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Chapter 9:
Tears swim in my eyes. I hastily leave my position and bolt to the couch to escape myself from him. I clutch my forehead. Shit !! I am such an idiot!!! How can I behave so childish? How can I act so immature? How can I be so insecure? He was right, if I stand for loving him, then why I cannot trust him. Why do I have to be so insecure from any relation I have with me. I get jealous from Pakhya, whenever I see my father cuddling him; I was insecure from him then. I have been unsecured from other girls of my school over my friends. But today I crossed all the heights. I got unsecured from the person who is no more.
Can I see him again? Could I bear it? Do I want to see him? I close my eyes and tilt my head back as the grief and longing lance through me. Of course I do!!!!! I felt ashamed of my every actions. Torturous memories flash through my mind"our first meeting, holding hands, coffee table, kissing, his gentleness, his humour and his dark, brooding, sexy stares.
Checking my phone, I find it in my pocket, so I quickly call Pakhya
"Hi, Pakhya"
"Hey sister" his tone is so warm and welcoming, it's almost enough to push me over him.
"I can't talk sis for long, actually busy with some online test"
"oh !!! Pakhya actually I'm wanting to stay with my friend tonight"
"Oh... That New York friend?" he sound excited
"Yes" I smile my first genuine smile after that blasting explosion.
"Hmmm... Don't worry kalpana !!! I will manage here, It's your time to enjoy. But please put my no. on the speed dial and message me the address of the place" Pakhya sounds like a big brother. I giggled for the way he was talking to me.
"Hmm... I'll do"
"See you in the morning"
"Bye pakhya"
"Bye"
As I ended the call, I messaged Raghav's address to Pakhya's no. I was surprised by the way, Pakhya was now treating the situation. I always knew, Pakhya cared for me a lot... But now he feels, I m ruining my life for all his responsibility, which I knew was not correct.
I'm going to stay with him for the entire night. In my mind I visualize Raghav's face the last time, I saw him as he left. His tortured expression haunts me.
"Were you talking to pakhya?" Raghav ask as he strolls and sat beside me on that very couch.
"Yes..." I flush.
"He raises his eyebrow, his interest quickly piqued, keeping his phone on the table
"What did he say" Raghav asked
"He asked me to give your address and to register his no. in speed dial" my mouth dries. He looks glorious, his skin was glowing with his sweat rolling down on his hard muscled chest. He looked marvelous except he's scowling at me.
"And to enjoy" I murmured, glancing once at him.
I peek up at the beautiful man besides me, and his mouth pressed into a hard line.
"Raghav, why don't you go and wear your T shirt"
"It's hot here" He said groaning in frustration.
"It is!!!! Still I'm in my all clothes, have some manners and go... Wear your clothes" I murmur, feeling extraordinarily brave.
Raghav narrow his eyes, his face soften as I struggle to keep a straight face, and a trance of smile kisses his lovely sculptured lips.
"Well?" he whispered, his voice soften
He inhales sharply, "I'm sorry" he murmurs and reaches over and clasps my hand."I'm sorry for raising my voice on you" he adds.
"Raghav,I--"
"No Kalpana. I'm sorry for shouting at you"
"Raghav... please... that was my fault" I whispered trying to control my emotionsin check
He tug my hand, and before I know I'm on his lap. He has his arms around me."I've dove it today, but will never again repeat this... NEVER AGAIN" he breathes.
He is pressing me to his chest. I melt. I rest my head against him. I smell his salty sweat flowing all over his skin. I felt it like a serine, like my home. He was soothimg my pain, still knowing the fault was mine. He took it on him, and making me feel quilt free. He clasps my hand and grazes my knuckles with his thumb, and all my tensions were running out of my body. I closed my eyes and allow myself the illusion that all is well, it soothes my ravaged soul.
A few minutes later, the door bells ring.
"Wait"- Raghav shifts me off his lap.
"Who could it be?" I gasp.
"Food delivery...' He spoke gently giving me a warm, avuncular smile that makes me feel safe. I smile back.
"Wait!!!! Wear your T shirt" I screamed , throwing the cloth on the table on him.
He walks with some packets of food and placed it on his dining table, intimidating me to reach. As I reached the chair next to where he was standing, he leans forward, cups my chin, tilting my head back. His mouth hovers over mine, and closing his eyes, he runs a trail of kisses from corner of my eyes to corner of my mouth.
A small moan escapes my mouth as my inside melts and unfurl.
"I'm sorry for yelling at you" he breathes. I closed my eyes and fall on him. I did not have any tendency left to think or reciprocate anything further.
"I got unsecured" I whispered into his ears, breathing heavily, panting
"come lets eat" he softly gently stoking my back whispered.
Udne Ki Aasha
Anupamaa
