing his volatile nature she had taken a risk and now was paying for it. She was not crying becoz she had loved him, she was crying coz her love was not ever going to be returned, how much ever she tried. Samrat was going to freeze her off just the way he had done for the past half an hour in the court, as if not caring about her very existence. She had waited in the rest room crying silent tears for the last20 minutes n now was sitting on the slab which was at 3ft from the ground. Her head bent between her knees and her hands coming around on her knees, she was trying to muffle her sobs. Amidst her sobs n pain she fails to hear the mild creaking sound of the door opening.

Samrat's heart twists with a pain unexplainable on finding chashmish sitting in that vulnerable position on the slab and trying to control her sobs. He soundlessly goes towards her and removes her hand from n knees

Gunjan jerks off, shocked at being intruded in a miserable private moment of hers and the moment she sees samrat her fury turns into a wild rage. "How dare he come n touch me after doing all this"

Gunjan wipes her tears trying to avoid showing any weakness to him "tum yahan kya kar rahe ho"

Samrat "whats wrong chashmish….tum ro kyu rahi ho…..kya baat hai" in a pleading n yet not giving away tone. Her tears were already slashing every little nerve of emotion inside him

Gunjan hardens her mind n resolve n answers back angrily" tumhe isse matlab , tumhe kuch kaam hai to batao aur mujhe akela chod do" she thinks furiously , the nerve of the guy asking if what was wrong after perpetuating her misery with his own hands

Samrat refuses to budge. He knew he cannot move an inch till he sees the sunny smile back on her face and there was no other way for him. He just could not help feeling any diff about it

Samrat "chashmish, am sorry tum mujse naraz ho kya ki maine tumse aaj thodi oonchi aawaz me baat kiya, am sorry chashmish, I didn't…."

Gunjan "stop it samrat , mujhe tumhari koi baat nahi sunni hai, na hi tumne mujse kuch harshly baat kiya, agar tumhe mujse kuch kaam nahi hai toh mujhe akela chod do, Pls, she adds sternly

Samrat "chashmish meri baat toh suno"

Gunjan "I said leave it samrat n stop calling me chahsmish, its irritating the hell out of me. I have a name if u can't use it u better don't try talking to me"

Samrat "sorry chahsmish, wahi toh nahi kar pa raha hun, am trying ,trust me, am trying my level best to stay away from u but I cant help it"

Gunjan was shocked by his open honesty but could not believe him an inch much as her heart was pushing her to do so, reality was diff. She had already been fooled twice she was not going to fall a victim third time and she was well aware of his charms. She tried to get down from the slab but samrat stops her movement with his hands holding her waist a prisoner. Imme a thousand riotous hormones come for the kill inside her. She panics "yeh kya kar rahe ho samrat, apna haath hatoa and mujhe jaane do"

Samrat replies firmly "nahi chashmish not till u tell me y u r upset"

Gunjan" tum apne aapko samajthe kya ho, am not answerable to anyone , least of all to u Mr Samrat Shergill"

Samrat " but I want an answer, am not moving an inch till u tell me whats wrong with u " he wondered whats wrong why did he want to add more misery to his heart when he knew he was the reason behind her turmoil n her affirming it was gonna make his pain more unbearable but he knew he cant leave her like this, he will do anything to make it upto her even if it meant breaking his own resolve of this morning

Gunjan irritated by his mock concern n giving way to the pent up anger against him lashes out "stop ur drama samrat, am tired of it, tum aakhir mujse chahte kya ho, har baar mera dil todke tumhe milta kya hai, maine tumhara kya bigada hai, mai toh tumhare peeche bhaag ke nayi aayi thi na, phir kyun tum mujhe aise follow kar karke hurt kiye jaa rahe ro, pls listen to me for the final time, I don't want anything to do with u, pls stay from me, I hate u, I hate u so much that I never thought it was possible to hate a human being to this extent. Pls stay out of my life aur aainda apni shakal mujhe mat dikhana"saying so she pushes away his hands from her waist but his hands only grew more firm n held her strongly

Samrat bearing the pain unleashed by Chashmish's anger says in a soft tone" am sorry chahsmish….i didn't mean to, …..am really sorry chashmish….pls belive me ….i didn't want to hurt u, that's y I stayed away from u….i knew I will hurt u like this that's y I was avoiding u…..i wont trouble u anymore but pls don't cry, u tears are creating a havoc inside me…..pls stop….pls ….pleeez" he doesn't know its her pain or his pain which were flowing in the form of tears from his eyes

