PYAAR K LIYE- AR ff-FINAL PARTS posted on pg25&26 - Page 7

thanks rani & if u can help me out regarding 3 & 4 part of this ff

PART 11

Guys this part was the most difficult part for me to write. I was myself hurt by writing it. It's so difficult to imagine it all and I just can't imagine how difficult it would be to face it still I tried my best to bring out all the emotions.

"Please mujhe marna mat… main ne kuch nahi kiya… arman yahan nahi aya tha"

"Main ne kuch nahi kiya raj"

"Di wo mujhe lejayega"

Ridhima's words kept echoing in arman's ears the whole night and he couldn't sleep well. In his dreams he even saw a guy beating ridhima, dragging her from the stairs by her hair, throwing her down the stairs, and even try to rape her. he was really scared by his dreams that he didn't fell over on his bed the whole night after that. He wanted to see if ridhima was alright or not right now because after all that happened in the caf anjali had taken her to home and nobody talked about her after that as they were all shocked by her reaction. The way she got scared was horrifying. Her scared eyes and face still floated in front of arman's eyes, her eyes, her innocent face on which there was only fear. What had happened between raj and ridhima?? Why had she said that I didn't come?? Why would he take her away?? These questions were beating inside his head.

The first thing arman did in the morning was to talk to ridhima. He reached her at nurse station where she was standing and talking to some patient over the phone,

"ahh yes you can meet me at 5 pm and do bring your previous reports as well. Ok. Ya bye"

"ridhima I need to talk to you" said arman in a rush.

"hi arman" said ridhima totally ignoring his rush but arman saw that she was scared of his questions that's y she was pretending to be so normal.

"ridhima whatever happened yesterday…"

"dr. ridhima apko dr. sidhaant ne bulaya hai" said a nurse to ridhima.

"ok I'll just be back arman." said ridhima flipping quickly ahead.

"per ridhima…"

"arman I'll talk to you later han. C u" she turned and said and walked away.

"hi arman!"

"hey muskan. teri ridhima se baat hui??"

"han kiyun?"

"wo kal k baray main usne kuch kaha?"

"arman I don't know what was wrong with her per I know this much k she was really scared and I don't want to scare her again by asking what's the matter with her. jb wo khud tayyar hogi tb wo bata degi" said muskan and she walked towards general ward.

"per istarha to wo kabhi nahi bolegi!" he remembered what she had said to anjali the other day "mera dard sirf mera hai" if she was to keep that pain only to herself he was not going to let that happen. He had to take someone's help but whose?? Muskan?? ofcourse! Muskan. who else? After anjali ridhima was closest to muskan.

"muskan I need your help yaar!"

"ab kiya hua?"

"muskan dekh ye baat to obvious hai na k ridhima k sath kuch hua hai jo wo hum sb se chupa rahi hai"

"arman dekh ye uski problem hai humari nahi"

"I know per tujhe nahi lagta k wo apne ap se bhag rahi hai??" at this point muskan didn't said anything.

"dekh muskan mujhe bhi aisa hi lagta tha k humain uski life main interfere nahi karna chahiye per wo kisi baat se dari hui hai or apne ap ko insecure feel kar rahi hai isliye ab tk wo purani ridhima ko wapas nahi la parahi."

"to tu kiya chahta hai??"

"I want you to talk to her"

"kiya bat karun main usse?? Ye puchun k 'hi ridhima mujhe bata tu kis baat se dari hui hai'?"

"muskan bakwas mat kar na yaar. Dekh usko normally friendly baton main laga or usse puch k usko kiya problem hai. I think agar wo kisi ko bol degi or usko ye pata hoga k uskay pas koi support hai to she'll feel better."

"to tu khud kiyun nahi baat kar leta usse??"

"shayad wo mujhse itna khul k baat nahi kar payegi jitna tujhse kar sakti hai"

"ok fine main karungi"

"kb?"

"aj hi"

"cool"

"ouch" ridhima gasped when she was in the locker room with muskan holding her shoulder.

"oye ridzy kiya hua tujhe??" muskan stepped upto her.

"nahi kuch nahi wo bas achanak baazu main bal padgaya shayad"

"a idhar beth ja" muskan led her to the bench and made her sit while she rubbed her arm and shoulder lightly.

