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Happy birthday Nikki :) This one s for u :)
Jab we met again...
It was a party..a big show with a big movie star on the channel I have newly joined, had just wrapped up and so, as expected,the party was a huge affair! I looked around with mild interest, there were many people I knew vaguely but none I was close to. Contrary to popular perception I was not close to a lot of people. I was a friendly person so people often misunderstood that for friendships, I never took the pain to correct them. I dont need advice on how to live my life, I was fine the way I Was, Thank you very much.
I know, I sound a little too bitter, unlike my earlier self. Thats the way life is I think, its probably the work, its just not the same as before, I cant describe it, I cant define it or maybe I can, but I dont want to. I am trying to concentrate on other things in life these days. I am starting to worry how I much I sound unlike myself these days. Its not the others saying anything, its me feeling that way thats bothering me. I'm off alcohol, I dont see anyone I want to burn the dance floor with or even talk to . So what on earth was I doing in this party? Marking my presence ofcourse as against making my presence felt. I have changed haven't I? Stop.. thats the third time I have said that. Its not about me, its about the circumstances that have changed and I have to learn to adjust to them. Thats life. Stop it, I told myself firmly.
I looked around for a change of scenario (in my head ie..)..there were people all around getting drunk, trying to get too close to the movie star, dancing like there was no tomorrow. They seemed to be having fun and that definitely was something missing in my life right now. Where had the fun disappeared? I put on my bluetooth, I had to do something and still look like I was there enjoying the party. I put on a song...and the humming started and it sounded like how I felt then...very disturbed but showing a calm demeanour...and it hummed some
more..
Dil kyun ye mera shor kare..
Dil kyun ye mera shor kare..
Idhar nahi...udhar nahi...
Teri aur chale...
Without thinking, involuntarily, I started searching the crowd...And I saw her face, I looked again, I hadnt imagined it, she was there...at the far end of the party. Could it be true? I wanted to pinch myself. My heart soared.. She was searching for someone too..and she spotted me and her eyes stopped at me and a small smile came across her face. I smiled , my smile reaching my eyes...I'm sure if someone was noticing they would've noticed that my eyes were twinkling..
Zara der main
Yeh kya ho gaya
Nazar milte hi
Kahan kho gaya
Dil kyun ye mera shor kare..
Dil kyun ye mera shor kare..
Idhar nahi...udhar nahi...
Teri aur chale...
Without thinking, involuntarily, I started searching the crowd...And I saw her face, I looked again, I hadnt imagined it, she was there...at the far end of the party. Could it be true? I wanted to pinch myself. My heart soared.. She was searching for someone too..and she spotted me and her eyes stopped at me and a small smile came across her face. I smiled , my smile reaching my eyes...I'm sure if someone was noticing they would've noticed that my eyes were twinkling..
Zara der main
Yeh kya ho gaya
Nazar milte hi
Kahan kho gaya
I looked at her again, she had briefly turned her attention to someone who had spoken something to her, as soon as she was done she turned around to look at me. I smiled some more. I knew she wasnt going to stay with me during the party, that would be like winning the lottery right then. No, that wont happen, but she was there looking at me ever so often, that was good enough for me.
Bheed mein logo ki woh hain wahan
Aur pyaar ki mele mein akela Kitna hoon mein yahan
Aur pyaar ki mele mein akela Kitna hoon mein yahan
Dil kyun yeh mera shor kare
Dil kyun yeh mera shor kare
Idhar nahi
Udhar nahi
Teri ore chale
Dil kyun yeh mera shor kare
Idhar nahi
Udhar nahi
Teri ore chale
I slowly walked towards her, she was wearing a saree, a pink one at that. I loved her in sarees, she looks so good in them. I cant take my eyes off her when she wears one (not that I can otherwise..but hey we are talking about now!)
Shuru ho gai kahani meri
Mere dil ne baat na mani meri
Mere dil ne baat na mani meri
I knew I shouldnt be walking towards her like that, but I was so lost, She had me under her magic spell.
Had se bhi aaghe yeh guzar hi gaya
Khud bhi pareshan hua
Aur mujhko bhi yeh kar gaya
Khud bhi pareshan hua
Aur mujhko bhi yeh kar gaya
Dil kyun yeh mera shor kare
Dil kyun yeh mera shor kare
Idhar nahi
Udhar nahi
Teri ore chale
Dil kyun yeh mera shor kare
Idhar nahi
Udhar nahi
Teri ore chale
I reached her and very cleverly she had managed to free herself and be completely alone. she knew me too well dint she?I grinned at her brightly. I think the brightness of my grin, softened her a bit, we were not supposed to be seen together I know, but then its weird to ignore each other right, we were ex-costars after all, I told her. She smiled at my logic and I winked at her, she smiled some more. Now I know, if someone had indeed seen us, we were done for. We talked a bit but smiled way too much. As we spent some time together,it was fun, just like it always was when we are together. I thought again, now everything seemed right. Just too right ! I smiled happily once again.
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