Samrat continues "I know I have hurt u, I don't deserve ur friendship, I knew u wud end up getting hurt, bt every time I came in touch with u, I grew more greedy for ur warmth and cudnt stay away from u, but I will now, I wont give u ne prrroblem…plssss belv me…..i know …I know I don't deserve ur forgiveness….but pls forgive me this once n I will be out of ur life n pls stop s top cry crying"

Gunjan calls herself a thousand fool to be even listening to his words but what could she do , she had already fallen in love with this complex idiot, she cannot help her vulnerability around him. When he talks, when his tears pour out her hurt seems to vanish away into thin air, She never knew someone's love n pain cud make u forget urs ever existed, as if u have no individuality , its all about ur partner n she was no diff, his words had already melted her anger n now his tears was breaking the final barrier she had erected to shield her heart

Gunjan" why samrat ….why do u do this to me" as if she cudnt understand it anymore the complex working of both their hearts "kyun tum mujhe hamesha aise tadpathe rahte ho …..y do I easily give in….i hate u for making me so weak….i hate u ki tum mujhe itni aasani se tod dete ho…..(she starts beating him on his chest a lil harshly) " I don't want to talk to u….ever…(she continues to beat him more vigorously n samrat does nothing to stop her) ….dafa kyun nahi hote tum idhar se…..y do u hav to kill me like this" n saying so she stops beating him n hugs him tightly as if she cudnt take their turmoil any longer n only solace left for her was in his arms n she hugs him as if she wud never let him out of her sight n repeats "I hate u so much……I don't want to be with u ever…..u r ….u r soooo horrible to me…..u keep breaking my my heart,,…."

Samrat gulps the sob choking his throat at her breaking voice lashing accusations amidst beating him, he wanted her to beat him more harshly. He knew he deserved it n out of nowhere as if her heart realized the just one thing his heart was craving for secretly amidst all this emotional turbulence, she hugs him all the while mouthing that she hates him , she didn't want to be with him. Samrat unable to help himself n thanking the fate for this small paradise, hugs her back with all his strength. His arms were literally crushing her and trying to squeeze the breathe out of her

Gunjan realizes his pain in the intensity of his hug which would kill her soon enuf if she didn't do anything soon. His whole body was trembling 10 times more than her own. She knew something was killing him inside which was making him stay away from her and it was equally killing him not being able to do so in spite of trying hard. She tries to pass on her strength in the hug trying to tell him, she was with him n would do anything for him, fight any demons of his n be with him always if he wanted. All he had to do was ask but she knew it was too soon. She soothes his back in a comforting gesture forgetting that it was her few minutes back who was in major need of comfort n reassurance

Samrat slowly eases his hold n inch by inch removes his hands which had literally choked her to death few seconds back. He slowly raises his head n looks into her tear streaked face n his heart burns once more n both r lost in each other's misery n waiting for some ray of hope. Without thinking a sec more he starts kissing away her tears, licks the tears from her cheeks, kisses her eyes, on her jaw, everywhere where tears had left their trace all the while mouthing "am sorry chahsmish, pleez mujhe maaf kar do….i didn't mean to hurt u,……pls forgive me…..pls don't ever cry again pleeez don't do this ever again….plss….u wud'nt right" n finally looks into her face once again amidst his numerous kisses he had bestowed on every inch of her face except her lips. Both r caught in the web of trance.

Samrat doesn't realize what he was doing, all he realizes was her lips were calling onto him n he cudnt resist them n before he cud bring himself to check, his lips meet her in brief tiny but powerful kiss n the thousand volt shock that sizzles through them jolts him out of his trance n realizing his mistake he vehemently tries to pull back but not before Gunjan has seen his withdrawal

Gunjan's whole body was rejoicing the soothing effect his kisses were bringing in her heart along with his apologies, it was as if he was paying a tribute to every inch of her face n not planning to leave even a small square inch n not minding covering the same area again n again n finally when he breaks the contact n her eyes opened, feeling the loss of his contact she goes into a trance looking into his eyes n before she cud even blink his lips seek hers out of compulsion n the passionate kiss began to fade away even before it cud start. She saw before she felt the signs of withdrawal in his eyes. But this time she was not going to let go. She now knew it was not going to be easy but if she cared for her sanity she had to fight his demons n fight him as well if need be n play dirty if it meant she cud earn a lifetime of happiness.