"han"

"theek hua?"

"nahi…ouch" she again held her arm when a piercing pain arose inside her.

"ridzy what's wrong with you??"

"I don't know yaar bohat dard horaha hai"

"ridzy kahen koi chot to nahi lagi?" said muskan and she rolled up her sleeves and saw the mark there.

"array ye kiya hua?? Tu ro kiyun rahi hai??" said muskan holding her arm when ridhima suddenly started crying bitterly.

"kuch nahi!"

"ridzy bol kiya hua??" said muskan and ridhima hugged her tightly.

"ridzy!" muskan rubbed her back lightly.

"he used to abuse me muskan!! he used to abuse me badly! Marta tha wo mujhe din raat. Paglon ki tarha, janwaron ki tarha. Kabhi seedhiyon se gira deta to kabhi baalon se kheench k kaheen bhi phenk deta. Jo hath main ata usse marta tha"

"kiyun?"

"usay… usay lagta tha k mera or arman ka humari shadi se pehle affair tha"

"kiya?"

"han… yad hai jb humari shadi hui thi??"

after arman left the wedding, anjali came to raj and said,

"raj meri behen bohat shararti or ziddi hai. Uska khayal rakhna"

"don't worry I'll see to that" said raj smilingly.

After vidayi when it was suhaag rat and raj went inside the room. Ridhima was sitting on the bed with her ghoongat over her face. She was nervous when raj sat on the bed. He softly pulled up her ghoongat and looked at her flawless beauty and then asked,

"kiya keh raha tha arman??"

"ji??"

"jane se pehle tumhara hath pakad k wo kiya keh raha tha??"raj held her hands lovingly and kissed her knuckles which made her shiver.

"wo keh raha tha k mujhe rota hua nahi dekh sakta vidayi k waqt isliye pehle hi jaraha tha"

"kiyun??"

"kiyun k usne mujhe kabhi rote huay dekha nahi na"

"hmm kafi attachment lagti hai tum dono k beech"

"bas abhi kuch din pehle hi humari farewell pe dosti hogayi"

"or itne se dino main ussay tumhara rona bhi nahi dekha jata! Cool friendship" ridhima felt the sarcasm in his voice and she was disturbed.

"raj ap ye kaisi baatain kar rahe hain?"

"or party ki dosti itni gehri hogayi k ek doosre se itne pyaar se hath milaya?"

"raj ap ye sb…"

"kiyun? Apni hone wali patni se milne bhi nahi asakta tha kiya kiyun k main usay miss kar raha tha?? Per mujhe kiya pata tha k meri to be wife to mujhe miss hi nahi kar rahi thi balkay wo to kisi or k sath apne akhri pal enjoy kar rahi thi"

"raj ap hud se badh rahe hain" said ridhima sliding back but raj slapped her hard on her face.

"main hud se badh raha hun?? Or jo tum ne mere sath kiya wo?? Mujhe dhoka diya tum ne uska kiya?? Jhoot bola mujhse k tumhari or arman ki dushmani hai balkay tum dono k beech kiya rishta hai uskay baad to main ne tum dono ki izzat rakh li jo tum se shadi ki. Janti ho kiyun?" raj held her arms tightly and pulled her harshly closer to him and said, "because I loved you and I love you per jo tum ne mere sath kiya uski saza to tumhain mili gi na ridhima"

"raj ap sb ghalat samaj rahe hain humare beech aisa kuch bhi nahi…" before she could complete her sentence he again slapped her face and said,

"I hate lies. Ghalti ki hai to maan lo na ridhima" ridhima was getting up from the bed and she had started crying when raj grabbed her hair from her dupatta and pulled her back and held her mouth tightly and said,

"don't you dare to rum away from me. I hate people who try to run away. You have done wrong now face the consequences and moreover you've betrayed raj sharma. Now you're mrs ridhima sharma and i won't appreciate any public scenes ok. Whatever happened in this room should stay between us"

"oh my God …he doubted you?.. Did …he rape you or something?" muskan asked in a horrified yet low tone.

"nahi. He never touched me in that sense. He never sexually abused me but that physical abuse was more than enough for me"

"didn't you tried to run away?"

