The story is narrated by kalpi. Here I want to thanks, kinna patel who send such a beautiful message. Seriously, you actually made my day J J love you... you can feel I'm blowing the kisses to you through my laptop, but if it didn't reach you then it's because , even my BABY ( my lappy) is possessive for me :P :P
Chapter 4
After reading the message, I marched straight towards his cabin. He opens the door, coming out and stands back to let me in. I gaze at him once more. I so want to know what's there in his mind. Taking a deep breath I walk in. That means this man was watching me!!Feeling so frustrated I simply rolled my eyes, KALPI!!!! This is not at all amusing, I have to make myself clear, my subconscious mind suggested me.
"I'M NOT COMING" I said in the strong, stern voice, immediately as I stepped in without even glancing at him, I heard him saying nothing. Had he left!!!!!!! OH GOD!!!!!! Did he open the door for himself? Feeling embarrassed, I gulped and turned. Raghav was running his hand through his hair and pacing north and south in his cabin.
Slapping the desk with both his hand he said looking directly at me, "I don't understand, why you want me to beg you always for everything, why don't you simply obey?"Almost yelling the last word.
"OBEY!!!!!!!! AND BEG??????? Now from where in the world those word comes into his small mind. LOOK MR. MEMORIZE ME, WHEN I OFFENDED YOU even not in the elevator. And OBEY!!!!!!!!! Get the things clear in you small mind, I M MY OWN MASTER. DO YOU GET IT...? TELL ME, YOU MORON BUT EXCELLENT KISSER... DO YOU GET ME CLEAR!!!!?" My subconciousness was shouting, yelling, screaming!!! But knowing my position and a fear of losing this only job I simply said "Yes Mr. Singhania I know I have to obey you, your's all orders not merely because of you being my boss but also for the agreement we sighed. And I'm trying to do that in your office. But moving to your place???? I don't feel it has any sense." I tried my best to look affronted.
"SENSE!!! Now you will teach me of sense?? Oh no !!!!" he stood straight, tossed mockingly said, " shitt man !!!! I forgot, of your high dose smartness." Now he put both his hands into the pocket of his pants and continued, " But tell me, where were your common sense at the time when your parents needed the most, it was you kalpana who came running to me and begged to help them" "DO YOU REMEMBER??" he said and strolls slowly towards me. Confident, sexy, eyes blazing and my heart begins to pound. Oh no!!! Never any insult made me feel so hot. Though he was scolding and insulting me, but I wanted to stand there and feel more. My bloods pumping through my body. Desire thick and hot pools in my belly. He stands in front of me, staring down into my eyes.
Rip me off!!! Please tear me Raghav PLEASE, the sensation were so sweet and sharp. I want to close my eyes, but I was hypnotized by his eyes staring fervently into mine. LEANING DOWN, HE KISSES ME. His lips were demanding firm and slow, molding mine. He start unbuttoning my shirt while he places feather like kisses across my jaw , my chin and corner of my mouth. He stands back and stare at me looking dark from usual.
"Kalpana you know, Mihika will not be there in the apartment and I don't want you to sit and cry for the entire weekend missing your family" he said finally turning his back at me. "Oh so he is trying to babysit you" my subconciousness said to me. Woh!!!!!! He again made me feel rejected. My hands reached my shirt and fingers started tugging it. I was so embarrassed that I dared not to look up to him. My eyes were filled with tears, why this man always end, leaving me shattered. I was jumbled with so my conflicting thoughts,
FIRST: I am all alone. I was my missing my family. My little brother, my mom and the most my daddy.
SECOND: I can hardly control my riotous hormones
THIRD: what if she is also there? As soon my subconscious mind had them pictured together, I lost my control.
My fingers lost its grip from the buttons and slowly I hugged myself still standing all frozen at that very place . I cried bitterly. My tears were no bound. I forgot I was standing infront of him. I was sobbing but few seconds later my soft cries turned hard and I screamed not knowing why????
Next I felt, his two fingers were again inside my mouth reaching deep my throat. I was about to vomit. I jerked his hand and stared confusingly, with two wide open eyes. He clenched his jaws putting his hand around me, squeezing tightly he pulls me closer, " DON'T SCREAM !!!!!!!!! I SAID JUST DON'T , DON'T SHOUT !!!! DAMN YOU KALPANA !!!!! The more I am trying to keep you away from my darkness , the more you torture me." He jerks me so roughly , that I almost hit the wall. I balanced myself and looked at him. He slowly come near and hold me by my shoulder, dipping his nails inside my skin. "KALPANA!!!! I WARN YOU FOR THE FIRST AND THE LAST TIME, SUCH SCREAM, SUCH NOISE, AND SUCH PAINFULL VOICE HAVE TOTAL DIFFERENT IMPACT ON ME. SO YOU WILL NEVER DO IT AGAIN. EVEN IF YOU WANT TO. DO YOU GET THIS?" shaking me"DO YOU UNDERSTANT?" He screamed.
I shake my head in affirmatively, "Is she also there?" Holy Shit. Did I just say that? His mouth drop opens slightly but he recovers quickly.
He presses his both lips together, thinking deeply and said, " I'm getting to know of why you left the place." I looked away from him, still annoyed by my sudden question, I closed my eyes thinking of some excuse, "it's not like that , actually I just don't want to invade your privacy" I said closing my eyes.
"kalpana, do you hate so much that you want me to die with high blood pressure." He said placing his hand on my chins." He then hugged me very softly, removing his hand from my chin and placing one over my head and the other on my hips, and gently massaging it. I suddenly opened my eyes, but I was feeling so light that I rested my forehead on his chest, what surprised me was, he did not pull me away!!!!!! I have never even hugged anyone, not even Mihika. Not wanting to spoil the situation I decided not to do any motion with my hand, so I left it hung down. I smelled his scent, it was so intoxicating. I'm panting so loudly. All I can concentrate on his voice and his touch. Nothing else is real. Nothing else matters.
"RAGHAV..." saying I moan and bit his button so tightly that it broke in my mouth. "Ouchhh..." I screamed lightly, rubbing the corner of my mouth. I say a drop of blood on my finger. Raghav immediately stood back leaving me. He smiled smally, "You are still my little sparrow!!!! Come lets go, I'm waiting down." He said, moving towards his chair he took his jacket in his right hand and pass away.
Holy shittt!!!!!! I hold my face into welcoming torrent. I want RAGHAV. I want him so badly. Simple fact. For the First time in my life, I want to go to bed with a man. I want to feel his hand and mouth on me. "OKAY!!!! This is true, I don't love this man. But why is all this happening to me? Let's go and face this kalpi, at least have the clear picture of what he wants, moreover what you want. Let's go and face everyone." Again out of nowhere, my subconscious mind suggested me.
I breath out and moved towards parking lott.
Udne Ki Aasha