To be continued

CHAPTER 5 PART C

Gunjan thought she would show him she was not gonna be meek n let go easily this time, n before samrat could pull back, she pulls him with all her strength n before he realizes she kisses him with full force, with all passion burning up inside her,

Samrat tries to push her away n he succeeds for a moment but in that instance when he sees her hurt beginning to take shape becoz of his rejection, he crumbles that before it can take root n pulls her back into his arms with a groan n gives in to the passion she had ignited in him, kissing her with all his might, showing her with every possible fusion of his lips what words were failing to do. The pent up anger, hurt, frustration all turns him a little aggressive n the same reflects in the intensity of his kiss. It was as If he was not even giving her a choice to respond back. His lips were swallowing hers up. His teeth were making harsh indents on her lips in his vigor, his bites r turning more arduous n before long her moan of pain shakes him out of his wild abandoning of his senses.

Realizing his brutal attack, Samrat imme changes track n makes gentle sweep of her lips with his, sucks her lips slowly as if in reverence and celebrates her whole existence in just that one kiss which seemed to be conveying much more than words cud ever do. Their hands were languorously wandering all over their backs, while samrat's tries to span her waist. He was trying to pull her in as much closer while not breaking contact with her lips, as if he cudnt bear an iota of gap between them, as if making up for the wide chasm between their hearts. He was eating her up literally.

Gunjan seemed to have drowned in the emotions he had broken open inside her heart. She cudnt even bring herself to respond back, looking at his wild loss of control. His lips were bruising hers but she didn't seem to be minding it coz it showed in a way how much he was equally affected by her. Her lips felt brutally attacked by the way samrat was tugging at it with his teeth but this was pure bittersweet pain.

For Gunjan Finally after uncountable minutes of this sheer sweet torture she lets out a moan thanks to which the kiss had totally changed course. What was wild earlier had become worshipping now. It was as if he was paying silent tribute, letting her feel how tenderly she needed to be handled, as if all his energy was put into this one moment to tell her with his lips what she meant to him, as if he cudnt show his veneration for her anymore, as if all his pent love was waiting for this outlet and his energy, nerves, love , hope , fear all seemed to be mixed in that one kiss. It was everything she had hoped for and dreamt for when she realized her love this morning. There could not have been a more beautiful acknowledgement from his side for her love and showing his reciprocation. Word seemed meaningless, redundant n mundane when they had crossed miles with their passion and emotions

Both held on to each other not wanting to let go. They knew this was a precious moment as much as their lips were celebrating this moment, their hearts were rejoicing the effect of this beautiful moment ten fold and time stood still for them n waves of pleasure were washing over their hearts.

With great difficulty gunjan slowly breaks their kiss and samrat allows more so coz they both needed to catch their breathe, if not anything else.

Gunjan shyly looks into his eyes silently asking for an acknowledgement of if it meant the same to him, their precious moments were as priceless to him as to her. His eyes reciprocate her question but for him it still was not right, coz it had no path that cud take them forward, but he shut his mind and decided he will think about future when its time for that. He cannot stay without her now even when he realized it was going to hurt her in the end. Yes he was selfish to want something when he knew he cant give anything in return but this time he coudnt help, he cudnt stop this, if his sanity depended on her one smile then how cud he deny himself that. No he will go with the flow but try not to go overboard so that when time comes he would be able to find a way out for them

Silently acknowledging the timelessness of their kiss they keep the words away, letting their eyes communicate everything. Gunjan was ecstatic that she could read the same intensity in samrat's eyes as hers but she was only reading what he was allowing her to read. After one tight hug, they silently travel back to gunjan's house and once there they get separated, with Gunjan being called for prep for the evening but they follow each other throughout with their eyes talking about everything that happened between them in the afternoon

It's as if their eyes were silently acknowledging what words and time wouldn't allow them to do so openly and finally samrat had to leave to go get dressed for the sangeet function