"I did. Bohat bar koshish ki bhagne ki per har baar wo mujh tk pohanch jata tha or America se wapas ana bohat mushkil tha mere liye kiyunk all my stuff belonged to him or agar main wahan se wapas a bhi jati to usko pata chal jata"

"tum ne anjali ko bhi kuch nahi bataya?" ridhima shook her head lightly and buried her head in her hands while crying and muskan pulled ridhima in her arms and hugged her tightly.

"ridzy per tu ne ye baat aj tk kisi k samne nahi anay di yahan tk k arman k samne bhi nahi k tu ne uski wajah se kitna suffer kiya?"

"nahi muskan ismain uski to koi ghalati nahi thi na. wo insan hi chote dimagh or gandi zehniyat ka tha ya phir shayad mujhse hi koi ghalati hogayi hogi. Mujhe bhi to khayal rakhna chahiye tha na k meri shadi horahi thi or ek anjan admi mere itne qareeb mujhse baat kar raha tha to…"

"oh please ridhima arman sirf tujhse baat hi to kar raha tha na or tu khud ko kiyun blame kar rahi hai? Pagal hogayi hai kiya? Per tu wahan se nikli kaise?"

"teen maheenay pehle humari marriage anivarsary thi or karva chauth bhi to raj ne mama papa or anjali di ko bhi invite kiya tha. Ye log sb bhi wahan aye"

"Han. Anjali di mere pas thi or phir wo mujhe le kar yahan agayi. Wo aksar isitarha mujhe marta tha or mujhe hospitals bhi le kar jata tha. Hospitals main jhoot bolta k main gir gayi isliye taang pe chot lag gayi. Kitchen main kam karte huay chot lag gayi or pata nahi kiya kiya!"

"kiya ye sb anjali janti hai k raj ko tere or arman k baach kuch shak tha?"

"nahi main ne di ko kuch nahi bataya. Di bohat possessive hai mujhe le kar. Agar main ne di ko bataya to wo arman ko blame karegi jb k us bechare ko to kuch pata bhi nahi hai."

"per agar pata chal gaya to?"

"usay pata nahi chalna chahiye muskan. kisi ko bhi pata nahi chalna chahiye. Pata hai? Raj ko aksar aisa lagta tha k main arman se milti hun. K arman waheen America main hai mere aas pas or is baat ko le kar bhi wo mujhe bohat marta tha. I lost my confidence, I lost my happiness, my smile, everything I had."

"per ab to raj yahan nahi hai na to ab kis baat se darti hai tu?"

"wo jail main hai muskan per zinda to hai. Jb kabhi bhi wo wapas aya to sb se pehle mujhe dhoondayga or maar dalayga. Un sb ko bhi jo mere as pas hain isiliye main arman se door rehne ki koshish karti hun takay jitna wo mujhse door rahega utna hi uskay liye acha hai"

"per usko kaise pata k tu yahan hai?"

"this is the one place he will find me. Wo janta hai is waqt bhi k main yahan hun. Mujhe kitna shauq tha sanjivani main anayka ye wo bhi janta hai. Main nahi chahti meri wajah se arman ki jaan ko khatra ho"

"per ridhima is dar se tu jeena chod degi kiya? Dar dar k jeene ka kiya faida? Ek baar itni bahaduri se tu ne apne dar ka samna kiya or tujhe teri azaadi mil gayi to ab tu is azaadi ka ji bhar k maza nahi legi? Sari khushiyan is waqt tere qadmon main hain sirf tujhe unhain uthane ki deri hai. Sb tera intazar kar rahe hain k kab wo pal ayega jb ridhima khul k muskurayegi"

"muskan bohat mushkil hagaya hai mere liye ab sb kuch. Main ne apni ek ek hansi ki qeemat chukayi hai ab or qeemat chukane ki himmat shayad nahi hai mujh main"

"ridzy hum sb tere sath hain yahan! Chahay tu kisi ko kuch bhi na bataye phir bhi agar tujh pe koi bhi museebat ayi to hum sb tere sath khaday hongay or tujhse pehle wo museebat hum se guzregi"

"muskan!" ridhima cried and hugged muskan, "thanks a lot muskan"

"bakwas na kar. Thank you ki chachi! Ab khabardar jo main ne tujhe ayenda kisi se bhi ankh churate huay ya darte huay dekha to. khench k lagaongi ek" said muskan strictly while ridhima smiled through her tears and this was the first time she had smiled with her heart and her eyes.