As the evening started all the girls were looking princess, gunjan was wearing a red gharga with yellow blouse made with numberous beads n zardosi work and her dupatta was shining with all the golden beads and her figure was beautifully enhances by the apt fitting of her dress, in short she was looking heavenly and nupur was wearing a dark blue lehenga with silver colour beads and silver satin lace adorning the border and dia was wearing a green gown with dovetail tail fitting and top was more like tube top and bodice was fitted with lace and threads accentuating her figure (I know am pathetic at describing the dresses'.so pls bear with me)

The guys were dressed in matching sherwani outfits, though it was by design for benji and mayank but fo samrat it was more on benji's insistence coz dia had told him in the afternoon gunji was wearing a red ghagra. They all looked fab in short

Soon the house is filled with all guest and the moment samrat's eyes cath a glimpse of gunjan , he was spellbound'.mano ki aasman ki koi pari zameen pe uthar aayi ho aur gunjan ke liye tho samrat kisi Rajkumar se kam nahi lag raha tha '.dono ki nazren ek doosre se hath nahi rahi thi,

uday notices samrat's stupefied expression n interrupts "samrat kya hua tu aise kya dekh raha hai'.tere expression se aise lagta hai tujhe ek hi plate me rasgulla, gulab jamun, rasmalai aur kulfi mil gayi ho"

Samrat breaking his eye contact replies jovially to uday while still stealing glances at chashmish as if his eyes cud not look beyond or her or anyone but her

Gunjan shyly returns his glances'.the innocence of their shy filled glances, cant help looking at each other moments, eye locking moments, one's smile transforming other's face moments were pure magic.

Nupur and Mayank were having naughty glances of the to be married couples and benji and dia's glances spoke of the strength of their love surpassing all problems. Each of the couples were lost in the reverie of their own.

Nupur "arey bhai'.sangeet shuru karoge tum log ya nahi'.had ho gayi dulhan ko besharm hoke yeh sab poochna padtha hai'..kya zamana aa gaya hai"

Samrat "Ms bakbak machine, agar aap apna mooh band karengi toh tabhi toh koi gaana shuru kare

Nupur mock angrily "hey Mr Casanova '.

Samrat "dekha phir shuru gayi'mayank dude nupur ki language me bolun "by god isko chup karana bas tere hi bas ki baat hai jaise tu kehta hai"'.nupur looks up angrily at mayank as if daring him to agree he had said that

Mayank angrily "samrat pitwayega kya'.shaadi se pehle hi divorce kara dega tu toh''nupur sweetheart meri itni himmat ki mai apne dil ki mallika ke liye aise kuch kabhi soch sakun, bolna toh dur ki baat hai"

All share a light hearted laugh while nupur is pleased by mayank's words n benji shouts music n all start dancing on the DJ's note n d first one to hit the floor was uday with his cute lil steps n trying to shout in his voice along with the background song

Jisse dhoondta hoon main har kahin Jo kabhi mili mujhe hai nahin Mujhe jiske pyaar par ho yakeen
Woh ladki hai kahan Jisse sirf mujhse hi pyaar ho Jo yeh kehne ko bhi taiyyaar ho Suno tum hi mere dil

(All do the cute little signature steps of the song)

Benji moves towards dia and tenderly takes her into his arms n sings with a devotion

Vaada raha (Vaada raha pyaar se pyaar ka Ab hum na honge judaa) ' 2 Yeh meri dhadkanein sun raha hai khuda

Dia hugs himg tightly and sings

Chaahe tumhe kis kadar mera dil Tumko nahin hai pata Yeh meri dhadkanein sun raha hai khuda

Mayank gets ino the flow n starts

:tere ghar aaya mai aaya tujko lene dil ke badle me dil ka nazrana dene , meri har dhadkan kya bole he sus sun sun,"

D gang joins luking at nupur who's smiling heartily "saajn ji ghar aaya, saajna ji ghar aaye, dulhan kyun sharmaye , saajan ji ghar aaye"

Nupur lovingly embraces Mayank and sings

"Oh hua jo tu bhi mera mera Tera Jo ikrarr hua, Toh kyun na mein bhi Keh dun keh dun Hua mujhe bhi pyaar hua

(at which Mayank embraces her n sways backward entrusting her body to swing freely in his arms n all d gang members say "ooooooooooooooo"

Mayank brings her upright n continues while both r lost in each other's sight

"Tera hone laga hoon Khone Laga hoon Jab se mila hoon Tera hone laga hoon Khone Laga hoon Jab se mila hoon

Benji starts singing rejoicing dia's presence in his life n indirectly triggers a volley of emotions in samrat's heart as welll but its smarat who's most affected by his words n d song as if fate is signaling him "

In dino dil mera mujse hai keh raha tu khwab saja, tu jeel zara, hai tujhe bhi izajat karle tub hi mohanbaat"

berang si hai badi zindagi kuchh rang to bharoon main apani tanahaayi ke waaste abbb kuchh toh karoon) ' Samrat's eyes exhibit the loneliness he's feeling to a life time of happiness standing a few feet away

jab mile thodi fursat - , mujhse karle muhabbat hai tujhe bhi izaazat, karle tu bhi muhabbat ' samrat looking up into gunjan's eyes and craving a feeling which he knows can never be assuaged usako chhupaakar main sabse kabhi le chaloon kahin door... (he slowly caresses her cheeks as if scared of hurting her even by touching)aankhon ke pyaalon kse pita rahoon usake chehre ka noor) ' (he holds her face in his hands and unable to belive how beauty of a heart can be so equally transofrmediss jamaane se chhupakar - 2, puri karloon main hasrathai tujhe bhi izaazat, karle tu bhi muhabbat - in dino, dil mera, mujhse hai keh rahatu khaab saja, tu ji le jarahai tujhe bhi izaazat, karle tu bhi muhabbat -

Benji nudges him breaking his dream in which eh was imagining worjsipping chahsmish literally

Dia comes around n prods Gunjan with an elbow who's lots in samrat's eyes just like he was n realizing her open blatant loving with her eyes act she quickly shys away n starts singing beautifully "goonji si hai, saari fiza jaise bajti ho shehanayiyan, leharati hai saari fiza gungunati hai tanhayiyan,

Now Gunjan looks up to samrat n indicates him with her eyes "sab gaate hai sab hi madhosh hain hum tum kyun khamosh hain, saaze dil chedo na, chup ho kyun gao na (luking up n signaling him with her pleading eyes to sing n benji catching all the right signals hands a guitar to his buddy)

Samrat already lost in chahsmish's eyes n her her inherent beauty reflecting on her face, slowly as if in a daze starts strumming the strings and sings "Oh, kho gaya main khayaalon mein Ab neend bhi nahin aankhon mein Karvatein bas badalta hoon Ab jaagta hoon main raaton mein Ab doori na sehni, har lamha kehta hai Na jaane haal mera aisa kyoon rehta hai Main deewana tera ban gaya jaane jaana Main fasaana tera ban gaya jaane jaana Haseena gori gori, churaaya chori chori Churaaya dil chori chori chori chori chori Dil ko " n he stops abruptly as if realizing what he was about to sing much by the compulsion of d magic chashmish was weaving on him All r stunned as to why he is standing still, as if his nerves hav caught up with him,

benji realizing his turmoil n tension goes around him n playingly, pulls the strings n points his finger at diya n continues "dil ko tumse pyar hua, pehli baar hua, tumse pyar hua" n d atmosphere lightens

Mayank goes n on the spur of the moment lifts her high n looks adoringly at her singing "mai bhi aashiq yaar pehli baar hua tumse pyaar hua"

Benji Taking dia in his arms "chayi hai '.betabi '

Mayank twirling nupur "meri jaan kaho mai kya karun" all the while Sammy n gunji are lost in each other's eyes, gunji in love, Sammy in a web of fear, doubt n attraction all pulling his control down d drain

All of a sudden Deepak makes an entry, he' s looking totally cool in a white sherwani, n starts singing funnily looking upto gunjan "dekah jo tujhe yaar dil me baji guitar, chaya aankno me pyar dil me baji guitar, jhoom utha dekho aaman re, (gunjan beats him adoringly n smiles at his audacity) h he smilingly holds her hand to his heart choo liya dekho aasman re

Samrat's cloud disappears in vapors n in its place another form of vapor starts coming out of his ears n d eyes that were lost to d world sumtime back r ready to do murder , escp one person n benji understands this n signals to dodo who for once is quick to act n pushes gunjan out of deepak's arms n dances in front of Deepak singing "are re re mai toh gaya re, dil bhi gaya re, are re re mai toh gaya re dil bhi gaya re"Deepak being the nice guy though a bit shocked joins in d fun n dances merrily with him