"Chal ab uth chal k kuch khate hain. Tujhe bhi bhook lagi hogi"

"han" ridhima replied while muskan wiped her tears and helped her to stand up.

On the other side of the locker room behind the wall, on the bench there was someone crying his heart out.

"arman chup ho ja! Ridhima theek hai ab!" said rahul in a low voice sitting beside arman and keeping his hand on arman's shoulder.

"mera pyaar mere pas bhagwaan ne bheja per kaise?? Itne dard or takleef se guzar k? usne kiya bura kiya tha kisi se k usay ye sb sehna pada?" arman cried and kept his hand in a fist and held it on his lips.

"arman uska imtihan tha ye shayad"

"to uskay hissay ka imtihan or uski takleef mujhe mil jati"

"hum kisi ki takleef apne upar nahi le sakte arman per han uski takleef door zarur kar sakte hain"

"per usne mujhe ek baar ehsas nahi hone diya k meri wajah se usne kiya kuch saha"

"ye uska badappan hai k usne kisi ko kuch nahi bataya"

"badappan nahi bewakufi hai. Isiliye ab tk wo istarha thi kiyun k sb kuch wo apne andar daba chuki thi or wo sb sirf uski ankhon se chalakta tha"said arman fiercly, his eyes red shot with hurt, pain and anger.

"arman jo hogaya hum usko theek to kar nahi sakte per han tu itna zarur kar sakta hai k…"

"main janta hun mujhe kiya karna hai. Sb samajhta hun. Ab mera rasta mere samne hai or mujhe kisi ki madad ki zarurat nahi. Main uskay upar koi aanch nahi anay dunga ab."

"I know per usay is baat ka ehsas mat hone dena k tu sb janta hai warna wo samjhegi k tu uspe ehsan kar raha hai"

"per main usper ehsan nahi kar raha. Main usse pyar karta hun or apne pyaar ka farz ada karunga ab" said arman and he stood up from the bench and walked away.

While inside in the changing room, there was someone else crying as well,

"ye main ne kiya kar diya apni behen k sath. Main apni behen ko nahi bacha saki. Main ne apne hathon se apni behen ko khud maut k munh main dhakel diya"

"anjali!!" it was atul. He had just come inside the locker room and heard her crying inside the changing room. He stepped inside and saw her sitting on the ground. He sat beside her and held her shoulders.

"anjali kiya hua??" anjali told him everything.

"ridhima itni takleef se guzar kar ayi hai?"

"or ye sari takleef meri wajah se mili usay. Main ne usko bheja us janwar k hath main. Usne mujhe bataya bhi nahi k kiya kuch hota raha uskay sath in teen salon main. Khud hi sehti rahi sb kuch akele" atul hugged her with his chest and caressed her hair. She cried for a while and raised her head and said,

"atul jb main ne wahan raj ko usay istarha marte huay dekha to main bohat dar gayi thi k meri behan k sath ye kiya horaha hai. Wo behen jo apne apko kisi ko hath tk lagane nahi deti thi uskay sath koi aisa bhi kar sakta hai?meri choti si behen jisne hamesha apni khushiyan apni choti choti khuwahishain baghaiar mangay paa li aj wo kisi ko bata bhi nahi rahi thi k usko kiya chahiye or ye sb meri wajah se"

"nahi anjali is main tumhari koi ghalati nahi. Ye sb uski qismat main likha tha per qismat hamaisha ziadti nahi karti kisi k sath. Ziada der tk kisi ka imtihan nahi leta bhagwan. Tum dekhna usko hum sb mil k dhair sari khushiyan dengay or wo sb dengay jo usko nahi mila is sare waqt main."