To be continued

Gunjan smilingly goes inside, happy with everything around her n samrat follows her , n corners her behind a secluded pillar, holding her a prisoner in his arms n his legs in a wide stance almost arresting her legs
Gunjan shocked but pleasantly says"samrattttt'.kya kar rahe ho" d smile is still there on her face
Samrat "kyun chahsmish haseen bahut aa rahi haina tumhe, itni khush kyun lag rahi ho"

Gunjan is shocked by his sarcastic tone n before she cud ask

samrat continues in a greenish jealous color "Deepak gaata hai toh bahut acha lagta hai na tumhe aur jab maine gaya toh just no reaction'..u r flying high on just seeing him, whats d matter, am I comin in between (its as if he cudnt stop once he has started)

Gunjan realized that it was his insecurity making him talk like that n more over its was d green color giving him away , d color of jealousy n she was loving it n she continues mischievously, stroking his cheek lovingly "kyun samrat'..agar Deepak mujhe acha lagta hai toh tumhe use kya prob hai, tumhe kyun itni takleef ho rahi hai"

Samrat turning further wild n catches hold of her hand n twists it behind her in his jealous mood n warningly says"acha, yeh baat hai, toh phir meri baahon me kyun tum kho jaati ho agar deepak tumhe pasand hai toh", pulling her further closer n making her gasp at the contact "mai jab tumhe choota hun toh phir kyun tumhari dhadkanen tez ho jaati hain" n still going closer to her lips while releasing her hand n pushing her to the pillar n placing his hands on either side goes slowly inch by inch closer to her, "if u like him, why is ur heart now tugging me to kiss u" n saying so lovingly kisses her cheek n thousand flowers bloom inside her ,

Samrat thinks two can play this game n continues "agar Deepak ke liye tumhare chehre pe smile hai toh tumhari nazren kyun mujhe dhoondthi rahthi hain, agar mujhe farak nahi padna chaiye toh mere choone se tumhe kyun itna farak padatha hai"'..saying this he sweeps his hands in a caressing gesture, bringing goosebumps on her skin n holds her naked slim neck lovingly'.."100 watt smile uske liye magar 1000 volt ka shock mere choone se"'..saying so he comes closer , gunjan is unable to look him in d eye in d anticipation of expecting his kiss when she sees him that close, she closes her eyes to drown in his love'.n after few seconds'wonders'.hello what happened

Gunjan opens hey eyes n sees samrat smiling devilishly n standing almost a feet away but with his hands still clamped on the either side of d pillar on which she was resting her back

Samrat "kya hua chashmish'.were u waiting for something " with a wicked grin in her direction

Gunjan is mortified for being so blatantly open in showing her love for him n is angry at him for her having had her in a state of bliss so easily n toying with her n she tries to push him angrily away to move away from d place

Samrat having anticipated what chashmish's reaction would be smilingly blocks her moves n arrests her even more firmly than before "not so fast chashmish'..not until u tell me wats with u n Deepak"

Gunajn is now seriously riled n thinks how can he be so duh'.when am head over heels in love with him how can he worry about Deepak, but decides he shud not have everything so easily n smiling coyly says "janna zaroori hai"

Samrat "tum seedhi tarah bataogi ya main'" n moves one steps closer to her menacingly as is patience n brain r running at 20miles /second allowing him no peace of mind or time to catch his thots

Gunjan smilingly "batati hun smarat'tum bhi na'.ek dum bekaar me gussa ho jaate ho'yahan paas aao tabhi bataongi

Samrat smells something fishy but still is captivated by d smile dazzling in her face n eyes n inches slowly closer to her

Gunjan when realizes he has come close enuf she screams in his ears "sorry dumbo'.not so easillyyyyyyyy"

Samrat reels back from d shock his ear drums had been exposed to n before he cud gather himself, chahsmish uses his shock as an excuse n escapes n just around d staircase looks back smilingly n a lil high highhandedly having got the better of him Gunajn says "toh Mr samrat shergill, games khelna tumi shahar walon ka khali haq nahi hai'.tut tut tut'.how sad'.d great samrat fooled by a damsel in distress'tut tut'.may b next time

Samrat all d while enjoying d teasing banter of chahsmish moves towards her with a clear resolve'.he will have his answer either which ways n whatever it takes it to get it

Gunjan seeing him moving purposefully towards her shrieks in fear but not wasting time rushes downstairs n samrat ctaches up quickly with her n just as she is in the last but one stair she slips n is about to fall back n before she can fall samrat holds her her n supports her in his arms.