"per ziada dukh is baat ka hai mujhe atul k usne mujhe bhi kuch nahi bataya. Wo di jisse wo kabhi kuch bhi nahi chupati thi usse usne ye sb chupaya or agar us din bhi hum wahan na jate to wo humain kuch na batati"

"per ab to wo tumhare pas hi hai na. mujhe bhi kuch sahi nahi lagta tha jab bhi main usay dekhta tha. Per main ne ignore kiya k shayad wo khud hi theek hojayegi waqt k sath sath. Ab chalo yahan se warna usay shaq hojayegi. Or uskay samne baat mat karna k tumhain sb pata hai warna wo kamzor pad jayegi."

"meri behen bohat strong hai"

"seriously itna strong to shayad main bhi nahi hun k itna sb akele seh lun" atul helped anjali to stand up and they both went outside after anjali had wiped her tears.

PART 12

"per ridzy tujhse itna bada qadam utha kaise?? Matlab tu ne sb kuch akele saha or tu to usse darti bhi thi na to achanak itni taaqat kahan se agayi tujhmain?"

"apnon ko dekh k muskan. maa, papa or di ko dekh k, unkay pyaar ko dekh k mujhe achanak ehsas hua k mujhe bhi haq hai khush rehene ka. Apni marzi se jeene ki khuwahish ayi thi mann main. Shayad isiliye achanak istarha bol padi" ridhima replied when both of them were sitting in caf.

"tujhe dar nahi laga tha jb wo tujhe marne laga tha ya phir wo sb sb k samne bolte huay dar nahi laga k agar wo tujhe mar deta to?"

"nahi laga tha dar muskan. kiyun k main ne apne pyar karne waalon ko dekh liya tha ek baar. Pyar karne wale bohat maanay rakhte hain zindagi main na. mujhe bas itna laga k aj mujhe azadi chahiye chahe phir mar hi kiyun na jaon"

"tu to super hero hai yar!" said muskan with a n amused expression.

"super heroine!" ridhima corrected her with a smile.

"wais eek baat to tay hai!"

"kiya?"

"k raj pagal tha" said muskan and ridhima stiffened at his name, "array tu ab kiyun uskay naam se dar rahi hai?"

"kiyun k us k sath main ne apni zindagi k mushkil pal kaatay hain"

"kat gaye na! ab dekh ek baar bol k 'raj pagal dhakkan hai'!"

"muskan pagal hogayi hai?"

"ridhima bol na!"

"nahi muskan"

"tu bol warna main tujhe marungi. Array bol k to dekh phir dekhna tujhe kitna sukun milega"

"muskan…"

"ridhima bol! Warna main jarahi hun yahan se"

"acha acha bolti hun"

"jaldi bol"

"wo…"

"wo nahi 'raj' nam bol 'raj pagal dhakkan hai"

"r…raj… pagal…or dh…dhakkan hai"

"ab phir se bol or ye hakla k dar dar k kiyun bol rahi hai?? Wo yahan nahi hai han or agar a bhi gaya to ye meri patyala ki jooti dekhi hai? Khench k marungi usay. Chal ab zor se bol"

"raj..pagal dhakkan tha… sorry… hai" ridhima laughed at what muskan had said.

"han abhi phir se bol or zor se bolna"

"raj pagal dhakkan hai" she said confidently sitting straight.

"again"

"raj pagal, dhakkan, idiot, stupid, moron, gadha hai" she started laughing and said it.

"ye cheez!! Shabash meri sherni! Meri jhansi ki rani! Meri jaan jalaibi aise bolte hain" said muskan at a loud voice and they both started laughing loudly.

"array ye kiya horaha hai?? Ridhima tumhari hansi to mashaAllah. Nazar na lage per khairiat? Kis baat pe hans rahe ho itna? Mujhe batao mujhe bhi hansna hai" said dr.shubhankar who had just arrived from delhi sanjivani. He was also a teacher in their college and he also knew all of them.

"array dr.shubhankar ap kb aye??" muskan asked.

"bas kal raat ko hi aya tha or aj se join kiya. Kirti ne bataya k tum log yahan ho to milne agaya" shubhankar said while standing in fron of them with a chair and didn't sat.

"well kaise hain ap?" asked ridhima.

"main acha hun tum dono batao tum kaise ho or baqi sb kahan hain?"

"baqi sb gudiya gudday ki shadi main gaye hain" said muskan abruptly.

"mujhe nahi bulaya" said ridhima pretending to be a child.

"don't worry ridzy mujhe bhi nahi bulaya" muskan made a puppy face.

"anay do inko abhi puchti hun" said ridhima making a face as if she was about to cry and suddenly both of them burst out laughing.

"ye tum dono ko kiya hua hai??" dr.shubhankar asked surprisingly.

"kuch nahi bas aglay laughter challenge ki tayyari kar rahe hain" said muskan and she laughed again while ridhima joined in.

"aisa show karogay to tamaatar padengay stage pe" said shubhankar while ridhima and muskan didn't stopped laughing.

"God tum dono to pagal hogaye ho. Main jaraha hun. Baqi sb milen to meri taraf se hi bol dena" he said and walked out.

"ok sir. Bye" said ridhima and they both laughed again.

"array dr.shubhankar ap yahan?? Hi sir"

"hello dr.rahul. kaise ho?"

"m fine sir ap kaise hain?"

"main bhi theek tha. Tum wo dr. muskan or dr. ridhima se mile ho?"

"nahi to. han subha mila tha per abhi nahi. Kiyun kiya hua??"

"I just dunno what's wrong with them. These two girls are laughing the hell out of them in caf."

"really sir??" asked rahul surprisingly.

"really. jao khud hi dekh lo. Ajeeb ajeeb batain kar rahi hain or khud hi hansti jarahi hain. Main to wapas agaya ab tum khud hi dekh lo"

as dr.shubhankar went ahead rahul hurried to the caf and saw that muskan and ridhima were indeed laughing madly. Rahul rushed to get arman.

"oye arman jaldi a!"

"kiya hai yar? Mujhe abhi nahi ana"

"arman chal to it's about ridhima. Jaldi a" arman felt as if something was wrong with her. he ran at double the speed of rahul while called after him and told him that she was in caf.

As he reached inside he ran upto their table and asked ridhima,

"ridhima kiya hua tumhain??" he was breathless and tensed as well. Ridhima and muskan both looked at his face and then to eachother's and burst out into laughter fits again. Arman was shocked to see them laughing like that when suddenly they gave eachother a high five. He was shocked at them and was surprised to see them laughing like this. He saw ridhima laughing all her heart out when and tears of joy glistening in her eyes while she held her stomach because of her laughter fits. Arman was too mesmerized too see her laughing that he forgot everything around him. His mesmerization was broken when rahul collided with him after his run. Ridhima and muskan again started laughing at seeing their collide. Arman turned at looked at rahul's face while he shrugged his shoulders and shook his head.

"guys what's wrong with you??" it was anjali who had reached there as well with atul after they had met shubhankar.

"di… sorry di… wo hum…" ridhima started but got into laughter again.

"ridzy have you lost it??" anjali asked in a puzzle.

"nahi nahi… di… wo hum na actually…" ridhima tried to control herself.

"ice cream khane jarahe thay!" muskan cut ridhima.

"han…" ridhima and muskan again started laughing.

"ufff… oh my God! Muskan bas kar… aow!" ridhima held her stomach and winced while stopping herself.

"you both had got laughing fits na!" said atul smilingly while he sat with them.

"nahi pagalpan k fits pad rahe thay!" said muskan but this time ridhima controlled her laughter and just giggled.

"uth muskan chal yahan se! hum koi show piece thodi na hain" said ridhima and both of them stood up while ridhima stood in front of arman. she saw his face and said to muskan,

"oye iska chehra to dekh! Hello!" ridhima waved in front of his eyes and when he blinked she said, "koi bhoot dekha kiya??'

"han…nahi… wo tum hans kiyun rahi ho??"

"hans rahi 'thi' arman! abhi ek dum serious hun han! Mazak nahi karne ka" ridhima said in a tapori way.

"nahi per tum…"

"chal na ridzy" said muskan and she pulled ridhima with her out of caf without letting her listen to what arman was saying neither did she protested to listen and arman didn't liked it at all. He wanted to talk to her. He wanted to see her laughing even more. He was not tired of her laughing. But damn that muskan!

"koi baat nahi. Hota hai. Ajayegi wapas!" said rahul patting arman's shoulder when he read his expressions.