Gunajn is scared of falling down but just in time her angel saves her, n d moment his arms enclose her safely she's lost in d haven of his arms while song is being played in d background"chaha to bahut na chahen tumhe , chahat pe magar koi zor nahi, dil hi to hai tumpe aa hi gaya, dil ka sanam ye kasoor nahi dil hi toh hai tum pe aa hi gaya , dil ka sanam yeh kasoor nahin"

Samrat as usual slowly inches forward to try n steal what he denied himself few minutes back n before he cud get any closer uday the dodo interrupts "yeh kya ho raha hai bhaiyya , yeh kay ho raha hai"

Benji joining in d fun continues "kuch nahi nahi pyar ho rah hai n steals his eyes n looks at d roof when samrat stares back angrily

Dia continues taking benji's hands "need ja rahi hai chain kho raha hai hai, pyar pyar pyar ho raha hai" Samrat turns his attention to gunjan signaling her to leave the crowd n come behind the hall n gunjan laughingly says no with a shake of her head , knowing revenge was on his mind still

Samrat gets angry n mayank keeps a shoulder on his hand asking him whats wrong with his eyes n smarat corrects his expression n smiling sarcastically starts singing "sochti hai zyada, kam who samajti hai, (goes n nudges gunjan a lil hard when she's about to fall holds her in his arms "dil kuch kehta hai kuch aur hi karti hai'.dropping her almost "ladki kyun na jaane kyun 'ladkon si nahi hoti"

N all guys join in ladki kyun na jaane kyun ladkon si nahi hoti

Nupur getting angry that mayank joined in sings angrily Itnaa Hi Khud Se Khush Ho To, Peeche Kyon Aate Ho Phool Kabhi To Hazaar Tohfe Aakhir Kyon Laate Ho
Dia continues angrily going around benji in circles Apna Naam Nahin Bataya Aapne Coffee Peene Chaleingi Aap Main Aapko Ghar Chhod Doon, Phir Kab Mileingi
Bikhra Bikhra Bematlab Sa, Toota Phoota Jeena Aur Kahte Ho Alag Se Hain Hum Taan Ke Apna Seena

Nupur continues
Bheega Toliya Kahin Farsh Pe
Toothpaste Ka Dhakkan Kahin Kal Ke Mauze Ulat Ke Pahne, Waqt Ka Kuch Bhi Hosh Nahin

Gunjan going towards samrat sings with a devilish smile pushes him forward cutely n pulls his shewani when he's about to lose balance Jeene Ka Tumko Dhang Sikhlate Hain Tumhein Jaanvar Se Insan Banate Hain
Uske Bina Ek Pal Rah Na Sakoge Tum Usko Pata Hai Ye Kah Na Sakoge Tum
Isliye Ladkiyan Ladkon Si Nahin Hoti.


Samrat : Alright Alright Iss Mein Jhagadne Ki Kya Baat Hai Yaar

Mayank changes the mood which had riled the girls by singingDekha tumko jabse dekha tuymko yaar, tumse koi acha hai na tumse koi pyar, yun nazren nap hero tum , mere ho mere tum, keh do na, keh do no u r my sonia, (mayank n benji go on their knees in front of nupur n dia,n the girls cant help but melt in d love of these cute lil guys)

Gunjan is smiling all the while n suddenly she catches samrat's eyes passing zillion arrows adorned with garlands of love in her direction. Sometimes looking at the intensity of his eyes, the pleasure of which words had always been denied , she gets scared , if its all a chram which if she blinks her eyes will break and she will be left hurt n alone all over again

In the meanwhile Rita who always had the hots for Deepak, goes n does a sizzling dance in front of him , sliding sensuously much to the embarrassment n dislike of Deepak but being d gentleman he is , he simply tries to escape dousing d blush creeping up in his cheeks due to her balant attempt but she was man eater n wud not let go of easily

Rita sings "jadoo hai nasha hai, madhoshiyaan hai, tujko bhulake ab jaon kahan

Gunjan gets a dejavu feeling as if rita was taunting her about samrat Dekthi hai jis tarah se teri nazren mujhe, mai khud ko chupaon kahan.

Gunjan is scared; her heart is being engulfed in an unkown fear. Much as she is basking in the undivided attention of samrat, something doesn't seem right ot her at the back of her mind n her nagging thot is playing spoiltsport to her happiness. God mujhe aisa kyun lag raha hai ki yeh kuhshi mere dil ko khilane se pehle hi bhuj jaayegi. Yeh kaisi ajeeb se behciani jo ek taraf samrat ki aankhon me kho jaana chahti hai aur doosri taraf uski aankhon ke gahrayi ke peeche chupe ek aanewale toofan ka sanket bhi de rahi hai.

While these thoughts were hounding her, she goes astray from d main hall n walks up to the garden without a conscious thought just trying to find the source of this unknown fear. U cant blame her after all samrat had already broken her heart twice within a short time of meeting up with her, albeit unknowingly While she's looking up into the sky, in a daze, not knowing whats reality and whats fictious ne more, just when she feels the breeze caressing her softly. Without stopping to relish d cool soothing effect the breeze brought with it, she knew there was some other energy as well that was having this refreshing effect on her. She didn't have to turn around to feel d pulse accelerating her beats to know the reason for the same was here as well

Samrat walks slowly upto chashmish, finally glad to have got her all to himself, n away from the entire crowd. He was not sure what was bothering his mind more, the physical distance from her heart's or the cloud of fear clutching his heart which was invariably transmitting its intensity to her as well unknowingly
Samrat in a low voice as if scared of breaking a code" chahsmish tum yahan'.akele kay hua"

Gunjan closes her eyes at his words, She knew she had lost it all day before yesterday but all it tuk was a low intensity decibel of his voice to reach her n she was drwoning, as if d chords of her heart were pulled at by lowest sound or d least emotion he ever expresses. She was shocked at the depth in which she was finding herself and the thougt she might be lost to herself forever was not doing anything better for her

Samrat inching forward, scared at the lack of response, her taut back, feels as if sumone was waiting to strike n deal him d blow yet again but no he cud not allow it this time. It will be his decision alone when to let go n now he needed chahsmish's warmth like the next breathe of his life.Before his mind or fate cud intervene he grabbed the lease of his hopes with both hands n literally so encircling chashmish from behind tightly as if arresting her in his arms would make all the demons back away from them
Gunjan is shocked by the sudden imprisonment of samrat's arms.n thinks " god y does this physical imprisonment in his arms seem to be liberating the fears of my mind'.just one touch, one look, one word n i lose my perspective n lose myself all over again in the abyss of love in which i seem to be falling deeper and deeper with no intentions of ever surfacing but contrary to feeling fear at this thot like my mind wud, my heart seems to be soaring sky high as if freed from the cluctches of my mind.

She knows his fear is all mixed up with love in that tight hug and she cannot bear being the reason for such turmoil to his vulnerable heart n she turns in his arms n looks deep in his eyes.
Samrat's heart misses a beat when chashmish finally turns in his arms and all he could think was how lucky he was to be recipient of her open warmth and the sunshine radiating out of her whole self. She was a born angel, bringing light into the lives of people she comes in contact with. She made him feel the impossible. She made him crave the unachievable. She made him want the unattainable; she made him in short, yearn to live this life

Samrat slowly kisses her eyes that were closed to his eyes, as if shielding the feeling running riotous in her heart. He slowly kisses her foreheard, her neck and finally his lips seek the very lips of hers in veneration, paying a tribute just for her existence, just for being the beautiful self she is, his lips cajoling hers communicate the zeal of desire for life she invokes in him everytime he wants to run away from it. His breathe mingles in heavenly union with her breathe, which literally ushers life into d deserted heart of his , invigorating the spirit of his soul, calling him to reach for the dreams that he bleives misguidedly were never meant for him And somewhere in the backgiound of the heart you can hear faint sound of the song

Hum, rahen ya na rahen kal Kal yaad aayenge ke ye palPal, ye hain pyar ke pal Chal, aa mere sang chalChal, soche kya Chhoti si, hai zindagiKal, mil jaaye to hogi khush-naseebiHum rahen ya na rahen yaad aayenge ye pal To be continued

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wonderful story
you express it so well.
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awesome but when they will confess their love for each other ah im waiting for it

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